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This chapter was finished last night. However, I decided not to publish it until today because I wanted to include a few thing more and last night I was really tired to writte them. So, sorry for the delay. Besides, I want to announce that on Monday I come back to the University. My Easter Holiday is finished =/ and I have a test on Wednesday and it is in group, so I have to meet with my group, and, I am not sure when I will have ready the next chapter. However, I promise to all of you that have already read all the chapters and my other fic "How to save a life" that I'm going to continue them, but maybe it will take more time.
Some days ago, I discovered that there is a Community namely "Dawson Fanfiction" and I would like to add my two fanfic to that community, but I don't know how to do it. So, if someone can help me I will be very gratefull. ^^
Other announcement. I have some ideas of a new Fic that I will start to write probably in summer or as soon as I finished one of my two fic of "Chicago Fire". I don't know yet the title but I will tell you more later because I'm between two plot and I am not really sure which one I will use.
Thanks so much for read the last chapter:
-BecMoon: Thanks for the follower ^^
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-M. Louise E: Thanks, last week was amazing with my family I have a lot of fun and even some ideas for my fics ^^.thanks for the favourite too!
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-jscat2: Yeah! When I saw what his story was I think that he was the one who has the worst past of all of them. He deserved to have his family back =)
-Justicerocks: Since the firts episode I noticed that she was jealous of Gabby, because them were really good friends and he asked about her opinion about everything ^^.
-Camila: Olá. I want to ask you something. It's about your review in my fic "How to save a life" do you mind if I use your idea in this fic? please say me if you don't mind. Obrigado e adeus
-goldistic: You are not the only one who Hallie is starting to get on your nerves. I hate her when the episode 18 I guess, when Matt made the new door to Molly's and she appeared in the bar. I hated her in that episode.
-Ms Isabella: Thanks for your review. I hope that you like this chapter too :p
Well, I hope that all of you like this new chapter. Maybe tonight I will start to write the next chapter of "How to save a life".
Have a good Sunday.
And see you.
Namine Redfield
Chapter 9: A small evening talk.
Today, it was the last night that Matt was spending in the hospital. One week had passed since the fire in which he was injured. During this time, he was not only recovering gradually part of his strength but also he was making up for the lost time with his family. It was great for him to have his family back. He couldn't believe it, he felt so lucky for having his mother or sister near to his head bed each morning when he woke up.
His mother was there all the time except when the nurse cured his burns. For her it was really difficult to be there with him holding his hands while the nurse, unintentionally hurt him while she was treating his burns of his back and shoulder.
The first time, she tried to be with him; however as soon as the nurse remove the white bandage and she saw how damage his skin was, she broke down and started to cry while she cuddled him trying to take away all his pain. She tried to be strong for him, as he had been in the past for her; but she couldn't. Luckily Gabby, who came back work the next day that he woke up of his second surgery, ran to his side as soon as she arrived to Lakeshore after carried a victim and saw his mother his mother crying in the hallway. Without thinking, she entered in the room, hold his hands, stroking his hair and whispering him some encouragement words during all the painful process.
Flash back
"Good evening Matt. How are you doing?" a nurse said entering in his room
"I am fine. And you Libby?"
"Fine. Thanks for ask. According to your doctor, I have to cure your burns today" she said wishing that she doesn't have to do it.
"Alright" he said nervous. It wasn't the first time that he had a burn but it was always in his hand or maybe in his leg and it wasn't so big. The doctor told him that his burns covered his right shoulder and approximately the 60 or 70% of his back.
"If you want you can stay here Nancy?"
"You don't have to stay if you don't want mom" in his inside he knew that was a lie. He wanted his mother to be there with him "I will be fine"
"I said you yesterday that I'm not going to move of your side honey" she said determined.
"thanks" he whispered
The nurse and his mother helped him to lie down on his left side. The nurse give to Nancy a small bag, she took it confused not knowing what she could with the bag.
"Some patients throw up" she explained while she remove his gown and the white bandage that covered his back and shoulder "oh" she said when all the bandage were removed "It's look like you have a little infection in your shoulder. I will go to the pharmacy to take some ointments and call your doctor so he can decide which antibiotics we can give you. Have you fever or shivers?" He shook his head "I'll be right back"
"Mom" he said when the nurse left the room "can you do me a favor"
"Of course. What do you need?"
"Can take a picture of my back and show it to me?"
"Honey" she said brushing his head "I think that you are not ready for see it"
"It looks so bad, right?" he said sad.
"I don't know. I have not dared to look" she scared.
"Please mom, I need to see it. Please"
"Ok" she left his side and walked to the other side of the bed with her mobile phone in her shaking hands "oh my god" she said when she saw how his back was.
His back was completely red and covered by blisters. In his right shoulder she could see that some of the blister were broken and a clear liquid, that could be pus, was out of some of them. Rapidly, she took the picture and come back to his side.
"and?" he asked scared
"I can show it to you baby. I am sorry" she said with tears filling her eyes. She hugged him. Her tears fallen down her checks to Matt's body. "I am sorry"
"you alright Mrs. Casey?" Dr. Anderson said entering to the room
"I am sorry baby but I can't be here" she said when she saw what the doctor had in his hands "I am sorry" crying she left the room as soon as she can. She couldn't see how his son suffered while they were treating his burns. She preferred to be the one lie down in that bed rather than her son. She continue walking, she need to leave the hospital and breathe some fresh air before to return to his side.
"It is everything ok, Mrs. Casey?" Gabby asked behind her
"No. In this moment the doctor are treating Matt's burns. His right shoulder is infected possibly with pus" she couldn't erase the horrible image of her head.
"Shay, stay with her. I will go with Matt. Call me if we have another call"
Gabby without wait for her respond, ran as fast as she can to his room. When she arrived to his room she could see through the window how his doctor was taking out part of the pus. She opened the door.
"Hi. Can I pass?"
"Miss Dawson" the doctor said "Do you want that she stay here?" he asked to Matt.
Matt was feeling dizzy so he just nodded.
"Come in" he said smiling
She ran to his side. He was covered with his own sweat and moving each time the doctor applied the gauze on the blisters, he was trying to put up with the pain. But he couldn't.
"It's going to be fine Matt" she said. She knelt in front of him and placed both of her hands on either side of his face "It's going to be fine" their faces were separated only by few centimeters.
"I almost finish. Resist buddy"
"I can't" Matt said crying "stop please" he felt so weak for saying it, but he couldn't continue put up with the pain during more time. He felt embarrassed for crying in front of Gabby but he couldn't.
"Ey Matt" Gabby said trying to grab his attention "You know what, you remember when Shay put makeup on an Irish drunk after he touched my bum some months ago" he nodded smiling. He remembers that Shay showed to everybody in the firehouse the picture of the old man with makeup and joking with them saying that if any of them do something like that to them, they would look like him the next morning. "Well, today he found him again. Completely drank" she looked to the doctor who was smiling to her and nodding her to continue with her story. She was getting it, she was distracting Matt while the doctor was finishing his cure "And he tried to touch it again, but Shay warmed him with her lipstick" she said laughing "you should have see his face. He stepped to be an unbearable drunk to "I'm a good boy and I'm not going to do anything". Oh God, I think that Shay is more crazy everyday"
"I finish" the doctor said covering the last of his burn with new and fresh bandage "how do you feel Matt?"
Matt wanted to respond but he couldn't. He felt how the contained bile ascended from his stomach to his mouth. Not be able to avoid it he began to throw up all that he had eaten that day, that it was liquids such as juice, water or some jell-o. Gabby held his head against her chest, while he was throwing up, stroking his hair.
"I am sorry" he said croaked when he finished of throwing up. He was very pale and ashamed. "I am sorry Gabby for throw up all over you" he said avoiding looks her hazel eyes.
"Don't worry" she forced him to looked her "I don't mind" she kissed in his forehead "I don't mind. I can clean my uniform"
End of the Flash-back
The only one who visited him in the hospital, apart of his mother and sister, was her. The days that she wasn't on shift she visited him while his mother or sister came back home to showered and rested. During her visit, she and he didn't speak about the problems that they had before he was injured, and he was gland that Gabby didn't mention it. Of course he wants to speak with her about the Christmas party and say her how sorry he was for blew it that day or when they had that argument after she asked Voight if he could help her after his brother was shot. However, in that moment, under the effect of the painkillers and the kiss that Hallie give him some days ago, he was really confused and he didn't think that he could be able to explain himself. He didn't know if Hallie still have feeling for him or she was just playing with him. He thought that it would be better if he talk first with Hallie and later with Gabby. But first of all, he needed to clarify his ideas and feelings.
With respect to other of his friends, he didn't speak some much with some of the guys of his truck or with Severide or Chief Boden. He thought that maybe they were still blaming him for Andy's death or they were so busy for come and checked how he was; and it made him feel sad. He even started to think that what Kelly said some days ago was a dream.
He was there for them when for example Cruz had his problems dealing with Flaco's death, when Herrmann was injured in a fire one month after Andy's death, or when Severide had his back's surgery. Kelly pushed him again his looker one week before the surgery mad with him because of the death of his best friend of childhood, and he said that he didn't want to see him in the hospital. However, Matt was there and talked with his nurse and doctor about how he was after his surgery. Now, when he needs them, they were given him their back.
His thinking was interrupting by someone knocking in the door.
"Come in" he said thinking that maybe could be a nurse.
"Hi" Christine said entering in the room "how are you?" she kiss him in his forehead and sat in a plastic chair near to his bed.
"Fine" he said smiling. Slowly he sat in his bed; he was tired of being lied in the bed all the time.
"You are leaving tomorrow; so and because I think that you don't want to leave the hospital wearing that gown" she said joking "I brought you some clothing from your house"
"Thanks. I appreciate it" He said smiling
"Look" she said holding his hand "I talk with Jim last night and both of us want that you come home with us and stay with us all the time that you need until you can get back on your feet"
"Really?" he said surprised. He knew that he and she didn't be the best brother and sister in the last few years. "Are you sure?"
"Of course Matt. You are my brother and I love you. Besides, it's nothing that we didn't do before" she said refereeing to his last injured in which he broken both of his legs. "Anyway, mom is also there. Her parole officer said that she has to live in a stable home for a while until she found a house"
"Can I ask you something?" She nodded "what did you say in her hearing?" he requested her after a few seconds of silence "I mean, until few weeks ago, you were against her parole"
"I know that until few weeks I was against her parole. However, and I sure that this could be a little cruel, but the truth is that thanks to your accident I understand how she feel. I mean, I almost lost you two times in only one week and it was really hurtful. We didn't know if you were survived to the two surgeries" she said with tears in her eyes "she lost both of us and her first love eleven years ago in only one night. The three of us in just one night. Since that night, she had suffered so much, but I think that she pay yet for what she did it with eleven years of her life. And she deserves to be again with us and take part of our lives again. It is time that all of us forgive what we said of what we did in the past" Matt nodded grateful for her words "Anyway" she said dried her tears "what the doctor said?"
"They will do me a new scan tomorrow morning before I leave. He said that I still need that someone else treats my burns. I am sorry" for her was also really hurtful to see his burn skin "You know" he said smiling "When my skin heal, there wouldn't be any scar. Maybe the skin will be a little bit whiter in there but it is because it's new skin, but whit time it would be hardly noticeable"
"I am glad of heard that. Why you didn't say me before?" she rubbed his forearm.
"I don't know. I couldn't believe. I mean I was thinking that I will always have some ugliest scars" after saw the picture that his mother took he broke down and cried for awhile until his nurse arrived to the room and called his doctor. His doctor told with him and explained him that his burns were hearing fine.
"It would never be ugliest. You heard me. Never" she tried to hide a yawn but Matt saw it "Had they bring your dinner yet?"
"Yep. Mom was with me while I eat it. But I send her home, she looks really tired and I am fine; so you don't have to spend here the night. Go home with Jim and Violet and rest"
"Are you sure that you are going to be fine by your own?" she yawned again
"Yeah! Christine, mom and you have been here with me all the time since I woke up. You two deserve some rest"
"Alright if you are sure. I will talk with the night nurse and say her to call me if something happen to you during the night ok?" he nodded smiling "Jim and I will be here tomorrow and we will take you home. Do you want that I go to your house for something that you need? Apart of your cloths and your toiletries stuff"
"Not in that moment" he said after thinking about it for a few seconds.
"Good night Mattie" and she kissed him in his cheek "I love you"
"Good night Chris. I love you too. Drive safe and give a call when you arrive home please"
"Sure" she said smiling "In reality, I am older than you, so I am the one who should be concerned about you and not you about me" she said joking
"yeah!" he said smiling "Later, you will say that I call you old" he said laughing "Good night"
"Good night. Rests you too and see you in the morning"
Half an hour after his sister left, he started to feel his eyes really heavy. Thus, he switched off the TV and lay down on his bed.
During the night, he was woken up by someone kissing him in his lips. At first, he thought that it was a dream, because who can be there at that time of the night kissing him. His lips reacted instinctively responding to the kiss. The tongue of the unknown ran over his lips asking for access to his mouth. He opened his mouth and their tongues were dancing together inside their mouths. Suddenly, he felt the stranger's hand under the covers and his gown, touching his bare skin; he came back to the reality, broke the kiss and pulled back. Who was that person? And why they were kissing?
"sorry baby, I woke you up" a soft voice said. The stranger turning the lamp of the nightstand on and a few seconds after that Matt was able to recognize who was there.
"Hallie? What are you doing?" he said surprised
"Hi. I am sorry but this was the only moment that I have for come here and see how you were"
"Why did you kiss me? Our relation was over few months ago" he said still annoyed that she kissed him and touching him while he was sleeping.
"Your lips and tongue don't think that" she said smiling "I remember that you liked when I used to wake you up in the morning like this" she said provocative
"Yeah! I used to. That was before we finished our relationship"
"I have to tell you something Matt, and it is really important" she said seriously looking him after a few seconds of silence.
/
The next morning, Matt was sitting in a wheelchair, that he will have to use for a while, looking through the window thinking about what Hallie told him last night. He was so deep in his thinking that he didn't hear that his sister and brother in law entered in the room.
"You alright?" Christine said putting her hand in his shoulder
"Yeah. Perfect" he said smiling trying to hide that she had frightened him
"it is something wrong, right?" she said concerned when she looked his eyes "how was your scan this morning?" she was worried, maybe the scan wasn't good and he need to be in the hospital a few more days or even worse he needs another surgery.
"No. My scan was fine. In one week the will make a new one and take out the stitching" he said "I was just thinking that it's all"
"If you say it" she said more relaxed "The doctor spoke with us and gave us a few instructions about how it's have to be your first week at home. You have to come back here in three days so they can take out your stitching of your side and in one week to check your burns"
"yeah. He told with me this morning and explained everything. He also said that I have to use the wheelchair until they are sure that I can use crutches without hurt me in my back and the wound of my lung" he said sad. He knew that it's going to be difficult for him to use it. He wasn't a person that uses to be at home just sitting on the couch watching the TV during all his free time. He loves to walk and do a lot of things like his construction works or maybe hang out with his friends if they want of course. And now, having to use the wheelchair he felt weird, like a bird that that an accident had cut the wings.
"And your cast?" Jim asked looking his left leg in a white cast.
"They will remove it in one month"
"You know that when Violet sees your cast, she will want to draw in it" Christine said
"I would love it" he said smiling. In the past he didn't spend so much time with her niece and now he felt that he has an opportunity to change that.
"Ok" she said opening the wardrobe "so, as soon as you get dress with your clothes and sign your discharge papers, you will be free" she let on the bed a pair of khaki shorts and a shirt "Do you want Jim, me or maybe a nurse help you to get dress?"
"Sure. I think that I will have problems with the shorts" he said embarrassed. He was even able to dress by his own.
"I will help him" Jim said.
"Thanks honey. I will wait outside"
/
The car journey to his sister's house was shorter than he would expect. He continues thinking about what Hallie said him and what he should do. He was completely confused. Has he to do the right thing? In that moment he thought that this would be the right option. But it was only that, the right thing. However, why he thinks that maybe he is going to do a big mistake if he do it? He considered himself as a righteous and formal man. In addition, he doesn't feel how he thought that he would feel after she gave him the news. He thought that he would feel like if he was in the moon or ecstasy and excited however he feel sad, confused and depressed.
"You continue thinking?" Christine said near to him. They were sitting in the backseat.
"yeah"
"Do you want to talk?" she offered
"No in this moment, maybe later. I am tired. Last night I didn't sleep so much" he lied
Few minutes later, Jim parked his car in front of a big house of two floors. Matt was so distracted in his thinking that didn't noticed that it was something strange in the front garden of the house. Christine and Jim helped him to get out of the car and with the wheelchair. Jim was pulling the wheelchair, while Matt was looking the ground thinking about Hallie's words. Without any reason, Jim stopped to pull the wheelchair. Matt looked up from the ground to see what was what was happening and why he stopped when suddenly:
"Surprise" many people screamed in front of him
"Oh my god" it was the only three words that he could say in that moment.
In front of them they were all the crew of the firehouse fifty-one, his niece, his mother, Herrmann's wife, Gabby, Shay, Severide, chief Boden and even Pouch was there. All of them were holding a large banner in which it could be read: Welcome home Matt.
His friends, who he had thought that they had turned their back to him some time ago, were there in front of his sister's house smiling to him and glad that he was fine. Matt could feel how some tears felt from his checks. He would never expect something like that. It was true that they do it something like that when someone come back home from the hospital like when Shay come back home after her and Gabby accident with the ambo; however, he never felt as special as to deserve a little welcome party.
"You ok?" Jim said squeezing his shoulders.
He nodded not being able to say anything. Jim continued pulling the wheelchair approaching to all of them.
"Uncle Matt" a little blonde girl shouted running to him excitedly. When she was in front of him she hugged him being carefully of his injured.
"Hi Violet" he rubbing her back
"I wanted to go to the hospital but I couldn't" she said sad
"It doesn't matter" he said smiling.
"Well Casey" Chief Boden said when he was near to all of them "We know that you have to use that wheelchair for a while and we realized that it's going to be really difficult to use the chair in the stairs. So Herrmann, present here" he hold him by his shoulder "had the bright idea of"
"Are you kidding me chief?" Herrmann said annoyed interrupting what he his chief was saying "It wasn't my idea. It was everyone idea. I was just the first one who said it aloud" he joke
"Alright. We thought that you will need that for a while"
Everyone moved at one side and Matt saw that behind them, in one part of the front stairs, they were built a little ramp very similar to the one that they already built after the car accident in which a teenager was paralyzed from his waist down. This one was simpler because he will only need it for a few weeks maybe for a month; however for him it was perfect.
"I hope that you don't mind but we found in your office the draws and plans that you make it for the ramp of that kid that we built some months ago" Mouch said
"we make some modifications" Otis said
"And this is the result" Peter Mills finishing the sentence
"It is perfect. Thanks. I don't have words to say you guys how much I appreciate what you have done for me" he said with his voice quivering owing to the emotion
"It's nothing that you didn't do already for us Lieutenant" Cruz said patting his healthy shoulder.
"Thanks" he was excited and for awhile all his fears and worries disappeared.
"Do you want to prove it?" Severide said pulling now his wheelchair
"Yeah. Sure"
Smiling and laughing Severide helped Matt to go to the front door thanks to the ramp.
Hi
What Had Halli told him last night? Why he felt like that? And what it's the right thing?
You will see in the next chapter =)
See you and have a good sunday!
Namine Redfield
