Chapter 9: Hope you find happiness…
N: Do I have any other option?
Persona smile. "Let her free, and be sure to leave her in her room"
Mikan POV
It has been 3 month already since the incident with Persona. From that day on Natsume being to ignore me, he rarely or never talk to me, and is asking like a jerk with me, flirting around with other girls, kissing them in front of me, and even making out. I feel my heart been crush by the person I love the most. I still can remember his touch, my body feel his warm, his love, and I still feel my body breaking apart in his arm while he made me useless to defend myself against him. Was that all…a lie?
Flashback
After been free by Persona and return to my room, I woke up 2 days later. All my body felt heavy, my heart didn't respond to me anymore, it was devastating. Tears ran down my cheeks, I didn't have not the heart or face to look at Natsume anymore. I felt so dirty, that man touch I could still felt it my body, it was like fire but stronger, burning my skin, and my soul, and my…. Feelings. For days I couldn't sleep, nor I went to class either, voices tormented me day and night, every second, the voice of that man who marked me forever.
Days later…
Naru: Mikan… are you awake?
I didn't answer…I didn't hear anything, I couldn't speak, I was like doll, silent and cold.
Naru: I just came to see…. Why didn't you came to class… Well, I guess I talk to you later.
When I finally decided to go out for a walk, I bumped into Natsume. We stared at each other for a while, his ice were as cold as ice, I could felt hatred in his eyes, did he knew? Was he mad at me? Tear began to run down my cheeks. He continued walking like I wasn't there, and leaved me without a single explanation. But, did I really need one? It was so obvious that after what happened he wouldn't want to touch my filthy body anymore. I am such an idiot…
End of Flashback
After that, he never talked to me again, and where he does only insult come out of his mouth…
Flashback
Girl: "MnnM… Natsume….kiss me more" she said and putted into a very passionate deep kiss.
I was very depressed in class, deep in thoughts, I wasn't interest in anything, and I wasn't even paying attention to Jinno's insults. During homeroom, Narumi tried to cheer me up, and so he assigned me as his assistant. In one of the works as his assistant, I had to go to the library and looked for some grammar books. In my way to the library I heard two voices, one was definitely a girl voice and the other one I was sure it was Natsume. I quietly spied on them, carefully so that they didn't noticed. When I got closer to see what was going on, I saw them kissing, Natsume was holding her waist, and she had her arms around his neck. I was shocked at the image in front of me. Suddenly he pushed her into the nurse office and then to the bed. He didn't notice he had left the door opened, and so I got in. I knew what was going to happen, but I wanted to see it with my own eyes. He tenderly placed kisses all over her face and they her neck, sucking and biting her. Little by little, making his way down to her breasts, playing with them, at the same time softy touching her thighs. He sucked her aroused under clothing nipples, and slowly stripped her completely. While stroking her breast, he gradually made his way down her body to her inner thighs, and with the tip of his tongue licked her clitoris making her go crazy in pleasure. I could hear her moans; they were loud and full of lust. I could felt my body braking at the sight of him making love to another woman other than me but I wanted to stay until the end. He parted her labia gently with his fingers, and move inward with his tongue, nuzzling, burrowing, and thrusting his tongue into her vagina. Then he went back to kiss her, then putted three finger in her mouth, then kissed her again and in the meantime slid one of his finger inside her. She moaned in the kiss, he didn't move waiting for her to adjust, then insert a second one scissoring her inside until he finally found what he was looking for, she mound louder and moved her thighs so that his finger thrust deeper, afterwards he add a third one and began to thrust harder, deeper, and faster. After a while, he withdraw his fingers, and lean down to lick her. He grabbed her thighs, with her legs in the air; he positioned his head between her thighs and licked her back as well. Then she unzipped his pants, grabbed his erection who was proudly hard, then spread her legs as wide as she could, she sat in his laps, placing his cock in her entrance and her arms around his neck. He start thrusting inside her at a slow speed, kissing her breast and sucking her nipples at the same time, then began to speed up his thrusts. She was all hot, sweat run down her whole body, and he seemed to be enjoying it. Tears run down my cheeks as my body aches with angry, betrayal, with pain. As I couldn't resist anymore, I ran as fast as I could, with the greatest pain I had ever felt before. Now for sure, I was going to forget about him and about everything we once lived together.
Natsume POV
After Persona threaten to harm Mikan, I had to agree to be separate from her. I felt like they were taking half of my heart from me. I was worried about her, she wasn't eating, not talking; she wasn't even attending to class. The experience she had with Persona traumatized her, and I knew that she needed me more than ever but… for her own safety, this time she had to go on without me. I know she wasn't going to accept it without a good explanation, and so I decided to give her reasons to hate me, reasons to forget me, even if she gets hurt now, even if she didn't love me anymore, at least she had a chance to be happy. After a few days after the incident, I bumped into her. Her eyes were red from crying, her body was trembling, and her eyes-only showed pain and sadness. I wanted to hug her and comfort her so badly, but I knew I couldn't, so my best option was to ignore her. I was mad at myself, I was acting like a jerk, and I was hurting the same person I swear to protect. I wouldn't blamed her if she hated me after this…
The second time I saw her, was in front of the nurse office. I notice she was there, but I try to convince myself she wasn't. I used the opportunity, to completely crush her once and for all, hoping for her to find happiness with someone other than me. I pushed the girl I was kissing into the nurse office bed. After some caresses, I stripped her and with my fingers thrust her. I wasn't planning on going so far, but Mikan didn't looked like she was planning on going anywhere until the very end, and so I took everything to the last of the consequences. Almost at the end, I noticed Mikan ran out crying, my heart was beating with pain, and tears were forming in my eyes, but I needed to be strong if I wanted to protect her. I am sorry…. Mikan….I said and come to my climax.
After that day, Mikan eyes were no longer as sparkle as before, instead they were emotionless and full of pain. That was not what I wanted but somehow I was predicting it. Also, I was sure that soon she was going to be the same.
Weeks later, it was the last day of the first Marking Period and we was going 1 month of vacation. We were able to go back to our homes, everyone was cheered up about it, but for me it was the worst day ever. I didn't have a place to come back to anymore, and not only that but I was going to be transfer to a special class, in a different school building, isolate from everyone, students called it HELL. This is the last time we was going to see each other. I am going to miss you so much…. Mikan…. My Mikan. Under the Sakura tree, in which we once became one, under that same tree, I swear to you, once again, that I love you….
Mikan POV
It was the last day before the vacations begin. I wanted to go back home, I needed of my family now more than ever. The last thing I did that day before leaving was to go to the Sakura tree, that tree that was once Natsume and I special place. I cry my heart out, as if the tree was listening to me, and I swear that whatever it took I was going to forget the day I met Natsume Hyuuga. With that said, I got in my car looking forward to the next day…
This is the last chapter of this season. The next one is coming out soon, continue supporting me. Thank you…
