Disclaimer: I do not own teen titans or it's characters this is simply writing inspired by the show.

Chapter warning: Adult content in this chapter.


Chapter 9: Confession

Trouble.

Trouble is what Beast Boy and Raven thought as they literally did the walk of shame out of her room silently as they followed behind Robin. They glanced at each other, slightly nervous.

Raven and Beast Boy stood in the control room awkwardly as Robin stared at them hard with his arms crossed, leaning against the monitor, staring them down like kids who just got caught doing something wrong.

What an awkward trio.

Eventually Beast Boy couldn't stand the silence, "It isn't what it looked like." He blurted out.

Robin raised a brow at him, "So you two weren't sleeping together?"

"I mean we were sleeping together in bed but we didn't like...sleep together..." Beast Boy started awkwardly.

Nice job Beast Boy you're really handling things well, Raven muttered sarcastically in his mind.

Robin just winced and Beast Boy went on, "I mean like...we didn't...do it...you know..."

Raven wanted to sink into the shadows and disappear.

Beast Boy rubbed his neck, "...like...we just went to bed...but...not like...in bed...like.."

"Okay. Enough. We are not talking about this." Raven finally spoke firmly as she looked at Robin, "It isn't a big deal. Nothing happened. We just fell asleep. End of story. Nothing. More."

Robin turned to her, "I don't believe it. Something has been going on between you two. I know it. Don't deny it."

"There is nothing to deny," Raven told him evenly but he just raised his eyebrow.

"Explain then," Robin frowned.

"Explain what?"

"Explain to me. How you two, people who can barely stand being in the same room with each other for a full minute, complete polar opposites, with nothing going on...as you guys claim...explain how you two ended up in bed together." Robin challenged them to answer.

Raven opened her mouth but closed it again, maintaining her posture.

God it was easier facing trigon than facing Robin right now. He was worse than a demon father.

Beast Boy stepped forward, "...okay look...last night...I went into Raven's room because I wanted to talk...I had something on my mind...I didn't keep track of time and we fell asleep..

But that's it. Nothing. Else. Happened. I didn't get in her pants okay... I know it's out of character for us to talk...but we kinda bonded a little the two weeks you guys were gone."

Robin nodded carefully, "Okay...so you two bonded...not entirely believable but I suppose not completely impossible okay. Well thought out answer. I'm going to ask something once and answer it with the truth. Is there something between you two that I need to know?"

Beast Boy lost his patience, "Why are you prying so much we just told you nothing happened! Why do you want to know so bad?"

"Because I am concerned for you two, you've been acting strange lately. It has me worried. It's my job to know what goes on in our team." Robin replied firmly.

"Just because you're our leader doesn't mean you need to know everything that goes on in our lives," Beast Boy looked firmly at Robin with those bright green eyes.

Raven could feel the testosterone building up in the room as the two boys looked at each other. The two boys stepped forward inches away, arms crossed and eyes set. They were both the same height now, they had the same lean and slight muscular build now.

Equals.

So why didn't Robin treat him like one?

Raven stepped between them, pushing them slightly apart, "Stop. Enough. Look Robin. I've told you before and I'll tell you again. There is nothing between Beast Boy and I. Nothing. We are barely friends alright. Maybe we got caught up in the moment but that was a mistake. He and I have nothing."

She said it coldly and calmly like a nurse telling a patient a shot wouldn't hurt as she pierced the skin with the needle and the pain flowed in.

And that's what happened to Beast Boy after she said those words.

The pain flowed in.

Beast Boy's eyes softened slightly and his arms slacked, "...yeah...she's right. There's nothing between us at all..."

Robin looked between the both of them and didn't loosen his stare, "Alright. I believe you but next time you two want to talk. Don't do it in a bedroom. That isn't the place for a guy and a girl to just talk. It gives out the wrong idea."

Raven felt her cheeks turn pink.

God Robin. His intentions were good she could feel his emotion of protectiveness, like an older brother would be.

But it was still awkward.

"You're such a dad. We are not kids," Beast Boy blushed slightly, "...Well there now you know, not a big deal. Nothing there." Beast Boy muttered as he walked out without looking at Raven.

Raven felt a twinge of guilt as he left but maintained her feet planted as she watched him go.

Robin looked at her, "...look...I'm just looking out for you..boys can be very impulsive...and-"

Oh God was Robin tring to give her the talk.

Raven glared, "Don't."


Raven jogged down the steps in front of the titan tower, her black tennis shoes hitting the cement steadily as she listened to upbeat music, her earphones swaying slightly.

She stopped at the bottom of the steps and held her thighs as she caught her breath and she looked down at the steps, the spot were she had kissed Beast Boy only a few nights ago.

She pushed the hot memory of them making out in the dark away, pushing it very deeply away.

As if it was not a memory as much as a simple thought.

She jogged further away towards the obstacle course outside and slowed down as she saw Cyborg and Beast Boy were training.

Beast Boy had just morphed back from an ape and he was shirtless, sweat trickling down his slight and toned muscles. He was grinning at Cyborg as he breathed unevenly, the sun hitting him at a certain angle, his green skin illuminated.

Beast Boy glanced at her from the side when he noticed her there. She was in a black sports bra and gray shorts, her hair in those braids and she took her earphones out.

"You wanna train?" Cyborg asked her when no one else spoke.

"I can wait for you guys to finish," Raven answered and went to turn around but Cyborg stopped her.

"I actually have to do some work on the T-car, you can finish up BB for me," he said and Beast Boy's mouth opened slightly.

When did Cyborg decide to stop ruining moments and start initiating them?

"I-" Raven began but Cyborg had already shut the door and went inside.

Beast Boy turned to her, his sinewy arms crossed at his chest, "You don't have to train with me if you don't want to."

Raven looked at him measuredly, her violet eyes narrowing, "It's not that I don't want to..."

They hadn't really talked since the confrontation with Robin. They'd kept their distance that week, keeping to themselves and eyeing each other from a distance.

Beast Boy wouldn't admit it but Raven's words had hurt.

They were honest words.

Beast Boy shrugged a shoulder, "Its because you're scared to lose to me then?"

Raven raised a hand filled with black power, "I'm not scared of losing. Not to you."

Beast Boy smirked, "Could you beat me in hand to hand? No powers? Just...Body. To. Body."

Raven just stepped forward towards him until she was a few feet away and she shoved him back hard. He recovered quickly and swung his leg around knocking her off her feet. She fell back hard and he grabbed her ankle.

Raven kicked him hard in the face and stood up, she kicked him straight in his toned four pack stomach.

"You can hit harder can't you?" Raven frowned.

Beast Boy got up swiftly and knocked into her shoulder roughly, making her fall back. Damn that hurt. He raised a fist as if to punch her and he smirked, his fist turning into an open hand.

"I'd never punch you, but I win," he said as he helped her up. He pulled her a little too close as he helped her up and they looked at each other roughly.

"You are irritating," Raven growled as her heart beat hard in her chest.

Beast Boy honestly couldn't help himself anymore.

Yeah he was hurt by her but at the moment he was thinking with his body.

He wanted her. Now.

He pulled her arm as he lead her around the titan tower.

"What are you-?" Raven mumbled as Beast Boy pulled her near some bushes and pushed her against the wall.

He looked down at her sensually and put a hand on the wall beside her head, his eyes predatorial. This wasn't the beast.

This was all Beast Boy.

He crashed his lips on hers and opened her mouth forcibly, kissing her hard. Raven's brows twitched as her she tilted her head to his tempo and she put her arms around him, brushing against muscled skin.

He was so damn irritating but this made her feel good...? This...made her stomach drop.

But her being her...she pushed any feelings away.

Feelings were dangerous.

She didn't push Beast Boy away though.

She had her body under control.

She supposed.

She felt him put his hands on her butt firmly and pull he pushed his hips against hers roughly. She gripped his arms and dug her nails into them as he grinded on her lightly, as his bulge pressed in between her legs. She felt a mix of hot throbbing down there and she grew tense when he bit her neck way too hard.

She pushed at his chest, "Woah slow down."

He pulled away and smiled darkly at her beneath loose strands of hair.

Bright green eyes like spring grass.

Beast Boy.

"...for a moment...I thought the beast had possessed you..." Raven breathed hard.

He dug his face in her neck, "...he almost...almost did...it's hard to...contain him around you...he..." He pressed a hand on his crotch and turned from her.

"It's hard to suppress this Raven...I'm sorry." He mumbled.

She watched him carefully with set eyes, her cheeks still pink from their heated kissing.

"I can help you," Raven told him and he turned to her with his eyes blank.

She read his mind and she blushed and glared, "...not like that you idiot. I meant...we could try going into your mind. It's going to take me awhile to figure out how to make it but I know I can make you a mirror like mine. A portal into your mind."


"Beast Boy look out you're going to kill us all!" Starfire screamed in terror.

"Relax I know what I'm doing!" He grinned and looked at her as he turned the steering wheel of the car sharply and the T-car swayed to the far left of the road.

"Eyes on the road BB! I swear if you even as much as dent my car I'm going to tie you to the top and take a joyride," Cyborg growled at him as he adjusted the wheel from beside him.

"Remind me again why you're letting him drive?" Robin asked from the backseat next to Starfire.

"Because Cyborg lost a bet! I beat him on Clash of drones today," Beast Boy grinned and swerved some more.

Raven glared at Cyborg from beside Starfire, "How could you bet our lives like that?"

Cyborg frowned as they hit a speed bump to quickly, "If I won the bet i was going to get to drive his motorcycle. So close..."

They finally got downtown and they all jumped out of the car in a series of uncliping seat belts and thrown open doors of relief and stood in a circle to plan out their direction.

"Okay first we hit the west and south end then we hit the north and east-" Robin said seriously and Raven rolled her eyes.

"We aren't on a mission why are you taking like that. It's our day off." Raven frowned.

Robin frowned back and Starfire squealed in happiness, "We are finally spending the day in togetherness as friends! What a beautiful occasion! I shall now recite a hundred lines of a Tamaranian song of rejoice! Oh-"

"No!" The rest of the team shouted in unison.

Starfire pouted and grabbed Raven's arm, "Very well my many human breeds of friends. I Starfire of a Tamaran propose we take the direction of...the Shoe Store!"

Everyone groaned but who was going to tell the redhead alien any differently?

Two hours into their shopping nightmare at the makeup store now, Raven was walking by the large glass windows looking at the dark liquid lipsticks.

The only good makeup was for was to cover up the hickies Beast Boy gave her.

She shuddered god this was boring. Cyborg had been smart and snuck away to the auto shop, she should've went with him.

"Which one do you prefer Robin? Ruby red or cherry blossom pink?" Starfire chirped as she held up the lipsticks to him. He rubbed his neck and shrugged,"...uh they're both fine I guess." Starfire frowned,"You need to chose one as this is of great importance to you as well considering some of this will end up on your lips as well."

Robin blushed and Beast Boy grabbed them out of her hands inspecting them, "Are these cruelty free? No I don't think so! Read the packaging! It tests on animals Star! I told you to look for the cruelty free brands!"

Raven caught the sight of a hooded person walking down the street through the window. Skin golden and rich, eyes glinting like sapphires...

She put the makeup down and rushed out of the store to follow him.

"But I like these colors!" Starfire cried as Robin tried to console her and Beast Boy watched Raven leave. He left Starfire and Robin talking, telling them he was going to another store. He caught up to Raven quickly and she jumped slightly as he walked beside her.

"Where you going?" He asked her as she tried to keep track of where Saf was headed. He walked into a suit and dress store.

"I'm going to...buy a dress," she replied blankly.

"You're going to buy a dress?" He repeated with a raised brow.

"Yeah I mean I'm going to need one for the mayor's wedding party," she went on as they walked.

"I thought you said you weren't going. That weddings weren't your thing," Beast Boy crossed his arms.

"Well they aren't but I know I'll end up being forced to go. Plus it's an all white party and the only thing I own that's white is one of my uniforms," she replied steadily, her Violet eyes wincing.

Raven checked her watch and looked at the store Saf walked into, "I gotta head on now before the store closes."

Beast Boy eyed her, with her loose wavy hair and jeans and t-shirt, "Okay. I'll leave you to it then..."

He took her wrist first and checked out her navy blue watch that Cyborg taught her to make, "You know I love that watch. You should make me one like that."

Raven pulled her wrist away and began jogging backwards to the store smirking, "Its a custom, just for me."


When she went in the store she was met with an assortment of dresses and tux's everything very high end and expensive looking. She took it in with slight awe before searching for the purple eyed Titan.

It didn't take her long to find him in the tux area,

"So you're following me now?" He asked not looking up as he skimmed through suits.

She searched emptily on the opposite rack, "I didn't follow you exactly. I just saw you."

Saf grinned and joined her on the rack she was searching in, "Won't your boyfriend be jealous you're here?"

She frowned, "He isn't my boyfriend...Look Saf, I have a lot of questions...especially about how you came to be."

He looked around and pulled her arm, leading her to a dressing room and pulling the door to a close. Raven's heart beat as they stood close only inches apart.

"Like I told you before my father isn't Trigon. My father was under the demonic hierarchy. His name was Lucifer. My powers aren't nearly as powerful as yours, they are more thinned out and I'm better at spells then anything else." He told her in almost a whisper.

"Are there more like us?" Raven whispered back in awe.

"No there are not. There has been one before us but we are the only ones left." He told her, "The book I gave you, was a book that belonged to one of them. He's long gone now though. And you, are the only one who was fathered by Trigon himself."

"Why did you look for me?" Raven blurted out, her breathing rushed at having this guy so close.

He smiled his jaw sharp and strong, "Its only logical. I heard about you and your powers when I moved here from europe. I also believed I was the only one of my kind. We are the only half demons in existence. I supposed we could help each other understand a few things."

Before Raven could blurt out another question he stopped her, "As much as I love chatting with you dear Raven I have to get going. We will see each other again soon."

He opened the dressing room door and stepped out, picking a random suit and buying it quickly before walking out.

Raven's heart was beating quickly a thousands thoughts running through her mind.

He could help her figure out what was going on with her emotions and how to stop it.

"Can I help you with something?" A lady working there asked her and Raven nodded staring in the distance.

"Yes I need a dress."


Beast Boy walked out of the alternation shop across from the dress and tux shop Rave was in and saw Saf walk out in all of his glory.

He met with those sapphire eyes that winked at him and gave him a grin and Beast Boy glared wanting to maul him right there.

He turned when he walked past him, hitting Saf's shoulder with his own.

"Stay away from Raven," he growled at Saf in a primeval way.

Saf just smirked and walked off dissapearing in the crowd.

When Raven got out the store with a bag she met with Beast Boy's infuriated self.

"I just saw aladdin boy Titan leave the store, you're still talking to that jerk?" He growled.

Raven ran a hand across her face, ugh.

"Yes...I am. His name is Saf, Look he's not a jerk okay, he's a half demon. He can help me." Raven set her eyes at Beast Boy.

"I don't trust him Raven. I don't want you talking with him," he told her and she laughed emptily.

"You're one to talk. Just like I didn't trust Terra? But you still went ahead and did. You can't tell me what good judgement is."

"And you ended up being right about her. There! You always love being right don't you but you don't care about anyone or anything but yourself." Beast Boy growled and turned leaving her among the crowds of people.

She watched him go feeling sick.

Beast Boy... she thought into his mind.

No response.

She had been wrong.


Starfire and Raven hit the wall of the abandoned house of mirrors, cracking the mirrors and sliding down slowly.

Ouch.

Kitten. The lovely daughter of killer moth. She was giving them the sweet treatment of her plasma whip.

The boys were holding up the mutant moths on the other side the forest and Starfire and Raven had the lovely honor of dealing with her moths royal highness here in the abandoned amusement park.

"Maybe after this Robin will finally realize how pitiful you are Starfire!" She giggled darkly. "I mean how could he pick you over me? Look at yourself! You're a nasty alien! Who could ever want that?!"

Raven blasted her away and knocked her down but Kitten went off to the other side of the forest past the trees.

Raven was going to follow her and levitated but noticed Starfire sitting limply, staring at her distorted reflection in the broken mirror.

"...her words...they were true. I am an alien how could Robin ever want me? My skin is strange and I do not know how to act or speak normally...my eyebrows are strange...I am strange..." Starfire spoke slowly.

Raven's feet hit the ground and she looked down at Starfire firmly.

She didn't know the redhead struggled with image issues. Raven always thought Starfire was ridiculously beautiful with her long legs and amazing body. She had an otherworldly beauty. She didn't think there was an inch of insecurity in her.

"We all have things. We don't like about ourselves. It's a part of life. We aren't perfect but we want to be. It's a fight that we can't win. It's useless to fight that battle."

Starfire looked up at her innocently and Raven sighed,"Look I can't stand my height I think I'm too short and I've always hated my skin. I'm pale and grey...but that's me and i accept me. The sooner you accept yourself, the happier you will be. And...you are honestly the most beautiful alien I've ever seen so don't sweat it. "

Starfire smiled and stood up more confidently, "Thank you for your kind words friend Raven. You are the most beautiful demon I've ever met."

"Let's go kick Kitten's ugly butt."


"I can't hold them off!" Robin shouted.

"Maybe it's because you're too weak!" Beast Boy shouted as they fought off the moths.

Robin glared at him, "Why are you so cranky?"

"I'm not!" Beast Boy growled as he morphed between a rhino and a bear.

Cyborg blasted at a group of moths ahead of them.

"What is your problem?" Robin shouted at him and the two boys faced each other.

Beast Boy snapped,"...you! You are my problem. I'm sick and tired of you!" He shouted.

"Me?! What did I ever do to you?" Robin growled back.

"You've always treated me like some dumb kid! Like I'm not good for anything. You're always putting me down like I'm less than you!" Beast Boy said it breathily and Robin's eyes widened.

"That's not true!" Robin replied firmly.

Beast Boy laughed half heartedly, "Yes it is Robin and you know it. I'm sick and tired of feeling like I'm less than you. I'm not that same dumb kid you met who was your number one fan and had your action figure. I'm your teamate now. Your equal. When will you see that?"

"Beast Boy I-"

"You know...I kept that stupid bunkbed all these years because I thought you'd sleep over with me? Like brothers...but you laughed in my face. You know I haven't thrown out that stupid bed..."

"Ugh I hate to ruin the little family talk but I need help over here!" Cyborg shouted as he held off the moths.

Robin and Beast Boy went back to fighting off the moths with Cyborg knocking them out together.

"I'm sorry Beast Boy. I didn't know you felt that way." Robin shouted to Beast Boy as they fought.

"Yeah...it's cool it doesn't matter anymore anyways." Beast Boy replied limply as he morphed back and forth lunging at the moths. The three managed to make them fly off and they stood together in triumph.

Robin looked over at Beast Boy, "...if you want. You, Cyborg and I could sleep in your room tonight and then buy you a new bed tomorrow. It's time."

Beast Boy's eyes twinkled, "Sounds cool."

Their moment was ruined as Kitten cut through the trees and met them, her plasma whip in hand. She grinned at the boys and looked them over her eyes stopping on Beast Boy.

"My my well haven't you changed into quite the looker," she grinned, "Cute boys."

Raven and Starfire burst from the trees behind her ready to strike. Kitten giggled, glaring at them and reached behind her dress.

What was she doing?

Her dress plopped to the grass and her naked body was exposed for everyone to see.

Everyones eyes widened and no one said a word.

Damn, Beast Boy thought and Raven glared at him making him blush.

"Look closely Boys. This is what a real women looks like unlike your comrades over there." She laughed.

Starfire was as red as her hair, boiling with anger. She began pulling at her clothes and Raven stared in horror, "Star-!"

The alien girl began undressing herself and threw her clothes to the ground until she was completely exposed in all her intergalactic glory.

The boys must of been enjoying the show.

The girls hair covered their breasts but still there they were. Exposed.

Starfire stood tall and looked at Kitten with strength and power, "I am Starfire of Tamaran and I accept myself!"

Robin's mouth dropped and he almost fainted and Beast Boy let out a scream as if he just saw his sister naked. Cyborg face palmed.

The boys looked at Raven to see if she would follow along and she blushed pink and glared,"No."

Starfire and Kitten began fighting it out, Starfire's power and Kitten's whip swirling around them and covering them slightly.

Raven took the opportunity of everyone's distraction to grab Beast Boy's arm and lead him away into the abandoned amusement park.

She looked into his eyes.

He was still mad.

"What do you want from me? You're still mad at me. Why?" She asked him finally as they reached an abandoned carousel.

Beast Boy crossed his arms, "I want something, for you to tell me your feelings."

Raven sighed in frustration, "But why...I don't get it! I already told you feelings are dangerous okay. My emotions are messed up right now and I need to control them. Catching feelings won't help my case. You said you'd help me but you're only making things difficult."'

"You're emotions getting messed up has been the best thing to happen to you. I actually know more about you now...you've opened up some to me..I see some feeling...but you still hold back! Honestly fixing your control on emotions...

...I don't want you to fix it." He told her bitterly.

She stared and winced at him, "But...why...?"

He swallowed and looked at her lovely delicate face with her wide Violet eyes and small full lips. Her hair was down and wild. She looked beautiful as the wind blew lightly, the dark carousel behind her.

"...because I love you."

He said it simply. Words that held so much meaning. Came out so simply. He felt a rush come out of him, as if he was soaring when he said that and saw her eyes widen.

A long silence that felt like forever stretched out before them.

"...you can't." She told him finally her eyes glassy as the wind blew her hair.

"Well I do."

"I told you...there's no future with me..." she told him slowly her heart racing.

She felt she was on the edge of a cliff and she was about to jump off.

"I know you said that. But I just..do." He admitted freely.

He was doing a lot of confessions today.

"...I know...you want me to say it...and you know...I can't..." she breathed and he stepped to her holding her face.

"I know Raven...I know...I know..." he replied softly.

Single tears fell from her glassy eyes as the wind picked up and they just stared at each other.

"...I don't know what I feel right now..." she admitted and she hugged him tiredly, "...I care for you...you're my family...I never knew love though...I never knew it..I can't...tell you...if I don't know..."

Beast Boy understood that.

She never knew what love was.

Not even from her own mother.

"...but I do know...I'd give my life for you." She told him softly as they stood in each other's arms.

They pulled away and looked at each other carefully before Beast Boy put his arms around her and kissed her hungrily, carrying her so her legs wrapped around his waist and he pushed her against the carousel as he kissed her hard.

He trailed hot kisses down her neck harshly and hungrily. He let their hips touch hotly making a warmth in between them. He stuck his hand in between them and pulled at the bottom of her leotard finding her panties.

Raven felt his bulge grow against her and felt a growing nervousness grow in her stomach.

Was this...going to happen..?

Beast Boy pulled away from the kiss, their lips moist with saliva as he pushed the front of his pants down to reveal his long and bouncy member, the tip wet.

Raven began panicking, god why did he have to be...big...

Being the whole animal kingdom had that gift she supposed.

Beast Boy kissed her cheek warmly and shushed her, "...I won't hurt you.."

He grabbed his member and pushed it past her panties and he rubbed it all over the front of every opening she had. She felt the moistness build between them as he groaned deeply in her neck and she tightened her arms around his neck.

Oh God oh god what was he...

He pushed the tip in slightly and she just screamed and he kissed her.

"Damn...Raven I didn't even put it in." He whispered as he just continued rubbing on her. She had her eyes closed, her eyebrows twitching as pressure built up in her stomach and she felt she would burst.

Then she looked into his eyes as she felt a change.

Dark eyes.

The...beast...

Raven thought quickly and pulled the beast into a deep kiss. This seemed to surprise him as he kissed her back roughly, his arms tightening around her.

Beast Boy! Beast Boy get a hold of yourself! Get a hold! She thought to him in a panic as she felt the friction of their naked hips together.

The beast tried to push himself in he slightly like Beast Boy had and Raven pushed him back.

Garfield Logan come back! She thought hard.

The eyes...

Bright green. Emeralds.

Beast Boy.

Raven smiled in relief and hugged him tightly making his member rub up on her and he groaned.

"...s-sorry..." he gasped as he was overcome with pleasure at the moment.

Raven breathed hard, "...I..."

"Raven! Beast Boy!" Robin's voice called out in the distance.

"Damn!" Beast Boy groaned, "We keep getting...interrupted...we can't even...do it...tonight...Robin is sleeping in my room.." he said miserably as he pulled up his pants and set Raven down.

"Don't...worry. We will have our chance," she told him breathily and shaking slightly.

"Right now lets just try to make it look like we almost didn't just have sex on a carousel. Robin would die." Beast Boy grinned.


Thank you so much for reading! I gave u guys another long chapter! So so sorry! Hope you liked it. Maybe in the next chapter there won't be interruptions who knows...but anyways thank you for your support and advice as always. Much appreciated I hope you guys are well!