WARNING: This story contains child abuse, rape, and torture. If you can't stand even one than do not read this fic! Also, this fic is going to take a while to set up so please have patience.
I do not own anything Harry Potter related. It all belongs to JK Rowling, Bloomsbury Books, Scholastics Inc, Warner Bros., and any other entities involved. Nor do I own "Scream" by ZoeGirl.
Does anybody know how I feel,
Sometimes I'm numb; some times I'm overcome,
Does anybody care what's going on?
Do I have to wear my scars
Like a badge on my arm for you to see me?
I need release…
…Has anybody seen what's been done?
Where was my defense?
No one heard my protest…
…Do I have to scream for you to hear me?
Do I have to bleed for you to see me?
Cause I am real, you're not listening to me
And I've been lost, set apart,
Been cut so deep and afraid of the dark,
One drop of blood from the hole in your hand,
Is enough to heal me
And make me stand.
Cause I am clean. He is listening to me.
ZoeGirl "Scream"
Previous Scene's End: (Draco's POV)
"For the most part I'm able to live detached from my memories and their corresponding emotions. The more I trigger the further detached I become."
"But?" I prompted.
He sighs and continues. "But, when I'm here, I can't disassociate. I can't pretend and I can't hide."
"Because you have returned to the original situation." I mutter with understanding.
A slight nod is his only response. We lapse into silence once more, neither of us willing to break the odd tranquility that had overtaken us. Finally, when the damp grass became too chilled for my skin, I spoke.
"We really need to put cushioning charms on the bench."
A hysterical giggle bubbles out of Potter's mouth.
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June 17
Professor Snape,
I am writing on behalf of a friend of mine. He will soon have to take the dark mark or face the consequences. I was hoping that you might know of a way we could protect him from this.
I'm sorry to have bothered you and I know that writing to you is not the safest thing, but I feel that this is urgent.
Please help us.
Sincerely,
Harry Potter
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June 18
Potter,
Are you a complete and utter fool? Sending a message via owl is the most dangerous way to contact me. Next time please exercise an iota of that decaying brain and send your messages through the order or better yet, DO NOT WRITE TO ME!
As for you death eater friend, I am now assured of your Neanderthal-like brain capacity. The simple fact that you would trust a soon to be death eater astounds me. Either way, I wash my hands of this situation. Whether you end up dead or in the Dark Lord's dungeon is of little concern to me.
Do not contact me again.
Severus Snape
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June 18
Dear Harry,
Are you out of your mind? What Ron means to say is, that we are highly concerned about your recent contact with a soon to be DE. It is widely understood that DE children cannot be trusted. As such, Dumbledore has asked that we contact you and make sure that everything is okay. Yeah man, what could possibly push you to befriend a DE? They're nothing but slimy snakes that will stab—we are merely worried about this recent turn of events and would like to inquire about your recent circumstances.
Love,
Ron and Hermione
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June 19
Professor Snape,
Sorry.
Harry Potter
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June 19
Dear Ron and Hermione,
You guys have convinced me that I was off my rocker. So don't worry, I'm going to end the friendship. It wasn't real after all. As for the circumstances, I guess I was just a little lonely. You know what its like at the Dursely's.
Can't wait to get out of here and see you guys again. Make sure to ask Dumbledore when I can come visit.
Love,
Harry
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June 20
Dear Harry,
I'm glad to here that you've come to your senses. Yeah, that was worrying for a while. I was sure that it had to be joke, after all you and a DE being friends could never happen—Anyways, after recent events I have come to the realization that you probably don't understand what is going on around you as a result of your isolation; I thought that I might explain what been going on.
There have been multiple DE attacks and the public just discovered through Rita Skeeter- of all people- that there have been muggleborn camps. The Ministry assures us that the camps are for the muggleborns' safety, but I'm really afraid that they were more along the lines of WW2's concentration camps. Herm explained what those were to me and that was some nasty stuff. Did they really burn babies?
Then, there was the march on the Ministry which occurred two days ago. I would have participated, but Dumbledore told me that it was too dangerous for an Order member to call that sort of attention to themselves. Anyways, the march was supposed to pressure the Ministry into better informing the public about current events and a few of the extremists wanted to inform the muggle world about the danger they are in. Certain pureblood individuals spoke out against the march. The slimy git Malfoy was one of them. Not too long after, violence broke out between the march participants and the purebloods; no one knows who threw the first hex—although we all know it had to be the white ferret! It was an absolute mess. The mob began attacking nearby businesses and the Aurors were having difficulty handling the situation. Then Dumbledore came in and that was just wicked! In just a few minutes Dumbledore had calmed the mob. He gave a very touching speech about how we should not let fear control our actions. In the end, the mob finally dispersed peacefully.
Harry, I need to make sure you understand how dangerous things have become. It's a right loony bin out here. And I'm sorry, but I don't think you will be able to visit the Burrow this summer. It's just too dangerous.
Love,
Ron and Hermione
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June 21
Dear Ron and Hermione,
Don't worry about the death eater, he was a right prick. Can we please drop the subject now? I'm kinda embarrassed about the whole mess.
As for what's going on, I am aware of how dangerous it is so I understand why you don't want me at the Burrow. I was actually hoping to spend the rest of my summer vacation at HQ. It should be safe enough there and it's where a lot of our friends will be.
Love,
Harry
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June 22,
Dear Harry,
You won't believe the conversation we got into the other day! I know you didn't want us to continue this conversation, but Ron thinks that it's funny enough to cheer you up. And you know how difficult it is to stop him once he has an idea in his head.
Herm and I were talking about your mysterious DE friend and who he could be. After your comment about the guy being a prick the idea that it could have been Malfoy popped into Herm's head. Damn, I was laughing for 5 minutes straight. The very idea! Then Herm tried to defend herself and that just got funnier! You and Malfoy becoming friends is about as likely as you having tea time with He-who-must-not-be named. Oh, honestly Ron, the least you could do is use his name, although, the whole event was quite funny. Yeah, and then we started picturing how you and Malfoy could ever become friends and Hermione pointed out the idea that Malfoy could have used a spell on you—you know, like a love spell! It was quite absurd, really. Absurd? It was hilarious! Can't you just imagine it!
"Draco darling, hold me!"
"Why Harry dear, what ever is the problem?"
"My family hurt me."
"Should I kiss it and make it better?"
I was on the floor laughing so hard my sides hurt! And then— Enough Ron. I think Harry gets the idea and I need to talk to him.
Harry, I understand that you want to get out of your family's home, but I'm afraid it's just not safe and thus not possible. Dumbledore says so! And I'm sorry to have to say this, but I agree. So please, stop distracting Dumbledore and let him do what he must to protect you.
We love you and miss you.
Love,
Hermione and Ron
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June 25
Dear Harry,
We have not received a reply, so we were just letting you know. I hope Hedwig is okay. Please respond so that we know you are okay. I've instructed Pig to wait for a reply.
Love,
Hermione and Ron
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June 26
Harold James Potter,
You better respond to this letter! Even Dumbledore's worried! If you don't respond, he will have to divert Order members from their extremely important tasks to check up on you and the war just can't afford that right now.
Please, Harry, we are really worried about you and I would rather know that you are at your family's house than in the hands of He-who-must-not-be-named.
Love,
Hermione
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June 27
Ron and Hermione,
I'm really pissed off at you guys right now, so fuck off and leave me alone.
Harry
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Tom's POV
It was in my private rooms that my beloved found me; I had not been there long, just recently managing to relax into the chair next to my fireplace. Yet, my beloved had already curled up at my feet, her soft breaths attesting to the fact that she had entered the sandman's kingdom. In a distant part of my mind, I made a note to flog her keepers for once again letting her escape the dungeons.
There was a knock at the door and I bid them enter. Before me stood Lucius, his head bowed in servitude.
"My Lord,"
"Lucius."
I watch his eyes dart across my figure, taking in my relaxed position before moving onto my beloved. I briefly wondered if he found it bizarre, seeing his Lord relaxed into an obscenely comfortable chair with a fictional book at his side. Finally, I snapped at him to report.
"The attack is prepared. Our men will meet tomorrow morning at O-800 before setting out to their designated apparation points." I nodded my approval as my hand carded through my beloved's hair. Distantly, I notice her body shift and begin to wake.
"And the bait?"
"Our spy has planted information that will assure the Order's presence tomorrow."
I cease petting my beloved as she stretches, her lithe body becoming almost cat like as her back undulates. Slowly, her ruby red eyes seek out my own.
"What do you see, my beloved?" Her eyes flutter shut for a moment as her lips press into my thigh with a light kiss.
"Two birds will be your prize."
Slowly her hands trace up the sides of my legs and I allow my head to role back in response to her trail of kisses.
"Lucius, you have permission to move forward with the attack."
I heard the door close and Lucius' fading footsteps echo down the corridor outside my rooms, but my attention did not remain there as my beloved's hands reached their prize.
"A phoenix's dying flames are said to be so hot that they can purify all that surrounds them." Her whispered breath grazes across my sensitive skin and I barely hear the following words.
"So please be careful, my king, that I do not lose you to them."
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Author's Note:
Okay, so I know that this chapter was extremely short and probably not that interesting, but it had to be done for plot reasons. Either way, thank you for reading and I hope you enjoyed it.
B.T.W. I have an amazing beta named MoonlitxPursuit that protects you all from my stupidity and for that I will be forever grateful.
General: I'm glad that y'all enjoyed this story. I also can't tell you how relieved I am that y'all like how Draco and Harry are portrayed. I must admit that while I try to stick to a strict timeline for this story, every bloody time I write a scene between Harry and Draco the scene ends up writing itself. This has led to parts of the story that I didn't even expect and has made me rework the timeline a few times.
October Anonymous: Yeah, I'm nervous to see what y'alls reactions to the Dursley subplot will be. And I'm glad that you enjoyed the confrontation of the last chapter, because, as my beta can attest to, I was nervous about that as well.
Thrnbrooke: Not telling! ;P
Quill of Secrets, Miss Galleta, Ceara1888: *Squeals in joy* Yay, now I can go on a fangirl tangent with Anne Bishop's work! I have read the most recent book out and it was absolutely amazing and I can't wait for more! Although, I was told by my cousin that this is probably the end of the "Black Jewels" series. *Cringes at prospect* I really hope not. If you have any info on that I will beg you to impart me with your wisdom! Also, I'm really glad the bastard/prick thing worked. The one problem with borrowing from the "Black Jewels" is the knowledge that I will never be good enough to do anything but tarnish its name. That's why I avoid its fanfiction like the plague.
Melora: I definitely found the site interesting and would like to look further into it. Unfortunately, I am a workaholic who is currently overloading herself at college (I tend to average 26 credits per trimester), which is why it takes me so long to update. I hope that once I graduate in a year I might be able to take a closer look at that site because I'm sure that it could help me grow as an author. So thank you for introducing me to it!