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Chapter 10
Why don't you ever listen.
Dimitri's POV
I am so tired that it's hard to keep my eyes open. This has been one of the most difficult days in my life. I found out that my father was back and just as abusive as ever, the love of my life is the daughter of one of the most dangerous men in the world, and, to top it all off, I have a beautiful baby boy. I'm glad that my mother, grandmother and sister were there when he came into the world but I wish I was there to support my Roza.
I'm brought out of my train of thought when I hear her say, "Hey". She looks so beautiful. Her eyes are cloudy and her hair's a mess but never-the-less she looks as beautiful as ever. I love seeing her wearing my duster. Maybe now she'll love it as much as I do.
"How do you feel Roza?"
She shifts in her seat and I know my Russian morning voice is affecting her. "Fine, I just really want to get to a real bed."
I chuckle "We're almost there. You're not cold are you?"
"No, but now I understand why you never want to take this old duster off." She's grinning and I can't help but laugh.
"Comfortable isn't it?"
"Very."
Roza snuggles into it, taking a deep breath and spreads a huge grin across her face. I take a quick glance out the back window and I see a black SUV, much like the one we're currently in but the licence plate is gone and the windows are so dark I can't see anything. Then, the car speeds up and I instantly know what's going to happen. I look back at Roza and my first instinct is cover my son to keep him out of harm.
Suddenly, the car is hit from behind and we all jerk forward. Roza's head hits the back of the seat with a smack and Danila screams a gut twisting scream. It sounds so painful that my heart skips a beat. Guardian Hathaway and Guardian Saki both reach for their stakes, rush out of the car and into the action. I pick Danila up and try to calm him down while making sure Rose is okay as well.
"Rose. Roza! Look at me. Look at me, Rose!"
Finally, her eyes come into focus and she looks at me for a few seconds before shaking her head. Rose swats my hands away and turns to our son, who is crying his lungs out in my arms. She grabs Danila out of my hold and pulls him close, checking him all over. She then tightens her grip and pulls him even deeper into her chest, rocking him back and forth.
I put my hand on her chin and force her to look me in the eye. "Roza, are you alright?"
Before she can give me a reply, the door is ripped open by Guardian Hathaway.
"Belikov, we need you, now!" She says and turns around again, out of sight in seconds.
I turn back to my Roza and kiss her like it's the last time I'll ever see her. I move to kiss my beautiful baby boy on the head and stroke his cheek lovingly before wiping away the tears streaming down from his eyes. I finally step out of the car. I have to keep both Roza and Danila safe.
"Stay in the car. Do not open this door, no matter what. Do you understand me?" She just stares at me without blankly, unblinking. "Roza, did you hear me?!"
"Yes, I heard you! " I look at my son and his mother one more time before slamming the door a bit harder than I should have and pull out my stake.
When we were first hit, I thought we'd been hit by a group of Strigoi, but now I can see the dark road is filled with Hathaway's team and a larger group of Guardians. A few I can recognize but I can't remember where from. Guardian Hathaway is taking down two men and seems to be handling it. I count at least sixty guardians, all who seem to have come out of nowhere. I jump into action with only one thought on my mind. "Keep them safe!".
I don't know how long it's been: minutes, hours? All I seem to know is that I want to get back to my family. As I look around, I see three guardians from Hathaways team lying on the ground, either dead or badly wounded. Unfocused and too busy watching the casualties, I don't see the man with the gun behind me until it's too late.
BANG!
A shot is fired and I can feel pain radiating from my chest to the rest of my body. My hand is on my chest and when I pull it away it's covered in blood. My knees fall from beneath me. My vision blurs but I can see Guardian Hathaway running in my direction. Loud scream sounds behind me and suddenly, the darkness takes over and I fall to the ground.
Rose's POV
I'm sitting in the car all alone with a whimpering baby in my arms latching onto my breast, while both my mother and Dimitri, along with the rest of the guardians, are fighting to keep me and Danny alive. The only thing running through my head is Dimitri is going to be alright, he always is. That is until I hear a loud gunshot. My heart stops. Danila jumps in my arms and starts crying again.
"Shh, baby. Everything's okay. Daddy's okay, Daddy's okay." I don't know if I'm trying to convince him or me.
Suddenly, there is a scream and I know right away that it's not Dimitri. And yet, he hasn't checked on us. Why hasn't he come to check on us? I can't take this anymore, I need to know. I need to have him close to me just to know he's safe. I pull Danila off my chest, making him whimper, but he settles when I put him on my shoulder. While fixing my shirt I try to keep my breathing steady.
When I open the door, I see bodies and blood everywhere. I have the sudden urge to throw up, but I take a deep breath and force myself to step out of the car. I can't see him. Turning around, I am met with the sight of my mother hovering over a large body with her hands on his chest. I don't realize I'm running until I fall down beside him and pushing my mother's hands away, tears forming in my eyes. Blood is drenching his shirt and his eyes are closed. I can feel the panic rising. I just got him back and I'm not losing him again. I wouldn't be able to handle it.
"Dimitri, open your eyes! Please, please open your eyes!" He doesn't respond, his eyes still remaining closed.
"Rosemarie, the bullet hit his heart. There is nothing you can do." My mother's voice rings in my ears but I push the sound away.
"No!. No, he's not dead. He promised me he wouldn't leave me again. Leave us again!"
I brush his hair out of his face crying, pleading for him to do something, just for him to wake up and have those chocolate brown eyes look at me.
"Please!" I sob. "Please don't leave me. Just please wake up, Comrade!" The hormones are still running mad and this is not helping. I can barely see, the tears are clouding my sight and I keep brushing hair out of his face.
"Please Dimitri, please!" I'm sobbing under my breath when I see his eyes twitch and slowly open.
"Rose, get down!" my mother shouts when another gunshot goes off and I am quickly pulled down by strong arms covering me and my baby.
The sudden movement causes Danila's stomach to twist and a low squeal comes from my arms. This time it's not me calming him, it's his father's soothing voice murmuring Russian in his little ear. The sound of his voice turns my tears of sadness into tears of relief and I open my eyes, only to be meet by his.
"I told you to stay in the car, Roza." He doesn't look angry and it brings a smile to my face as I tuck a lock of his hair behind his ear. He leans into my hand and closes his eyes. "Why don't you ever listen?"
I laugh a little at him through my tear streaked eyes and he smiles down at me.
"I thought you were gone. How are you still alive? He shot you through the heart." I can't keep the smile out of my face, sobbing overwhelming tears of joy. He shakes his head at me.
"I got hit in the shoulder, not the heart." He leans down and pecks my lips. "I told you I wouldn't leave, Roza." I laugh against his lips and pull him closer with my free arm, deepening the kiss.
We stay like this for a little while, just kissing in each other's arms, before my mother clears her throat.
"Belikov, you're losing a lot of blood. We need to clean the wound and get the bullet out."
He sighs into the crook of my neck but gets to his feet, wincing with every move.
"Mom, can you take Danila for a bit?"
She smiles and takes him from my arms cooing him and rocking back and forth. I step in front of Dimitri and unbutton his shirt to get a better look at the wound on his shoulder. When I have opened the shirt completely, all I see is blood and my hands start to shake uncontrollably.
"Hey." He takes my hands and pulls me to his unshot side. "I'm alright. We're alright. All of us. this," he points to the bullet wound "...this is just a little scratch. So take a deep breath and lets go get me cleaned up so we can go get some sleep." I take a breath and nod into his chest.
After Dimitri was cleaned up and my mom called someone to get new cars that would bring us to Lissa's (the others were a little smashed), we got in the car, with Danila between us, and we held hands all the way home. The thought of losing him like that made me realize the amount of love I have for him and our son.
He is, and always will be, a part of my heart and my soul.
Home
My body is so tired, I feel like I'm going to pass out. Before I even step one foot out of the car, my mother has already taken our bags inside. The big house looms in front of me. Dimitri is struggling to get Danila out of the car seat so my mom places a hand in his forearm and gives him a stern look that says 'move or I'll move you´. Dimitri nods stepping back, giving my mother more space to unbuckle Danny from his seat. Everytime she looks at him, she smiles and it's very unlike the mother I once knew. I like this new side of her.
I take another look at the house. It doesn't look like anyone's home. No sounds and no lights other than the one by the front door, which my mother must have turned on when she took our bags inside. The house is large,white and has a black roof. It even had that white picket fence that you hear about in all those stories. It looks beautiful but it's not a house I can see Lissa living in.
"Mom, whose house is this? It can't be Lissa's" She turns in my direction still cooing Danila in her arms.
"This is your house. You need a place for you and Danila here, so Princess Vasilissa made sure you have one. The Princess and Lord Ozera live a few minutes away. I told them they should let you get some rest before they all come barging in on you, so they will be arriving sometime tomorrow."
A house. This can't be real. I have a baby at eighteen. The man I love and the father of my son by my side. And now a house. This feels like a dream until I my head starts to hurt again feeling like it's going to explode and my whole body feels like it's going to collapse from under me.
As if Dimitri can read my mind he walks to my side and wraps an arm around my waist with his good side. Looking down at me, he smiles and squeezes my waist giving me the support I need to stay upright in his arms.
"Roza, are you alright? Does your head hurt?"
I nod giving him a weak and tired smile. Dimitri kisses my temple as we start walking up the driveway to my-our-new home. If my mother thinks Dimitri won't be staying here, she's very wrong. This child will have both his parents in his life, and I can't do this alone. I might be strong but I am tired and I feel like crying every minute of the day without any reason at all.
When we step through the threshold, I'm greeted by a beautiful gray staircase leading to the second floor with light lining every step. The house is big and the walls are gray and white and it looks absolutely amazing. All I want to do right now is feed my baby and fall asleep, in that huge comfy looking bed with the man I love by my side keeping me warm and safe.
Mom handed Danila to me when she and Dimitri went to get our things ready before she would leave for the night to get some rest herself. Half an hour later my mother stood by the door in front of me stroking Danila´s hair as he lay in my arms.
"I will be back sometime after noon tomorrow. I want to help you but you need to learn how to take care of him on your own."
"Mom, I'm not on my own. Dimitri's here."
Her guardian mask slips in place and she glares at Dimitri, who is standing behind me running a hand through his hair.
"For now. I'll see you tomorrow. Get some sleep, all of you"
She kisses my cheek before glaring at Dimitri again pointing a finger at him
"And Belikov, she just had a baby. Keep your hands to yourself." Dimitri throws his hands up in the air in defeat.
"Mom..."
I sigh and throw my head back showing her just how tired and annoyed I am. She gives another kiss on the cheek before walking out closing the door behind her. I close my eyes and take a deep breath, enjoying the quietness of the house, only hearing the sounds of my sons breathing and Dimitri's soft footsteps coming closer before he wraps one arm around me and kisses the side of my neck. I tilt my head to the side giving him better access.
"Why don't you go take a bath and I'll get this little man ready for bed."
I sigh and lean into his touch, inhaling the smell of his cologne mixed with his own scent of masculinity. "You sure? You've only got one working hand. Do you think you can change him and get him dressed without any help?"
He chuckles lightly into my ear, making me shiver. "Roza, we both know what I can do with only one hand." I can almost hear the smile in his voice making me snort before he takes my hand and walks me upstairs.
Dimitri's POV
After running Roza's bath and getting Danila's crib ready, I take him out of his mother's hands and Roza stretches out her limbs, yawning. She takes off her sweater and turns in my direction.
"Are you sure you can do this one handed? I mean I can get him ready before I take a bath..."
"We'll be fine, I promise. Go before the water gets cold."
Hesitating for a second, she walks into the bathroom not fully closing the door.
Chuckling to myself, I look down at the tiny, little, human-being lying in my oversized arms. Danila washes me from underneath thick eyelashes that mirror his mother´s. Looking into his little eyes makes everything seem so unreal. I have a son. A beautiful baby boy, with the woman I love and I feel like I'm dreaming. Everything I have ever wanted since I can remember is lying in the bathtub and in my arms squirming and squealing a little.
"Dimitri, is everything okay?" Rose calls from the bathtub when she hears his soft squeal.
"Yes Roza, everything is fine. Just close your eyes and relax."
"Are you sure?"
"Yes Roza, stop worrying." she mumbles something under her breath and it sounds like she's repeating what I said, in a terrible Russian accent, clearly imitating me.
I chuckle at her mumbling while walking over to the bed laying Danila down before grabbing the pillows and arranging them, making a protective barrier around him. I grab my bag and pull on a pair of flannel pj pants and then I get Danila's diaper bag. Making my way back to him I sit down by his feet and look down at him. I take out a clean diaper, baby wipes and a light blue pajamas that cover his tiny little feet.
"Your mommy doesn't think I can take care of you without her, and your mommy can be very stubborn at times" I coo to him as I change his diaper
"Dimitri Belikov, I don't know what you´re saying to your son because you won't teach me that damn language of yours, but I know it's about me. You better not be telling him bad things about his mother or I swear to god"
the tone she uses implies she's very annoyed and I can sense her narrowing her eyes, I think it's very cute they way she knows when I talk about her.
"You hear that buddy? I think your beautiful mommy needs to sleep for good while. Because when mommy´s tired or hungry she gets very very grumpy and we don't like it when mommy´s grumpy"
There is a loud throat clearing in front of me, when I look up, Rose is glaring at me with one hand on her towel covered hip, the other holding her towel closed. I flash her the most angelic smile I can master before buttoning up Danila´s pajamas and kissing his soft little forehead, inhaling the mix of his baby smell and the scent of Roza´s bodylotion. Danila furrows his brows scowling before he lets out a soft whimper and flails his limbs around.
Rose is quick to react. She walks over to the mountain of bags by the door. She opens up the very first bad she can get her hands on, which just happens to be one of mine, and pulls out one of my flannel shirts, It reaches just over her mid thigh. Then she opens another bag and pulls out a pair of black lace panties. I bite the inside of my cheek to stifle a growl threatening to escape at the site of her bare skin, until my eyes land on that ugly scar covering her abdomen and I can feel the anger making it's way back and I clench my fist.
I should have been there, I feel so guilty for not being able to keep them safe.
Rose notices the change in my behavior and walks over to the bed placing a hand on my cheek. I instinctively lean into her touch closing my eyes enjoying the feel of her smooth skin caressing my lightly stubbled jaw. I place my hand on her hip and trace my thumb underneath her her scar.
"Dimitri, I'm alright It doesn't even hurt that much anymore. Stop scowling and scoot over, this is my side"
laughing at her playful tone and that warm smile on her face, I carefully scoot over trying to keep Danila from bursting into tears as he continues his soft whimpering on the bed. Rose picks up my book from the bag on the floor and slides under the covers handing it to me.
"This is going to take a while"
taking the book from her hand I raise an eyebrow asking her a silent question. She smiles softly before pulling my shirt down over her shoulders, exposing her chest, and picking Danila up, placing him onto her breast which silences him instantly. Rose winches a little but relaxes after a few seconds leaning against the headboard closing her eyes.
I let my eyes scan over her face, she looks tired but at peace. She's a little bit paler than usual but beautiful nonetheless. Her head is tilted to the side leaning towards me giving me a good view of her soft red lips that are slightly open and her cheeks are flushed giving her a soft red glow. Her hair is still damp from her bath and it's hanging around her shoulder in soft dark curls. My gaze travels lower, down her jaw to her neck, and then lower towards her bare chest where my son is currently getting the nutrition he needs. She is so beautiful and too young to be a mother, but I wouldn't want to change anything except my decision to leave her to guard Tasha.
I know she'll be coming to court in a few months and it makes me nervous. Knowing Tasha blames Rose for me leaving makes things worse. Tasha is unstable and I have know idea what she'll do when she finds out that Rose and I have a baby. Our beautiful little boy. The first Hathaway boy and the third Belikov boy. I smile at the thought.
"Dimitri, I can feel you staring at my chest" Rose jokes peaking at me with one eye and a smirk. I didn't even realize where my eyes were focused on. I let out an awkward cough and open my book to the marked page.
"Sorry, I was just admiring the view" I can't keep the smirk off my face as I move my eyes to the pages of my western, she lets out a snort before closing her eye again with a tired smile on her face.
I must have fallen asleep while reading because I'm jolted awake when I feel the covers being pulled up and I open my eyes to see Rose struggling to get out of bed with Danila on her shoulder and keeping her eyes open at the same time.
"Where are you going?" my voice is raspy and I run my hand through my hair.
"Putting him to bed, I'll be right back" before she can put her feet on the floor I put a hand on her thigh stopping her and I get out of bed taking Danila out of her arms and pulling the crib closer to our bed. Laying Danila down and covering him with one of the blankets mama made and kiss him on the forehead and whispering into his ear
"I love you" Danila sighs and I turn back to the bed.
When I turn around Roza is fast asleep and lightly snoring. Her hair is all over the pillow and her-my- shirt is still open around the middle exposing her beautiful body from waist up. I climb back into bed wrapping an arm around her and pulling the covers over us. Her face is in the crook of my neck and I can smell her shampoo, coconut and vanilla, I can smell Rose. she nestles closer and wraps one leg over mine before settling back into a soundless sleep. I kiss her temple.
"I love you"
Rose's POV
I love this bed and I never want to get up. There is sun in my face and a light breeze traveling through the empty room. Empty!. I shoot up in bed and look around frantically running my hands through my hair. I look at the clock on the bedside table 15:23. Shit Danila! He must be starving, Oh god, I'm a terrible mother. I get a head rush when I get to my feet quickly, I stop in my tracks for a few moments before pulling out a pair of sweats and rushing out the bedroom door, almost sprinting down the stairs. I can hear soft conversations coming from the kitchen and the linking livingroom.
When I get through the door all heads turn to me and silence falls over the room, the faces in the room turn red and all of the guys except Dimitri and Adrian who´s smirking, either turn around or cover their eyes in quick movements. My mother is gaping and Lissa is trying to keep her eyes off me, Adrian is staring at my chest and he whistles, earning a smack on the head from Dimitri.
"Ouch" I look down at my very open shirt that's showing everything!
"Shit! Sorry!" I turn around buttoning it up leaving the top three buttons undone.
"Okay, you can look now"
Eddie and Mason remove their hands from their faces while Christian and my dad turn around. Adrian is still rubbing the spot at the back of his head where Dimitri hit him. Lissa´s face is still a little red and my mother´s face has relaxed a bit when she takes a seat next to Lissa who is currently cooing my son in her arms. Dimitri is smirks at me before opening the fridge with one hand and pulling something out with the other. Wait what? I rush over to him closing the fridge door and place my hands on his chest trying to find the bullet wound in his shoulder
"You're okay. What ? how?" he smiles when he places his hands in mine and pulls them to his lips kissing them softly
"The princess" of course she did. He realizes my hands and putting his around my waist pulling me closer, I snake my hands around his neck pulling him down until our lips meet. I can feel him smile against my lips and he squeezes the sides of my waist. I laugh into the kiss.
"Get a room you two" I don't have to look to know who was speaking. I pull away from the warmth of Dimitri's lips but only a few inches
"I have a whole house, it's you who´s intruding fire crotch"
"Rosemarie! Manners" this time it's my mother who interrupts our little kissing fest and I pull away and turn towards our crowded kitchen space where smirks and my mother's scowl are directed at us.
"You look good Rose" Mase says before sipping on his bottle of coke, I see Eddie smiling beside him giving me an agreeing nod
"Thanks Mase"
"He's beautiful" Lissa says, then I hear a small whimper and I follow the sounds coming from Danila who´s moving around in Lissa´s arms.
"Mama's coming baby" I quickly make my way to my son who is now full on crying in his aunt's embrace. Lissa looks up at me nervously "Rose, I swear I didn't hurt him"
"I know Liss, don't worry" I take him and put him over my shoulder bouncing up and down "shh, baby I know, mama´s got you. Shhh" I turn my gaze to Dimitri narrowing my eyes
"He must be so hungry Dimitri, why didn't you wake me?"
"Don't worry I didn't starve the boy. I found a full bottle in the diaper bag and I fed him when he woke up and he's been sleeping ever since. but he's probably hungry again. I didn't want to wake you, mama said you need to rest as much as possible. You´ve been through alot and your body needs to rest"
"Too bad for you Belikov, that means you won't get much action for a whi...aaa"
"Care to repeat that pretty boy" my father grits through his fangs while squeezing Adrian´s shoulder
"N-no S-sir" baba gives him one last squeeze before letting go off him
"Good. Now Kiz, go feed my grandson before he cries his little eyes out" I chuckle at my father's smug face and Adrian slowly backing away from him.
"Liss you wanna come, I haven't seen you in so long and I feel like having a little girl talk" Lissa´s face lights up as she jumps out of her seat following me into the living room.
Getting into a comfortable position on the couch I unbutton my shirt and stifle his cries as he latches onto my sore nipple making me wince, my breasts are so full It's painful. Danila is a little too eager and sucks a little too hard and getting a little too much milk into his mouth, almost drowning him
"Whoa, easy there little buddy, mommy isn't going anywhere"
Small suckling noises come from him as he takes what he needs while clawing at my chest with his little fingers. I love watching him, just watching him calms me, I´m stroking his little dark haired head when Lissa begins our conversation
"How does it feel?"
"What?"
"Everything... Like when you were pregnant and felt him move. Like inside you" I smile at her
"It all felt kinda..strange. I mean the first time I felt him move inside me I didn't know what I was supposed to do or feel. But it all made things real I guess. In one way it was uncomfortable at first but it hit me that I was actually creating another human being." I stroke Danila´s cheek and trace his features with my finger
"Did it really hurt as bad as they say it does when you... you know squeezed him out of your you know" she points to her lower region. I let out a full laugh at her flaming red face
"Yes Liss, it hurt like a bitch to be honest and it took freaking eighteen hours" she looks horrified
"O my god, you were pushing for eighteen hours"
"No! I was in labor for eighteen hours not pushing!" I feel the urge to roll my eyes at her
"Oo okay. My bad. You look pale Rose"
"Jee thanks Liss, that's what every girl wants to hear"
we both burst into laughter and start having one of our girl talks until Danila is almost asleep and his mouth hangs open on my breast, spilling milk down his cheek and neck.
"No, baby boy we need to burp before you can sleep" right on cue Dimitri walks in with a soft and loving smile on his face as he walks over to us pulling his sleeves up to his elbows and stretched out his hands
"Let me, you go eat something"
nodding I let Dimitri take Danila out of my hands and I get up to fix my clothes and drying of the leftover breast milk covering my breast and a part of my stomach. Lissa catches a glimpse of my scar and lets out a huge and dramatic gasp
"O my god Rose, what happened? Does it hurt? Let me heal you" she makes her way over to me and places a hand on the scar but I twist away from her
"No Liss, don't !" both Lissa and Dimitri look at me asking me a silent question
"I want it to remind me what I had to go through to keep him alive. keep us alive"
"Oh Rose, I'm so sorry it must have been so hard for you" she almost sobs wrapping her arms around me pulling me as close as possible.
"Lissa shouldn't you be half naked too to do that"
Adrian says from the doorway with a grin on his face as he sips from the glass in his hand. I can hear Dimitri growl and he steps in front of me to block Adrian's sight. Lissa lets me go and walks over to Adrian grabbing his hand pulling him along with her as she scolds him for ´inappropriate behaviour´
I'm about to close my shirt when Dimitri stops me and slips his hand in between my bare skin and his dark blue flannel shirt, his body heat sends sparks running through my body and he pulls me closer looking me in the eye before his eyes travel a little lower and then meeting my gaze again. I place a hand on his bicep before batting my eyelashes at him
"See something you like Comrade?"
He smirks and leans down placing his lips on mine, giving them a small peck before murmuring against them
"Always. I love you my Roza" he kisses me again
"And I love you more my comrade"
I put my hand on the back of his neck pulling him in for a deeper kiss but we're interrupted by a small burp coming from Dimitri´s shoulder. Dimitri laughs against my lips before pulling away from me, bringing our son down so I can stroke his head
"We love you too little man. Very very much" Dimitri smiles at me then he kisses my temple and pulls me into his chest as he lays his chin on top of my head letting out a deep and relaxed sigh.
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