(Miku's P.O.V.)
It's been weeks, maybe more than a month, since Rin and Len have died. I now spend everyday sitting in our corner rocking myself back and forth. Losing them is painful, too painful. Len would be ashamed of me; I can't remember my name or anything about myself. How long have I been here? Have I always been here? Where did I come from? All I know about myself is that I stopped caring after they took Len away. I glance out the window. It's snowing.
I smile. Len would be sixteen if he was still alive. I realize something. Len once told me that my birthday, whatever day it was, is before the first snowfall of the year. His birthday, December 27, is shortly after. Then I realized it: I'm older than Len. I giggle to myself. I now just figured it out. How long have I been here? I don't know, and I really don't care.
I rock back and forth, quietly singing to myself.
Finding the meaning
Of the start and the end
To the very disappearance
Of this soul.
Who remembers characters?
From the window of madness, good-bye.
He-e-e-llo-o-o-o myself
Ha-a-ve we met be-e-fo-o-ore?
Goo-oo-oo-d-bye-ye-ye yourself
So-o-o want to-o ta-a-alk?
Insanity
It's like floating on the air
Psychopathy
Living a carefree life
Insanity
An illusion that cannot end
Captivity
Unable to run away.
Insanity
It's like floating on the air
Psychopathy
Living a carefree life
Insanity
An illusion that cannot end
Captivity
The corruption is continuing.
Where did I hear this song before? . . . Oh, now I remember. The girl with the red-orange hair was singing it. I look around. I don't see her anywhere. Actually, I haven't seen her in a very long time. Maybe they took her away too. I go back to my singing and don't stop when the doctor comes to give me my shot.
I sit there as the day slowly passes by like every other day. I continue the song non-stop. What is sanity? I can't remember. Did I ever even know? If I did, it no longer exists in me. I stop when I overhear the doctors talking.
"You think we should take her next?" one asks.
"The girl with the black hair?" another says.
"No," the first doctor says, "the girl with the blue hair that she wears in two tails."
So they're talking about me.
"Why?" a third one. "Do you think she'll be worth something?"
"You need to hear her sing, she's amazing," the first one. "I even know what we can do."
I stop listening for I start to get excited. Were they talking about taking me down the hall? I hope so. I want to go so badly!
That night, back in my room, two doctors walk into my room. Before they can say anything, I jump up and walk over to them. I follow them so closely that they don't even bother to guide me.
We walk down the hall, up a flight of stairs, and into the first room on the right. The room has a chair in the middle and counters all over the walls. I see bottles of medicine and a sink and stuff I can't even begin to describe because of how little I know.
"Sit over there," one of the doctors tells me.
I happily walk over and sit down. So this is what happened to Rin and Len. What are they going to do, I wonder? I guess it doesn't matter. Soon I'll be dead and maybe I'll see Len again. I really want to see him again; I want to tell him how I feel.
"Okay," a doctor I've never seen before says, "this won't hurt a bit so just relax."
He puts a clothe on my nose. I smell the scent of some kind of medicine. As I inhale and exhale the world around me goes dark. Soon enough I fall into the dark void that promises comfort.
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Where am I? It's so dark, I can't see a thing. Am I . . . dead? I can't be dead, this looks like neither Heaven nor Hell. What is this place?
. . .
What was that?
. . .
There it is again! Somebody's talking to me.
"Miku."
Miku? . . . . . Oh yeah, I'm Miku. How did I forget my own name?
"Miku."
What a second! I know that voice!
"Miku."
Len! Is that you? I'm coming Len!
Now, how do I get out of here? Maybe I should try to talk.
"Hmmm. . . ."
That didn't turn out well. Did he even hear me?
"Miku? Miku, wake up!"
He heard me! Len told me to wake up! Wait . . . Wake up? Does that mean I'm not dead, just unconscious? If I'm not dead and Len is talking to me . . . Then . . . Len is alive! He's alive!
As I slowly regain consciousness I feel my hair being stroked.
"Miku? Can you hear me? Say something if you can hear me."
I force myself to make a sound. "Len . . . ?" I croak.
"Yes! It's me! Miku, I'm right here!"
"Len . . . ," I try to wake up. Soon I gain control of my eyes. Slowly I lift my eyelids and wait for my eyes to adjust.
Where am I? This isn't the familiar white room I've always known; this room is midnight blue. And whose legs are those? They don't seem familiar.
"Miku, are you awake? It's okay. Everything's going to be okay."
I got excited. "Len!" I shift my head to look at my comforter. I gave a horror filled scream when I saw him. Faster than the speed of light, I get up and crawl to the other side of the room.
"Who-who are you?!" I demand.
"Miku, it's me. You know? Len."
I couldn't believe what I was seeing. It's Len's face all right, but I don't recall him and Rin sharing a body!
"Calm down, Miku," the girl head, who resembles Rin, says, "it's just us."
"Rin and Len weren't conjoined!" I shout. This is terrible. I feel tears swell my eyes and stain my checks. I tightly close my eyes and use my arms to cover my face. "I'm just having a nightmare. I'm just having a nightmare. I'm just having a nightmare." I chant to myself over and over. I feel my arms being grabbed and pulled down.
"Miku," the Len-look-a-like says, "it's really us. I know it seems impossible, but you have to believe me."
I shake my head as I keep my eyes tightly closed. Wake up, Miku! Wake up!
"Miku . . . Please, believe me," I hear his pleading voice. "Please Miku, you said that I am your best friend. You said we could be insane together. Don't you remember?"
I stop shaking my head and angle it downward. Tears continued to stream my face. I felt skin on my checks, wiping away the tears.
"Miku," he says again, "just look at me . . . Please."
I slowly shift my head upward and, even slower, open my eyes. Blue eyes met mine when my vision adjusts. I study the face carefully, making sure everything is as I remembered.
"Len . . . ?" I say. "It's . . . It's really you."
"That's right, Miku," he kisses my forehead, "it's really me."
I cry even harder. "Len!" I break my arms free from his grasp and wrap them over the unfamiliar body. "Len! I thought you were dead!"
"But I'm not," he hugs me back with one arm.
"Neither am I."
I jump. I break the hug to see the sight that at first horrified me.
Not far from his head was Rin's. But . . . how is it possible? How can two heads fit on one body? What happened?
"Rin," I say her name for the first time, "what happened to you two?"
"By the looks of it, the doctors cut off our heads and sowed them on this body," Rin says matter-of-factly. "Can't you see the stitches on our necks?"
Rin's right. If I look closely enough I can see where their heads had been placed. I didn't know it was possible to cut off someone's head and place it on another body.
"Sorry we scared you," Len says, "I was just glad to see you again."
"I'm glad to see you too," I say, "the both of you."
"I don't know how Len recognized you," Rin says. "They really worked on you."
"What do you mean?" I ask.
Len gives Rin a dirty look but quickly shifts his attention back to me. "Miku, don't get upset. You just calmed down, and I don't want you to worry yourself."
"How would I worry myself?" I say too quietly. I look at my hands. The right one looked the same, it was still twisted from the time I broke it banging on my door. The left, well, it looked as if all my joints were swollen. I looked at my legs. Now I know what Len had meant. My legs looked like they belonged to a goat. I have goat legs!
"Miku," Len says to me, "calm down. You need to breathe."
It's too late, I am having a panic attack. What happened to me?! What did they do?! For what purpose was I . . . was I . . . mutated?!
"Miku," Len says as he pulls me into a hug, "It's okay. It's all going to be okay."
"How?!" I wail. "How is it going to be okay?!"
Len tightens his hug. "I . . . I don't know." I cry into his shoulder. "Don't worry, I won't leave you this time."
"Can you promise that?" I whisper.
"No," I hear the pain in his voice as he gives the honest answer. "But this time I will fight off anything that gets between us."
"I will too," Rin says as she wraps her arm around me.
I say nothing but continue to cry. Can things get any worse?
Author's Note: WARNING: Really long thank you speech ahead so if you're not interested then you may stop reading now.
Thank you all so much for reading this fanfic! This is my first finished multi-chapter so to finish it feels really good. Also a big thank you to my reviewers; especially nekopyon and xXCelesteXx for their continuous support. You two rock! I'm not done with this story yet though so keep a look out for Trapped in a Nightmare - Part 2: Dark Woods Circus. Until then I have a couple other stories that I'm publishing right now so if you want to you can read them while you're waiting.
World is Mine: Just a humorous slice-of-life story that's really fluffy when compared to this story. It's the first fanfic I've started and there's so much I want to do with it so I'll be working on it for a while.
Wolves and Flowers: Yes, I know how lame the title sounds, but it really does fit the story. I just started it today and I would really appreciate it if you guys checked it out.
And you all should really check out xXCelesteXx's fanfic on Wide Knowledge of the Late Madness, We Are Not Insane. And no, xXCelesteXx did not ask me to do this; as a matter of fact, she won't know what I'm doing until she reads this. (Message for xXCelesteXx: I hope you don't mind my suggesting your story, if you do then I'll remove this.) We Are Not Insane is really good and I really like it so you guys should definetly check it out and show your support.
Again, thank you all for reading this!
With much love,
-Ray (or Rolling-Chan)