Chapter 9

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It felt different now that Shyler was gone. I wouldn't be able to see her unless I went to the Cullen's, and the suspense of the war was growing larger as the days go on. If it was hard for me to see Jacob fight 1 guy, I don't know how I'm going to take him fighting a whole pack.

I drove highlight to the meadow where me and Jacob first kissed, I normally go there to think.

I jumped out of the car and walked over to a patch of wild flowers that was layered with a white coat of snow. I laid down and let my surroundings consume me.

The scent of the wet flowers roamed through my nostril, and chirping bird's song drifted through my ears.

I closed my eyes so I could think straight. Now that I was concentrated I could hear rustling of the animals going into hibernation and the sound of cars going by a few miles away. Why couldn't life be this peaceful? The world is full of anger, hatred, and wars, like our war. Why did we have to fight why couldn't we just come together.

Then the fact that 'he' was still out there. I wonder what happened to him, and how mom and dad are in heaven.

I could hear a car stop and foot steps coming towards me.

"I thought I'd find you hear." Jacob said laying down next to me. I looked at him and looked away. "Hey whats wrong." he said bringing me into his arms.

"Nothing"I whispered. He didn't seem convinced. He bit down on my neck.

"Is there any way I could get it out of you?" He whispered in my ear bringing his lips to mine. I wasn't in the mood right now, so my lips didn't respond. He pouted and stood and lifted me up.

"Man there is something wrong." He said walking towards the forest he sat me down by the edge, and went and change. He came back as his large russet self.

He curled up around me and licked my face.

I put his head in my hands as he whimpered.

"I'm sorry," I whispered. "It's just everything is hitting me. The war, mom, and dad, being a werewolf, and 'him'".

Jacob licked my face again and rested his head next to my legs as I petted his head. A howl cut through the air and Jacob jumped to his feet. I ran to the forest and stripped down, completely forgetting Jacob was behind me.

When I dropped to all fours there was a picture of me running into the forest naked.

He had a mischievous look in his eyes. He walked over to me and nuzzled my neck. It seemed to take me out of my sad mood.

Okay Okay enough we have to get to Sam.

Can't it wait.

Jacob.

Fine, we finish this later. I chuckled and ran as fast as I could.

When we got to the clearing in the middle of the forest the 2 packs were fighting each other. Sam and the Makah leader were the ones really fighting. They was blood on the white from where Sam had slashed his neck.

Two wolves attached Jacob as a charcoal grey wolf walked up to me. He had a evil smirk on his face. I remembered him he's the wolf that attach Jacob before. I growled at him, baring my teeth.

He ran up to me and bit my neck, I tried to reach him but he had my neck so I couldn't do anything. I felt so weak, so small. I was small compared to him. He dragged me into the forest and threw me against a tree. He bit down on my ear, and I phased back.

"How did you do that?" I said.

"Something you learn while being with a rough back." He said after phasing back. He ran over to me and pushed me against the tree.

"You know, you look way hotter naked." He said sucking down on my neck. It hurt, it wasn't like how Jacob did it.

I tried to shove him away but he was way stronger than me and just forced me down harder into the snow.

"By the way I'm Lucas." He said while on top of me. I tried to push him off of me but again he just came back stronger.

"Get off me!" I yelled.

"No way and your little boy friend can't save you now." He said holding me down as he kiss my neck.

"STOP!" I yelled trying to punch him and kicking like crazy.

"Might as well save your breath they can't hear you there fighting." He said putting all his weight on me.

Tears were rolling down my eyes. He was right here was no way to stop him.

"Don't cry" He whispered in my ear. "This will be fun" He smirked at me and chuckled.

I was crying the whole time it hurt so bad. He was very rough, not gentle at all. The worst part of it all is knowing it wasn't Jacob.

After a while he got off me and smiled then kissed my lips. He stood up and looked down at me.

"You know you were pretty good." he said walking away, leaving me in the cold snow.

My body felt violated and dirty. I wanted a nice warm shower, but my body wouldn't move. The pain was to much. I sat there for what seemed like hours until someone walked out of the bushes. It was Embry. He walked over to me and wrapped me in a blanket. I didn't need it for warmth, I needed it so I wasn't naked. He picked me up and carried me away.

"Wheres Jake." I whispered.

"Jake is killing Lucas." He said with a sneer of Lucas' name.

"How'd he now what happened."

"The ass hole bragged about it. Jake said to come hear and get you. I would have come any way."

"Oh Thank you." Embry put me in his car and drove off. When we reached Aunt Amanda's house. Embry climbed trough the window so I would have to explain this to her and I didn't want her to see me like this.

I walked over to the shower and took a long hot bath, but when I was done the dirty feeling didn't go away.

I changed and walked into my room where Jacob was lying on my bed. He looked up at me and fake smiled. I walked over to my bed and laid down next to him. Jacob had long red scars down his arms, legs and other places. I totally forgot about the war, that I missed.

"Are you hurt?" I whispered laying my head down on the pillow.

"Why are you asking me if I'm hurt, when your the one who got raped." I shrugged.

"Maybe it because I'm trying to think of something else besides the fact that I'm sore and I lost my innocence."

He frowned and pulled me into his arms."I'm sorry, it's just I could have been there to save you, I should have been there." He whispered.

"Why are you blaming this on you, I could have stopped him, but no I'm a werewolf and I'm still weak. But really how's everybody."

He put my head between his hands. "You're not weak, and its not your fault, but the pack is fine no fatal injures."

I glided my fingers down the long pinkish cut on his arm. He sighed and kissed my forehead.

"I'm sorry." He whispered and rocked me to sleep.

Jakes POV

The second we got on the battle field I was attached by two other wolves. I kicked them off of me but they just came back again.

Two more came after me it took about 30 minutes to get them all down.

I looked around everyone was still fighting, but I couldn't find Heather. I ran around trying to find her when I heard voices talking.

"Yeah dude I did her good, but she was crying through the whole thing." Was he talking about Heather?
"Thats awesome, you got some and we get this war. You got a two in one, Lucas"

"Yeah, It's my lucky days. She's probably still crying in the forest, where I left her."

"How did you get past her boy friend?"

"Oh that was easy. I just got like 4 of my friends to distract him while I got business done." He was talking about her. He raped Heather.

Embry did you hear that?

Yeah, I'm gonna kill him.

Leave that to me. Can you go get Heather and take her home I'll be there once I'm done with him.

Okay

I jumped behind the trees and looked at the monster.

"So I see you're done fighting." He smirked. He phased so we could talk to each other.

I'm going to kill you. I muttered pouncing on him.

Really I think it's going to be the other way.

Yeah right. I put my paw down on his neck. I told you not to touch her! I yelled in my head.

Well I didn't and let me tell you she was good the best I've ever done. The best thing about it was knowing that you weren't her first. He weaseled his way out from my paw and biting my legs.

Thats when I snapped. I bit down on his neck causing blood to gush from the wound. Then he came back by kicking my stomach and making me fall to the ground. There was blood from where his nails dug into me. I jumped on top of him and attached with no mercy. I was ripping him apart.

Any last words before you die.

Yeah tell your girl that even though see was crying through most of it, she was my best.

I sliced his throat, as the last of his blood dripped onto the pure white snow.

Pure white. Heather! I ran as fast as my wounded legs could carry me, until her house came into view. I climbed into her window.

Embry was there sitting on the bed.

"How is she?" I said urgently.

"Not so good, she seems...sore. How did the fight go?"

"He's dead."

"Well I better go help Sam clean up, I don't think the locales are going to like a big area with blood." He said climbing out the window. "Bye Jake."

"Bye." I sat on the bed and a waited her return.

She walked out of the restroom with a depressed look on her face, her eye were still puffy from crying. I wanted nothing more than to hold her, but with what she just went through I don't even think I'll be able to kiss her.

"Are you hurt?" She whispered with a horse voice, snuggling into the bed and laying her little head on a pillow.

"Why are you asking me if I'm hurt, when your the one who got raped." She so caring. She shrugged.

"Maybe it because I'm trying to think of something else besides the fact that I'm sore and I lost my innocence."

I frowned and pulled her into my arms."I'm sorry, it's just I could have been there to save you, I should have been there."I should have stopped him when I had the chance. I was trying to calm her down.

"Why are you blaming this on you, I could have stopped him, but no I'm a werewolf and I'm still weak. But really how's everybody."

I put her head between my hands and whispered. "You're not weak, and its not your fault, but the pack is fine no fatal injures."

She glided her fingers down my injuries, she didn't know how good it felt, but I wasn't going to loose control now.

"I'm sorry" I whispered in her ear rocking her back in forth trying to make her fall asleep. I truly was sorry. Sorry I wasn't there, sorry that you're sore, sorry I couldn't protect you, and sorry I wasn't your first.