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Eight months.
,,Darling, isn't it nice to be out in park again ?'' she looked at contentedly smiling Danny in stroller as she drive with him from their usual place in park, and away into city and streets. ,,You know, after those two weeks when mommy wasn't feeling too good, it's beautiful to feel the fresh air, and the sun, right ?'' and as she was talking, he was slowly but surely falling asleep.
He was finally calm and she could have rest for herself, driving with him along the streets. She came to street where Tony's Pub was, and as she was passing by she thought for a while.
What if I stop by, and ask…no, no I can't go there with Danny…that smoke of cigarettes and alcohol and….maybe if he was older than year, it wouldn't be so bad…but not now-
Shaking with her head and driving away.
Few streets later as she was nearing to her favorite café where she had reunion with her girls, she stopped by shop window of Baby Center.
Those stretchies for two-months-old babies, and bottles, and all that stuff she saw made her think more and more about another baby, but as she stood steadily with stroller Danny spoke up, mewling.
,,Sorry honey, mommy had philosophic moment, I'm driving, I'm driving….''
,,Oh what a big boyyy,'' Liz squeaked, when she saw Joanne walking in café with Danny.
Her finger instantly on her lips.
,,He's sleeping…finally. Hi girls,'' she smiled whispering just as the noise of café allowed her. But it seemed that Danny was sleeping even more, listening to that monotone noise.
She drove to them with stroller asking girls if they can sit outside, when it's so nice weather and they all agreed, so they moved with their coffees to terrace of café.
,,How old is he already ?'' Rose asked grinning at adorable sleeping Daniel.
,,Eight months –oh-damn…can't they just...fuck-off with those cigarettes ?'' Joanne growled through her teeth, piercing young couple sitting in the opposite side of terrace, smoking, and that smoke was coming right into stroller direction.
,,I thought you're smoking too ?'' Liz smirked.
,,Well, yes, sometimes, but…not in front of the baby,'' Joanne tried to carefully position the stroller to not let Danny breath smoke.
,,Wau, I'm shocked, you really became a mother,'' Sam gasped with smile.
,,Yeah…'' Joanne nodded admitting. ,,But I love it as it is. Em-Mochaccino please…I need something sweet !'' she smiled, when waiter left.
,,Hmmm-Joanne need sweet, Joanne has depressions ?'' Liz sneered.
,,No, actually I don't know why I want sweet, but I do…so-''
,,Where have you been so long ?'' Kathy smiled.
,,We were in the park,'' Joanne answered, checking Dan if he's still sleeping.
,,Yes, but you texted us, that was half hour ago,'' Sam nodded.
,,Yes, well, I stopped by Baby center,'' Joanne admitted.
,,You bought something new for Daniel ?'' Rose cheered.
,,No, actually I wasn't in the shop, I was just staring at shop window-''
,,-But there is nothing for eight-months-old ?'' Kathy noted.
,,Right…girls…ughh-I thought this won't come up-but…do you think I'm too old ?'' Joanne gritted her teeth in despite of her question, which she absolutely never wanted to ask those girls.
,,Too old-for-what ?'' they said alternately looking at each other, knowing.
,,For what do you think ?'' she smirked loudly, almost afraid of waking Danny.
,,If you want another baby, then you're not !'' Liz nodded.
,,I don't want baby until I am over thirty, rather the end of my thirty's, 'cause I want to enjoy my life the most I can,'' Kathy giggled, comforting Joanne.
,,Do you think, it's not insane ?'' Joanne asked.
,,No it's not, and if Robert wants,'' Rose winked.
,,That's that…I don't know what Robert thinks about it,'' Joanne said way more sadly.
,,Then you have two choices….either you ask him as soon as possible, or you just-well you know-act first and speak true later,'' Liz sipped from her coffee.
,,How do you mean that ?'' Joanne gasped nearly shocked.
,,She meant, that you seduce him, and after few months you'll say you're pregnant,'' Kathy explained as Joanne was still shocked.
,,I can't do that….'' She shook with her head. That was too against her behavior, and even her thoughts.
Waiter brought Joanne her Mochaccino and left.
,,Maybe you don't have any other choice…'' Sam smirked watching Joanne, drinking sweet, chocolate coffee.
,,What ?''
,,How you found out you are pregnant ?'' Liz understood where Sam was aiming.
,,Well simply…'' yeah simply in almost three months ,,...first I was sick...'' just as several weeks ago… ,,then I was pretty touchy and emotional, and gaining weight-''
,,-By what ?'' Rose got it too. All of them looking at Joanne now.
,,…..Oh my God…do you think-''
,,Yep !''
,,Sure !''
,,Totally !''
,,If I were you, I would go to my doctor, now…just to be sure,'' Liz shrugged smirking.
Joanne ran out of words….
,,Bobby ?''
,,Hmm ?'' Robert asked almost sleeping, his hands circling her waist, and his forehead resting against hers.
Biting her lips and whispering again ,,Would…would you want…another baby ?''
,,What ?'' he smiled asking, his eyes flew open.
,,I mean…if we had another baby, would you want it ? Were you thinking of it ?'' she smiled petting his arm that was around her.
,,Yes I was. But I don't want to put you into risk,'' he closed his eyes sleepily.
What kind of risk does he mean-
,,What kind of risk do you mean Bobby ?'' she asked , words flowing out of her mind through her lips.
,,Well, you know getting pregnant after forty is risky,'' he uttered, slowly falling asleep.
,,I had Danny in my forties…'' Joanne noted with low whisper.
,,I know, and we love him right ?'' Robby was surely succumbing to sleep.
That's it…he does not want…he just does not want to tell to not hurt, but he does not want another baby…
Joanne bit her lip, turning to her other side, and Bobby knew there is something wrong with her.
She scooted to the edge of bed, looking dully into balcony window and the moon glow, as it was touching their curtains. A small tears that were filling her eyes, rolled over and slid down her cheek, and around her nose, dripping on pillow. She sniffed and he knew.
,,Are you crying ?'' he whispered suddenly awake.
,,No,'' she said through her nose stifling a mewl that was bubbling up her throat.
,,Are you crying because I said, I don't want to put you into risk ?'' he scooted closer to her across their big bed, circling her waist with his arm.
,,No…'' she cried, burring her head into pillow desperately trying to escape him.
,,Hunny….I love you, and I want only the good for you-''
,,-I know-'' another forced noise through her nose.
,,I'm not saying I don't want another baby…I just…doctor would have to assure me, that it's alright…I love you, and I would love another baby as much as I love Danny…please don't cry darling, hmm ?'' Robert explained, petting her side up and down, soothing her.
,,Hmm,'' she briefly answered, calming down.
,,You want another baby ?''
,,I just don't want Danny to be alone…to be the only child…'' Joanne panted for breath, still looking out of the balcony window.
,,He won't be alone…he has Mia, and Paul, and surely he will have a lot of friends in preschool,'' Robby soothed again. ,,So don't be sad about that, okay…'' he waited until she stopped sobbing, and as he was tired he succumbed to sleep.
Yeah, he wants another baby…he's just caring, and that's lovely I should be pleased….then why I'm not- damn it ?! Maybe I am really pregnant….or not…good that my next visit by my doctor is in two weeks…yes…it will be good…he want…he said he would love another baby, so he is not opposite….doctor will surely tell him about pregnancy after forties….but first I need to know if I am, or If I'm not….
Joanne was smiling, petting Robert's hand, which was still circling her waist, wiping away her tears, and slowly succumbing to sleep too.