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Chapter 10 Lust

Beca leaned forward touching the red-haired lips, savoury the sweet cherry lip balm taste on them. The kiss turned more passionate and deeper as Chloe opened for her, letting her in further to explore her mouth. Beca gently and with control pushed Chloe onto the bed as she was on top, still into the kiss, she let her hands guide themselves on her chest feeling her heart rapidly beating with passion and touching her breasts gently cupping them using her thumbs to tease the nipples, her right hand slowly and with care sliding down to where she desired the most, feeling the heat as it matched her own, then with her index and middle finger, she went for the kill…

Only to find it was a scene playing inside her head as she imagined what it would have been like if Chloe had accepted her kiss and didn't raise her hands to gently stop her from closing that millimetre gap from touching her own. "Beca…" Chloe said her name in a whisper. "Stop…" Beca stopped briefly before making another attempt to capture those beautiful lips. "Beca…Stop…" Chloe repeated this time with a bit more force. Beca tried a third time but Chloe pulled back and stood up, nearly resulting Beca to fall face flat on the bed.

"We can't…"

"Yes, we can…"

"Well, I CAN'T!" Chloe, even though she wanted to experience that first kiss with Beca and it would have felt like heaven. She knew it wasn't the right time and felt like Beca was forcing herself to move onto something that could easily spiral out of control resulting Beca to be hurt further, not to mention herself. "Why not? Isn't this what you wanted?" Beca asked as she now stood up and anger slowly creeping out. "It is and I do but…"

"But WHAT! All those times over the years that you flirted with me and what you told me as you stroke my hair in the tent…Was what? BULLSHIT! All words but no action!?" Beca could not keep the anger inside anymore, she let it out. She felt rejected that if she couldn't get her friend to kiss her then who else would want her.

"It's not like that…I…" Chloe became flustered she did not know how to talk to THIS Beca. "Jesus Christ Chloe…For once in your FUCKING LIFE, say what's on your FUCKING MIND! I'm not a mind reader I thought that THIS…" She pointing to herself and Chloe. "…This is what you wanted! You, me together!" Chloe was taken aback on the way Beca was speaking to her and could feel her eyes welling up and she had to turn away to try and control herself from not bursting into tears. "I don't want to lead you on…" Chloe knew it was a poor excuse but she did not know any other way to phase it without upsetting Beca further. "Lead me on? For FUCKS SAKE…I'm the one that instigate it! How is that leading me on?" Beca looking at her knowing there was another reason behind it.

Then a thought hit her.

"Is the true reason why you don't want to kiss me because I'm still waiting for the results of the STD tests?…Which you force me to have done?" Beca accused, feeling more rejected then before. And truthfully feeling a bit tainted as she remembered the ordeal of laying on the bed and having the nurse poking her to take samples. She still going through the trauma of still waiting for those results. Not knowing the results for another five days was killing her and she needed someone to make her feel alive inside again, she thought that would have been Chloe . Before she could get an answer from Chloe, they heard Aubrey calling out for them.

Hearing Chloe shouting that they were upstairs Aubrey could sense the cold atmosphere between the small brunette and the tall red head. "Am I interrupting something?" Aubrey asked looking between the two of them.

Whilst Chloe looked like she could hug and kissed Aubrey, Beca on the other hand looked like she wanted to punch her for the interruption.

"No…I'm going out." Beca told them in a voice that was not to be argued with. "Beca…" Chloe tried to stop her. "Save it!"

"You going out? With what money?" Asked Aubrey. "Because if my memory serves me right, you are skint and that's why Chloe had to bail you out." Chloe placed her hand on Aubrey's arm to try and drop the subject. "I got some from my last pay check. Like I told Chloe I will pay her back. I just need to get out of here."

Beca pushed past the two seniors as she exited the room and starting to go downstairs. "Wait a minute…"

"There's some taco left if you're hungry." Chloe tried to diffuse the fight. "I already ate…"

"What? Stacey?" Beca snipe back. Before Aubrey could say anything back, Chloe stopped her as Beca left the house. "Leave it…for tonight please."

"Chloe what happened tonight?" Chloe looked away from Aubrey, not wanting to show the hurt and pain she was in. "Chloe?" Aubrey asked again. "Nothing, she just needed to get some fresh air, she's been cooped up all day. It was driving her mad, that's all. She will be fine in the morning."

"Chloe… you can't keep sticking up for her."

"I'm not…I'm going to head to bed I see you in the morning." Aubrey was still in the mood to discuss the situation but seeing how beat up Chloe looked, she let it drop but she also knew that Chloe would not sleep until she knew Beca return safe and sound.

Beca went to a nearby club, heading straight to the bar and order herself a whiskey, she mentally beat herself up for the way she spoke to Chloe. "I'm such a bitch."

"Now, I don't believe that for a second." A black hair woman with big brown eyes and with skin as fair as milk approached her and sat beside her. "Why don't you just pull yourself a seat." Beca sarcastically said. The woman ordered herself a drink an attempted to strike a conversation with Beca once again. "What's a beautiful girl like you, drinking on your own in a club like this? Have a fight with your other half?"

"I'm just here to drink not to chat and make friends." Beca told the woman hoping that it would kill any further talk between them.

"Feisty…" Beca looked at her, taking in the beauty of the woman next to her. "…I'm here to find an easy fuck…Can I get you another drink." Beca smiled at the woman's straight to the point attitude. She needed to forget about Chloe's rejection and move on and if this woman sitting beside her wanting an easy lay, who was she to argue? "I would love one…And also a drink" Beca paused waiting for the woman to give her name. "…Like I said I'm here for a fuck…Do you really care about my name?" Beca started to like this woman even more, no name, no attachment and no feelings involve…Just sex.

"I drink to that." As the bar tender gave her another whiskey.

Aubrey was right about Chloe being up all night worrying about Beca, also thinking about what nearly happened between them. She knew she was right not to go through with the kiss no matter how much she wanted to follow it through and knowing it would've lead to something more.

She wanted to make love to Beca and not just to have sex with her.

She didn't mean to sound like she rejected her, the hurt look on her face when she couldn't find the right words to explain why it wasn't right for them to kiss. Chloe did not know how long she was staring at the ceiling or even how long Aubrey was knocking on her door before letting herself in. "Hey…You couldn't sleep either?" Chloe looked at Aubrey smiling at her, knowing Aubrey in her own way was worried about Beca also. Aubrey noticed this look and tried to wave her insomnia off as just being restless and focus her attention back onto Chloe. She laid beside her best friend and hugged her. "You know she will be fine right?"

"I know…"

"Oh Chloe I wish you could tell me what happened to Beca. So that I can help you both. Your problem is that you're too loyal." Chloe just let out a small laugh. "You would do the same if it was Stacey."

"True, but the difference is Stacey and I are in a relationship you and Beca are…" Chloe looked over at her shoulder. "Friends…" Aubrey knew how much it hurt Chloe to say that. "…Me and Beca are just friends…You protect your friends." Aubrey kissed the top of her head and stayed with her for as long as she needed her.

Meanwhile at the club Beca was letting herself go, sneaking of with the woman that she had just met to go to the bathroom and into one of the stalls. Shaking slightly as she went inside the enclosed space and jumped at the sound of the lock. "You okay?"

"Yeah… For once there's a lock on the door." Beca forced a smile. The woman smiled back at her and took a wrap out from her cleavage "Yeah…I don't have that hiding place." Beca laughed.

"I think your breasts look fine." The woman replied as she split the coke into lines and offered Beca the first sniff.

After they finished, Beca loosed up and started to hug the woman. The woman stopped her, fearing another rejection she dropped her arms and started to leave. "Wait…I just prefer a bed then a toilet and by the looks of it so do you." Beca returned her smile and grabbed her hand, the coke inside her system making her braver then she felt and both of them making a swift exit out of the club.

Beca trying to keep her laughter down and trying to shush her 'friend' failed miserably as the light from inside turned on and they were met with a worried Chloe who was about to hug Beca with relief when Beca stopped her and pointed to her 'friend' "I brought a friend over for the night, is that okay?"

Chloe looked at the woman who clearly needed help to stand. Thinking it was safer for Beca to have the one night stand underneath their roof then a stranger's she just nodded. "You have to answer to Bree in the morning though." She shouted after them as she watched the two women trying and not so quietly go up the stairs.

Hearing Beca's bedroom door close she sighed and closed the front door, turning her head she saw Aubrey standing at the top, crossing her arms and shaking her head.

As Chloe try to pass Aubrey to get back to her bedroom Aubrey couldn't help herself. "How long will you keep letting her do this to you?"

"Not now Bree please…" Aubrey sighed. "I swear to god if they are going to keep me awake I won't be happy." She looked at the close door as she walks pass to her own bedroom.

Inside Beca's room. Her eyes were lust filled, along with the alcohol and drugs in her system she can now block out on what happened between her and Chloe. Pushing aside the feelings she still has for her, for just one night.

She licked her bottom lip as the woman started to strip and Beca did the same. Beca pushed the woman on the bed with Beca on top. "I won't be gentle." Beca whispered in the woman's ear. "If I wanted gentle I will have a lover. I want a fuck." As those words were spoken, Beca was lost in lust this is want she felt was needed, to lose control and at the same time to take control over someone else.

To feel 'human' again.

Beca bit, squeezed and rammed at the woman's body and vice versa.

Next door Chloe heard it all! The screams of pleasure and pain, felt the force of the rocking of the bed every time the headboard hit the wall.

This is why she wouldn't give Beca that kiss.

She did not want to get hurt by the person she loved and had subconsciously already gave her heart to.

TBC...

We're still good right!? No hard feelings...