Chapter nine; Get what you wanted, but not what you want.

JESSICA POV;

Well, at least he spoke to me, right? At least he actually said Hello. I didn't really class the tone he used as a friendly one, but then again- Edward was strange. Had to give him that. I kept quiet most of the way. Not wanting to intrude. Hell, getting to see the Cullen's house- which I was pretty sure I was the first in the school to see- was intruding enough. But Alice, had invited me. So, that couldn't be much of a problem could it? I really hoped not.

Though, it looked as if I were in a world of my own, Alice and Edward were the ones acting weird. Alice, kept flicking her head back to him. Frowning. And he, would result in rolling his eyes. Honestly, it was as if they were having there own conversation within there heads. Like that was actually possible.

The rest, was plain gold. Esme had made me feel at home. Carlisle, I didn't see much of the doctor to be frank. Though, Esme had muttered something to Alice about taking paper work up to him in his study. So, I could only imagine he was there. Edward left. I couldn't help think, was it my fault? I know he didn't like me being there. I wasn't stupid..

Okay, maybe I was. But, still. I knew when I was wanted, and wasn't. And Edward, was making it more than clear. He had already rejected me, no need to just get up and leave. Granted, both his brothers tagged along; leaving me with Alice- which I wasn't too bothered about. She was turning out to be just the sort of friend I needed. Not like Lauren at all. Annoying, bitchy and just.. what's the word? Jealous? Mm, seemed so. Alice, was being great. Where as the other; Rosalie? I'm sure that was what the supermodels name was. I hadn't really been paying attention to anyone else. Alice- was becoming my friend. And Edward- was proving to be the guy I would want, but would never get. The moment Edward had left, things seemed a little better. Not as awkward. Granted, he was the main reason I did in fact want to be there, but still. Alice made me feel all the more welcome. Right down to the talking and jokes.

Alice had made us basically go threw the whole of the school. I mean, everyone. This would be the biggest party of the whole year. Well, it would be if everyone turned up. Which, I had a small feeling they would. After all; the Cullen's were the talk of the school. With being so beautiful, but anti-social. Alice, wasn't showing the same treatment as Rosalie and Edward had been showing. Both, without any interest.

Alice had worked me dry. Caused me to sit on the sofa, and before I knew it. My eyes opened to the sight of nothing. Everything was dark, and quiet. My first thoughts? Well, to be honest, they were in fact 'shit.' What a great way to start off a friendship. Falling asleep. Not the best of things. Though, I was glad I did. It was probably rude of me to get up and walk to get myself a drink of water; but seeing him there made it worth it. Just sitting there, reading. As soon as the lights turned on, those breath taking eyes were on me.

Of course, my mind went into hyper drive. Screaming things to say, a stuttering. But everything dulled the moment something did come out. 'Oh, I didn't think anyone would be up.. I just need a glass of water.' When he didn't speak back, I figured it was just the thought of me being awake. The fact that I was there. But he was still looking at me. With his glassy, beautiful eyes. His face, emotionless and looking numb. God, I wanted to just go up there and kiss him!

"Erm.. Edward?" He didn't speak. He just stood up, after realising he had just been sitting there. He, got me the drink. He passed it too me -in a odd way. Snapping his hand away before I had even reached out for the drink. He, sat back down and went right back to his book. I felt invisible. At least, he got me the drink; right? That was something.

Things to say. Over and over, I tried so hard. But nothing came up. I had to mess around with allot of things. 'So, how was your day? What are you reading? Have you got the time? What's wrong? Why are you awake?' I'd come of as some sort of stalking psycho! I couldn't let him think of me as that. Well, if he already didn't that is.

"Aren't you supposed to be asleep?" I watched as his lips twitched into a davine smile. Making the need for him all the more worth while.

"I can't." He just shrugged. Obviously not interested in talk with me. Maybe I came on a little too strong? Maybe I had pushed him away in the first place. Well, if I wanted my dream guy, I had to make a move. But not the sort you'd usually do towards men. Because Edward, wasn't like normal guys. That; was far from obvious. He was sweet, caring and a little shy? I guessed. "Hey, Edward?" His head bobbed in place, not even giving me the chance to look into his eyes. Damn him.

"Sorry about today.." Then he looked up. Yay. I mentally danced. Though, I tried not to show it. I was trying to be sensere here. I needed to apologize. This, was all my doing.

"About what?" He played along, I figured. It only made sense. Playing dumb, seeing as I had been doing that most of my life.

"Asking you out and everything.. I shouldn't have. Your new and everything. Just settling in. You shouldn't of been put on the spot. Especially by me of all people." My eyes darted to the floor, my shoulders moving on there own. Increasing up, then descending down.

"You of all people?" I snuck a peak at him from behind my eyelashes, seeing that he had put the book down and turned to face me. I couldn't be rude. This was after all; his home. I looked up, and nodded my head.

"Well.. Yeah, I don't know if you think the same, but I class you as a friend sort of. And.. well, three's allot more prettier girls out there who are dying to be where I am now. Dying to actually talk to you."

"Honestly Jessica.." I looked up once again, but thought, felt and said nothing. Just looked at him. Blank.

"It should be I saying sorry. Not you.. I'm in the wrong. I am.. just too stuck up my own ass to say it." I couldn't help but little giggle escape my lips.

"I was a jerk about it. And for that, I'm sorry." He finished off, giving a smile. I felt starstruck. I had gotten a apology from him instead of me giving one to him. I had to admit, Edward did in fact know how to make someone feel better. Maybe being the whole 'couple' thing didn't have to end the way I had wanted. Maybe, we could be friends. That wouldn't hurt.

"Well.. I better get to sleep. Goodnight, Edward."

I turned, heading to leave, but was stopped by his velvet stunning voice.

"Jessica?" About turning, I looked in his direction. "Yeah?"

"For the record, your the prettiest girl who's asked me out so far."

My heart, must have lunged out of my chest. He thought I was pretty. Yes, friends would work. This guy, was one in a million. "Goodnight, Edward." I whispered, trying to tie my cheeks down; seeing as I was giving a beaming smile. Turning the light off, and heading into the room I had fallen asleep in, I layed myself down, and closed my eyes. Taking in the very smell of the house. Taking in his home. And most of all, taking in his words.

"Do you think she's dead?"

Dead? Try sleeping.

"Ow." My eyes opened to spot Alice, glaring Emmett. Of course it must of been him. Sure, they had only just started at Forks high, but I had heard Emmett was the more fun loving guy.

"Idiot. Of cou-" Alice went to scowl, but Emmett cough, and nod towards me stopped her. Her bright yellow gaze hit onto me. Her lips curled, giving a flash of her dazzling white teeth. It was official. I was jealous of this whole family. (Rosalie mostly, because honestly, that girl looked like a swimsuit model.) Carlisle with his job. Esme with her motherly ways. Emmett with his.. humor should I say? Alice with her style. Jasper with his.. control. Rosalie with her looks. And Edward. I wouldn't say jealously cut my words for him. More of.. hurt. Longing. Want. Need. Passion. The list could go on. But, I wasn't what he wanted. Or so it seemed. "What time is it?" I asked, stretching out of place and sitting up. Not giving a care in the world that I probably looked like crap. "Seven. We're leaving for school soon. Esme's made you something to eat. I have a spare set of clothes you can ware today. And Emmett's going to give you a lift. Rosalie, me and Jasper are getting Edwards car. Unless you want me to come with you?" All this information swirled in my head. Alone.. with the big guy?

Lauren wasn't going to like this. "Pssht! Alice, please. This chick can handle herself. And besides. I want to know about this party planned." Emmett grinned, leaning down and putting a huge arm around my shoulder. Slinging it as if it were nothing. When really, I was practically crapping myself that he might crush me! "Right, Jess?" I blinked at his words, and looked to him. A confused, scared and small bit startled look on my face. But who could say no to those dimples? And big eyes? I, was a sucker for this family. And I had only met them yesterday.

"Sure, I guess." I stuttered, looking back to Alice and giving the best smile I could. She nodded, and skipped off. Emmett pulled his arm away, jumped over the couch and landed next to me. "So, you gotta' eat. Then, get dressed. Then get our asses to school.. unless you wanna ditch?" He kinked a eyebrow towards me. As if it were a challenge. I store at him. Dumbfounded by his words. Me? Ditch school? I couldn't. I had Lauren to fill in about this night here. Then I had to beg Mike to forgive me. Plus, on top of that- I had to somehow figure out what I would be waring to this party! "Just kidding. Dude, don't look so scared. I'm not going to eat you.. I've already ate." He nudged me, and stood up. I smiled, and giggled to myself.

"You better have." I looked up instantly to the voice I had been praying to hear. My heart instantly increased. There he stood, looking as beautiful as ever. Tall, muscular and perfect. A white tank top clinging to his chest, with a blue shirt hanging over. Casually topped of with a pair of black pants. God, he was breath taking. He and Emmett shore glanced, before Emmett left the room- not before giving me a suttle wink. Edward looked at the door Emmett had descended from, before turning his eyes to me and smiling gently.

"Sleep well?" He asked, keeping perfectly still.

"Yeah, thanks. You?" I asked, totally forgetting the fact he had been up at stupid o'clock in the morning! God, Jessica. You are such a idiot.

"I did, thank you." Edward smiled, walking a bit closer and sitting down on the chair.

"So.." I muttered, feeling slightly awkward. Who wouldn't? I didn't know what to say to this boy! I hardly knew him. But I wanted too. Very much.

"Mike called for you. I thought you should know." Edward spoke up, making my face turn cold and solid. "M-mike? When?" my eyes could of popped out of my head. "A hour ago. His father had my fathers card. He must of used it. I told him you were asleep, and that we will be bringing you into school. He's eager to talk to you." Edward noted, watching Alice bring in a set of clothes and a plate of toast. I just nodded my head. Not knowing what to say. I knew now I was going to have to beg twice as hard now.

"I didn't know what you liked.. I hope this is alright?" Alice asked, sitting on the arm of the chair beside her brother. Edward looked up to her, while she kept her eyes on me. He shook his head, and then turned his attention back to the floor.

"It's fine. Thanks." I muttered. Things went quiet.

The whole hour went quiet. Apart from when I spent forever thanking Alice for this dang outfit. Lauren was going to slip out! Designer clothes? I would so totally beat her if it was a fashion parade. Then came the car ride. Edward was in his car, fiddling with the mirror. Alice was beside him, while Jasper and Rosalie sat in the back not speaking a word. Emmett was still in the house. I, was trapped in his car. Just watching blindly towards his car. Watching him closely. Sometimes, his eyes would come up and meet mine. He would give me a smile, and then look away to talk to Alice. Alice would look my way, give me a smile, and then turn back to Edward. I couldn't help but get the feeling that they were talking about me. Funny, right? They wouldn't. I wasn't interesting. If I was, Edward would be my boyfriend already.

Edward's eyes shot to mine. Completely emotionless. Just at the right moment he knew when to look at me. I gazed into his eyes, searching for anything within the depths of heaven. I found nothing. Emmett blocked my way from his eyes. Pulling my gaze away, I lent back and closed my eyes. Listening to Emmett cackling to himself and jumping into the front seat of his jeep.

"Let get this show on the road." Emmett chuckled, bringing the car to life and reversing. Edward was right behind. His lips moving so fast, it was hard to even make out what he was saying.

"You're quiet. You ill or something?" Emmett's voice made me jump. I looked up to him, and inhaled. "Nope. I just.. don't know what to say?" I asked, giving a smile. He chuckled and looked my way before turning his eyes back. "No need to be scared of me. I'm a good guy, or so I've been told. Hey, So about this party.." Emmett went on. I listened to some of the idea's he had. Idea's to irritate others. In all defence, he made me laugh most of the way. I was beginning to like this family more and more each moment. Feeling like I was fitting in. It was a good thing, right? If the family thought I was nice, and such- then Edward would see I was perfect, wouldn't he?

"We could also chuck Alice's clothes out the window. That'll cause a hoot!" Emmett laughed, pulling into the parking lott. As I thought, all eyes were on the Cullen's. I braced myself for the immense to come. Preparing to be hounded with questions. Emmett flicked the keys into his pocket, took his large frame out and walked around towards Rosalie's door. Opening both mine and hers at the same time. I stepped out, and pulled my hood up. Alice was by my side, Jasper behind. But at a distance. He was muttering things towards Edward, who stayed close to Jasper. Emmett and Rosalie walked off to do there own thing. Just before he left, Edward shot me a wave, and a grin. Rosalie- I just got the regular daggers like everyone else.

"So." Alice bounced, while I walked alongside her. Edward and Jasper behind us. Still talking in there own little world.

"What d'you have first?" Alice chirped, turning her full attention onto me. I smiled, and shrugged. "Math, I think." Alice nodded, and looked behind her shoulder. Probably checking to see if Jasper was still there. Then she giggled, and looked back to me.

"Well, I'll see you latter." Alice noted, stopping looking back to Edward and Jasper. Jasper nodded to Edward one last final time, and scooted beside Alice. Soon, they were both off. Leaving me. Alone.

"Would you like me to walk you to your class?" Edward soft voice whispered, making me look up and stare. He wasn't even looking my way. Just gazing to the place his siblings had ran off too. I had a feeling, I was the reason for this. Maybe staying away was the best bet?

"Yeah! I'd like that!" Stupid! WHY THE HELL? Why didn't I say no? I mentally stabbed myself. He looked down, giving a small smile and set on. I followed slowly.

The walk was quiet, real quiet. As if we were strangers walking to the same class. Or, I was like a guide. Not aloud to talk. We turned corners. Looked at one another every now and then, and soon my class came. I stood at the door, looking at him; while he looked at me. "See you.. latter." He muttered, and within a blink of an eye. He was gone. I decided then and there, that would be the time to get over this obsession with Edward Cullen. Sweet, defined, unbelievably sexy, smart and strange Edward Cullen. I could be happy with Mike, right? CRAP! MIKE! I squeezed into my math class, and spotted him up at the back. Leaning back in his chair, with his pencil hanging out his mouth. Laughing with Tyler and some dude from the football team. I walked right up to them, looked at Tyler and smiled. "Can I sit there for like.. two minutes?" I asked. He looked to Mike, then back at me. "Uhh, sure." He moved. I took my stage. Right. Grovel, and if you have too, Jessica. Cry. Cry like you've never cried before. Sitting down, I turned the chair and looked right into his blue eyes. Here goes.

"Mike. I am so, so, so, so, so, so sorry for blowing you off last night. I REALLY shouldn't have. And I get if you don't ever wa-"

"Jess?" Mike spoke, but I ignored it.

"-ant to speak to me ever again, but I think you should know how truly-"

"Je-"

"-And deeply sorry I am. Because I had no right in-"

"Jess! It's fine. Seriously. I heard about the party. Hell, I can't wait to go. It should be a blast if you're helping on planning it." I froze. Stunned by his words. "Really?" I blinked. He nodded, and gave me one of those smiles I used to adore. "Awesome. So, we're cool, yeah?"

"Yeah. But you have to be my date for the party. Just because you owe me." Mike added. Leaving me more starstruck. Mike just asked me out. The one thing I was waiting on for ages before the Cullen's moved here! Damn him. I nodded my head rapidly, and flashed a smile. With that, I stood up and took my regular seat in math next to Angela.


A/N;;

Yes! I know! Don't eat me. I've been slacking on my updates lately. I know. Forgive me. So, what I've done here is made this one a whole lot more shorter. Forgive me. But I'm losing my touch on Jess, don't you think? I shall be working on her more! I promise. I have a whole 'bad-ass' idea in line for you. JessxEd style.

Now, I will try and update as much as I can. I plan to be writing chapter ten ASAP. Infact, I've started it. That's how determind I am to keep you guys happy. I'd also like to thank EdRose. Giving me the muse to carry on writing. A little shoutout. You have been awesome, girl. As have you all. So, enjoy this and chapter ten will not be long. I promise! :D