Sauli's POV

It had been about three weeks since I moved in with Adam, and to be honest, nothing much has changed since the first time we encountered. I mean, my English has gotten a lot better and I'm not as shy around him. I'll admit that I still feel weird living in his house and being half a tiger and shit, but he still doesn't seem to care about it. And my English is much better then it was when I first came here. I even taught Adam a couple words that I thought he would like to know. I've gone to a couple more rehearsals with him and Tommy keeps doing the same thing, but Adam always comes to my rescue, which I appreciate because Tommy's flirting makes me a little uncomfortable because I'm so not use to it. Other than that, it's been fairly normal. I normally remain in the house while Adam shops because he would rather remain safe than sorry, but I'm totally fine with that because I don't like people and looking at them would probably just piss me off. I guess the biggest difference would be that we kiss…A LOT. Adam will come home from rehearsal or something and I'll be watching the birds, or watching TV, or cooking even and we'll give each other a quick peck on the lips. It's never gone longer than three seconds and never involved any hand gestures, or any tongue. Completely sweet and innocent. After it, Adam would smile and we would just go on with life as if it was the most normal thing in the world. But I had to change that…It was that time of year actually.

Unfortunately for me, when I turned into this animal (and I still resent ever becoming this), I obtained an annoying cycle where I essentially went into 'heat', I guess you could say. It happens for about a week each year, and initially…I'm just horny. I want to fuck everything that moves, but I've never succeeded in this endeavor. It's normally only for female tigers, but let's just say I'm not in the most normal situation, so it doesn't apply to me. I can defy the laws of logic. It pretty much just makes me a bigger freak then before. In addition, I just found out I was going into heat when I started seeing Adam in a different light. A more lustful eye. Most of the time I just saw him as a friend that I loved deeply, but nothing more than that. Now, I wanted nothing more than to get with him and kiss him all over. I had even nastier thoughts, but I regretted them because I knew it would never happen, and I didn't want this to happen. It would mean nothing, and I had no interest in becoming an item with anyone at any time. However, I knew it was just my hormones talking and I couldn't take them seriously. I had never actually had sex, and it's a long story…I'm still a virgin, and it's kind of embarrassing in a way. I mean, I'm twenty-six and I'm like…Ugh, I don't even know anymore because really…Who would want to have sex with a man that has freakish tiger ears and tail?

I sat on the couch, biting my bottom lip, nibbling on it as my tail swished frantically back and forth, my ear twitching periodically at the random noises that popped up. I was waiting for Adam to come home from some interviews or something, I wasn't sure. He told me before he left, but I wasn't listening. I was trying to not attack him. Why did this have to happen now? If he kissed me, I wouldn't be able to resist and I'll attack him, but I don't want to seem like some clingy freak. I didn't want to seem like a freak in general. He was nice enough to let me into his house, let me eat his food, sleep with him (not like that—I just don't like sleeping alone…Don't judge me), and everything else! Shit, what am I going to do—?

"Hi, Sauli! I'm home," Adam called, opening the front door then shutting it with a click. He turned around, looking as sexy as ever. He was in a pair of gray jeans with rips and a pair of black shoes he called medges which I had no idea what he meant by. A tight black tee clung to his frame and it was draped with a black jacket. He had on a pair of sunglasses that he lifted to his hair, allowing a couple stray bangs to fall over his smoky eyes. In a flash, I jumped on top of the couch, running at him and jumping into his arms, wrapping my arms around his neck and he held me up bridal style with an eyebrow raised. "What's wrong? Did something happen?" he asked and I shook my head, whimpering and burying my head into his chest, taking in his scent. Considering my sense of smell far surpassed a regular human, I could taste Adam's spectacular cologne. It tasted so amazing, fuck me… I bit my bottom lip to compress a moan that would have made its way through my mouth. Everything was overly sensitive and I had to resist. I couldn't do anything that would jeopardize our already blossoming friendship.

"Sauli, what's wrong?" he asked, sitting on the couch and lifting my face up with one hand, leaning down to kiss me like we normally did. They were harmless kisses. Little pecks between to friends. But I wanted so much more right now. So when his lips pressed against mine, I let out a long, desirable moan, pulling back and panting a little, even though the kiss lasted for half a second. Adams' eyes were wide with surprise and I whimpered, my ears lying flat against my head in displeasure. I felt his hand scratch my head and I moaned, purring loudly and pressing into his touch. Everything was just so over the top right now, I didn't know right from wrong in this stage.

"Sauli, what's going on?" he asked and I sighed, sitting up on his lap and straddling his waist so I could see him clearly. His face was just so god damn beautiful, at that moment I was jealous of his looks, but I also lusted for every inch of his body, and I had never had it this bad before. Sure, it had always been bad, but this was just so far exceeding those other times…

"Well, I…It stupid…" I mumbled, and Adam placed both his hands on either side of my face, rubbing my left cheek with his thumb. I groaned lightly, rubbing into his hands.

"Don't worry, I won't ever think anything about you is stupid, you can tell me," he said and I nodded, biting my bottom lip and looking at him. He smiled lightly, looking so in tune with what was happening and his smile just made me melt. I sighed, taking in a deep breath.

"I defy laws of…logic I guess. Only female cats supposed to go into heat, but I guess I do too, and I don't know why…and it mean that I like…get…I dunno…I guess, horny?" I said, looking at him and I saw his eyes widen and his mouth open slightly and my eyes lingered to his lips before I glanced to the side, avoiding them. This was just great! "See! I told you it stupid! Now you think I freak…" I mumbled, my shoulder slouching.

"It's not stupid at all!" Adam inquired smiling at me. "Is…Is there anything I can do to help you?" he asked, his voice low and almost seductive. My right ear twitched and I looked back at him, breathing heavy and leaning my forehead on his. "Anything…Sauli?" he asked again, his eyes shutting halfway. I understood, to myself at least, that this was going the exact way I wanted. It was just what I wanted and more, but I also understood that this wasn't supposed to happen and it was just going to ruin something, but I was in such a state right now that I didn't really care about the circumstances…Just now...

I breathed on his lips, brushing them lightly against his and I heard him take a small gasp and slight moan. "…I can think of something…" I mumbled, pressing my lips against his, sliding my hand up and entangling my fingers in his hair while the other one lay on his chest. Both his arms were wrapped around my waist and he opened his mouth and I took this golden opportunity to shove my tongue in his mouth. He moaned, bumping tongues and fighting to top. However, I wouldn't let him. I was in desperate need and I would not allow him to just win. I eventually beat him, sucking on his tongue and pulling back, biting on his bottom lip and licking at it.

"Mm, Saauulliii," he drawled out my name as I kissed down his neck, rubbing my hips back and forth…up and down his stomach. My breathing turned into pants and I could feel the lust course through my body. I heard Adam's heart beat at a rapid pace, and mine was deafening in my own ears, screaming at me to continue. My body was agreeing, but my brain was in a totally separate path, telling me to stop. But when I felt Adam's hand creep down to my crotch, I knew that I couldn't do this with him! My heart thrashed as I gasped, pulling back suddenly, staring at Adam. He moaned, looking at me with concern. "W-What's wrong?" he asked and I shook my head, feeling hot and bothered. Shit, I should have resisted more…

"W-We can't do this Adam…" I said, thinking about what it would lead to in bed. Honestly, the thought of sex scared me because I didn't know what to do in it! I was never taught and I didn't feel like learning now…Especially with Adam. He probably didn't want to do anything like that and I didn't feel like being all awkward with him.

"Oh…" Adam said, turning his head to the side and seeming sad, his black bangs hanging limply over his face.

"A-Adam…It's just that…I…" He looked at me, his crystal blue eyes swimming with confusion and…If I didn't mistaken, hurt. Should I tell him the truth about me? About everything that I am? Should I try to drive him away right now because I'm no good for him and that he was wasting his time on me? "Adam…I'm a mur…A…"

"WHAT SAULI? I'm not a patient person. I'm sorry, either spit it out or don't say anything at all! First, you kiss me all over, then stop and leave me hot and bothered, and then you can't even tell me what you want to tell me! What's wrong?" he yelled, and my eyes widened, my heart thrashing in my chest with fright and astonishment. He…Adam had never yelled at me before, and I honestly wasn't expecting it from…HIM. It just brought a whole flood of memories that I didn't want to conjure up, and I didn't want there to be tears, but there were and I pushed off of Adam, falling to the floor and immediately jumping up. Him yelling at me just made me think back to my parents, and every other fucking person in the world that hated my guts and led me to do the things that I did.

"Wait, Sauli, I didn't mean to yell, wait," he pleaded, and I hissed, tears appearing in the corners of my eyes and I couldn't believe he said that to me. "Sauli…" he whispered, and I bit my bottom lip, turning around and walking swiftly out the door, slamming it on my way out as I ran into the forest that was near Adam's house. I didn't know where I was going, but judging by the gray clouds in the sky, it was stupid coming out here. When the first crack of thunder hit me, I whimpered, leaning against a tree, stopping my running. I slid down it, pulling my knees to my chest, wrapping my tail around myself and my ears were placed flat against my head. It soon began raining and I realized that I was back in the position where Adam found me in.

I was such an idiot.