Damian's story

Chapter 9: Empty

(Internal point of view: Damian Hart)

I do not know what took me to do that! Tsubasa and Yu of the Japanese team, they were there in front of me, I wanted to test my top and ... I hurt them! I just hurt people and yet ... I feel no shame for what I have done!

On the contrary, I am proud of it!

I should not feel proud! Why am I like this? I know absolutely nothing! In my mind ... I feel empty !

When I returned to the HD academy to go to Ziggurat, I saw him smile and tell me that it was not a big deal if I had not managed to bring back Ryuga, that he would succeed get information about L drago later. This man ... when I have him in front of me, I hardly hear his voice and yet I understand perfectly on his lips and in the look that he carries me, the demands he attributes to me, and every time I do nothing but obey him blindly ... even if it's dangerous!

For Jack it's the same! But he has a difference that I do not have, and whose name I do not know!

Suddenly I feel Ziggourat stroking my head, it seems to remind me of something and by reflex, my hands caught his arm and held it on my head, as if I really wanted him to continue this gesture! Then when I realized I looked ridiculous, I walked away and went to my room.

Lying on my bed, I look at my ceiling while feeling the beating of my heart, no thoughts, no particular cravings brush my mind ... I just want ... nothing to do!

Slowly, my eyes close and I'm plunged into the dark. My body is immobilized by something that makes me shudder with terror ... I am still in the dark but am tied on a table with a black shadow smiling at me.

I'm afraid of this thing!

Around me, I think I recognize voices that are familiar to me, but I do not see anyone except this shadow, pulling a large knife out of his pocket to come and implant it in my stomach, the pain is so strong that I put myself to scream while struggling while the blade sinks more in my belly until touching my intestines: I hurt !

Suddenly, I feel the blade withdrawing from my stomach to come and stroke my throat, I dribble in front of death, while the knife slides down my throat to stop at the location of my heart

- Help !... I groaned in alarm. Please ... help me !

- Damian? Damian? Damian wake up! Call me a voice while shaking me, my eyes open on Allan's worried face that holds me in his arms

- Damian ... are you okay? Did I manage to read on his lips even if I can hear his voice weakly ... I'm still someone empty and ... deaf !

- I'm fine Allan ... I just had a nightmare! I explained to him, wiping my mouth full of drool, I then run to the bathroom to rinse my mouth and then I felt so bad.

- You look a little too sick! I'll take you to the doctor now! Allan said to me, there he took me in his arms and then put me in his car.

Several minutes later ...

I got to the doctor who checked me for at least half an hour, he noticed my burn on the side of my stomach, my ears problems, the tired expression of my face, my leanness a little too much visible and the heat present on my neck and forehead

- Oh ... your emotional state is not very happy, you would not make us a depression? He asked me, I simply shrug and is answered

- I feel just ... empty ! The doctor opened his eyes in surprise, when at Allan, he comforts me by coming to stroke my head, as usual I have this kind of ocd that makes me catch the arm of the person who dares to caress my head.

The doctor then diagnosed a small depression in which it was necessary to take care before it gets worse, and when Allan put me in his car he decided to go and get Jack and take us to a water complex. (basically a municipal swimming pool).

During the whole trip, he explained my problem to Jack who did not stop tickling me with that, I blushed with shame. And we were surprised to see Allan come out with a private pool where we will be quiet and away from the other people who have come to bathe ... In my opinion, Allan is preparing something for us not too much to please us !

After we are finished changing, Jack and I go under the shower then we finally reach Allan who are waiting for us with firm feet

- Then the boys ! Are you ready to have fun? He asked us with a mischievous smile in the corner of his mouth, shrugged and then I saw Jack approaching the pool to see the water temperature, then I saw Allan sigh and approaching Jack by telling him

- Jack! It is useless what you do, because the best way to know the temperature of the water of a swimming pool ... It is to enter directly! There I saw him pushing Jack in the water with his foot, Jack to come up to the surface with a smile to the lips by letting go

- Oh ... the water is too hot! Suddenly, Allan turned his eyes to me and then he cracked his fingers

- Go Damian! It's your turn ! I swallowed my saliva as he grabs me by the waist to carry me on his shoulder

- Allan! Please, I want to enter at my own pace! I asked, he did not listen to me and threw me into the pool before diving in his turn.

When I was in the water, a strange feeling crossed my body. I still feel empty, but the sensation seems so nice, that's when Allan's hands caught me by the torso and then raised me to the surface

- Well Damian! You want to become a fish to stay so long under water? I smiled with embarrassment, then Allan threw me into the water and as if that was not enough, Jack puts himself in turn tickling me and trying to sink me, then we ended up a battle against Allan: The goal was to sink it! Allan has beaten us!

We never had so much fun !

At the end of the afternoon we finally got back to the HD Academy, Jack and I left to take our shower while Allan went to prepare dinner for tonight because he had already taken a shower at the pool.

During our shower, Jack started a discussion from his cabin next to me

- So Damian ... What did you mean by feeling empty? I start to think and tried to find the right words

- I really do not know! I hurt Tsubasa and Yu of the Japanese team and I had no remorse after doing this ... Did I say before Jack interrupts me

- You do not have to worry about these fools! Damian, I want to tell you that it was an accident, I know very well that you would never hurt a person without reasons, it is not your type even if you we would have believed, anyway, they were stupid enough to lower their guards while we are fighting for a place of world number 1! He had only to be more careful!

- But is this number one place ... is really important? I asked him intrigue, I heard him laugh and answer me

- That's ridiculous Damian! I am here to finish my artistic quest, and you... I do not know your reason (his words sounds false in my head) but ... I am sure of one thing, when we have finished this mission, here and never come back again! This is what I wish ... and I count to take you with me far from here, for after all ... you and I are brothers !

His words sounded so reassuringly intense, and yet ... I do not feel anything! Why do I feel so empty? Why do not I almost hear his voice? Why is he so kind to me? Why does he care for me when he's there just to finish his damn artistic quest? And why do I feel so close to him?

I do not even know how I met him, or even where I came from, and what is my purpose in this whole story? I do not know...

Suddenly, I feel that the water becomes cold, I start by grabbing my towel to wrap it around me and get out of my shower. My blue hair is in such a mess, and Jack is the same, both look at each other and then we laugh, because we both took the cold shower.

And when we got out of our rooms after changing, we thought we heard Allan coughing heavily, we found him in the kitchen with a handkerchief stained with blood against his mouth

- Allan? What do you have ? I asked him worried, Allan smiled again, putting his handkerchief in his pocket and then patted me on the head reassuring me

- Do not worry Damian! Just a little sickness, nothing too serious! Go to the table! He says this to reassure me but I'm not stupid, he's seriously ill and he tries to lie to me to reassure me: I hate it!

Yet I do not want to quarrel with him, so I keep silent and eat with them, in the evening I go to my room to sit on the edges of my window and watch the dark sky.

In order to be quiet, I removed my hearing instruments from my ears and concentrated only on the outside. I think back to this nightmare I've done, I hurt my belly just to see again this knife stab me, and to those voices that torture my mind ... I want to know who they belong to and especially ... I want to know who I am? But each time ... the emptiness in me wins !

That's all for chapter 9, I hope you enjoyed it and that you begin to understand some little tricks, in short as usual leave me your opinions in comments, I make you all big kisses and tell you very soon for chapter 10 !