Here's finally Edward's reaction-I hope you like it. I know it's kinda short but I wanted this to be a separate chapter and I wanted to update before monday, I hope that's okay.

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…I want to be honest with you, that is why I am telling you now. I am a bisexual, I had a relationship with Simone before I knew you and I got my heart broken by her about half a year before I came here. I am really sorry I haven't told you this until now, You have to believe me that,okay, please? "

"Edward can you ...can you say something? " I brought out between the tears that were now running down my cheeks. I felt even more confidence and happiness directed at me, but chose to ignore it. I looked Edward into the face, begging him to answer me somehow.

But all I could see where his black eyes staring at me, his face showing no emotion at all.

chapter 9- what matters

"Edward?" I asked again. His motionlessness and his quiet were starting to frighten me so much, that I could practically feel Jasper struggling to keep me calm.

"Edward, I love you. Can you please tell me what you think…or what you are feeling?"

"I…I am okay, Isabella." was all he said in a very unsteady voice. It didn't really convince me but I nodded nonetheless. He stood up from the couch and walked around in his room, his eyes never facing me but the wall. First I thought he just needed a moment to think of an answer to my first question, but then I realized that he was not going to answer anytime soon.

After a few minutes that felt like hours of torture, I asked again "So…what do you think about.. well… mh.. about me now? " I sighed , praying for any reaction to replace this screaming, burdensome silence.

Seconds passed but then, finally, he turned around to look in my direction and open his mouth. "I don't know, honestly I really don't know. I'm okay, I just need a minute." He closed his eyes and I could see how he grinded his teeth together, drew in a long deep breath and then pinched the flesh between his eyes. When he breathed out , he opened his eyes again and their color had changed to a tone of plain chocolate not very unlike that of my own. His face remained emotionless , but when he started to speak his voice sounded much steadier.

"Isabella, I really don't know what to say, think or feel. This is a big surprise for me…I thought I knew everything about you ..now I realize I didn't . I'd never thought you'd lie to me and I don't understand…why didn't you tell me?" He looked me now directly into the eyes.

"Because you were raised... at the beginning of the last century in a very different society... to be a gentleman… I was just afraid.." I said unsure whether the past tense was appropriate for the last part.

"Afraid of what? Of me?" He inquired the anger barely audible, but there.

"I was afraid that you would react badly to the idea of me having frenched a woman and stuff…" I admitted honestly but frightened.

He looked me in the eyes once more "listen, Isabella, I am not mad at you because you were with a woman neither because you are… aeh…call yourself ..a..bi..sexual." he looked as if he would rather have bitten his tongue off than speak out the last word but he continued shortly after that " I am just ,well, … hurt that you lied to me."

I looked at him with tear-filled eyes as he sat back down on the sofa , leaving some space between us. " I love you, Bella and nothing could ever change that. That's why I won't lie to you. I am not upset about your .. well your past, although it gives me the feeling that I have to win…no… not have to win…it gives me the feeling that I am somehow part of an comparison I didn't know about. And.. no matter how much I love you, I have to tell you that I really don't understand the..well …concept of this lifestyle you've chosen."

" I need some time to think, Isabella. Could you please…go home?"

With tears in my eyes I started packing my pajama and yesterday's clothes into my bag and walked towards the door. A few feet before it I stopped. "The concept, Edward, is love. No matter what gender, color, believe or look, no matter what background you come from, no matter who or what are, ... and it doesn't matter what any of the others think…as long as you love, -truly, deeply love-, you are not wrong… that's the 'lifestyle', 'the concept' of who I am." I said crying sad as well as angry tears. I opened the door, made two steps and was already closing it when I stopped again. Feeling the urge to say two final things before leaving him to think everything through. "Edward, I love you..."
"You know, the lion and the lamb, they are much more a part of my 'idea', then they are of society's concepts."

Without waiting for an answer I closed the door, went down the stairs, and out of the house only to see Alice standing outside, close to her car. She had a small smile on her lips and hugged me before opening the door. "Let me drive you home, sweetheart."


So, that was edward's reaction. Plz let me know what you think of it.

Oh, I kinda "stole" one tiny detail from an episode of the 4th. season of the tv series buffy in this chapter (Disclaimer: Buffy doesn't belong to me either) those of you know what it is, please write a review or send me a pm -everybody who makes the right guess gets the next chapter as a pm about 16 hours before I put it online (I thought that might be a good incentive for you ) -have fun with the guessin'

Yours, Becky