Bringing up Cal and the trail was a cheap shot and she knew it. But she couldn't have handled another minute of his 'this is your decision Jordan' tone.
"That's great Jor.."
Yeah great because this was her home and this was her life right? And she loved her job and her friends were here, her family. Right?
Right?
And all he could muster was "That's great.."? He deserved the cheap shot. The passive aggressive bastard.
Besides, she hadn't wanted to leave her children. She didn't care if the whole damn BPD was sitting in the bedroom reading them Goodnight Moon. She still didn't feel safe. And who the hell were the BPD to make her feel safe anyhow? They'd practically tried to have her hung in Boston Commons for a mob hit she knew nothing about. Home Sweet Home.
"Jordan." She spun on her heals slightly jumpy at Lily's words. "Oo.. Sorry."
She shook her head before taking a deep breath.
"I'm still not all that used to being called that in public." She sputtered.
"Did you want me to call you Amy?" Lily looked at her like she was insane. Jordan blinked at her for a moment.
Yes.. Maybe..
"No of course not." She plastered on her best smile. "It's fine.. really."
"Okay.." Lily stopped for a moment, watching Jordan's eyes move nervously back and forth. "I just wanted to apologize.. for.. today."
Damn it. Damn it. Damn it.
"For what?" Jordan shook her head as if Lily was being ridiculous. "It was no big deal."
"It's just.. Amy.. Bug's Amy.. and I never meant to make you feel left out. I hope you didn't feel.."
"Of course not."
"We should have just invited you to come along. I don't know why we just both stood there looking like-. It wasn't like we didn't want you to come along.."
"Lily really it's no big deal. I didn't feel left out or anything.." She lied. "I don't really even know Amy. There's no rule that you two had to ask me to lunch it's not a big deal." She waved her hands dismissively.
"I didn't even think about it. That Michaela's used to be our place you know? I mean, God Jordan, we practically went there every week." She smiled shyly. "It's just been a long time Jordan."
"A lot's changed." Jordan nodded her head, trying not to remember the awkwardly lost look on Lily's face this afternoon. Lily nodded too.
"It's.. It's really good to have you back Jordan." She was trying hard to mean it, Jordan thought. And in a way she probably did, but neither one of them was sure in which way. Lily awkwardly looped her arms around Jordan and gave her a hug, sinking into her shoulder with an uncurious nostalgic sigh of remorse. Jordan however was quite conscious of it. Jordan noticed it each time she was hugged by someone from her past life.
"How do those two even work together?" Nigel asked leaning over Bug's shoulder and pointing towards McCoy and Hoyt.
"We used to argue like that." Seely's drunken remorse made Garret Macy roll his eyes. Nigel gave the detective a quirky look, Bug whacked him on the arm. "What? We did.. it's the whole 'alpha male' thing.."
"You were never the alpha male Seely." Bug told him flatly.
"I could have been. I was when he was gone.."
"And now he's back." Nigel told him triumphantly.
"Yeah." Seely muttered watching Woody point the stick at Danny as Danny smacked it away and pointed back at the table. Matt watched Woody smirk at Danny's words. "Wonder what they're saying.."
"Probably arguing about who can piss higher on the tree.." Bug snorted, watching Woody's failing attempt to psych Danny out before he took his shot.
"No, I'm serious." Matt whined taking another long drink of his beer.
"Maybe they're talking about you." Nigel teased.
"You think?" He chirped, leaning his head back to look at Nigel. The Brit grimaced at him. Bug took the bottle away from him.
"Your cut off, Detective." He muttered.
Seely grunted, but didn't argue.
"They're probably drinking whiskey." He muttered before standing up and wandering away in search of his wife.
"Poor Seely.. always a bridesmaid..." Bug shook his head slowly as Nigel broke into a toothy grin.
Garret noticed however how both of their stoic gazes returned immediately towards the men in question. Five years was a long time and it appeared this was going to be a difficult adjustment for all.
