"I love you Jacob."
Bella's voice echoed over and over in my head. The look on her face as she begged me not to go that day. The look in her eyes...as she betrayed me. She lied to me. My jaw clenched thinking back even farther.
I sat next to Bella on her bed. I had snuck in quietly so Charlie wouldn't hear.
"Jake...can I ask a favor?" She asked.
"Anything..." I smiled.
"Edward...he wouldn't...touch me. He wouldn't sleep with me...and maybe if you wanted to...you could take my virginity?" Bella said, slightly embarrassed.
My heart raced at the thought it over.
"I mean...I could take yours too, so it wouldn't be so weird." She added.
I laughed gently, "Bells...I lost mine a while back."
Her face fell, "Oh..."
"Yeah, sorry." I shrugged.
"So...is that a no?" She asked, sadly.
"Think it over Bella. If that's what you really want then sure..but don't do it just because he wouldn't. Make sure it's with the right person." I responded, nervously.
I could have done it...but would she have still left me? Would she still have hurt me as much as she did. I was angrier than before. I remembered the feeling as she walked away from me...with him. My heart was ripped into shreds. I clenched my fists and felt my body begin to shake. I knew it would happen any second now.
"Jacob!" Embry yelled.
I stood up, but it was too late...I phased and bolted out the door and into the trees.
JACOB! WAIT! Quil called in my head.
I kept running...she had managed to do it again. She hadn't done anything but show up to check on my father...she was trying to be a caring person. But she had ripped my heart out all over again. That stupid bitch had ruined everything.
Jake! What were you thinking? Leah demanded, reaching me.
Leah, when I said jump off a cliff I fucking meant it! I growled.
Leah stood her ground in front of me. Her grey fur on her back raised as she growled back.
Kenna was asleep next to you! Quil said, appearing behind Leah.
Kensey...I had forgotten my Kensey...
Go back and be with her. I don't want her alone.
Embry's with her. Leah responded. You really need to get over her Jacob. She's been nothing but trouble! You were perfectly fine with Akenna before Bella showed up today.
I just needed some time to be alone. I needed to calm down. I wanted to go back and be with Kensey, but I couldn't. I was to angry. I knew it was wrong for me to even be upset over Bella, but I couldn't help how I felt...
Go back...I'll be back later.
Leah and Quil looked at each other, then bowed their heads in understanding. They turned and ran back in the direction of the house.
I wandered for hours. The thoughts of Bella wouldn't leave my head. But they were constantly chased with thoughts of Kensey...the feelings of betrayal from Bella were replaced with all the moments of love I'd shared with Kensey...it was a soothing feeling...
Finally as dark approached I decided to head back to the house. As I approached there were a pair of basketball shorts and a shirt laid out on the porch for me. I phased back and changed into them. Upon entering the house everyone turned to Embry, Quil and Seth at me.
"What?" I asked.
They looked at each other, then turned back to me.
"Leah, Emily and Morgan are in the bathroom stitching her up." Embry said, clenching his jaw.
"What...why?"
"You phased right next to her Jake...you...just...go." Quil said, looking extremely angry.
I turned and climbed the stairs as Leah was coming down them. She glared and continued on her way down the stairs. I reached the top and found the bathroom door open with multiple bloody towels laying on the floor of the hallway. My heart stopped...I had hurt her...
Morgan stuck her head out of the bathroom, "Well are you coming to see the damage you caused?"
I could phase again...I felt it building again.
Calm Jake...I thought, walking closer. I peeked in, prepared for the worst.
Kensey was sitting on the counter, her eyes squeezed shut and biting her lip. Her shirt was lifted up revealing several gashed down her side and stomach. Her shorts were ripped and there were gashes down her legs. Emily looked up at me, looking extremely annoyed. I assumed it reminded her of her own scars.
"Kensey..."I began.
Her eyes shot open and she inhaled sharply. She looked terrified.
"I'm sorry." I said, coming to stand at her side.
She nodded, flinching as Emily went back to work stitching her wounds.
"I didn't mean to...you know I would never do that..."
"I know Jake..." Kensey said, softly.
"Alrighty...that side is done...let me go get some bandages and peroxide for the rest. " Emily said, standing.
Kesnsey nodded. I took Kensey's face in my hands and kissed her forehead.
"I'm sorry Kens...I didn't..."
Nothing I could say would make it any better. We had had the worst two days ever and now...now I had just made things worse.
"It was an accident and I know that." She said, eyeing the gash on her side in the mirror. "Makes for pretty cool battle scars though. Not as awesome as yours...but close."
She laughed gently.
"I'm glad you think so."
I would never forgive myself. Every time I saw them I would feel guilt. I guess this was how Sam felt. At least someone understood him now. Emily and Embry reentered the bathroom and Emily continued her work.
"We're not going to tell Sam. " Embry said. "He'll just get pissed and give you a lecture."
"Thanks." I nodded as Kensey squeezed my hand.
I looked over and Emily was pouring something into her leg wound. It definitely wasn't peroxide. She placed a bandage over Kensey's thigh and then moved to the ones on her stomach. There was a thick pounding coming up the stairs. Seth poked his head in and looked terrified.
"Mom just pulled up...you guys might want to make this quick!" He said.
"Almost done! Morgan, go grab Kensey some new clothes." Emily ordered.
Morgan and Seth disappeared down the hall as I helped Kensey out of her shirt. Morgan returned and handed me a new one. I pulled it over her head as she laughed.
"What?" I raised an eyebrow.
"I'll tell you later." She smiled, shaking her head.
Emily helped her change into some long sweat pants and I picked her up off the counter and we made our way down the stairs. As Kensey collapsed in a large recliner Sue came through the door. We all looked up innocently.
"Hey kids." She smiled.
"Hi." We responded.
"Akenna, Can I see you in the kitchen?" She asked.
Shit! She would ask Kensey to move!
"Um...well...sure." She said, looking to me.
"She hurt her ankle earlier..." Leah lied.
"Oh, honey, how did you do that?" Sue asked, concerned.
"I fell out of the truck." Kensey shrugged.
"Well, is it swollen?"
"I took care of it for her." Emily piped up from the corner.
"Here, I'll carry her to the kitchen." I lifted her up and made my way to the kitchen.
I sat her down across from Sue and took my place beside her. Sue pulled out a stack of papers and sat them in front of us. She sorted through them and pulled out a few.
"This is your father's will...being that you were his only child, he left you quite a bit."
"Oh..." Kensey said.
"He left you a large amount of money he'd been saving for you. When I say large...I mean millions. You will get a monthly allowance to take care of yourself. He left you the house so you don't have to worry about that. He took care of everything else, leaving money to pay off all debt he left behind...things are all taken care of Akenna. You're set." Sue explained.
Kensey let it all sink in before she spoke.
"What about his funeral?"
"I'm going to start helping with that tomorrow. If you'd like to join me you may. I wasn't sure you were up to it."
"Um...yeah...I'd like that."
"Alright, well then we'll make arrangements tomorrow."
Sue touched Kensey's hand as she got misty-eyed, "Your father loved you."
"I know."
"Alright, well Jacob, I'm going back to check on your father." Sue said, getting up.
"Okay, we'll come by later." I responded.
Sue smiled and went to say her goodbyes to the rest of the group. Kensey turned to me and smiled.
"I love you." She said, sincerely.
"I love you too." I responded.
She leaned over and lay her head on my shoulder.
"Promise me something..." I said.
"Anything."
"Don't leave me."
She turned and looked up at me, "I never did."