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CHAPTER 8

Bella PoV

Our lives were simple in an amazing way. There was something breathtaking about having Edward there every day. It made me feel safe, and it helped me realize that I could live a normal life without succumbing to the blood lust. Of course, sometimes I wanted human blood. Needed it. Animal blood wasn´t enough and the desire to go back to my old diet was so strong that there were times when Edward had to hug me for hours before the tremors stopped.

No one said it would be easy. But no one said it would be this hard either. I wanted to forget about this new path, about everything around me and just bite on warm skin hard enough to taste the coppery sweetness of human blood.

Every time those doubts came to my mind, Edward seemed to see it and talked to me for hours. We shared our pasts as if this was our first meeting. He told me about his mistakes, his dark years, his sins and how he was able to remember every person he killed. I told him about the confusion, the sadness and the thirst that always was a part of me.

It was funny to see how the time flew when we were talking. Only when we heard Elisabeth getting up and making her breakfast did we realize that it was morning. A new day, a new hope.

When the sun was up I felt stupid. It was weird. After some hours talking with him nothing was so bad. The memories of my weakness ashamed me, but Edward gave me a compassionate, sweet smile and I knew it was ok. He understood my weak side because he had one too.

I was amazed at how two weeks could change someone´s life so drastically. I had love, a new family and a future that would forgive me for all my sins. Until now I never realized how much my life style was hurting me. It wasn´t as if I didn´t miss it sometimes. As I said, it was hard to forget a life of freedom to accept feeding only on animal blood. But freedom is not always as good as it is supposed to be.

I guess that having a clean conscience was worth the sacrifice.

When my thirst was controlled and we hunted enough for me to not feel tempted we went to Vancouver to see his family. The Cullens were moving to their new house, and they were busy. It was easier for us to go there, but of course, Elisabeth insisted time and time again on staying and telling them that they could come to our house anytime.

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Edward PoV

Today we would see my family for the second time since we found Bella. The first time was nice, but quite uncomfortable for Bella. She was embarrassed about how my family would react when they knew that we were together. Or at least trying to be.

She was silly, and I told her so. My family was happy. Well, to be sincere we didn´t have to say a thing about our relationship. As soon as we entered the new house – bought the day before and still unfurnished – hand in hand, everyone smiled in their normal oh-so-subtle way.

"And we thought they were fast the first time they met. Teenagers, always so horny." Emmett had joked, scaring Bella for a moment. She was so embarrassed that I almost could see a blush coloring her cheeks.

This time she was calmer and somewhat enthusiastic about our visit. Her friendship with Alice was built almost as fast as our relationship. What surprised me was how she and Jasper connected too. It wasn´t friendship, not yet, but when I saw Jasper smiling at her, commenting about some books, I knew they would be friends soon. Alice realized it too, and it´s not even necessary to say how overjoyed she was.

I felt her hand on top of mine and saw a soft smile on her face when the house appeared in front of us. It was nice to be here, to see my family. Not that I didn´t like being with Elisabeth and Bella, but I missed my family too.

Quickly we went to the door, finding it open as always. It didn´t matter where we lived, the front door was always open. Thinking about it, no one would enter our house. And if they did, well, they would learn how stupid they were.

"Carlisle? Esme?" I asked, surprised by the silence in the house. "Alice?" I tried to hear where they were. Maybe, I thought, they were hunting in the forest.

"Look." Bella said waving a yellow post-it that she found in the living room. I walked to her and soon recognized Alice´s writing.

"Hi lovey-dovey couple,

Carlisle and Esme need to sign some papers

in Ottawa and the rest of us decided to go along.

You two have the house for yourselves. Behave!

PS: Your bedroom is ready. I hope you don´t mind

that Esme and I decided to decorate it.

Alice."

"It´s weird that they left knowing that we´re coming to see them. It must be something important." Bella said and I smiled. Of course, she didn´t remember how Alice is. My poor innocent Bella. This was a plan of my sister, maybe a plan of all the members of my family. It was so evident that I had to bite my bottom lip to stop laughing.

"Yes. Really weird."

"Why are you smiling?" she asked confused.

"It´s nothing. Let´s go see the room. I´m curious."

"Oh, of course."

I took her hand in mine and went to the room that would be mine, or ours, sometime in the future. We didn´t talk about our future yet, and I didn´t want to coerce her. Our relationship was developing quite fast, and I was grateful for that, but for some reason I had the feeling that she would be scared if we started talking about our future, where we would live and things like that. Especially since I knew she didn´t want to leave Elisabeth. Of course, I understood that. She was everything Bella had for a long time. The only thing she had.

Both of us stopped in front the door. Bella waiting for me to open it, me scared of what I would find there. Taking an unnecessary breath I gathered all my courage and opened it.

What I saw then took my breath away.

It was a perfect combination of my old room and a lot of things that always reminded me of my relationship with Bella, things that I had hidden in a box some years ago because it hurt me to see them.

The bed I bought for her to sleep in my old room was in the center of this room, against the wall opposite to the big windows. The small sofa where we used to lay down and listen to music was against the left wall. Bella´s old rocking chair was in the corner by the bookcase – Charlie gave Alice some of Bella´s belongings when we moved out of Forks, wanting her to have something to remember Bella by, as if it was necessary – where my diaries and some of Bella´s books were. But what I liked the most were all the frames decorating every wall. They had photos of us.

It was like being inside a photograph album of our past together. It didn´t matter where I looked, there was a photo of us. Always together and smiling. Sometimes shyly, but mostly happily.

"This… They are photos of us, right?" she asked me surprised and with a touch of confusion in her voice.

"Yes, that they are. You never liked to have photos taken, but now I´m grateful to Alice and Esme for being so obsessed about having those mementos."

She nodded absently and roamed around the room looking at each frame. My eyes followed her every move. I wanted to see her feelings in her face, to see if she remembered something by looking at them. Surprise, confusion and shy happiness were all that I could see.

"Alice and I were friends back then too, right?" she asked while looking at one of Alice hugging her while I laughed at my childish sister. "I wanted to see her."

"I promise I will contact them and we will come back when they are home." I moved closer to her until her back was touching my chest, and my arms went around her waist.

"It´s ok. I like to spend time with you. Alone."

"I like that too." I kissed her neck softly, enjoying the warmth of her body pressed against mine. "I´m happy for having you with me, my love."

"And I´m happy that you found me."

Her hands laid on mine – that were over her navel – and our fingers entwined immediately. She moved even closer, pressing every soft curve of her body against mine. Our breathing became shallow and my mouth explored her neck, enjoying the warmth.

It was as if my body had not enough of her. Every millimeter of my skin needed hers. A sudden fire was burning me alive and I wanted to be consumed. Every second more heated than the one before, awakening ourselves to this passion that was making us forget about our innocent talk.

Soon, my lips were caressing every pore of her neck´s skin. She tasted so good that I couldn´t stop myself. She didn´t tempt me anymore. Well, that was a lie. Her blood didn´t tempt me anymore, but her body… Oh God, her body was like a voice calling me all the time. That all-consuming temptation made me use the tip of my tongue to taste her sweetness. I was so lost in my desire that her shiver took me by surprise. Maybe I was moving too fast, maybe this was a mistake, but I was praying it was not.

"Please," I begged, "tell me this is not a mistake."

"I want you. I want you so bad." She replied to my plea with a husky voice that made me shiver too. I was lost, no more control, because if she did want this, there wouldn´t be a force strong enough to make me stop.

Those words were like fuel for my inner fire. Soft lazy caresses turned into a desperate desire of knowing each other´s bodies. She turned around and I happily welcomed her lips with mine. That first contact made me feel dizzy and excited, everything was spinning around me and she was my anchor to reality. Her hands in my hair, my hands in her lower back, our chests touching time and time again when our respirations became pants resonating in the room.

She tasted so sweet that I doubted if this was gluttony and not lust. I wanted to devour her, and for the first time that thought didn´t scare me.

This new feeling was tickling and overheating me. My whole body trembled deliciously every time her lips danced over mine and my tongue played with hers. This freedom was amazing.

Little by little our kisses became more heated and soon I realized that my mind was acting by its own will, making me take her in my arms for one second before I put her on the bed. There, with her wild hair, her dark lusty eyes and those red wet lips Bella was temptation made flesh and bone. Never in all my life – human or not – did I want something or someone as much as I wanted her right now.

"Edward." She whispered my name and it sounded like a purr that made me shiver. She looked at me with the melted charcoal of her eyes, with the darkest and most impure color of the world. She was just as lost in her lust as I was lost in mine. We were two beasts with only one need: to devour each other until only one was left. One body made of two halves.

With my body hovering over hers, I used one of my hands to play with the hem of her shirt. My lips were already near her jaw, close enough to let her feel my heat but not touching her yet. This border we were trespassing was new for both of us. So exciting that I wanted to take my time.

Bella was still looking at me, not saying a word, but it wasn´t necessary. The way her eyes became wide when my hand moved slowly between the fabric of her shirt and the waist of her pants was enough. I caressed the tender flesh around her hip bones and it felt like an electric shock. She gasped for breath. I growled lustfully.

"Bella." Her name in my lips. Honey and heat.

With slow torture she drew random patterns in my shoulders, descending by my arms only to ascend once more. It was then when her nails caressed the back of my neck and my eyes closed immediately.

"I love you." She said and I looked at her amazed by the soft look in her eyes.

"I love you. More than anyone."

While those words of love left my mouth I moved my hand to her ribs, using my fingertips to tickle her. A new purr made me lose track of my joyful travel. Everything was too intense, so deep that her heat formed inside of my own body.

We were ice. But when we touched we melted away.

Using that speed that still surprised me, Bella changed our positions. Now, I was the one on the bed – sitting against the headboard – and she was sitting astride my hips. I wasn´t able to say a word because she kissed me once more. So ardently that it seemed as if the world would melt away with us and she wanted it to disappear.

I didn´t doubt, I wanted to feel her, to have her skin against mine. So I took a hold of her shirt and ripped it away. Bella laughed in my mouth and that sound vibrated in my palate, but the idea must have been good, because she did the same thing with mine. Soon her chest was pressed against mine, but it wasn´t enough. There was still some fabric between us and I hated it. I hated the skin that separated us.

But I would fix that soon. It was ok; we had all the time in the world to explore each other´s bodies. For now, I was happy. With her act she showed me that she had no doubts about this. She wanted me.

That encouragement was enough to let me know that I could do whatever I wanted. Feeling brave I cupped one of her breasts, enjoying how tender and soft it was. I always loved how thin but curvy she was.

"Ahhh." She moaned with a low voice.

I needed to hear that voice again. Drawing circles with the fingertip of my index finger I went to her nipple. Caressing, squeezing and grazing. I was driving her crazy. It was evident by the way her mouth was always half-open in an incomplete moan.

In the exact moment that I felt her nails brushing against my sides and her teeth biting my earlobe I used my other hand to cup her left breast. This was a battle, one that neither of us wanted to lose. Like this, with this intensity, this passion and this devotion, it was hard to think about something that wasn´t pleasure and desire.

Somewhere inside of me, between my chest and my stomach, a funny feeling was spreading. It wasn´t tickles, or sparkles. It was like a festival of fireworks. Fire and gunpowder exploding with different colors. I wanted this feeling to continue forever.

"I love you." I repeated once more because it never was enough.

Sweetly I put my right hand on her cheek, making her look at me. Even if it wasn´t necessary the gentleman inside of me wanted her permission. It was time to lose all the clothes that were separating us. Naked, as if we were alpha and omega, the beginning of the world and its first creatures. That´s what I wanted.

She nodded at the question in my eyes, and I smiled at her suddenly shy appearance. It didn´t take too much time. In a few seconds we freed ourselves of those barriers.

"You´re so beautiful." I purred in her ear, letting my lips graze her earlobe and making her shiver between my arms. "You´re so beautiful that it hurts." My head went to her naked chest, wishing to hear a heart that died a long time ago. But if I closed my eyes, it almost was as if I could still hear it.

Pum. Pum.

Pum. Pum.

Pum. Pum.

It was a ghost. I couldn´t see it, but I could feel it. I wished for her to feel mine too, to make her understand that maybe my heart was dead too, but for her there were times when I could feel it beating.

The skin between her breasts was like cotton candy under my cheek. My lips kissed it with the strong desire of having that taste in my mouth forever. Time and time again I kissed her there. She trembled each time and I loved to know how I made her feel.

All that time Bella´s hands seemed to be everywhere. It was as if she never stopped. My hair, my neck, my shoulders, my back, my sides, my arms … she caressed me with such a passion and worship that sometimes my hands forgot what they were doing. But it never was for a long time. As soon as I realized it, my revenge was sweet. Kisses turned into licks, and licks turned into soft bites.

"Edward." She moaned. "Edward." And this time I felt her nails digging in my back the second after I put my lips around her nipple. My hands in her back pressed her more against my mouth, and the wetness of my tongue drew all the pink skin of her areola.

I was so lost in the pleasure of torturing her like this, that I was surprised by her hands taking a hold of my wrists to allow her to move away. The confusion didn´t last long. Her playful dark eyes and naughty smile told me that I would like what was coming next.

And that I did.

We both moved a little bit until our bodies lay side to side. Her index finger drew a curvy path from my collarbone to my hipbone and I growled – although it sounded more like a purr – when her finger was replaced with her tongue. I must admit that I wasn´t able to think after that. I was lying there, letting her play with my body. The only thing I was able to do was touch her hair.

Her tongue left shiny wet paths that she erased with ardent kisses. She roamed around my body freely, but her attentions were centering lower than I expected. My navel, my lower belly, my hipbone and then…

"Oh God." I screamed when her lips closed around me. "Bella you don´t… you don´t… oh God…"

Her movements were shy and inexperienced, but all the same pleasurable. That little movement of her tongue around the head was driving me crazy. I moaned, and purred, and panted, and I don´t know what some of those sounds were. The only thing I knew was that the wet heat of her mouth was like heaven and hell. Painful pleasure that hurt me sweetly.

"Bella… oh my … love."

"Mmmm." That sound vibrated around me, and that didn´t help me to control myself.

"Please… Please… stop." She ignored me. "Please, Bella… stop." And this time she looked at me. With a last torturing lick she moved away a little, and smiled shyly at me. "You will be the death of me." I told her, surprised by how breathless my voice sounded even when I didn´t need to breathe.

"Sorry. You taste so… good."

I sighed trying to control my thoughts. She was making it hard for me, and it was hard enough. I took a hold of her hair to make her come to me. I wanted to kiss her, I needed it so bad. She was everything for me, everything and maybe more, because I never imagined that someone would make me feel so alive, so aware of human pleasures.

Patience was never my biggest virtue. I wanted to be inside of her. Now. But after what she did for me, I wanted to make sure that she was as ready as I was for her. Taking advantage of that kiss, I put my hand between her legs, making her yelp at my touch.

"Mmmmmdward." She whispered in my mouth.

I was surprised by how wet she was already. But it didn´t matter. I wanted to torture her a little bit. This was our first time together, and even if I hadn´t patience enough to do all the things that I always dreamt about, I wanted to do this.

I wetted one of my fingers with her wetness and started playing. First, soft touches, teasing her. I loved how she squirmed trying to feel more, to press herself against my fingers. It excited me to feel her panting on my lips, and to see the way her black lusty eyes sparkled for a second when I touched her. We never broke eye contact. And that made it even hotter.

By now, she was under me, with her legs wide open and our faces at the same level. I enjoyed this; I loved to see her so lost in our passion that no one would say that it was our first time. No shyness, no shame. Only passion and lust.

When the soft touches weren´t enough, I pinched her knot of nerves until she screamed my name so loud that I wished that everyone knew that I was making her mine. Mine, and mine alone. Forever.

Slow movements, playful pinches and her hips moved crazily under me. The friction of our bodies tortured me too, and the realization of what was coming next made me shiver.

It was time to end the preliminaries.

No more games.

"I want you." I told her, looking at her eyes to let her see how true my words were. "I need you."

"Please." That was her only answer, but we both understood it.

I kissed her forehead, the skin between her eyebrows, the tip of her nose – which made her giggle - her lips and her jaw. And when I kissed her enough to be sure that she understood how important this was for me, I put my forehead against her and talked again.

"It doesn´t matter what the future brings. You were, are and will be mine forever. You are everything I need, and the only thing I want. You're the part of me that allows me to keep living. I´m nothing without you. I can´t live without you. Do you understand how deep my love for you is?"

"Yes, I…"

"Don´t say a word. I know you understand. I only wanted you to know that nothing will separate me from you anymore. You´re mine."

And with those last words I entered her little body. So thin but always so strong. So warm even when she was supposed to be cold. So amazingly loving even when she couldn´t remember me. She was the sweetest duality in my world.

We both moaned at the feeling of being full. Full of that feeling that always was there but never was this powerful. Not because our relationship was physical now, but because we were together in the most intimate way.

Her wet heat surrounded me, so tight, so hot, so soft. To be inside of her was heaven. I moved, once, twice, … slowly at first, then faster and faster until we both moved in a fluid movement. Our bodies crashed, and fought for the pleasure that was building inside of us.

There were too many things increasing the feeling. Her thighs around my waist, her feet touching the back of my thighs, her breasts moving up and down with every thrust, her face marked by the shared lust, the tender skin over hard hipbones that I could feel under my hands.

"Mmmm harder… please… harder…" she pleaded and I obeyed.

"You feel … so… good. You´re the… hottest… sweetest… sin." I moaned.

Love and lust were a mix that made me unable to hear her after that. My own ecstasy made the room spin around me. That weird, but nice, feeling inside of me was becoming stronger with every thrust. I was so close that I wanted to be sure that she finished with me.

One of my hands left her hipbone and went between our bodies. It didn´t take more than two touches and Bella screamed my name while all her body trembled. The feeling of her inner muscles around me was enough to make me finish too.

All the knots in my stomach disappeared like magic and my body became a puddle of goo. I fell on top of her, trying to remember how to control my own body and giving her lazy wet kisses on the neck.

"Forget what I said about you being the death of me. I´m glad that I´m immortal. I want to repeat this for all eternity." I joked and she pinched my side playfully.

I moved away, just enough to lie down on my back, letting her put her head in my shoulder and her leg over my thighs.

"I wish I could read your mind right now."

"You´re easy to please. Ask me whatever you want to know." She smiled sweetly when I put my arms around her waist.

"I wasn´t talking about that. I wish I could read your mind. I wish I could see everything."

"Maybe, I could grant you your wish."

"How? That´s impossible. Believe me, love, I already tried."

"If I want to, I can allow you to read my mind. Just like I can expand my shield, I can make it disappear for short periods of time. But…"

"But?" I asked, suddenly excited about the idea of being able to read the only mind that always was a secret for me, the only mind that I really wanted to read. Her mind was always a mystery that I wanted to solve.

"But I will need some persuading." Her smile changed into something naughty, playful. She made it too easy for me. What a nice price to pay.

TBC…

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Well, this was longer than the previous ones, right? I thought I would die writing this. It was a hard chapter for me. I´m doubting if I should write another smutty chapter in the future (in this fanfic), so I would like to know your opinions. Smut yes or smut no?

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