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Title: Hidden Ecstacy
Author: Jeresygirl7756
Pairing: read and find out :)
Disclaimer: I don't own any characters from SON but I do own Julia, Kelly, Jeremy, and Sam.

Chapter 9

Spencer's POV

Fuck, fuck, fuck!! I almost kissed her!! What the HELL am I thinking!? My girlfriend is in the other room! If she ever found out about my feelings for Ash, oh man I don't know what would happen. It would break her heart…But soon I am gonna have to do something…I'm not sure how much longer I can hold it in.

Okay well I'm back on the couch, I wish I could put my legs around Ashley….Anyways, I haven't been paying attention to this movie one bit, I cant. Ashley sat right in front of me, if my legs were on the floor, she would be between my legs….

Shit…I need to go for a walk… I gotta get out of this house for a while to clear my head.

"Hey guys, I'm gonna go for a walk. I have a lot on my mind right now and I think some fresh air will do me some good" I say while standing up.

Jules just gave me a look that said 'okay…?'

"You want some company baby"? she asked.

"No thanks, I think I just need to be alone right now"

"Okay Spence, just be careful" said Ashley. She kind of had this confused/hurt look.

Oh Ashley, if only you knew.

"And make sure you cal us if you need anything" added Kelly and the others agreed.

Jules stood up and walked me to the door, gave me a long kiss, told me she loved me and to be back soon. I just smiled at her and walked out the door and into the night.

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Ashley's POV

Why did Spencer leave? I wonder what it could be that is on her mind.

"Is there something wrong with Spencer?" asked Jeremy.

That's what I would like to know cause she seemed perfectly fine 5 minutes ago. I mean hello! She just totally hit on me in the kitchen right now and now she's gone…

Julia took a deep breath and said "I really don't know guys, she's been acting kind of weird lately but I have just let it slide. I'm hoping she will sort it out though, that way everything can be back to normal."

Uh oh…Julia has noticed something is up…but what is it??

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Julia's POV

Okay, so Spencer and I have been together for almost a year as you know. We have been really happy, but she thinks I don't notice that she doesn't feel the same way that I do about her. I love her with all of my heart and soul and I love her even more for trying really hard to show me that she cares. I just want her to be happy, I really do. And I really wish that I could be that person that makes her happy, that gives her butterflies and everything. But I'm not… I can see that now.

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Spencer's POV

Okay so I have been walking around for about 20 minutes now, contemplating on what I should do about my feelings for Ash. I mean, this whole entire time she has lived with us I can't stop these temptations I have to kiss her or touch her, or even go sleep with her in her bed. Which will NEVER happen because of Aiden, her stupid boy toy.

Omg, what the hell am I gonna do?? Why does it have to be this way?? Agh, if I don't do something though, I think I'm gonna lose my mind. Do I tell Julia? Or do I prolong it more? AGGGGH!! I don't know what to do damn it!! But I mean come on just because I don't want to break Julia's heart though…

I sat down on a bench near the park and pulled out my cell phone and decided to call the one person I talk to about everything. My sister Sam. She is only 1 year and 3 months younger than me but she is like my best friend. I can go to her for anything. It rings once before she picks up.

"Hey bitch, what's up?" she said. that's the thing about us, we call each other names constantly, hardly ever by our first names and I love it, but this time I'm not in the mood for that, I need to be serious here.

"Hey Sam, you have time to talk?"

"Yea Spence, what's wrong"? I love that about her, she can sense that something is wrong by the tone of my voice.

"I'm just so confused about everything right now, it is really hard to explain…"

She's quiet for a minute or two, giving me time to try to explain, then she speaks…

"So you finally admitted it?"

Huh??

"Admitted what?"

"That you are completely head over heels in love with your roommate Ashley Davies"? I can tell she was smiling, which made me smile too. Damn she knows me too well!

"How..." I start to ask but she cuts me off.

"Spencer, babe, come on! I'm your sister, I know you well enough to know when something is up, especially something this huge! And let me guess…you're confused because you don't know what to do cause you don't want to break Julia's heart right?"

"Damn! You know me too well, its kind of scary!" I reply laughing.

"Ha ha come on now, don't forget who you're talking to here honey"

"What do you think I should do about this?"

"Well" she started "I think you should be happy. Think about yourself for once. Take a chance. Stop trying to make everyone but yourself happy for once Spence. You are probably gonna break Julia's heart, but I think she will understand. She loves you, she wants you to be happy. And if Ashley makes you happy, then I say go for it"

"Yea but Sam, we have one HUGE problem here remember? She's straight, and she has a boyfriend!"

"You can work around that! Who knows Spence?? Just make your move girl! What have you got to lose?"

"You're right…I'm gonna do something about this damn it!"

"Ha ha there's my sister I know! Now go get your girl!"

"Thank you so much babe, I love you!"

"I love you too Spence, call me ASAP!! Bye bitch" she told me laughing.

"Peace out, hoe" I said and hung up the phone smiling. Boy that girl sure does know how to make me feel better.

Okay, back to home I go! Please let my plan work!….