Hey guys I'm back again with a great chapter now is when things are really starting to heat up. I bet you guys are dying to know what happens next. Just still keep in mind I still have no internet thus the late updates. I would have to go to a place that has WiFi so that I can upload a chapter. It's why I try to type in a couple of chapters so that when I do upload them I can upload about two or three chapters in one shot. Don't worry this story will continue on I still have more to give. And still keep in mind I could leave for Basic Training at any moment so like I've said if you see that I haven't updated in like in a timeline of two months it's because I'm away at boot camp. I'll shut up now and get on with the story. And for those who are little confused about Skye looking at Seth it's not what you think. I know some thought it was because Skye imprinted on Seth but no it's not like that he has a bigger role than you think it will lead to that I promise. I know some of you think Jake is an ass but you know how that is men just can't help blurting things out without thinking straight. And I promise you you will understand why was Jake there at the store and how Liz came to find him there.
Jake: What the hell am I doing there? Am I out of my mind?
Me: yes you are hahaha.
Paul: I can't believe I imprinted on her. She's so beautiful.
Me: I knew you would like the surprise.
Paul: thanks Jay.
Me: anytime it's what friends do. Anyways it's not over yet it's the just the beginning. And don't Jake you'll see soon enough why you were there. It's starting.
Chapter9:
I Am Ashes Where Once I Was Fire
(BPOV)
The view was painful to watch. I wanted to die my world was destroyed. I was right I shouldn't have opened up it would only hurt in the end. Some times I think the universe is out to get me or something.
So there was Liz Rider the girl who cheated on Jake was stacking up a great conversation with him. Probably flirting trying to see if he would give her the time of day. And to think that this girl who has long blonde hair slim and slender pale skin with hazel eyes with tons of make up on wearing really short pink skirt with a bright yellow tube top and very high probably 6 inch heels which were also pink would be more color coordinated.
She also wore a lot of jewelry too. Lots of bracelets, a chain and very big hoop earrings. You'd swear she was a hooker dressed like that.
"Are you fucking kidding me? I'm gonna fuck her up?" Skye said.
I remained silent still watching the scene before me like a fucking novela. In case you don't know what that is it's a Spanish soap operas. I didn't know why I didn't say anything or did anything. A part of me thought it was because I didn't want it to be true what I saw. The other part said to go fuck this bitch up.
But I didn't. I guess maybe deep down the logic part of me was throwing reality in my face. Saying 'I told you so. You shouldn't have gotten with anyone you will only hurt in the end.
It made me think it was right this whole time that I should have remained a cold heartless bitch just so no one can get close to me. But my stupid ass had to go and try for a little bit and look where that got me.
Then the worst happened Liz wrapped her arms around Jacob's neck and kissed him hard. In that moment everything felt like it was going in slow motion. I gasped softly. All that crap all of it was bullshit and I fell for it.
What a fucking idiot I am. I can't fucking believe it. I wanted to cry. Just completely shut down like I did before.
"Are you fucking serious? That's it! She's going down!" Skye was ready to punch this girl's lights out and as much I wanted her to I stopped her. Maybe it was fate or the universe telling me it wasn't meant to be.
"Just drop it Skye. Leave it alone. I need to get out of here. I need a drink."
I knew Skye was surprised of my actions but I didn't care anymore about anything. And here I was going back to my old ways to get drunk beyond recognition. Completely and totally wasted.
When you were standing in the wake devastation
When you were waiting on the edge of the unknown
With the cataclysm raining down
Your insides crying 'help me now'
You were there impossibly alone
We went to Port Angeles to get drunk at a bar. I had 9 long island iced teas if you have had a long island iced tea then you know what I'm talking about. It's got about 10 different types of liquor all crammed up in one big cup and then add a little soda. Along with 5 shots of tequila with Skye and 4 jaggerbombs.
Skye had 11 rum and cokes, plus the 5 shots of tequila with me and the jaggerbombs and plus 3 shots of Jack Daniels. This girl can hold her liquor.
"All that crap about imprinting is bullshit. A crock of shit is what that is." By this time I was drunk and just rambling my mouth off but most of all I was hurt.
Do you feel cold and lost in desperation?
You build up hope
But failures all you've known
Remember all the sadness and frustration
And let it go
Let it go
The guy saw how drunk we had gotten and said he wasn't giving us no more that we had enough. So finally I thought about going to another bar.
"Come on Skye let's go."
"Where are we going?"
"I'm gonna go jump off of cliff and kill myself." I didn't mean it I actually said it sarcastically.
We got up and left the bar. It was already dark and late. Skye knew about the accidents I've had driving drunk but she didn't care she was here to have fun with me.
And in the burst of light that blinded every angel
As if the sky had blown the heavens into stars
You felt the gravity of tempered grace
Falling into empty space
With no one there to catch you in their arms
Why did I fall for it? I knew better than that. I knew myself not to fall for those kinds of things. And why is it that I fell for this one? Was it because it was Jake? Was it the idea of being with Jake? Did I think I can be happy with him and never feel alone again? I'm starting to think it was that.
That I didn't want to feel alone again. I should've learned that in the end I'll always end up alone no matter what. I had accepted it then and why is it that I couldn't accept it now?
I knew the answer to that question.
Do you feel cold and lost in desperation?
You build up hope
But failures all you've known
Remember all the sadness and frustration
And let it go
Let it go
I fell in love with Jake.
And now I can't erase anything. No amount of liquor or beer I consume the mere thoughts of him won't escape my mind. And everywhere I look I will see him. I wish I can erase my memory.
I wish I can forget about everything. Everything about Jake. Forget it all of it. I don't ever want remember anything about him.
Do you feel cold and lost in desperation?
You build up hope
But failures all you've known
Remember all the sadness and frustration
And let it go
Let it go
Let it go
Let it go
Let it go
Let it go
What happened to the Bella who kick ass now and ask questions later? What happened to that girl? Why was I acting like this weak pathetic girl who's on the verge of crying? Why can I go back to the way I used to be? The badass Bella? Who am I now? Am I the weak pathetic Bella who cries?
No I don't want to be her anymore. I don't want to be weak anymore. I don't want to be pathetic anymore.
Do you feel cold and lost in desperation?
You build up hope
But failures all you've known
Remember all the sadness and frustration
And let it go
Let it go
We were walking to my car when someone grabbed me from behind covering my mouth preventing me from screaming. I saw someone had also grabbed Skye. We were both struggling hard to get free but we were still drunk so in other words still fucked up.
"They're pretty strong for girls." the one who had Skye said.
"That's because they're not normal. Do it now before they recover from their drunken state." said the guy who had me.
What the fuck did he mean? do what? I saw this guy grab a needle from his pocket took the cap off with his mouth and stabbed Skye in the neck injecting whatever fluid it was. In two seconds Skye was out like a light.
Then I felt a pinch and soon enough I blacked out not long after Skye. Could it get any worse?
(JPOV)
When Bella kicked me in the balls that had to be the most god awful pain I have ever felt in my life. I never thought she would actually do that to me. To be kicked that hard makes me think if I'll ever have kids.
But it pained me to know that I hurt her again. It hurt to see her leave to walk away from me. I hated that feeling. It makes me think she's walking out of my life forever. And that's the one thing I don't want is for her to leave me. I knew she was hurting I felt her pain inside me. No matter how hard I try I will make this better. I stood up and just sat outside on the front porch.
A little later Embry came up to me.
"Uh…Jake…Bella's car is still here. You want to take it back?" he asked me.
"Yeah I'll do it." he gave me the keys to the car and I drove off to her house. When I arrived I rang the doorbell. I was hoping Bella would answer but Skye did instead.
"She doesn't want to see and quite frankly neither do I." she said glaring at me.
I felt like that was a slap to the face knowing she didn't want to see me. I must've really hurt her this time. When will I ever get it right? Maybe Bella was right I am an asshole. I have to make this right.
"Can you please tell her to call me? I wanna talk to her please. And I dropped her car off thought she might want it back." I handed Skye the keys.
"Whatever I wouldn't hold my breath."
Then she slammed the door in my face. Before leaving the house I looked up at her window hoping she would look through it but she didn't. She really didn't want to see me. Does she really hate me? Did she really mean what she said earlier?
Time it needs time
To win back your love again
I will be there
I will be there
Love only love
Can bring back your love someday
I will be there
I will be there
Fight baby I'll fight
To win back your love again
I will be there
I will be there
Love only love
Can bring down the walls someday
I will be there
I will be there
If we go again
All the way from the stars
I would try to change
Things that killed our love
Your pride has built a wall
So strong
That I can't through
Is there really no chance?
To start once again?
I'm loving you
Try baby try
To trust in my love again
I will be there
I will be there
Love our love
Just shouldn't be thrown away
I will be there
I will be there
No I have to prove to her that she wasn't wrong in giving us a try. I'm gonna prove that she is the only girl for me that she is my world my universe my everything and I will not lose her. So I have to start little by little so I took a drive to P.A. to a bookstore.
If we go again
All the way from the stars
I would try to change
Things that killed our love
Your pride has built a wall
So strong
That I can't through
Is there really no chance?
To start once again?
I'm loving you
If we go again
All the way from the stars
I would try to change
Things that killed our love
Your pride has built a wall
So strong
That I can't through
Is there really no chance?
To start once again?
I'm loving you
I always knew Bella loved to read books so I thought maybe I can get her a book. One she really likes. And I could only hope she will forgive me.
Yes I've hurt your pride
And in all what you've been through
You should give me a chance
This can't be the end
I'm still loving you
I'm still loving you
I'm still loving you
I need your love
I'm still loving you
Still loving you baby
I'm still loving you
I need your love
Still loving you
I need your love
Still loving you
I need your love
When I left the store I came across or she came across me with the one person I thought I would never see again.
Liz Rider my ex. It had been going on 6 years since I've seen her. She wore this really short pink skirt that if she bent down you could see everything and this bright yellow top so that you can see her cleavage and high heels.
She had like a 1,000 pounds of make up. I never did like that. If a girl wore so much make up to me that means your trying too hard and with the clothes you wear too. And too much jewelry on.
I like it when a girl goes all natural like Bella did. She never wore make up and that's what I love about her she just lets her natural beauty be. She doesn't hide it or enhance it. Nothing. Bella didn't even have to try hard to get my attention. She already had it from the beginning. It's what makes her Bella. She is one of a kind unique.
"Oh my god Jake!"
Man that voice really annoyed the fuck out of me.
"Hi Liz." I said flatly. I didn't want to be there I wanted to go see Bella.
"It's been years. Wow you look great. Very hot."
"Thanks." I wasn't really interested in talking to her.
"You know Jacob it was really wrong of me to cheat on you. We could have been great together. We still can be you know."
She had the audacity to say some shit like that. Was she really that stupid?
"Sorry Liz but I have a girlfriend now. One who is worthy to be with."
"We can mess around if you like."
"I won't do that to her."
"She doesn't have to know. It'll be our little secret."
"No thanks Liz."
Next thing I knew she came and kissed me hard. Who did this girl think she is? What was wrong with me when I dated this girl? What the fuck did I see in her? I must've been out of my mind to go out with this girl. I must've been high when I dated her. What an ass I was. I should've listened to Bella 5 years ago.
It would have saved me a lot of grief. I pushed her back away from me.
"Stop it Liz. I'm not gonna do anything with you. I was fucking insane to go out with you 5 years ago. I don't know what I was thinking. I care about my girlfriend I love her. I wouldn't even think about betraying her like that. She doesn't deserve that. You're wrong to think I would even try to fuck you. God knows where you've been. Sorry Liz but there's someone more important than you and more worthy of my time." I told her.
"You're just not it for me and never will be." I didn't want to be cruel but she just brought out the worst in me.
"Yeah you say that now but when she dumps you you're gonna come crying to me. Begging me to take you back." she said.
"I highly doubt that Liz. She did the one thing you couldn't do." I said walking away.
"Oh really? What's that?" she yelled after me.
I turned around. "Love me something you never did and never could do."
And with that I walked away. I figured I would wait till Monday at school to give her the book. But when Monday came she wasn't there. I asked the guys if they had seen her but they said no. maybe she was still at home. The next day still nothing. I passed by her house but her car wasn't there I figured maybe she was out with Skye hanging out or something.
A week passed by and still Bella had yet to come to school. I checked her house again and her car still wasn't there. Then another week and another. By this time I was freaking out. She hadn't been to school for 3 weeks and her car was missing. Something in my gut told me something happened to both Bella and Skye. Paul was going crazy not knowing where Skye was.
Me and Paul went to her house and Charlie was there. He answered the door.
"Hey Jake, Paul what can I do for you?"
"Charlie have you seen Bella?"
"No I thought she was with you."
"Last time we saw her she was with Skye."
"Skye? As in her cousin Skye?"
"That's her cousin?" asked Paul.
"Yeah from my brother. He passed away when she was 13 I heard. Wow I haven't seen her in years. She must be 20 years old right about now. Bella must have gone to hang out with her after school every day."
"Charlie…" I didn't want to be the one to say this but it had to be done something had to be done.
"Charlie Bella hasn't been to school in 3 weeks we haven't seen her or Skye."
His face dropped and went back inside to the phone we followed him in.
"Yeah Jack? It's me Charlie. I need you to gather up a few guys we're going on a search hunt."
"Who are we searching for Chief?" I heard the guy ask.
"My daughter…" he said "…she's gone missing."
"No problem Chief I'll round up the guys right away."
"Thanks."
Charlie hung up the phone as he turned to us.
"I'll call Billy and see if he can get a few guys to help out." he said.
"And I'll get some of my guys to help too."
"Thanks Jake."
"Can we go to her room? Maybe there's something in there that might help us out." He nodded.
We rushed to the room. Inside look like she hadn't even been there.
"Jake man it looks like she hasn't even been here for the whole 3 weeks she's been missing."
I looked all around her room and then I came across a picture that was in a frame. The picture was of us before she left Forks and before I started dated Liz. It was in my backyard and we were back to back with our arms crossed looking serious trying to be badasses.
I didn't know she had that picture much less in a frame. God I'm so stupid. If I didn't feel like shit before I was definitely feeling it now. A sharp pain pierced my heart as I grabbed my chest.
"Jake. Jake what's wrong? What happened?" Paul asked frantically.
"We have to her man. I can't lose her. Not this time."
"I know."
We ran downstairs to find Charlie putting on his jacket.
"Jack called he said some people called saying that there's a car that hasn't been moved in 3 weeks."
"Where's it at?"
"In Port Angeles."
"How do you know if it's her car?"
"Whoever called said it was a black dodge charger."
That's Bella's car for sure.
"We're going with you." he nodded.
We got in the cruiser and left. When we arrived we saw the car. There was no force entry no nobody tried to steal it and it wasn't even moved.
"This is her car alright." said Charlie.
"What was she doing here?" I looked around at my surroundings and I saw a bar. Remembering Bella drank a lot.
"I'm gonna go asking people see if they have seen her." Charlie said.
"We'll do the same."
Charlie went one way and I nodded to Paul towards the bar. We walked inside and towards the bartender. It was a skinny guy with dark hair and pale skin.
"What can I get for you guys?"
"Actually we have a couple of question. Were you working 3 weeks ago?" I asked.
"Work everyday."
"We're looking for this girl." I pulled a picture out of my wallet to show him. "She's my girlfriend and we haven't seen or heard from her in 3 weeks."
"Yeah I remember her she ordered 9 long island iced teas and had 5 shots of tequila and 4 jaggerbombs."
"She was here?"
"Yeah but she wasn't alone."
"Who else was with her?"
"Another girl. That girl ordered 11 rum and cokes and she did the 5 shots of tequila with the other and the 4 jaggerbombs but she also had 3 shots of Jack Daniels."
"Did they say anything? Did they talk about anything?"
"I overheard them say something about imprinting being bullshit and what a crock of shit it was. Whatever that means after that they paid in cash and left."
"Thanks man. You've been helpful."
"Anytime."
Once outside we started to think hard on this. None of this was making any sense to me or to Paul.
"Jake I thought you said she accepted the imprint."
"She did."
"But then why would she say that?"
"I don't know."
I made a few phone calls to the guys to go on a full on search for Bella and Skye. Sam said he will pair them up and slit them. I told him me and Paul will keep searching with Charlie.
It had been another week and still we were no closer to finding Bella or Skye. Charlie was starting to panic and my state of mind was beginning to grow weak as well as Paul for being so far away from the girls.
The guys searched the entire woods all of it still nothing. Zip. Not even a scent. Charlie's co-workers went as far as Seattle to find her. Both Paul and I went into town to find some lead that might bring us closer to finding the girls.
"Let's go check out that diner." I said.
It was pretty empty. I saw brunette waitress.
"Excuse me have you seen this girl?" I showed her the picture. She looked at it hard.
"Oh yeah I remember her. She came about like 4 weeks ago I think."
"She did?"
"Yeah she came in with another girl. It was empty that day too. They sat in the booth over there." she pointed at the booth.
"What did they do?"
"Well they ate. She a ordered a burger which she didn't finish and the other one had ordered 2 burgers, 2 orders of French fries and chicken fingers. Girl can eat."
"Did they say anything?"
"Well since it was empty I sat at the counter near them. I heard them say something about who they saw out the window. The other girl kept saying 'is that who I think it is?'"
"Did they say a name?"
The girl thought about it.
"Yeah after the girl said that the other said 'yes that's Liz Rider.'. Then the other girl kept saying how she was gonna fuck her up but that girl…" she said pointing at the picture. "…she just said 'just drop it. Leave it alone. I need to get out of here. I need a drink.' after that they left."
"Thanks you've most helpful."
We walked over to the booth. I stared out the window and across the street was the bookstore I was at. That's when all the pieces came together.
"Shit!" I said as I ran out the diner. I looked back and forth between the diner and the store.
"Goddammit!"
"What's wrong?"
"It makes fucking sense now."
"What does?"
"The day I brought her car back I decided to go into town to get her something. Maybe like a book she might like."
"Ok…."
"When I came out the store I came encounter with Liz."
"Liz? As in you're ex Liz?"
"Yeah. She kept talking and talking about how she wanted to fuck me and that Bella didn't need to know about it. I told her no but she kept persisting and then she kissed me."
"Damn what a bitch. But wait a minute what does that have to with anything?"
"Paul don't you get it? Bella and Skye were sitting right there…" I pointed at the booth in the diner through the window. "…when Liz kissed me. Bella saw it. That's why they went to the bar. After seeing that she said she needed a drink."
"And that's why she said that imprinting was a crock of shit. She probably thought all that stuff about imprinting isn't true."
"Oh my god I messed up big things up big time. God this is all my fault. She probably wanted to drink herself into oblivion. All of this all of it is my fault." I yelled as I punched the wall hard making my knuckles bleed.
"I gotta find her even if it's the last thing I do. I swear it."
(BPOV)
God my head was pounding. What the hell is going on? What happened? What's that smell? It smelt like water and dirt and humidity. It felt hot or was it just me? The smell of sweat and blood was in the air. I felt sweat on me but I didn't know if I was bleeding or not. My god what had I gotten myself into now? Trouble seems to find me anywhere I go.
I slowly open my eyes my vision was blurred. I took noticed even with my blurred vision the place was a run down basement.
I tried to move but I couldn't. looked up to see my wrists were chained slightly above my head my arms spread out a little bit on some kind of gate that looked like it was from the Queen Elizabeth era.
These chain cuffs were really tight on my wrists causing it to bleed down my arms.
My ankles were also chained and waist I guess to keep me from falling forward in case of being knocked out I assumed. The cuffs on my ankles were tight as well but I couldn't tell if they were bleeding or not cause of jeans. I think they were cause it felt wet.
Duck tape covered my mouth to keep from screaming. My clothes were torn and wet. There were holes in my jeans big holes. A huge hole on my left thigh and a huge gash there as well. Another big hole on my right calf a big cut there too. And other holes here and there. My shirt was shredded there only a little piece left enough to cover my bra.
Cut s and bruises covered my whole torso. My hair was down and a mess. I think I had a cut near my left eye where my temple is every time I blink it hurts. My face must look all fucked up. My god what the fuck happened to me?
Where's Skye? Looking to my left there she was. In the same state I was in but worse. She was bleeding from the head someone must've hit her very hard there. She had several deep gashes all over her body. She no longer had her jacket on and her clothes were wet and torn as well. Her clothes were practically hanging off of her. Probably mine too.
What the fuck is going on? Where are we? Then a big ass bright light came blinding the hell out of me. As if my blurred vision wasn't enough you gotta shine a bright ass light on me too.
"Well well well look who's up. How you doing there love?" said a voice.
Wait a minute I know that voice. Where have I heard that voice before? The light was too bright for me to see the person. I kept thinking about that voice. Then it hit me like a ton of bricks.
That's when the person dimmed the light and came into view.
I fucking knew it.
"Welcome back love."
Edward fucking Cullen.
I tried to move but my body was still too weak.
"Alice I need another dosage. The effect is wearing off."
What effect? What dosage? What the hell is gonna do? This pixie looking girl came with a needle and injected the serum in my neck. I groaned in pain.
In seconds I felt like my body weighted a thousand pounds heavier. It kept me weak and unable to move much to make force. Felt like a high.
"There now don't you feel better?" He took the tape off that hurt like a bitch.
"Where the hell am I?" I said lowly and groggily.
"Why dear you're in my home in my basement." I figured as much.
"How long have I been here?"
"Over a month now."
"I've been here a month?"
"Yeah you got up a couple of times you probably don't remember. We had to knock you out a few times with force. Hence the bruises and injuries. We also inject you with this type of serum that keeps you weak and groggy that way you can't break the restrains so you can't escape."
"What the fuck am I doing here?" I sneered.
"Now Bella that isn't a way for a lady to speak. Where are your manners?"
"Fuck your manners. Now tell me what am I doing here?"
"Well Bella I have chosen you to be my singer."
"What?" I was just as confused as a deer looking at the headlights of a car. I had no idea what he was talking about. What he did mean by 'singer'? I knew for a fact it wasn't singing type that he was referring to.
"Your blood Bella sings to me and I have chosen you to be with me for eternity."
I raised an eyebrow. "Eternity? No one lives forever dude."
"They do if you're a vampire."
"Great. I've been captured by vampires." I said that sarcastically by the way. Although I did believe that they were vampires but that didn't mean I had to be scared or happy about it. The whole topic just bored me.
"You should feel honored Bella. Not many girls get to be chosen by me."
I scoffed in his face.
"Get a grip Cullen. You are not the only coca cola in the fucking desert man."
"Bella shouldn't be speaking that way."
"Sorry Cullen but I want a man who's strong, has muscles, big, tall and who's rough and quite frankly you're pasty white ass isn't cutting it for me."
He looked offended when I said that but I didn't care. Like I gave a shit.
"Besides I'm already taken." I said. "And we fucked already so your shit out of luck."
That's when I caught myself and realized what I had said. I wasn't taken anymore in fact I wasn't anything anymore. I was nothing. Feeling numb inside the emptiness just like before. Feeling alone. And now I felt like I was one step closer to death. Not that that would be a bad thing right now.
Just want my life to end the pain inside is too much to handle. If I have to live with this much suffering and pain then I don't want to live anymore. I rather be dead than to suffer like this.
It's something I wouldn't even wish it on my worst enemy. No one deserves that. Now more than ever I knew how Skye felt. The hurt all of it. But one things for sure I didn't want to die by this guy's hands
"You may be impure but you seem to be having doubts about something." he said.
I wanted to strangle him. Just for being a dick.
"You fascinate me. I'm a mind reader but I can't seem to read your mind and I'm curious as to why."
"As if I would fucking know. You asshole."
"I warned you Bella."
The pixie gave Cullen some type of remote he then pressed a button. Electricity surged throughout my body I screamed at the top of my lungs. He pressed it again to turn it off. What the fuck just happened? Smoke was coming off my body.
"The collar on your neck sends electricity through your whole body. In order to keep you under control." he said.
"Control? Like a fucking dog?" Cullen pressed the button shocking me once again. When he stopped my body was shaking from the torture it was getting from this asshole.
I knew my eyes kept flashing from blue to brown like on and off on and off. I couldn't stop them from doing that. It was like there was a glitch in my body that was making them do that.
"Would you look at that? It's amazing how your eyes can do that." said Cullen practically in my face. "So beautiful."
I glared at the bastard how dare he do this to me. I swear I will get back at him for doing this to me. He's gonna wish he had never met me.
"You can't do this."
"Oh I can and I will."
"I'm not staying here."
"Yes you are and you will never leave. Ever."
After that he put the tape back on my mouth and left.
I had never felt so alone back then than I did right now. Something told me I wasn't gonna leave anytime soon but a part of me told me to fight it. To fight my way out of here. But I didn't want to. I didn't want to fight anymore I had no more fight left in me.
Well I swear that's you and god
We've been down this road before
That the guilt's no good
And it only shames us more
It didn't matter to me I had nothing left nor did I care. I felt so weak my body felt like it was drained out of its energy and blood. I assumed it was because of the injuries. Gotta say this would be the worst way to die.
And the truths that we all tried to hide
Are so much clear when it's not our lives
We don't face the blame
Skye had yet to wake up but she was in the worst condition. Just because I had nothing to live for didn't mean I had to drag her with me too. She didn't deserve to suffer with me. I have figured something out to get her out of here. She may be older than me but she had always said I was wise beyond my years.
Won't you (get on your knees)
Believe (have faith)
In this lie with us all
Now my body's on the floor
And I am calling
I'm calling out to you
Can you hear me now?
That I always thought of others first rather than myself. Sometimes I wish I knew how I get myself into these messes all the time. It seems to find me anywhere I go. Can't run from it or hide from it. If I was gonna die soon I wanted to see Charlie one last time before I did.
The images of him crying over me flooded my brain. I wanted to tell him that I love him and he's the best dad any daughter would be lucky to have.
Well it's not a rebellion
When you're selling out
To another fashion salesman
Our promising lives
Are full of empty promises
Temptations falling and calling you home again
Well I'm sorry if we've let you down
I feel like my whole body is shutting down it became heavier and heavier due to the serum they gave me. I looked out the small window we had with the little light from the full moon shinning through. The moon shined right on me and I just stared at it and all I could think about was Jacob.
Won't you (get on your knees)
Believe (have faith)
In this lie with us all
Now my body's on the floor
And I am calling
I'm calling out to you
Oh can you hear me now?
Now my body's on the floor
And I am calling
I'm calling out to you
Can you hear me now?
Jake flooded my thoughts. Seeing him when we were kids and how we used to play in his house. Go to the beach play hide and seek make mud pies. Then to see him again at school for the first time in 5 years. Why was I thinking about this? Did I miss him? Did I want him to save me? What if I didn't need saving?
What's wrong? What's wrong? What's wrong?
What's wrong? What's wrong? What's wrong?
Now my body's on the floor
And I am calling
Well I'm calling out to you
All I ever wanted was to be loved. Was that too much to ask? But he hurt me. How is that forgivable? Is it even forgivable? I don't think I could forgive him. So why do I long to see his face? To be held in his arms? To kiss me like never before?
Now my body's on the floor
And I am calling
Now my body's on the floor
And I am calling
Now my body's on the floor
And I am calling
I'm calling out to you
Well it looks like now I won't be going anywhere anytime soon. I guess I'm stuck here. It's funny a part of me wishes I could see his face one last time. But I don't think that's gonna happen from what I found out he moved on from me. From the looks of it I was only another notch on his bedpost. It's all I'll ever be. Nothing more and always less. Never worthy for anything.
Although I will not die in the hands of a Cullen I rather die outside on the ground bleeding out or something not in this place. One way or another I will find a way out of here. But then again I don't know how much longer my body can hold out.
And once again I'm bad to leave you guys hanging like this I'm so mean. But don't worry it's getting good and interesting I'd say. So please review. I like it when you do and it makes me laugh cause some of the comments you guys say. Oh and if you guys wanna know what songs I used for this story it's Three Days Grace, Linkin Park, Framing Hanley, Danity Kane, Simple Plan, Papa Roach, The Veer Union and finally the Scorpions. It was a good song and I had to put it in here Scorpions may be an old group but their music is awesome. Their song 'Still Loving You' is amazing I can never get enough of it.
Next Time On "Falling Apart"
After about 20 minutes Leah came bursting into the house looking as though she had seen a ghost. She was panting really out of breath like she had ran for miles and for days. I thought it was weird usually Leah wasn't like that to be so out of breath like that.
"Jake…" she said.
Everyone stood up including myself as I ran over to her.
"What's the matter Leah?" She took another second to catch her breath.
"Jake…I…found…them."
Her words echoed in my head but I was unable to believe them. I needed to hear it again to see if I heard correctly.
"What?"
"Bella and Skye….I found them." The whole house went quiet to listen.
"Where? Where are they?"
"The Cullen manor."
I love you guys you really truly the best to be honest without any of you this wouldn't be possible. So please review and tell me what you think.
Sincerely:
Jay
(Future Sailor Of The United States Navy)
