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(What's the Story) Morning Glory?

Chapter Nine:

"Albarn You All"

Believe it or not, things had actually been going remarkably.

Granted, it had only been a day- but so far the number of fights me and Finn had had, was at zero.

Well, if it wasn't for the fact he kept trying to call me. My mother had picked up the phone, and called for me. Naturally- I assumed it was Archie.

"Hey, Archie."

"Archie? No- it's, it's Finn."

"Oh." Shit.

"Hi, Finn."

"'Ello. Look anyway I tried to talk to you in the pub last night about Chloe and what happened, but you just walked off and I-"

I had to get him to stop talking. So I did the only thing I could think of.

"Oh, Mum! Hi! Sorry- what's that? You want me to feed the dog? Fine, if I must. Sorry, Finn- I've got to go."

"Wait- wha, Rae- no,"

Of course I didn't have a dog, but by that time I had already slammed down the phone. I didn't need any reminders of that fateful day. I was trying my best to live an unselfish, grown-up life from now on.


"So, you're going to a gig tonight I hear." Kester said, in his usual inquisitive tone.

"Yes…" I trailed off.

"And how are we feeling about that?"

"Kester- I think you're losing your touch, did you honestly just ask me how I'm 'feeling about that?'"

Kester sighed. "You're fucking right. Ever since the head of department has put these new fucking rules in place, my creative freedom has somewhat suffered."

I laughed. "I can see that. I'll help you out then." I stood up and fiddled with a pencil on Kester's desk. "Look, I'm scared okay? I'm scared that I'm not going to be able to do it."

"And what's that Rae?"

"This growing up thing. How am I supposed to act like a mature responsible adult when I haven't even had a man touch me as if I was a real girl. Not some fat lump."

Kester opened his mouth to speak.

"And don't say Archie. You know he's a gayer. That doesn't count. At least, I don't think it does?" I looked up off into space, and I heard Kester chuckle in the background.

"Rae. You're sixteen. Leave the growing up for when you actually are a grown up."

I puffed and slumped back into the chair. "But, how am I supposed to handle life? Like- Chloe sleeping with the only boy I've ever loved. Properly. Adult's know how to do it. They must do!"

Kester put his hands together, leaned forward and rested his chin on them. "I'll let you in on a little secret, Rae. Some adults still don't know how to handle life. You're not alone."

I smiled.


"Are you ready?" Chloe called.

"Ready as I'll ever be." I replied, trying my hardest not to glance in the mirror.

"You look brill, Rae!" Izzy jeered, sitting up from the bed as I walked through the door.

"Oh, wow Rae. You look drop dead gorgeous." Chloe joined.

We were currently in the process of getting ready for the obviously fabricated Blur gig- located in some warehouse just outside Lincolnshire. Chop had volunteered to drive us all, I assumed Finn was taking his motorbike as there were six of us, and five seats in the car.

I smiled slightly. "D'ya reckon I'll pull?" I giggled.

"Yes!" They both said in unison.

Bless them, I knew they were lying- but it was nice to hear them say it anyway.

"You guys are bloody lucky. You've got Chop hanging off your every word- and Finn's mad for you. I'm still looking!" I sat on the bed next to Izzy.

"Why did you dump Archie again?" Chloe asked, confused.

"Let's just say- we differ in taste." That's the only way I could not lie about Archie's homosexuality without completely giving the game away.

"Wow, I have to say- he took it exceptionally well." Chloe replied, to which I nodded.

"That's Archie."

They both nodded in response. "What a load of bullshit, eh? I've said it once- and I'll say it again. Damon Albarn- would not set foot in Lincolnshire."

"Who's Damon Albarn?" Izzy said, dazed.

Me and Chloe glanced at each other. "The lead singer of Blur Iz," Chloe answered.

"Oh." She smiled.

I looked in the mirror for the first time. The green dress clung to my stomach and little too closely.

"Rae. Don't worry." Chloe whispered.

So, for once in my life- I didn't.


It was twilight, when we finally did make it outside- the age of 'Red sky at night, Shepherds delight' crossed my mind more than once.

"HELLO FAIR LADIES!" Chop called from the window of the car.

Walking down the street in two inchers was hard enough, but to be greeted by blaring horns and flashing lights of Chop's car all about did me in. I lost balance, and not so gracefully- fell.

I think I must have bumped my head of the path because everything was a bit blurry for a minute or too. I heard doors slamming and running, a suddenly felt a weight being lifted under my head.

"Rae? Can you hear me?" The angel's voice asked.

I could only mumble in response.

"Oh, fuck. She's concussed." The angel's voice spoke again.

"No, nahhhh- I'm- not," I slurred, grabbing hold of the angels (muscular) bicep to heave myself up.

"Rae? How many fingers am I holding up?" I could just make out Archie's glasses as he held up three fingers.

"Eleven." I said, jokily still wobbling slightly.

The gang laughed. "She's fine." Archie confirmed and the gang all started to pile into the car.

It was then that I realized that I was still holding on the 'Angel's' bicep. I don't know who I was expecting to see when I turned around.

Of course it was Finn.

I just wish it wasn't.

"Thanks." I wheezed.

"Yeah, nah- y'alright." He said as I tried to remove my hand from his arm.

"I'll help ya." He responded to my confused look.

"Listen, Rae can I talk to ya now-"

But I tripped and fell, very luckily, into the car- Izzy's giggles silencing him.

Thank fuck.

Finn climbed into the car next to me, our legs pressed together firmly. He clasped his hands firmly in his lap- his white t-shirt clinging to his abdomen, jaw tightening as he looked out of the window. I don't know whether it was just me, but the car was getting smaller and smaller by the second.

Luckily, Chloe was in the front and Izzy was sitting on Archie's lap (I don't think Chop minded) seeing as muggins 'ere took up so much space. Izzy was blocking Chloe's view -so she didn't have to see this. I was supposed to be acting like a responsible adult.

"Who's want's a little mood music, then?" Chop cheered, sticking a tape in the player.

I was knocked out of my skin when I head Babylon Zoo, echo throughout the car.

"Oh- Finn mate, your fooking tape's still in 'ere from yesterday!" Chop moaned.

I looked at Finn, who smirked slightly.

"I remember this from Oasis." Archie piped up. "Jesus, Rae told you right off Finn! We missed you though Rae."

I flushed somewhat, before saying, "Shut up, Arch." But smiling nonetheless.

It was then that it happened.

I could barely feel it at first, it was so subtle- almost invisible, but there it was.

Finn's finger curved and danced around on my thigh again and again until I could make out the question, 'When?'

I couldn't say anything. All I could do was stare straight ahead, out of the dashboard- my eyes blinded by the flashing lights of the other cars on the dual carriageway.

"Right, where the fuck is this gig then?" I said after a while to relieve the tension.

"Dodger said it'd be round 'ere somewhere." Chop replied, as we pulled off the dual carriageway onto a country road.

"Let's hope fucking Dodger's right." I heard Chloe mutter quietly.

Finally, Chop pulled up against a field. "Well, this is it." He declared.

We all looked out of the window's. It was empty. There was not one person in sight.

Finn looked at me, and I could do was shrug. "Mate, are you sure this is it?" He leaned forward into the front of the car.

"Mate. Patience, yeah." Chop replied, holding his hands up. Finn slumped back into his seat.


We did wait.

For a good forty five minutes, we waited.

"Right, fuck this- I'm going for a piss." Archie said, opening the car door to let Izzy jump off his lap first. "Yeah, I'll come too" Chloe added, as she too opened her car door.

I shuffled over so I the proximity between Finn and I was bearable. Chop leaned he head back against the back seat and let out a groan.

"Oh, it's alright Chopper." I reassured, patting the top of his hat.

"Yeah, mate." Finn joined in. "You know what these things are like- they always tell people the wrong place."

"Exactly!" I jeered. "We'll find it. Don't you worry."

Chop ran his hands over his face. "I'm gonna go check the road, see if there's any lad's I know hanging about." He said, pushing the car door open.

Finn and I were alone.

This was it, there was no escape. He was going to tell me that they're in love- and that Chloe's already picked out their wedding cake, and how he really wants me to be there to help nurse their children of some shit like that.

"No!" I said aloud.

Finn jumped slightly from his corner of the car, his hands rubbing his legs in embarrassment.

"What?" he looked outside for any sign of danger.

"Sorry." I whispered, and he visibly relaxed a little, his gaze settling on me.

It was my turn to say, "What?" and his turn to say, "Sorry."

After a beat, he said, "Are you going to let me talk to you?"

"What exactly do you mean? We're talking now."

"Come 'ere." He said, out of the blue- nodded his head in his direction.

I didn't move.

"Oh, fook sake." He muttered under his breath. "I just need to see ya. It's too dark."

I still didn't move. It wasn't because I didn't want to, it's because I couldn't. I was frozen.

I heard him sigh, but slowly he bent forward the car creaking as he did so. One arm outstretched, Finn clutched the side of my face. I could faintly see his chain dangle as he leaned. I didn't know what to do. I was a statue.

I don't think he had planned this far ahead, because he stopped. And hesistated.

"Finn?" I breathed, heart pounding.

He turned back to me, and I didn't think I could take much more. I could barely breathe. I closed my eyes tightly, my body tensing. I know he could feel it.

"Look at me," he said.

I snapped my eyes open to see him moving in slowly, his lips grazing mine. Then, without warning- he kissed me. He controlled the pace, controlled the kiss, but when he found my tongue, and our tongues met, the kiss became urgent, desperate even. Bringing another hand up to tangle into my hair he pushed at the front seat to make more room for him to climb on top of me.

It occurred to me then that not only was Finn kissing me, but Finn was kissing me in the backseat of Chop's car. I tried to stop my heart from doing little flips.

It was then, that my brain kicked in. Oi, better late than never.

I gathered all my force and shoved him off of me, to which he fell back onto the seat next to me- hair mused, lips swollen. Oh god, he looked good. So fucking good.

"What," I puffed, "are you doing?!"

"What does it look like?" he replied, leaning forward once again.

"No! No." I held my hand out. I pointed at him. Oh god. He looked good. I shook my head as if to perish the thought, and returned to the matter at hand. "Chloe! You're going out with Chloe. You're cheating on Chloe! You know, remember her? My. Best. Friend."

Finn stopped running his fingers through his hair- and stared me square in the face. "What? No, I'm not!"

I halted. "What." Was all I could get out.

"I ended it last week. When you came over that day- and she was in her… you know, underwear. She said she was going upstairs to use the toilet! I didn't know what she was planning!"

"But you didn't exactly say anything to make me think otherwise!" I retorted.

He fell silent and looked slightly bashful. "I kinda, thought- well maybe, I kinda hoped that you might have been… jealous."

I laughed without humour. "Fucking brilliant." I said between laughs. "No, really fucking fantastic Finn."

"Yeah, well! What about you and Archie eh?!"

"Oh, don't."

"Do you remember what happened that night at yours?" he said quietly.

"No." I said, shocked at the sudden mood change.

"You told me you loved me." He said, looking out of the window.

"What?!" I exclaimed.

"I can't believe Chloe didn't tell you about us." I murmured angrily.

"One minute, rewind- I said what?!"

Finn ruffled his hair once more and exhaled loudly, turning to me.

"What do you want me to say Rae?" He held his hands up in question, and then clutched the door handle. "I think I've said it all."

I don't think he was referring to words.

"Finn." I called, clutching the door handle and opening my side to follow him.

He stopped a way away from me and relaxed his shoulders. Just as he spun around we heard voices coming from the field.

"Guys! We know where it is!" I could barely make out Izzy's voice, as they neared closer we saw Izzy holding Chop's hand, and Chloe and Archie running behind them at full speed.

"Quick, get in the car!" Chop called, "Just saw my mate on the road! He's told me it's Park Field! Not Forest Row!" He said quickly jumping in the car.

Me and Finn just stood there dumbstruck, everyone already in the car. I could see Chloe giving me a look.

Suddenly, I was fuming.

"Well, get in will ya?!" Chop yelled.

I sighed and got back in the car, making sure that I was sitting on the complete opposite side to Finn. I couldn't deal with this right now.

"Right, then- Damien Alburn, 'ere we come!"

"It's Damon Albarn, Chopper." I corrected from the back.


Just wanna say that the song Cast No Shadow - Oasis inspired me for this chapter! Go and give it a listen if you can be bothered aha!

Much love,

-Laura x