Chapter 9
A/N: Starts where chapter 8 left off. This chapter contains a slight spoiler from In My Time of Dying.
Sam sat in Dean's room waiting for his dad to get back. He wanted to know what caused his father to bolt out of here so fast. He was relieved when he saw John come back through the door.
"Dad what's going on?"
"I just realized something. There's only one person left in this hospital that I haven't told how proud of Dean I am."
"Whose that, the back shift cafeteria lady?"
"No Sam, Dean."
"Then why did you run out of here like a bat out of hell. Why not just tell him, he's lying right there, and he can't even protest the chick flick moment."
"I can't just say the words Sam, the last time I did he knew I was possessed."
"Good point. What are you going to do."
"I had to call Bobby. I need him to bring me something. I have a box that is filled with things that I saved from you boys over the years. I want to share it with Dean. I have to show him I'm proud, not just say the words."
"Do you think it will work?"
"I hope so Sam."
An hour later Bobby came in carrying a medium sized wooden box. He said that he had started with repairs to the Impala and made sure to tell Dean that it would be good as new. He knew that John wanted to be with Dean so he said he would be back in about an hour and give John a break.
"Hey Bobby wait up, I'll join you, I could use a cup of coffee."
"Sam you can stay if you want."
"I know Dad, but you need this time with Dean, I'll be back later."
"Thanks Sam."
As Sam and Bobby left John walked over to the bed and careful not to dislodge any tubes and sat on the edge. He put the box on the beside table.
"Hey Dean. I know that your in there somewhere son. I know you can hear me. There is somethings I need to say to you."
John reached over and opened his box. He pulled out a newpaper clipping.
"Your mother and I always knew that we wanted to have kids. I was the proudest man on earth the day Mary told me she was pregnant. Here's the announcement your mother wrote It says January 24, 1979. John and Mary Winchester are proud to announce the birth of their son Jonathan Dean Winchester Jr. Dean weighed in at 3 pounds 4ounces. Grandparents are Samuel and Erin Winchester and Francis and Margaret Jackson.
John then pulled out an envelope, in it was what looked like several hospital bracelets. The first on John pulled out it was so small that it would have fit as a ring on John's pinky finger.
"Dean this was the bracelet that the hospital put on you the day you born. You were so tiny. You didn't even weigh four pounds. The doctors said you weren't gonna survive. They said that you werent going to make it through the night. I was never more scared in my life. Your mother though, she told me you were going to be just fine. She was right as usual. I was so proud of you that day Dean, you faced insurmountable odds and came out on top. You were in the hospital for over 2 months before the doctors would let up bring you home. You were home for about a week and a half before we had to bring you back to the hospital. Your temperature was up and you had trouble breathing this is your bracelet from that time. This enevelope contains every hospital bracelet up until you were 3. I was proud of the way you handed each and every visit. You had to have needles and painful tests, but you just took what ever came."
John put the envelope back in his box and next he pulled out two brightly colored peaces of paper.
"Dean these are the inviations you made for me and your mother, on that first mother's day after the fire. I was so proud of you son, the way you handled that. You did such a good job telling everyone about your mom that day. She would have been proud to Dean and you were right your mom was there that day and I'm glad you invited me.
Next John pulled 2 more hospital bracelets
"This first one was from when you were seven. Dean have to be the bravest kid I know. The way you faced open open heart surgury., I was so proud of you that day. This next one is the one from when you saved my life,
From there John pulled out a guitar pick,
"You always looked after me and Sam and you never asked for a thing. I was glad to be able to do something for you. I knew how much you wanted a guitar. You were pretty good too. Then the way you gave up your prized possession for your brother made me so proud."
Next John pulled out a stack of Dean's report cards.
"Dean I know that you probably wondered why even though I never insisted that you get terrific grades, that I made you attend all those extra tudoring sessions. The main reason is I hated seeing you struggle. I remember when you started high school. I know that you were starting to think of yourself as stupid. I will always be thankful to Holly King. She saw your potential and did something about it. I know how much you did not want to stay after school but like everything eles life threw at you, you did it. This is your first report card after we found out you had dyslexia. There was already an improvement. This is the second one. You received two A's Dean. I was so proud of the way you pulled your grades up, and kept them up. Dean this is your final report card when you graduated, with honors, from one of the top prep school in the country. I was such a proud father that day.
"Dean, I also know how much you struggled at that prep school. You knew that CPS was hanging around. You made sure to stay out trouble. You didn' t even really complain when you couldn't hunt. Heres a picture of you and Gray. He was a good guy Dean. It was nice to see you hang out with someone your own age. I wish I had not encouraged you to go that party. I know how hard it was for you to trust Gray after that. It was only one of two times in your life you disobeyed a direct order when I ordered you to tell me what happened. The first being the strigha inicident but John was NOT about to go there. "I still would like to know what happened that night Dean, but I will respect your wish not to talk about it so don't worry I won't ask. Whatever it was Monday moring you held you head up high and walked into that school. Sam told me the kids were cruel to you all day. I will admit Dean I fully expected to get a call that day from the headmaster that you got into fight. I was so proud of the way you handled yourself that day. I owe you an apology, I never got that call Dean. Then lets not forget the reason you and Sam were attending that school in the first place."
John replaced the picture of Dean and Gray in his box. He then pulled out two pay stubs and yet another hospital bracelet.
"You always took care of me and Sammy Dean. When I broke my leg that time hunting with Caleb the way you stepped up was amazing. You worked two jobs and went to school. When I got the call that you were in the hospital I thought someone terrible happened to you. When I found out what you had been up to I realized just the kind of person you were Dean. I also have your hospital bracelet from that time to."
Next John pulled out a letter
"This is the letter from Stanford. I know that this was a difficult time for you son. Me and Sam we tore into each other. We put you in the middle. We each took your silence as agreeing with the other. Me and Sam put you in the middle alot Dean, but you always tried to keep the peace between us. Even know, your doing that. Me and Sam have been getting along pretty good."
Know John was getting to the most painful thing. What he said to Dean when he was possesed by the Demon. It had taken Dean's biggest fear and used it against him. John needed to make Dean hear him.
"Dean I really need you to listen to this son. What happened at the cabin. I am so sorry Dean. I was NEVER angry. You used that bullet to save your brother's life. How could I get angry about that. You do watch out for this family Dean. You hold us together. There was this one time that we were at Jefferson's. You were 16 I was coming back in from a hunt and overheard you boys and Jefferson talking about heros. Jefferson said his hero was his fahter. . Sam told you that you were his hero. Then you filled my heart with pride when you said that your father was your hero as well. If you asked me do you know who I would have said my hero was. You Dean, your my hero. The way whenever I came home wrecked from a hunt you were right there to put your hand on my shoulder and say its ok Dad. Im so sorry Dean I should have been saying that to you. I put to much on your shoulders. Made you grow up to fast. You looked after me and you looked after Sammy. You did that and you never complained not once. I am so proud of everything you've done in your life. More importantly I am so proud of you Dean period. We need you, please son come back to me, come back to us.
John out Sam's acceptance letter bank in his box. Then he looked up and saw the most beautiful thing he ever saw in his life, Dean's green eyes.
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