I think I'm going to try and swap pov more often, because writing whole chapters from Bella's pov is very difficult, which is why they take so long, because I can't describe what she sees, so have to describe other feelings and such, thanks for your patience
Bella POV, Monday morning
I sit at the table with my dad, swirling my spoon around a long ago empty bowl "Little restless this morning Bells" he comments as he pulls his jacket on "am I?" I ask, feigning disinterest "Just waiting for my ride to get here.." he chuckles and ruffles my hair "I'll see you later kiddo" are his last words before he's gone. Soon after, there's a knock and I place my dishes in the sink and take a deep breath before stepping back to open the door. Jasper is, of course, on the other side "Morning, Dizzy" he takes a step closer, brushing a strand of hair away from my eyes "I hope you didn't mind my chickening out and waiting for your father to leave before I knocked" he chuckles, places a kiss on my cheek.
"No.. I don't mind" Jasper tilts my head up, places a tender kiss on the corner of my lips before he takes my hand and we walk outside "Good job you offered a ride, it's going to rain soon." I state, taking a deep breath in through my nose. Overly sweet grass, hay, and rain. He hmms, squeezes my hand and opens the car door for me "Your ride, lady Isabella" I laugh, mock curtsey and duck into the car. Leather seats, quiet engine, Bob Marley playing from the cd player. I like this car. Jasper slides into the drivers seat, and we're off "You're wearing the jacket" he remarks lightly, rubbing his hand on my shoulder "Well I figured in case you change your mind.." I run a hand through my hair, unsure if the curls last nights style left it in will look raggedy "I didn't change my mind, and your hair looks very pretty, stop messing with it" he chuckles again, taking my hand.
As we approach the school I feel apprehension settle in my stomach. How are we supposed to act? Are we a couple or just friends? I mentally scold myself for not asking Jasper when I had the chance...The car engine cuts out "I'll come around and open your door, dizzy" he pats my shoulder before sliding out of the car. Walking, then the pop of my own door being pulled open. I jump out of the seat, and wind Jasper's arm around my waist. I figure if I'm going for this I might as well give it some balls. "I'll let you call the shots as far as.. well, the two of us goes, dizzy girl" he murmurs in my ear as we turn away from the car
"Don't tell me.. people are staring" I laugh nervously as he replies that yes, they are. I shrug, reach up to kiss his cheek "Where's the rest of your family today?" I ask, resting my head against his shoulder "Rosalie and Emmett are still looking at colleges, Edward is home ill and Alice is away for two days on a shopping holiday in Paris with an old friend.. "Oh, perhaps we could pop in and check on Edward later? I noticed he wasn't very fond of me and I figure anything to earn brownie points..." Jasper sighs, tightens his arm around my waist "You don't have to worry about what Edward thinks of you, Bella, the others all think you're lovely.." he promises, beginning to walk us up to the school.
I hear Jessica call out my name, and give her a passing wave "So I suppose it's just you and me at lunch today?" I ponder "Sure, if we stay that long, if you like we could ditch early to go see Edward" I hmm in response, shrugging lazily "We'll see, maybe before last period since I only have gym.." he laughs, kisses the top of my head "I like the way you think, dizzy girl" I giggle, lean against his side "Bella!" This time I stop, recognizing the voice of Angela. A quiet, nice girl who I got placed next too in enlgish class "Hi Angie!" I reply, swivelling to make sure I face her "I was wondering if I could enlist your help.." she starts "I'm having some trouble with that Bio homework from mr banner and it's in tomorrow, would you mind coming over after school to help me out?"
I consider it for a moment, then decide I have nothing better to do.. "Sure thing Angela, I'll see you around five?" if I ditch gym with Jasper at half two we can spend time with Edward until around half three and have an hour and a half alone with Jasper.. She breaths a sigh of relief "You're a life saver, Bella!" she thanks me and scribbles down her address before running off "I'll drop you off at Angela's, if you like" Jasper offers, and I nod, twirl a hand through my hair once more "Sure, Charlie is working late tonight so we can hang out at mine after visiting Edward" he sighs happily, presses his lips to my hair "the perfect plan, my dizzy girl"
There it is again. My. My dizzy girl my dizzy love. Not in a possessive way, not like I'm something he owns, like someone he shares a connection with. I smile, snuggle further into his side as we move to sit down on one of the benches outside the school "Ready for that test, Jasper?" he squeezes my waist and laughs "Should be easy enough, Edward will be happy he's missing it though, between you and me piano is really all he can do, he never really saw the point in bothering with much else"
I hmm, rest my head against his shoulder, revelling in the cotton soft sensation of whatever t-shirt he had decided to wear today pressing against my cheek "What colours your t-shirt, Jasper?" he laughs again, rubs his calloused palm up my arm "Dark purple, dizzy girl, with long sleeves" I sigh, snuggle further into his side, reach up to run my fingers through his tangled honey hair "Forget to use a comb this morning?" I mock, working gently through a knot at the nape of his neck, he laughs lightly in response, his hand still rubbing at my arm "Alice would kill you.." I continue "Making the most of her absence, I assume? As long as you don't turn up with dreadlocks next week.."
Towards the end of music class, Jasper pov
I watch Bella as she tilts her head to the side, listening to the last question buzzing through her ear phones before her fingers ghost lightly across the braile marked keyboard and type out an answer with certainty, a smile tugging at her lips. She seems to realize she's being observed and swivels her head slightly, unknowingly catching my gaze with her milky brown eyes. I study them for a moment as they swirl with thoughts and her un-told secrets, hazel flecks highlighted by the lamp positioned on the desk close to her. She taps her bitten nails against the table in a one-two-three rhythm, and she pulls in a deep sigh, looking forlorn and doe eyed.
The tense set of her shoulders worries me, and I cast a glance to the outside world, checking for potential danger that could harm her, and I saw nothing, so instead I scrutinized her emotions, finding worry and apprehension, but also happiness. Perhaps a more official and time consuming meeting with Edward was on her mind? The bell rang and she picked her bag up from her feet, sliding it over her shoulder. I walk over and pick up her books before she has a chance, kissing her cheek "lunch time" I grin, taking her hand as we walk out of the music block and towards the main school.
I help her put her things in her locker, and we start towards the cafeteria "Do you wanna sit with Jess and Angie or just the two of us?" I ask, noting the frown when Jessica is mentioned "Mike sits with them." she reasons, and I wrap an arm around her waist, pull her closer for a moment and press a kiss to her temple "Then just the two of us" she nods, her hands gripping the back of my neck as she repeats my words in a whisper. Then we break apart, entering the cafeteria, and her tawny eyes widen slightly at the rise of the noise levels.
We pick up our food, pizza and a sprite for her, I grab the same. Then, I take us outside. To the willow tree.
She smiles, breathing deeply through her nose "the willow tree?" she laughs, drags us forward and through the canopy of leaves. She finds her way and we sit down, her back against the tree trunk "I first met the others out here..." she muses, unscrewing the lid from her bottle and taking a sip, smiling "Yeah, you also screamed and ran away from me when I tried to kiss you..." Bella raises an eyebrow and purses her lips for a moment, then laughs, before she turns towards me, places a hand on my cheek and absently rubs her thumb over my jaw, her caramel eyes half lidded and dazed as she leans in, pressing a nervous, feather light kiss to my lips.
She tastes of sprite and vanilla, my hands rest against her hips, I deepen the kiss, sucking on her lower lip, hear her breath catch in her throat, our teeth clash and there's a breathless laugh before our lips meet again passionately, her hands tugging at my hair, and I pull back to let her breath, ducking my head to press a kiss to her neck. Then I see it. The pulsing vein, throbbing in time to her quickening heartbeat, and being stupid, I carry on anyway.
A monster roars, rattling in my chest, and I am not myself.
My dizzy girl is pinned against a tree, a savages hands pressing into her flesh, digging in enough to leave bruises against her hips and neck. Then the horror lunges forward, his dark eyes unreadable as his teeth scrape at the delicate skin of her throat, and she's pleading quietly. Telling Jasper to breath, to let her go, to wake up and realize what he's doing.
He's gasping, spluttering, apologising over and over as he releases her, stumbling backwards, out of the shelter of the willow tree. Her hand reaches out, arm extended as she asks him to wait, to sit and talk to her. It's too late, he's gone, up and running and tearing out of school grounds. She's furrowing her brows, trying to pinpoint where it all could have gone so pear shaped, shaking and huddling further into the warmth of his leather jacket and the comfort of his grass and hay smell still stuck to it, holding a hand against her neck and feeling where his teeth rubbed against her skin. No blood, just a stinging and an almost crushing sense of confusion and loss.
She draws in an unstable breath, stands up and runs a hand through her hair , chewing on her lip and wondering what she did wrong, what could have caused such a vicious reaction. Bella knows the stories, Jacob spun her the legends of the cold ones and the wolf men while walking on a beach in a misguided attempt to be flirtatious. A reaction so... Vampire.. it couldn't be purely coincidence.
