What happened last chapter:
Tony says "It's okay Anya he's gone."
No the truth was he is will never be gone, he will always come back.
And that is what scares me the most.
After a few minutes Tony breaks the silence.
"What the hell was that." Tony turns to me expecting an answer.
I open my mouth but quickly shut it.
I couldn't tell them, they wouldn't understand. Half the time I couldn't understand.
Why did it have to be me? What did I ever do to deserve this kind of life?
Oh wait, I was born.
My lip begins to quiver as the guys look at me with worried expressions.
Steve begins to talk "Any-"
A unwanted sob passes my lips and I pull my head into my knees.
He can't come back.
I don't want him back.
I don't need him back.
A tear rolls down my cheekbone and I can't hold it in any longer.
The tears keep coming and coming, they wouldn't stop.
I curl up my fist, I felt like throwing a tantrum.
But only babies throw tantrums and I was not a baby.
It's not fair.
My hands pound onto the ground and I suddenly feel smaller.
IT"S NOT FAIR.
It was like the serum in my blood had suddenly disappeared and I was an average 6 year old.
I was no longer the trained girl who could speak multiple languages and had a higher IQ than most adults.
I was angry…..how could he do this to his own flesh and blood?
How could he?!
and what did an average six year old do when they are angry?
They throw a tantrum.
So I did exactly that.
Clint grabs my arms. "Cut it out Anya you're going to hurt yourself."
I struggle against him and my cries became louder.
Momma.
I open my mouth but only sobs come out.
I couldn't get any words out.
I want Momma.
"momma."
The guys look around startled, they have no idea how to handle the situation.
"MOMMA."
Tony jabs Steve with his elbow and hisses "Go get Natasha, NOW."
Bruce sits in front of me and tries to tell me something but I can't understand him.
My head hurts and my eyes are blurry with tears.
My throat hurts and it's hard to breathe.
"Come on Anya you need to calm down."
I shake my head and sniffle.
I couldn't stop crying.
Suddenly someone pulls me onto their lap and combs their fingers in my hair.
Then I hear it.
It was the song that scared all the nightmares away.
"You are my sunshine
My only sunshine be
You make me….."
I start to relax and I soon realize that Tony is singing.
Sam,Thor,Clint, and Bruce have their mouth open in shock.
I could almost laugh at their expressions.
"ANYA!"
"MOMMA"
I quickly scramble out of Tony lap and jump into her arms.
I couldn't help but cry because I knew I was safe and I didn't need to be afraid anymore.
I put my head on her chest and she rocks me and forth.
"we're okay."
"we're okay."
Momma repeats this in my ear as I listen to her heartbeat.
Thump
Thump
Thump
But we both knew we were far from okay.
Hey guys. I'm really sorry I haven't updated since forever and I promise during the break I'll try to update more. Reviews are appreciated :)
