Thank you for the reviews! Oh and I am happy to announce that I started a new story, all human, check it out, I think it's worth the time. "These Thin Walls." Seems like the last chapter has you guys thinking, that's a good thing. But if you pay real close attention to a certain area in the last chapter, you'll probably predict what's going to happen in this chapter. Read between the lines.

Last Chapter…

He began to hum the familiar tune of my lullaby in my ear, knowing it's what always calmed me, but it didn't this once.

And so, to my horror, I found myself wondering what secrets Edward Cullen could be hiding.

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Bella's POV A Day Later.

We sat in unbearable silence as Alice flashed in and out of the room, hands filled with clothes. She was stocking my closet, which was now, almost full. Edward and I did not say a word as she entered and exited the room quickly before sighing and twirling in a circle.

"I'm done!" She told us, smiling. I envied her. But for different reasons. Before when I was human, I envied her beauty. Now, I envy her love. How she is so able to trust Jasper to the best of her capability. To be so sure that he loved only her and that they will always be together. I know Edward loves me; it's just, I feel like there is so much that he is hiding from me.

"Thanks, Alice." I whispered, giving her a tiny smile.

She beamed at me and bounded off to find Jasper. Things between Edward and I were different ever since the meadow. I have developed a fear. I'm afraid of him. I don't know if he notices it. I don't know if he even cares. I don't know anything. I am so vulnerable to his touch; he could break me at any moment. Truthfully, I am much more breakable now, than as I was when I was human. As a human the worse he could do is kill me, now the worse he can do is condemn me to the fiery depths of hell. There was a tiny amount of space between us but the silence was filling both of us up. He looked at me, his eyes boring into mine, and I felt the familiar stinging feeling in my eyes, a vampire's way of crying.

He dropped his eyes as soon as the pain flooded in mine. Wincing slightly he didn't say a word. Nor did I. I could hear everything in the house. Every word, every laugh, every joke. But I didn't hear Edward's voice. I had that horrible feeling, you know, that one that feels like you have a million pounds in your chest? Like something is holding you down, at the same time your gut twist with knowing. I hate it, I hate this feeling. It makes me feel weak, so pathetic. It makes me doubt my entire being.

"What are you thinking?" He asked me quietly, and it seemed to me that, that has been his line for the past days. Always asking what's going on in my head because he couldn't read it himself.

"Nothing." I whispered back, looking away. If he was going to lie, I might as well too.

"You've been different," He mumbled, "Ever since the meadow."

I stared at him; shouldn't he know what he did? Shouldn't he realize how much the tiniest things could hurt me so easily? How much control he has over me… "I'm just tired." Lame. Lamest excuse every, lamest unrealistic excuse ever.

"Vampires don't get tired." He said, smiling softly.

"This one does." I said, trying to give a convincing smile back. He reached out for me slowly, as if testing the grounds. He took my hand in his, and I couldn't stop my breath from speeding up.

"How come every time I touch you, you hesitate, or you pull away?" He asked, not able to look me in the eye.

"It's just I…" I breathed in deeply; I didn't want to hide my feelings from Edward, not like him. "I just wonder why…why you don't want to tell me. His face twisted in pain ever so slightly and he pulled me onto his lap, and kissed my forehead. I felt so unsafe in his arms. Usually his arms made me feel safe, as if no one could hurt me. But now, the one who took away the pain is the one giving it.

"Bella it is because I have nothing to tell." He said, wrapped his arms around me.

"Yes you do." I whispered, he honestly didn't think I was stupid. "I'm tired of being lied to Edward. I'm so damn tired, if you care at all about my sanity, you'd tell me. Right now."

He stared me in the eye, and I saw for the slightest moment something I haven't seen before. I couldn't exactly put a name on it, I just saw it. But his eyes then flooded back with the confusion and pain.

"I swear to you Bella. I'm not hiding anything." He whispered his face so heartbreakingly perfect.

"I just have a feeling," I continued, "I've actually been having a feeling my whole life. You moved on didn't you? It's okay if you did." I told him, it really was okay if he did move on; after all, there was the whole Jacob business. Jacob loved me, that part was obvious, he made it clear that he wanted more than friendship, but I wasn't ready. I was still so stubbornly hanging on to Edward. But I can make no promise of what would have happened if Victoria hadn't come.

"I didn't," He scoffed.

"I understand if you did." I said quietly, I'm not a hypocrite.

He laughed, "Bella I didn't."

I held his face in my hands and stared him in the eye, searching. I searched his eyes, to the very bottom to his soul, and I found no lies. Maybe I was just over reacting.

"Have you only loved me?" I asked quietly, my eyes almost begging. "All your life, all the years you've spent walking this earth, I'm the only one?"

It seemed too impossible, it seemed too good. There had to be someone else. There just had to. After all, what's so special about me? Out of all the vampires, or humans, in the whole world, why me? There are more beautiful, more perfect, vampires out there. Someone who is perfectly perfect for him. Someone who can do the things that I can't. Maybe someone with greater powers than mine.

"I have loved only you for my whole life. No one else."

"Swear it on our love." I challenged, I knew this was ridiculous but I just need the reassurance, I just need to make sure. I just need him to promise me. When you're whole life has been built on lies, you need to find some stability once and a while. You need a promise so you know it will never be broken. You need something to keep your sanity together, you need some cushion so when you fall, it won't hurt as much.

He smiled softly and stared me in the eyes; his eyes were mixed with emotions, emotions I didn't have time to understand. First I saw doubt, but as quickly as I saw it, I saw happiness. I saw love.

"I swear it." He said and kissed me gently. And I honestly heard the love in his voice. The way he would say it, I couldn't doubt it. I couldn't make myself doubt it. I don't know whether it's because I'm weak, or because it's true. But let's just say it's the second choice. He loves me. I can feel it, hear it, everything. The love is evidential in his voice, the way it would leak through and entwine in his voice.

Suddenly I felt so stupid of ever thinking such a thing. But truthfully, could you blame me? I have my reasons, hell I have the scars on my heart – soul – to prove it. I have the memories to prove it too. I have the blood on my hands, the screams and begging in my ear, the sight never able to be unseen. Forever will it haunt me.

"Okay," I whispered and wrapped my arms around his body and kissed his neck. "I love you."

"As I love you." He replied and kissed my temple. We stayed like that for a while, wrapped in each other's arms. I felt the tension wash away with our promise. It was sealed. Edward loves me, only me. I think my doubt caught up with me, and caused me delusional moments or something. I really don't know. But then again, how much do I know?

"For the past years," He started, staring off into the distance. "Well, truthfully. It was nothing. No meaning. I mean of course I still had my moments, but everything it was just so…dull. I actually thought of going to the Volturi once and a while, relieving my pain. But I could never do that to Esme, I hurt my family enough, I didn't want to hurt anyone anymore. I was very close to traveling to Volterra in Italy."

"I remember you telling me about them," I answered quietly. "Who are they exactly?"

"One of the most powerful coven of vampires. They have powers and they recruit new ones, mostly newborns with amazing powers. They are sort of the…rulers of the vampire world. I know it sound all cliché, but they make sure that the peace is never corrupted. Though I cannot say I approve of their methods, but if you anger them, I don't think it's possible to be kept alive. "

"So you were going to kill yourself?"

"Thought about it." He corrected and stroked my cheek soothingly. "Did you honestly believe that I would continue living a life where you weren't in it?"

"At the time." I whispered and dropped my eyes.

"My life without you," He said thoughtfully, tightening his arms around me, and resting his head on my shoulder. "Varied from suicidal thoughts, to suicidal actions, to stupid actions, then back to suicidal ones. Honestly, I can't say that I did much."

I sighed and leaned back into him, playing with his hair. "I wish I could say the same."

He remained in silence for a short while. The words that were said sinking into us. The atmosphere calm and soothing. I felt right. I felt peaceful.

"You know," He said quietly, "We haven't hunted in a very long time."

"Oh yeah." I said. The thirst never really bothered me. Not when I was so drunk on our love.

"Want to go now?" He asked me, stood up, offering his hand to me. "I'm sure this will be interesting."

"I'd love to." I replied cheerfully. "Let's go hunt some lions."

He laughed and we ran out the door. So we ran hand in hand, and this time I was sure that he loved me. There was no more doubt in my heart, nothing but love.

Edward's POV.

I hate myself.

New Years Eve.

AN: I'm sorry if this is abrupt but I have been desperately wanting to write this part, and I have nothing else to fill in and I hate writing hunting scenes, but I will eventually, but not right now.

Back to Bella's POV

"FIVE MINUTES!" Alice screeched and handed me a glass full of red liquid. I sniffed it and realized it was grizzly. She winked at me and went to find Jasper.

New Years Eve.

A new year with Edward.

We were all on a cruise, in the main diner. Of course the other humans around us were staring at us, but this moment was too perfect to care. Alice insisted that we all go on the New Year Eve cruise, and I have to admit, it was worth it. Outside the window I could see the far lights of Forks, and above me the sky was full of stars, not a usually thing here in Forks. I wondered, as I stared out into the town I had spent my human years in, if people there could experience love the way I do. If they had someone who loved them like Edward loves me, I wonder if anyone could love each other more than Edward and I do. It seems impossible.

The ship was decorated with blue and silver, everything twinkling. Lights hung above us, shining and twinkling, but were nothing compared to the stars. All the humans had wine in their hands, and Alice somehow managed to sneak in the grizzly blood for us. How that girl got it passed security, I will never understand. I felt waves rock against the ship, but I had no protest. The ocean was so beautiful, the type of beauty that cannot be tamed, the type of beauty you can never really understand, the kind that entices you and lures you into it. The kind you can spend hours staring at it, because it never really stays the same. The kind that is constantly moving and if you're not fast enough, can change completely by a blink of an eye.

A large TV was set up so everyone could see the countdown, the screen flashing 4:12 more minutes left of this year. I could see the people gathered around Times Square, starring eagerly at the ball that was yet to be dropped. Everyone's faces so beautifully lit up with joy and excitement, a time of the yea you couldn't be sad at. Except for me of course. Some people see a New Year as a new chance at opportunity, a new year bringing new things. But for some others, those different types of people. They see it as the end of another year. An end to the year where maybe you had your first child, maybe where you had your first kiss. And suddenly it seems as if life is passing too fast, as if you don't have time to cherish in the moment. I'm not one of those people, I would have been if I was still human, but I'm not. I have forever, never will it end, and never will I die. I will remain like this forever; the possibilities will forever remain open to me. It's hardly fair, if you ask me. But of course no one will.

Esme was standing with Carlisle, whispering in his ear. Their love for each other obvious, sometimes I forget how much they really do love each other, and how fate brought them together and gave them this beautiful family. They were too much of a mother and father to me to remember that they too, loved each other as Edward and I did. Rosalie looked just as stunning as ever, wrapped in the arms of Emmett. Men eyeing her carefully but were instantly scared away by a single glance at Emmett, so protectively holding her against him. But she didn't seem to mind. Not at all. She seemed as if she was in perfect bliss in the arms of the love she so luckily stumbled upon.

Then there was Alice and Jasper. When you look at them, you feel the need to look away, though they were only holding hands, the love between them was evidential. The way he would smile down at her told me that she was his very world, and the way she would return that smile, told me the same. They way Jasper was able to calm Alice with a single touch, truly a perfect match. I wondered if that's what people saw when they look at Edward and me. I wondered if people could see the love radiating off our faces. Even now, with his arms around me, I wondered if the humans around me could tell we were hopelessly in love with each other. I wondered if they could tell by the way my eyes would shine when I look at him, that I love him with all my soul. If they could see the struggles we have faced to get to this moment.

I smiled and leaned against Edward, and waited as the New Year approached us. A New Year filled with love. A New Year where I won't be alone. A year where I will be loved and cherished. A year filled with new experiences and moments to live through, new boundaries to explore and conquer, and new problems to overcome. New laughs, new smiles and hugs. This year I won't be deceived by the lies, this year my eyes are open to the truth. The truth that Edward loves me. For the first time in many years, I will have Edward beside me to cherish in all the good times, and to comfort me in the sad. To create new memories together, to find new joys, and to challenge the unknown.

Sure, I had my doubts, my lack of trust. But that all melted away for this very moment. Right now I could not doubt a single thing around me.

"Come here," He whispered and tugged on my hand, leading me to the balcony. His eyes had the mysterious sparkle again. The kind that makes you question yourself.

"We can't leave," I commented, thinking about Esme, though I didn't mind a bit. Both he and I put out drinks on a nearby counter, just hoping that some drunk human wouldn't think of drinking it. They would be in for quite a surprise.

"It's not like we're leaving, we'll just be outside." He said and pulled on my hand once more. I looked at Esme, wondering if she wanted us to stay, but she only smiled and waved. Actually, everyone looked quite happy, not at all minding that we were missing the countdown with them. They were all beaming at me, like they had a dirty secret, but before I had time to question it, Edward pulled me outside, closing the door behind us.

We stepped outside on the balcony of the ship, the waves crashing beneath us. He led us to the railing and wrapped his arms around me, my dress swayed in the wind, along with my hair. I felt so content in his arms, I felt so warm. No one was outside with us, it was too cold for humans, but we didn't have to worry about that. I looked up and stared at the beautiful sky. Filled with bright stars and the most beautiful moon. It glowed so perfectly, the perfect end to the year, and the perfect beginning to the new one. The way the moon would light against Edward's perfect face, was priceless.

"Ten!" I heard everyone cheer, behind me. People raising their glasses in the air, couples in each other's arms."Nine! Eight! Seven!"

"Six, five, four." Edward whispered in my ear as we stared out to sea, the most perfect moment. The water looked as if it could go on for millions and millions of miles, as if it never had an end. I smelt the calming salty air, and shut my eyes as a gust of wind blew in my hair, filling me with such peace I thought it was impossible. It felt all so right. Goodbye year. Goodbye pain.

"Three, two." I chanted along with him, and I felt as if I could cry. Tears of joy. We have been through so much, and as we start this New Year together, I know it will only be the first to the addition of years that are set to come. Our love – just like the ocean – is endless. Full of adventures and ups and downs, but its bottomless depths are what matters. No matter what, it will take such an extreme force to break this between us. Our love is a promise, a promise both he and I have made for each other. A promise that will never shatter, never will it be broken. Our love is everlasting, and I only hope that this year will bring the start of memories of those to come. Eternity doesn't seem to long anymore, no, I am looking forward to it. Because this time. I'll be ready.

"One."

The sky exploded with color and sound as the fireworks shot up into the sky. Brilliant colors filling my vision, everyone screamed and cheered. People laughing and clinking glasses. Edward pulled me to him and kissed me gently. Our lips moving as one, as everyone cheered behind us, the fireworks booming above us, the water crashing beneath us, the love inside of us.

"I love you." I whispered as we pulled away and clutched on to him. "So, so much."

"I love you more." He answered and kissed me again.

"Impossible." I managed to protest. I felt my eyes stinging, but this time, from joy. Sometimes I wish I could cry just so I could express how happy I am. My hands tangled into his ran and I felt him pull me closer. We broke apart to stare up at the clash of color above us. I watched as color filled the sky, patterns and shapes. Suddenly words formed in the sky. The fireworks broke into letters, and it read:

Open the box, Bella.

I looked frantically at Edward, wide-eyed, he smiled at me, and handed me a small black box. He placed it in my hands, and I felt the smooth soft cover. I heard people murmuring, pointing up at the sky, wondering who this mysterious Bella was, and what kind of boyfriend she must have.

I opened the box slowly, my eyes prepared for what I knew what was inside. This was it, this moment would be the very moment I have been hoping for. I felt a million pounds on my chest as I opened the box.

It was empty.

I felt disappointment wash over me, I had been caught up in the moment, and my insides were suddenly crushed. I stared up at him curiously, wondering what he was up to. He just smiled at me and stroked my cheek. Where was the ring? He laughed cheerfully at the expression on my face, my lips parted slightly, and panic in my eyes.

Suddenly, a new sound filled my eyes. I turned my head, and saw through the glass windows, a man playing the piano. But not just any song. My Lullaby. The crowd instantly hushed and listened to the beautiful melody weave through the crowd. It played through the speakers as well, and I suddenly heard the voice of an angel.

"Bella," Edward said, and his voice echoed throughout the boat, and I wondered where the mike was, but I couldn't focus on anything else but his beautiful voice. "I have spent many years loving you. Loving every single thing about you. The first day I met you, was the start to it all. The day where you stumbled so beautifully to the seat next to me, at the first the feeling of the moment got to me, but at the back of my mind, I thought to myself, 'wow, what a beautiful girl.'" I knew he wanted to say more if it weren't for the human ears that were listening. I felt my insides clench up and my eyes water, though I knew I couldn't really cry. "I tried to convince myself it wasn't worth my time, that you could do so much better without me, that you're safety was the most important thing. But I couldn't. This beautiful girl with the brown hair and the overwhelming eyes mesmerized me. So, I got the nerve to talk to you. The way your voice would ring so beautifully, so purely, I knew I was a goner. That there was no power in this world that could remove me from your side."

He held my hands in his, the box between our hands, and his eyes gazed deep into mine as he continued on. "As I talked to you, I learned about you. Not only were you beautiful, but you were smart, you were kind. You were very clumsy. And so, somehow in my twisted, ironic way, I managed to get the clumsy brown haired girl to fall for me. And I felt as if my world suddenly brightened up. My life suddenly had reason, suddenly had a reason I want to live. I had someone I wanted to impress, someone I wanted to love. Someone who I could spend the rest of my life with me."

I stared up at him, biting my lip, trying to control the sobs that wanted to escape. From the corner of my eye, I saw people staring at us, some with tears in their eyes, other eyeing me with jealousy, but I didn't care about them. Not in this whole world could compare to the man who stood before me this moment.

"Then I went and did the most stupid, most horrible thing. I made a terrible mistake that caused both of us many years of unnecessary pain. But somehow, fate has brought us back together. I have given you wounds I know that cannot be forgotten, and for that I am truly and utterly sorry. I know that I've given you memories that will haunt you, but please, remember I am always here for you. I will always be there to chase them away and create new, happier ones. Everyone moment I have with you, is a blessing. Each time you look at me, I get the same feeling I got when I first met you. As we start this New Year, I want you by my side, but as something so much more. I want everyone to know that you and I have a love that cannot be broken. I want to start this year with you as my wife. Bella, with my whole self, with every part of me I love you. I want everyone to look at your hand and see the ring there, and know that you are taken, know that there is a man out there who loves you so much. I want you to wear this ring around your finger as a reminder that I will always love you, love you and only you. Would you do me the honour, of being my wife?"

With that, he bent down to one knee, and held out the most beautiful ring. My hand flew to my mouth, my bottom lip trembling with emotion. I looked behind him at the beautiful family of vampires, all smiling at me, and they way they did, I knew I was so much more to them then I could understand. Esme with her motherly love, I knew that was something I could not find anywhere else. Carlisle with his knowing and understanding mind, the kind of person you can ask any question in the world, and know they have an answer to. Jasper, with his serene calming ways, the way you can feel so at ease by his side, powers or no powers. Alice with her sisterly love, the way she can bring cheer into your life so easily, the way you just have to return one of her smiles. Emmett, with his protective, cheerful spirit. The type who, by a single glance, can have the hairs at the back of your neck standing. But by a single hug, can make you insides melt into mush. Then there Rosalie, with her high, beautiful character. Though she doesn't like me, at least not totally, I feel as if we are closer than we were before. That both she and I can relate to what it's like to be alone. And I think that's what's bringing us closer. Then I turned my attention back down to the man who knelt in front of me, the most beautiful smile on his face. I thought of his loving ways, the way he would speak so adoringly into my ear, the way he can make my soul shatter to pieces with a single smile. The man who has captured my dead heart.

"Yes," I breathed, and I heard my voice echo throughout the ship, people began to cheer and clap as he slid the ring on to my finger as if it was made to fit there. Fireworks exploded above, expressing the new joy in the air. I stared up at them with tears in my eyes, they exploded with such color and emotion that I knew I had in my life. I faintly heard Alice's squeals in the crowd and I smiled as Edward stood and captured me in a passionate kiss. Now, was I not only kissing Edward, I was kissing Edward, my fiancé.

"I love you Bella, my wife-to-be." He whispered in my ear as he pulled me in for a hug. He held my tightly against him and I felt so perfect in his arms. All the troubles we had earlier all faded away into a memory. I can't doubt him ever again. And this ring represents it. The ring is our promise. The ring on my finger is the truth, the bond between us, the link that keeps us together. The fate that always has us entwining. I thanked the Lord for the man who held me now. Though I was never really religious, and I never really believed in a God. But I believe that someone out there is planning our life, and that person or being, has brought Edward and I together again. I remembered when Edward and I had that conversation all those years ago. About an afterlife, if us soulless creatures had a chance at one. But we do, because we have souls, we have good in us. I never really believed in that stuff, the bible, God, the church. I really don't know. I just know that something brought us together.

He pulled away from me and kissed me again before leading me back into the ship where we were greeted with cheers and smiles, we smiled at them graciously, and made our way to our family who waited for us.

"Congratulations." Alice yelled and managed to jump on the both of us. "Oh I just knew it!"

I laughed and hugged my sister back. "Thank you."

"It's about time." Emmett said and smiled.

And really, it was. Edward and I both deserve our happily ever after. After all the years we've spent apart, we need this as our link, as our security. And as I wore the ring on my finger.

Our promises were locked.

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I know, I know. Short huh?

Well I just really wanted to get this out. I wanted to proposal off my chest. And be assured, NO it's NOT over. Barely over. Danger is soon approaching. I tried to fit in everyone's suggestion on what a guy could do to win someone's love. I did the love in voice, the written in the sky, the speech, well not the exact speech. My speech. Haha, I'm so mushy. Just another squishy jello =)

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