Title: Keep Holding On
Author: Sam/Greg Sanders
Beta: Martha/Sanzo
Genre: Slash
Fandom: CSI Miami
Pairing: Ryan/Frank, Horatio/Eric
Warnings: angst
Rating: FRT
Disclaimer: Don't own them. Just play with them
A/N: More angst for my boys…..Song is by Avril Lavigne entitled Keep Holding On. As always the lyrics are in italics
Summary: Both boys need a little reassurance that all is well with each other..
Keep Holding On
You're not aloneTogether we standI'll be by your side, you know I'll take your handWhen it gets coldAnd it feels like the endThere's no place to goYou know I won't give inNo I won't give in
Ryan leaned against the railing as he watched the waves crashing against the shoreline. He was trying to get his mind to settle and grasp what had just happened. He had gone to see Frank after work like he had for the past month, and they had had a major blow up at each other. The brunet didn't know where the anger had come from on either of their parts, but it was there anyway. They had yelled and screamed at each other until the nurses had kicked Ryan out.
He knew they had been walking on thin ice since the accident and neither one was wanting to discuss the accident either. The brunet had been hoping that the older man would be able to get out of whatever funk he was in, but it seemed that it had gotten worse with every passing day. Ryan fingered the edge of his cast as he thought about his life before that fateful night and what it was like now.
Ryan had a long talk with Speed and Eric over drinks, the other night and the two had been great about letting him vent his frustrations. He didn't know what was wrong nor did he know how to fix it, but both older men had been helpful in giving him some advice about it. They both had been adamant that he let the detective know that he would be there for him and that he wasn't alone. And that's what he had done, and that's what had started the fight.
So far awayI wish you were hereBefore it's too late, this could all disappearBefore the doors closeAnd it comes to an endWith you by my side I will fight and defend,I'll fight and defend
Ryan hugged his light jacket closer to his body as the wind whipped off the water with a light mist, dousing his hair lightly. He sighed as he tried to figure out how to fix this fight and he didn't think a simple apology would work. He did know that he wasn't about let what they had fall by the way side because the Texan was too stubborn to get over his own pity party. Heading back to the where he had parked, he decided that he needed to get a bit of advice from Horatio before heading back to confront Frank.
After his coffee with the red head, Ryan felt that he had a better understanding on how to handle Frank. The brunet had learned a lot about his partner and was hoping to use it to his advantage. He had parked in the lot and headed up to Frank's room, stopping in the gift shop to purchase a bear with a get well shirt. Taking a deep breath, he headed for the elevator and then into Frank's room, after the quick stop at the nurses desk to apologize for his earlier behavior.
Entering the darkened room, Ryan smiled at the 'little boy' look his sleeping partner portrayed. Frank was laying curled on his side with his knees pulled as close to his chest as he could. Laying the bear on the nightstand, he lowered the bedrail before taking a seat beside the sleeping older man. Running a hand over his bald head, Ryan sighed and thought about what his life would be like without this man in it.
Keep holding on'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it throughJust stay strong'Cause you know I'm here for you, I'm here for youThere's nothing you could sayNothing you could doThere's no other way when it comes to the truthSo keep holding on'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it throughRubbing Frank's back, the brunet took a deep breath before starting to talk to the sleeping man. "I know you're scared, but so am I. But I want you to know that I will always be here, there is nothing you say or do that will send me packing. The accident wasn't your fault, so don't blame yourself for anyone getting hurt. Horatio said that you told him you didn't think you deserved to have what we have, but you do. You of all people need everything we have together. One of things that you need to know is that I will be by your side, I will help you fight your demons, that if you can't be strong then lean on me and I will be strong for the both of us. I will always be here for you, so please hold on and don't push me away. I need you just like you need me and together we can make it past all this and more."
Ryan gently stretched out behind Frank and wrapped his arm over the covered waist, placing a kiss at the nape of his neck. "I will always be here, just lean on me."
The End.