(While writing this I am listening to 'Don't You Worry Child-Swedish House Mafia', 'Thinking of You-Katy Perry' and 'Hall of Fame-The Script' so you might get the mixture of feelings going through my head as I wrote this.)
Yes ladies and Gents, I have decided to do a Rose POV because, I have much more up my sleeve for her. Rose is far too arrogant to just die, all you fans out there should know that! ;) Enjoy!
Rose POV:
Well this just gets better and better, not only did I just go through the most hellish pain anyone could ever go through physically but now mentally and in my heart I was breaking because Dimitri needed my help and no matter how I tried, I couldn't connect to him. Let me take it back a step and go back to where my confusion begun.
It was so cold, I had heard Dimitri scream at me to duck but I was too slow, I didn't have quick reflexes just now, my mind was on Nickolai and Adrian, what if they were hurt, what if they were dead. So when Dimitri had shouted at me I hadn't ducked and I got a bullet in the back as a result, and probably a shamed sigh from every guardian who had ever had the joy of teaching me.
"Don't Hesitate, you hesitate your dead" Dimitri's advice was right after all. I had hesitated and now here I am standing at the bottom of a garden, fading between two different worlds. I was – when I was in the garden- staring at a broken Dimitri, he sat down playing with Nickolai's stake, moving it from hand to hand, his head bowed in what looked like shame, he just sat there, he looked tired and totally lost. And then within a few minutes I was thrown back to what I called 'heaven' because when I went back there it was bright, colourful, the sun shone high in the sky, people walked about all smiling, welcoming me with a nod of their heads and then when I had followed a couple to see where they were going, I was reunited with the one person in my life that I wish I could've saved. Mason stood there beside me, he looked so alive, when we both looked at one another we broke into grins and I ran right into his arms, hugging the life –or death- or whatever out of him. It really was Mason, he was here, and that's when I joined the dots, I started to look around then. We stood in a giant hall and to my left were Lissa's parents; they looked shocked to see me. Andre walked in then, speaking with a bunch of guys and when he noticed me, he too stopped, gaping at me, before breaking out in a grin and walking over to me, he lifted me up and crushed me in a hug before settling me down. I opened my mouth to ask him what was going on but no sound came out, that's when, again, I noticed there was no noise in this place, people were speaking but no sound came out their mouths. It was then that I was thrown back to the living world again, only to see Dimitri praying to the skys.
I heard commotion, everything was so cold, and I was in so much pain, the heat burned through my back and over my shoulder to my neck, the bullet had completely hit my nerve system or it had too. This pain was too intense, that's when I heard Dimitri whisper words to me, I knew he would be worried but I couldn't move, scared in case it got worse. That's when I was jolted and that's when everything went dark.
I did not hear, nor did I see or feel anything after that jolt. Until I woke up at the edge of a road, I had looked to my right and gaped at the mess I had seen, a black four wheeler laid upside down, totally crushed on the road, glass was scattered in every direction and to the left of the car lay Dimitri, on the road, he continued to bang his head of the concrete, holding his hair in a death grip and tears were rolling down his face. I didn't understand what was happening. I tried to shout on him, but no sounds would come out, I tried to touch a small piece of glass and my hand went through it. What was happening? I looked over at the car again and that's when I noticed, my mum was kneeling on the ground holding a body, rocking it back and fourth, her shoulders shook the entire time and that's when I heard her cry. It was my body, I shrieked, or should I say I tried to. Everyone stood around her. Eddie, Stan, Alberta and a few other guardians I didn't recognise, all had their heads bowed in honor. I was dead. And that's when I was taken to the world of the dead for the first time.
Okay, so now that you know about as much as I know, let's go back to the present.
I was still staring at Dimitri, that's when I heard whispers in my head, oh my god, I was a ghost going insane, I needed some sort of councillor, and you get councillors for dead people right?
They were whispering to me, 'Victor Dashkov will know', 'He can connect to them'. I didn't know what the voices were on about but, my body took me forward, towards Dimitri and that's when I started to take shape, I stepped forward and leaves crushed under my feet. I was real again. I looked up when I got to Dimitri, he was staring at me, and he was in total shock, eyes wide, mouth hanging open and completely pale.
"Roza?"He looked so adorable, even when he was upset, frustrated, sad, disappointed, he still made my heart pound, I smiled down at him. I tried to tell him I loved him, no sound came out my mouth though, this is going to get annoying. "What is it Roza?" He looked at me, like he was trying to focus a camera. I took a deep breath and felt the words in my head form and I pushed them out with every force I could but the words 'I love you' never came out instead came the voices that whispered in my head.
"Victor...Dashkov"
I was totally out of breath after saying that, I felt like I was suffocating. I lifted my hands to my neck, that's when Dimitri stood up and reached out to me, I reached my right hand out to him and we touched, our hands then intertwined and he pulled me forward, I went into focus just as a tear ran down his face.
"Roza, my Roza, your back!" He wrapped me in a hug; I didn't know what was happening. Every part of my body tingled, and that's when I was rushed back to 'heaven'. Leaving Dimitri standing there alone, with only a name.
I looked up when I landed, or appeared back in the hall again. Mason, was standing next to me, pity carved in his face, he shook his head and the voice in my head spoke again.
"You can't speak to them Rose, It's a gift to be able to go back and forth, to see them again but your gift only goes so far. No matter how alive you feel when you are around them, you are still dead."
I tried to reply to him, when he raised his hands to stop me, he shook his head again and then pointed to his forehead.
"Imagine the person in your head, open a door and then say the words, in your head, that you want to speak, they will here you."
I imagined Mason in my head, imagined a wooden door, and then I pushed it open and shouted
"Mason! I am freaking dead!"
Mason flinched and then mockingly rubbed his head.
"Good god Rose, no need to shout, I am standing right next to you!"
Oh goodness, I am telepathically joking with my dead friend. When did my life turn into a sci-fi film?