A/N...And guys if you are still here you all get a National "Most Loyal and Awesome Fanfiction Reader Ever" (MLAFRE) award, and trust me you deserve it! You rock!

Seriously though, I am soooo sorry it took me so long to update but I'm still continuing it and hopefully it will be easier for me to update now that i have more free time.

Wait what? "I don't own the Host"? Of course I do! What do you mean "Copyright laws"? I own the Host and that's final! Super copyright Ninja's do their kung foo flippy thingy into the room and beat Webgrll to a pulp.*

*Groans* Fine I'll admit it.."I don't own the Host!"

(Jodi's P.O.V.)

And as I pushed my desperation onto my goal I felt the alien's control waver and I realized that I had gained control of my mouth even
if only for a few seconds…

This was my chance, probably the only chance I would get to tell them I am here, to tell someone to free me.

"I'M HERE JODI'S..." I yell as loud as I can but am sudden thrust to the back to the back of my head losing control.

I don't fight it, I really can't, the hours of struggle had left me with little energy to anything except watch.

"…a, a, all he ever thinks about, I'm here to." She made a poor excuse for her yelling out I waited anxiously for Lily's reaction.

"Awww, Sunny its okay. Just give him time, you really can't blame him for missing Jodi." she lifted her head and stared Sunny right in the eye, not even flinching when she was met with the bright silver ring that stood as one of the only signs that Sunny was there instead of me. Lilly kept consoling her not even skipping a beat. "Trust me, he will get over her, eventually and see you for only you."

My first reaction was just disappointment that Lily had taken Sunny's excuse, and then her words sunk in.

Flashes of pain stabbed through me, tearing at my heart until there was no possibility that I could still be in one piece. Kyle wouldn't forget about me would he? Could he? I could never in a million years love anyone else, but could he move on and fall in love with someone else? And not just anyone, but the person who took my life away from me?

"No he won't" Sunny shook my head, "it's been six months and he still stares at me like it is all my fault, like I wanted all this to happen."

No! I seethed at her. He hates you for what you did to me. And for what you are doing to me right now.

He doesn't even know you're here. Sunny replied, panic surging through her. Like I had some how been able to tell him while being held captive.

I was bluffing but I didn't let her see it. For now, but can you imagine how he will react when he finds out? How do you think Kyle will feel when he finds out that you've been hiding me from him, do you think he could possibly love you then.

"No,no,nooooo!" Sunny wailed out loud.

Lily jumped to comfort her thinking she was only upset by their conversation.

"Shhh shhh shh." Lily whispered trying to reassure Sunny. "Everything's going to be okay I promise"

"How can you say that?" Sunny whispered. "How can you be sure?"

"Trust me Sunny, I know Kyle. He will get over it. He's one to hold grudges, sure, but he can move on. He's just having a hard time now but trust me, he'll get over it" she suddenly gave this spaced look and her next words came out barely as a whisper. "Time heals all wounds"

Sunny glanced up at Lily's to see that she was streaming silent tears of her own. I instantly knew what the cause of the tears having been through the same kind of heart break myself. I silently willed Sunny not to ask what was wrong, imagining how much worse it would be for Lily to speak her thoughts out loud. So Sunny of course did just that.

"Oh, Lily! What's wrong, are you hurt? Are you okay?" she asked it innocently, she seemed to be totally oblivious about this type of pain.

"N-n-no, it-t's n-nothing really" Lily faltered trying to hold back another on slot of tears.

"Lily come on, just tell me what's wrong?" Sunny persisted. If I could have, I would have slugged her right then and there.

"Its juh-its juhs-just..." she started, her body shaking; she took a deep breath and whispered. "That's what he told me. He, he found me in my room one time I was having a hard day, everyone in these caves has felt this at one point or another, the feeling that all we're doing is for nothing, that were living a half life. I mean do you know the last time I saw flowers, not the little buds that grow on cactus but real flowers? And then I was thinking about my parents and my little sister, sh-she wuw-was only eight when the when they came here, she never even stood a chance and my parents! Do you know their the only reason I even made it here?"

She shook her head, trying to force back painful memories.

We were one of the last family's to be taken. My parents had noticed from the very beggining that something was wrong, something was off. When the seeker came they held them off, screaming for me and my little sister to run. We ran out the back but I kept glancing behind me to make sure that Kate was still following behind. Then she tripped I don't know if she sprained or fractured something but she could barley keep running after that I tried carrying her but eventually a seeker caught up to us. She sprayed something at me and suddenly I was losing her, losing myself, all my sense of reality. I barley clung to reality I watched as the seeker came up to me and pried Kate away from me and carried her in the van. I had no strength left to fight it. It was just luck I guess when the seeker carried Kate to the car she had left the bottle of whatever she had sprayed at me next to me. I don't know if she figured I was knocked out or just forgot, but I grabbed it and when the seeker came for me I sprayed it in her face and she just collapsed. I knew I was minutes away from passing out myself so I used the last of my strength to crawl into a near by bush. I don't know how I was able to fight it off for so long or why none of the other seekers found me when they came and picked up the unconscious seeker and Kate. All I know is that when I woke up I was all alone."

She paused again, to try to calm her nerves; she was shaking all over now on the brink of loosing it and I plead with Sunny to let her stop. But, of course Sunny let her keep going thinking idiotically that the best thing to have her do is to let her let it out. Couldn't she see that Lily had already re-lived this situation countless times and that the last thing she needed was to re-open the wounds.

"I've tried to move on, and when me and Wes became a thing I really realized how lucky I was. He was there when I cried, comforting me in my darkest times and he was always able to pull me out of the nightmares that never seemed to end. He was always there for me ever since I came to the caves. And yet I was somehow so naïve as to not too see how perfect he was and how he actually loved me, me!"

She suddenly lost it exploding into racking sobs that echoed freely through the cave.

"AND WHEN I FINALLY REALIZED THAT WE WERE MEANT TO BE TOGATHER HE WAS KILLED!" she shrieked losing any piece of sanity that she had been able to hold onto.

Sunny was useless, just sobbing with her making no attempt to console her. I once again yearned for the use of my body if only to comfort Lily.

But I couldn't and Sunny obviously wasn't helping her.

Do something! I hissed to her.

Like what? Sunny was panicking expecting me to fight for my body again.

Anything! Comfort her! I was angry that she was wasting time worrying about me when Lily was out there fighting her own mental horrors on her own.

What do I do? She was so clueless, being babied in the perfect world of souls her whole life, or to be specific the whole of my life that she had taken from me.

Well you can start by not crying all over her-that's the last thing she needs.

She sniffled once and stopped; Lilly noticed and looked up wondering why she stopped.

What next? she was panicking again although I didn't have a clue why.

You're doing fine now I want you to say something comforting to her.

Like what?

Tell her everything is going to be okay

But it isn't!

Tell her anyway!

Sunny stammered "Ummm, it's going to be okay Lily, everything is going to be okay!"

Lilly looked up at her "How can you know that?"

Sunny was speechless trying to think of something to say. This was useless-Sunny had no idea what she was dealing with and had no clue how to help her.

Just give me my mouth back

No!

Just trust me, Lilly needs someone strong right now to lean on and you're not going to be able to handle it.

I forced my energy on trying to control my mouth, but Sunny was still holding fast.

"Jeeze Sunny now's not the time, I give my word Sunny, I will not take advantage of this to gain my freedom!

'Gain freedom' Sunny thought. 'Easily translated into ruining my life.' Sunny was weary but she loosened her hold.

I thrust all my energy on taking back control and Sunny shivered. It was hard to hold onto even though Sunny was worn down after all that had happened and I had a strong feeling that I wouldn't easily get this chance again.

I was very aware that this was the perfect spot to call for help and that I could easily get everyone to know I was here, but Lily needed me and right now my escape plans would have to wait.

"Lily look at me." I said my voice was a whisper but it still echoed in the cave. She lifted her face, her eyes puffy and pink from crying so hard.

"Lily, I'm so sorry. I wish I could say I know what your going through and that everything is going to get better right away but I can't. I can't say that I knew Wes personally but I can say that I know what a good person he is. I've heard so many stories about him time and time again and they always talk about what a wonderful, caring and all around good person he was."

She was nodding erratically bobbing her head in utter agreement.

I continued "and you know what? I also know what he would do right now if he was here. He would be going nuts worrying about you. If he was here he would be telling you that he wanted you to be strong. You have to remember that where ever he is he is happy now. When he said time heals all wounds he didn't mean he wants you to forget him. He just meant you have to live life anyway. "

Lily didn't say anything she just sat there, her head down running the words back through her head. But her breathing had calmed to a steady pace and she stopped shaking. I took this as a good sign.

Is she going to be okay? Sunny asked.

Yes. I said and then glanced at Lily worried she had heard me say it out loud.

Sunny thought for a moment. Thank you. she finally said.

Pretty funny how hard it was for a soul to say thank you, although in her defense she figured, I had quote "ruined her life" and it must not be easy to thank someone after that.

Sunny was suddenly guilty. "I'm sorry!"

"It's okay. You are only being human."

She gave a small shiver and started to defend herself when she was cut off by the sound of Jebs voice echoing through the hallways.

"Sunny, Lily you girls all right."

I actually felt physical pain as Sunny panicky forced back her control. I fought back for a minute but it felt as though there was a solid concrete layer of ice boxing me in, the thick numbing wall separating me from not only my body but reality itself. No I whispered recognizing the feeling of falling back into nothingness, NO! I said louder this time, imagining being gone before I ever even got to talk to Kyle, I fought tooth and nail and managed just barely to cling to existence. I couldn't tell if she had purposely tried to erase me again or if she had done that out of sheer panic, but she had her walls up so either way I could tell she had wanted me gone.

Sunny nodded her head but didn't say anything. I could feel anxiety radiating around her wall, and also... guilt?

"Well, I just came by to make sure your 'kay and to let you know that everybody's in bed now. So if you want to come down to the kitchen 'n grab some grub before yah go to bed that it's fine by me."

"No thank you" Sunny said while Lily answered, "I think I'd rather just go to bed if it's okay"

Well suit yerselves then but later on I'll be grabbin myself a bite, oh which reminds me, Sunny we'll be postponing the raid until further notice.

"What? No! Why?" Sunny was startled.

"Well we figured it wouldn't be right to drag you on a raid with Kyle after what he did and with Paige and Andy in the hospital and Melanie and Jared soon to be joining them we're a little short handed without them.

Why are there people in the hospital? I asked Sunny, before she could answer Lily spoke up "Melanie's only six months in, what's she doing in their so early?

"Err. Jared's kinda paranoid about keepin her and the baby safe; I can assure she's not taken it very well."

Sunny was not sidetract "No Jeb, you can't stall the raid because of me, of course I will go."

I recognized from her earlier memories what a raid meant, long hours of car rides alone with him. No. Never. Definately unacceptable.

"Are ya sure? It's just you, Kyle, Wanda and Ian so you'd be stuck with Kyle."

No you don't! I hissed.

You're stopping me from being able to help them! She accused. To her, her second worse fear, only second to me getting my body back and taking Kyle from her, had just been revealed.

You can help them some other way but stay away from Kyle I growled at her.

She was suddenly angry, her pitiful anger fueled her to say something that she would definitely regret.

"No it's fine I'll go."

"I'll go too" Lily piped "I think I'm sick of these caves, some fresh air might be good for me."

I was so proud of Lily that I momentarily forgot about my anger at sunny then I thought of her and Kyle sharing
a room, a bed! and my anger returned.

"There, that's the spirit. Now I'll set the raid for tomorrow night so yah girls might want to get some shut-eye"

"Okay, see you Jeb" Sunny said then left the room with out a second glance.

"I hope I don't regret this" Sunny sighed shaking her head.

Oh you will. I seethed I'll be sure of it.

Sunny gulped.