A/N- Millers crossing. A good episode all things considering... adding Elizabeth was fun.

Knowing What Is There

They all flew back to Earth as soon as they heard. Rodney's sister was missing, and John, Elizabeth and Rodney all went to earth to find her. Teyla elected to stay behind because of her condition- which none of the boys knew about and Ronan decided to stay behind to keep Teyla company. Wouldn't know what to do with myself on Earth. He had told John and Elizabeth honestly. Not that I don't want to see where you come from. Maybe get all those references that you and Mckay toss back and forth...

Back in Jeanie's home Rodney explained the situation to Agent Barrett, John and Elizabeth. "I was bouncing some ideas off her." He stated reluctantly.

"What about?" Barrett asked intrigued.

"Well," Rodney began with a sigh. "Before Sheppard's wraith showed up I was trying to perfect my nanite medical program."

"To help me." Elizabeth piped up. "Stop my nanites."

"Yeah," Rodney confirmed. "It was to be a better and more complex version but as soon as we found out that the replicators were attacking human worlds throughout the Pegasus galaxy we obviously switched our focus to shutting them down once and for all."

"And you sent Jeanie the program that you were working on?" Barrett asked. "Was that such a smart idea?"

"I needed a new set of eyes." Rodney defended. "Look, I know now that maybe the Trust or some other Earth-based organisation wanted info on me or about the program but regardless of that, my e-mail and her capture happened too close together not to be connected.

"Sounds like a place to start." Elizabeth stated with a worried look. She fiddled with the suit that she was wearing and as she looked sideways to John she admitted that he was handsome. Unfortunately, her noticing John made her miss most of the conversation.

"Seriously," Rodney was saying. "This could take ten or twelve hours. Just..." he was at a loss for words, and Rodney was never at a loss for words. "...there's nothing you can do here. Just go back to the hotel. I'll call you if I find anything."

---SPARKY----

They were in Vancouver, and therefore all of them, John, Elizabeth and Rodney had had to book a single room for all of them because some big sci-fi convention was taking place in the area. Just imagine what they all would think if they really knew. Rodney had whispered to them as the checked in. They wouldn't know what to do with themselves.

"Poor Rodney." Elizabeth stated as she sat down on one of the double beds, taking her shoes off. "I can't imagine what he's going through right now."

"I know." John agreed, opening the blinds to let in the sun. "But he'll fix this. He always does."

"Still..." Elizabeth stated with a sigh. "We have no idea where she might be."

"Rodney will find her." John restated, realising that the two of them were stalling. "I mean..."

"Listen John," Elizabeth began causing John to falter in his speech. "I think that we need to talk."

"Now?" John asked.

"Now." Elizabeth confirmed with a nod.

"But everything here is...well..." John sighed. "It's what's making things so difficult."

"No more difficult than back home." Elizabeth stated standing up to face him. "And besides..."

"Elizabeth." John stated looking away. "I don't want to have this conversation with you right now."

"No?" She asked curiously, turning his shoulder so that he would look at her. "Then when are we going to have this conversation?"

There was so much subtext between the two of them, and so much of a connection that Elizabeth could almost hear his thoughts. "When it suits you?" she asked almost angrily.

"Yeah." John agreed with a slow nod. "What it suits me... and you too." He stated looking Elizabeth squarely in the eyes. "I don't think that you are ready to have this conversation, no matter what you think."

"Oh I am ready to have this conversation John." Elizabeth stated bitterly. "But I guess I was foolish enough to think that you were."

"Elizabeth..."

But it was too late. Elizabeth had already put her shoes back on and had stalked out of the room. John in the meantime just sat on one of the double beds and put his head in his hands. "What have I done...?"

---SPARKY----

So much happened so quickly; but it was all over now. And back on Atlantis, Elizabeth found John on their balcony. "You know there is something that I haven't yet understood." She stated as she came to stand beside him. "And I won't understand until you explain it to me."

"What?" John asked, not tearing his gaze away from the ocean.

"You talked Wallace into killing himself."

"He wanted to make things right." John stated, telling Elizabeth the same thing that he had told Rodney. "And I wasn't about to let McKay risk his own life."

"The wraith could have used me." Elizabeth stated thinking back to their argument. I am the only viable option. Elizabeth had argued after she had heard Rodney ranting. The wraith can feed on me and I will be okay.

We don't know that. John had stated angrily. He could kill you.

I'm half replicator John. Elizabeth had shouted. He couldn't kill me even if he tried.

You don't know that.

No. Elizabeth agreed. I don't know that. But it's worth the risk.

I disagree. John had argued.

You can disagree all you want John Sheppard, Elizabeth countered. But you can not tell me what to do. I was your commander once.

But not anymore Elizabeth, John had answered coldly. Not anymore.

"The wraith could have used me." Elizabeth restated. "And you wouldn't have had to cross the line."

"I didn't cross the line."

"John, look at me." Elizabeth stated, her voice holding as much authority as it had in the past. Once John was looking at her she continued. "What is with you? You wouldn't let Rodney sacrifice himself that I understand. He is your friend and a member of your team and you need him. But me-? I'm a potential threat that was probably immune and instead-"

"I didn't want to take the chance." John stated angrily. "Not on you. Not again."

"It wasn't your chance to take." Elizabeth argued. "It was mine." She sighed and softened her voice. "We were a team once... we didn't let the other make decisions alone."

"I know." John stated with a sigh. "I know."

"What happened?" Elizabeth asked, putting aside the partial conversation that they had had in the hotel. "Surely we haven't changed that much?"

"Our situation has changed." John stated honestly. "And I just have a feeling that it is going to get worse before it gets better."

Elizabeth was shocked. "What happened to that cocky, fly-boy attitude that you used to have?"

"It disappeared." John stated sincerely. "I mean it's still there...but that cocky, fly-boy attitude has gotten a lot of people killed."

"I'm still here John." Elizabeth stated quietly, knowing that her words held more than she was saying. "I'm still here."

"I know." John said with a nod of his head. "Believe me Elizabeth I know..."


A/N- Hey gang! Thank you to sparklyshimmer2010, StormO, saphtiretwin369, jasminesmommy, Jenni, Charmed225 and whirlwind2005 for reviewing the last chapter. I hope that you guys liked this one and will review it too. :D