"Ok." Meredith said to Lexi. "I know this is a little awkward but you can have that side of the bed. Um…Yeah that's pretty much it. Oh and I snore so," She reached into the drawer next to her bed and pulled out wax ear plugs, just like the ones Derek used. "put these on if you need to."

"Ok thanks. I really appreciate this Meredith."

"No problem."

"Actually I really wish I didn't have to do this." Meredith thought.

They both climbed into bed, turned off the lights, and fell asleep.

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A few hours past, and Meredith was in such a deep sleep that she was dreaming.

It was a wedding. Beautiful flowers were everywhere in the church. Covering the floor from the flower girl and lining the walls. There were so many different colors that the room looked like a scene out of a dream. Guests filled each seat, both for the bride and the groom, and everyone was happy. Standing at the end of the aisle was Derek Shepherd, wearing his tux and smiling like he didn't have a care in the world. Smiling like all that mattered to him was being with the bride that was walking down the aisle. The bride reached the end and together they stood, staring into each others' eyes. The priest had just pronounced them, and Derek was lifting the veil to give his new wife a kiss. He lifted it up, and the woman underneath was, Rose.

Meredith awoke in a scream. She sat up in bed to try to calm herself down. She was sweating, and it was hard to breathe. What started like the perfect dream, ended in the worst nightmare.

"Meredith are you ok?" Lexi asked. Apparently Meredith's screaming woke up Lexi too.

"Yeah, I'm fine. Just a bad dream."

"Really? Because if you need to talk, you know I'm here."

"Yeah, but I'm fine."

Lexi sighed. Heavily.

"What?"

"It's just that Izzie told me you don't talk to anyone about anything. Like when you're having a problem. You hold it all in. You know that's not healthy."

"There's nothing wrong though. Everything's fine."

"Yeah somehow I don't believe that. Why can't you talk to me. Is it really that hard?"

"You know I could ask you to leave if I wanted. This is my house." Meredith snapped.

Lexi closed her mouth and laid back down in bed. She was silent. Meredith laid back down too and tried to sleep. She laid on her side and closed her eyes, but when she did she felt horrible for snapping at Lexi when she was just trying to help.

"What are you kidding Meredith?" She thought. "Of course you're not ok. You're a complete wreck. Lexi was just trying to help you and here you just yelled at her for no good reason. How are you supposed to grow if you still can't communicate?"

Meredith rolled back to her back and opened her eyes. She sighed, and then spoke. "I'm sorry I yelled at you Lexi, I'm not good at the communicating thing, but if you're still willing to listen, and you're willing to forgive me, I could try talking."

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It spilled out. Everything. Meredith told Lexi everything that has happened to her in the past year, from meeting a guy in a bar that turned out to be her boss, to him making house plans for them and then kissing nurses in scrub rooms. It just flew out of Meredith's mouth, and there seemed to be nothing she could do about it.

"I don't know how to communicate, and the things Derek wanted scared me to death. He said he'd wait and he didn't. He seems to want to blame everything on me, but he doesn't get what he did wrong. I was trying, I really was, but it didn't seem to be enough. And now he's with Rose."

Lexi just sat there. She didn't know what to say. Everything Meredith said was very complicated and hard to understand. She thought it best to answer though, because Meredith was confiding in Lexi, and this was probably hard for her to do.

"Wow. Um, well, I don't think he completely moved on Meredith. Derek's not the kind of guy who says he wants to marry you and then move on when you're not going at the speed he wants you to. If he's 'moved on' I think you should try to too. Or, I think you guys need to talk. Really talk. Like a long, emotion filled speech, kind of like we're doing now. But honestly, I don't know what else you can do. I'm sorry and I wish I could help, but this is very complicated and the only person you can talk to is Derek. But is there anything else you need?"

Meredith felt completely relaxed for once. She didn't know how good it felt to talk to someone about her problems.

"Actually, that talk made me feel so much better. For once, I'm actually fine. And thank you Lexi, I really appreciate the advice."

Lexi smiled, "Your welcome." She laid back down in bed and fell asleep.

Meredith laid down too, but didn't fall asleep right away. Instead she thought about what Lexi said. She was confused and didn't know what to do.

"I'll just think about it more in the morning." She thought.

She relaxed, and fell asleep once again.

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Derek literally could not sleep. As much as he tried to think about happy things to help himself relax it wouldn't work, because the only thing that made him happy was Meredith. It was easy for him to sleep when he wasn't talking about her, and sometimes when he was with Rose, but now he's openly discussing his current relationship with Meredith with Mark, and Rose, well, simply, Rose is not Meredith.

He tossed and turned some more but only to give up and get up a few minutes later. He went outside and sat down on his porch.

"I'll just be up a few minutes". He thought. "Then when I'm tired I'll go back to bed and fall asleep right away."

Derek sat and looked out at the view in front of him and waited. Minutes passed, and then hours, and then before he knew it his alarm was going off inside the trailer signaling for him to get up and get ready for work.