Fix You

Chapter: 9

Pairing: Robert and Holly

Rating: PG

Robert brushed away a few of her fallen tears. "We have a child." he said as he started to cry. "I can't leave you alone. There's so much I want to know about him, so much I want to ask."

Holly smiled faintly but then it quickly faded. "Have you been talking to Anna?" she asked. "Because if you have you should disregard everything she said."

"No." he answered. "Mac and I were arguing and he told me that he wasn't Charlie's father. He said that I was. But I need to hear it from you. I need to hear you say the words."

"It's true." she whispered. "Charlie is your son."

He pulled her into his arms and surprisingly enough she allowed it even though he didn't think she would. Holly felt so safe and secure and loved in his warm embrace. "I never thought that this would happen." he confessed. "I didn't think that after everything that had happened that we would ever reach this point."

She pulled away from him so she could look into his eyes. "What point?" she asked. "The point where we betrayed Anna whilst she was kidnaped? The point where we conceived a child during that betrayal? What point Robert? Because in my mind when I imagined us having children it was never like this."

"I know that things didn't turn out as planned and I know things shouldn't have happened the way that they did, but I don't regret it." he told her. "I've never regretted making love to you that night and I didn't think you would regret it either. Was I wrong Holly? Did you not want me as much as I wanted you, as much as I needed you?"

"I wanted you." she replied. "I never stopped wanting you and I don't regret it, but it doesn't make it any less wrong."

"We may not have gone about things the right way, Holly, but that didn't change anything." he said. "It didn't change the way I felt about you and I know that it didn't change the way that you felt about me."

"What I feel no longer matters." Holly told him. "Everything I do now is for Charlie. I have a little boy who I'm going to have to explain all of this to and he's not going to understand. He's not going to understand why Mac isn't daddy anymore and why some stranger he just met is."

"We don't have to explain any of this to Charlie right now." he replied. "I just want to spend some time with him. I want to get a chance to know my son even though he doesn't know who I am."

"I never thought it was going to turn out like this." she said. "Everything feels as though it's spinning."

"I'm sorry." he apologized. "You do know that if I had I known you were pregnant I would have never have left you, right?"

"So what, Robert?" she asked. "You would have stayed around here to defend your honor?

"You left a few days later after we had sex in the shower, I didn't find out I was pregnant until a month later." Holly said softly. "I didn't find out until the morning of your memorial."

Flashback Early April 1992

Holly had been sick every morning for the past week. The nausea and the lightheadedness was killing her. She tried her damndest to ignore the symptoms, to ignore what she knew was happening inside her body. Somehow she thought that if she didn't think about it then it wasn't real. That none of this was really happening.

There wasn't really anyone she could turn to. Tiffany and Sean, as good of friends as they were to her, loved Anna and Robert and supported their relationship. And then there was Robin. How would she react to finding out about what happened between her father and her newly returned from the dead stepmother? The entire thing screamed scandal. The kind of scandal that Robert Scorpio's name shouldn't be tarnished with.

It was the morning of the memorial and Holly decided that she just couldn't take it anymore. She needed the proof in front of her. She needed to confirm that the night she and Robert shared was in fact real. And what better way to confirm it than by taking a pregnancy test?

She sat on the floor sobbing somewhat silently as she waited for the results. She knew she didn't need to look. She knew what it was going to say. Suddenly there was a soft knock on the bathroom door that snapped her out of her thoughts. "Holly?" Mac called out. "I think we should talk."

"Mac, go away." she cried. "I don't want to talk right now."

"Holly, please open the door." he pleaded. "I think you could use a little support right now."

She was in no mood to argue with him and he obviously knew that something was wrong. Besides she could really use a friend and who better to turn to than Robert's brother? Holly pulled herself up off the floor and walked over to the door, unlocking it.

After Mac entered the bathroom she locked the door back and resumed her position on the floor. Mac eyed the pregnancy test on the edge of the vanity and then took a seat next to her on the floor. He knew that she was scared to death, he could see it in her eyes. Ever so cautiously he reached for her hand and when she didn't flinch he took it as a sign and moved closer to her, pulling her into his arms.

"I guess I don't have to ask who the father is." he said.

"How did you know?" she asked as she lifted her eyes to meet his. "Or are you just guessing and I just made it easier for you?"

"I saw the two of you together, in the shower." he replied.. "I just want you to know that I'm not here to judge you. I want to help you through this anyway that I can."

"Thank you, but you really..."

"Holly." he interjected. "I want to. I waited for you to come to me, I thought maybe you could trust me." he said. "You've been sick the entire week."

"I wasn't ready to admit it to myself much less anyone else." she confessed. "But I need to do this before I go to the memorial."

Present

"I'm so sorry." Robert said as he pulled her back into his arms. "I know how hard that must have been and I'm sorry to put you through such hell."

"At least you're alive." she whispered. "That's all that matters."

Robert brought his hand up to her face and tilted her chin up so that he could look into her eyes. "I've missed you so much." he said softly as his mouth moved closer to hers. "I never thought I would be holding you in my arms like this ever again."

Holly inched closer and closer to him. "Robert." she whispered. "I...I can't do this." she said as she pulled away from him. "I can't hurt Luke. Not again."

tbc...