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Chapter 10 – Could it get any harder

I turned around quickly to see a big goofy grin.

"Why so sad little one?" Emmett tilted his head to the side and smiled.

"I killed him Emmett, I killed him." I threw myself into his arms. "I didn't mean to, I swear. I don't know how it happen"

Emmett started laughing. I pushed myself away from his chest and looked up at him.

"You didn't kill him Jaden" Emmett looked down at me still laughing.

"But I..."

"Don't you think that if you killed Jasper, Alice would be down here ripping you apart limb by limb"

I hadn't thought about that but Emmett was right if I had killed Jasper Alice would have saw it coming. She would be here, but she wasn't.

"Jazz, wake up" Emmett yelled at Jasper kicking him. My mouth dropped open, but was short lived as Jaspers eyes started flickering. "Hey Jazz hurry up I want it to be my turn next." Emmett looked back at me and winked. Of course Emmett wanted to be next he was always up for a fight. I just shook my head and looked down at jasper who was slowly even for a vampire to getting up.

Jasper looked at me as he got to his feet. I thought for sure I was going to be in a shit load of trouble, but it was at that moment that he smiled and nodded his head.

"Excellent job Jaden. I think you finally got it."

"Your, your, you're not hurt?" I managed to stammer out.

"Physically no" Jasper laughed "Jaden you power makes people feel the most unbearable emotional pain, but shortly after you stopped everything goes back to normal." He chuckled again "You can't kill anyone with your power, you might be able to get them to kill themselves, but you would have to be constantly feeding them that negative energy."

I sighed that was good, but was Jasper really making fun of me because I thought I killed him. I tried to push that thought away when I felt a punch in my left arm.

"So what do you think? My turn?" Emmett still looking for a fight, I shook my head and let out a little giggle.

"I think she has had enough for today Em, let's go back to the house."

For once I was very grateful for Jasper, I felt exhausted it had been a really long day.

"Later" I turned and winked at Emmett.

When we returned to the house I saw Alice bouncing on the steps, she had the biggest grin stretched across her face.

"I told you so!" She smiled at me. It was true she did tell me that I would be able to better understand my gift, why I ever doubted her I still didn't know. She reached towards Jasper and gently placed her hand in his.

"So can I get started tomorrow?" She asked looking at Jasper then me.

"What?" I looked at her raising one eyebrow.

"Maybe we should give Jaden a break" Jasper kissed Alice on the forehead.

"Give me a break from what?" Here I was in the dark again, one place I really didn't like to be. I was starting to get really frustrated.

"Calm down Jaden" I heard Jasper. He was warning me, knowing that if I didn't calm down my power might get the better of me. This was something I still had to learn, not to let it engulf me, to be able to control it. After this afternoon I had a better understanding on how it worked.

"What?" it was the only thing I was able to spit out.

"Jaden, Alice just wants to start working on the next part of your ability. She is a little eager. But don't worry she can wait." Jasper gave Alice a stern look.

"Oh" I could feel myself calming down, and it wasn't Jaspers doing. I was calming down, the pressure was going away. I giggled, I could do this.

"Maybe tomorrow Alice" I looked at her to see her grin return.

"Excellent, we will start tomorrow"

"I said maybe Alice" I heard Emmett laugh as he walked past us and into the house.

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The next three weeks where uneventful, Carlisle was right my thirst was returning back to normal and I spent most of my day trying to work with Alice and Jasper trying to work on predicting future emotions. I wasn't making any progress which was extremely frustrating. Jasper looked bored, and Alice kept on telling me that she can see me do it in the future so I will be able to figure it out. That didn't give me much confidence but getting Alice to stop the lessons was extremely easy. The first time I wanted to stop I thought about going shopping and taking Alice with me, but she was starting to catch on the shopping trips were getting fewer and farther between.

These lessons to me were feeling pointless, and today I really didn't want to try.

"Alice I'm going to take a break and take a walk" I got up from the couch.

"But..." Alice was going to interject but Jasper placed his hand on her leg and slowly nodded his head. Jasper understood, I was depressed he didn't try to cheer me up his way he knew how that set off my temper. Though I was surprised that Jasper was spending so much time around me since I was depressed, maybe Alice's excitement made up for it.

I started walking towards the door, I needed to get out of here I needed to just focus on being me for once.

"Let her go" I heard Jasper tell Alice as I walked out the back door. "Call if you need anything" Though I was away from the house I knew that comment was still directed at me. I tapped my pocket lightly to feel if my phone was there, and it was good thing because I wasn't going to go back to the house to get it.

I found myself wandering through the trees when I heard Reneesme.

"Stop Jacob, get off of me" She giggled.

I headed towards the noise. Jacob had pinned Reneesme down on the ground with one arm and was tickling her with the other.

I cleared my throat.

"So this is Jacob" I said as I leaned against a tree with my arms folded across my chest.

Jacob and Reneesme eyes flashed up towards me.

"Crap" I heard Reneesme say under her breath. She quickly got up and brushed off her pants.

"You know Alice will not be impressed on how you are treating your clothes" I giggled and looked her up and down.

"You are not going to tell them are you?" Reneesme pleaded with me.

"I don't think I need to tell Alice" I raised my eyebrow, I was pretty sure Alice had already seen this for herself.

"I was talking about my parents."

I looked at Reneesme and laughed. "No I won't tell you parents, well I will try not to. Can't promise anything, getting around Edward could be tricky I don't have that much practice."

Reneesme smiled and breathed a sigh of relief.

"So this is Jacob?" I asked Reneesme as I looked at the tall muscular boy beside her.

We had met before but it wasn't formal, he was the wolf that came with Edward and Carlisle that day in the clearing. Reneesme told me that he was staying away from the house to give me some space since all of this was very new for me. I also had to believe that with my new powers that didn't want him to be around where he might get hurt.

Jacob stepped forward and extended his hand. "Hi I'm Jacob Black. It's nice to finally meet you"

I shook his hand and I was about to introduce myself, when I was overcome with pain, sadness, and death. I dropped my hand immediately I knew what this was and I had to get back to Alice and the others straight away.

"I have to get to Alice" I shouted as I turn and started running to the house.

As I was running back to the house I felt I couldn't run fast enough. I was so worried, I was scared. I didn't slow down till I was in the living room of the Cullen's house.

"ALICE" I screamed, it was so loud that I am sure they heard me all the way from the highway.

Jasper came to my side immediately followed by Alice.

"What is it, what happen Jaden?" Jasper grabbed my shoulders and looked deep into my eyes.

"It happen" I manage to stubble out. Which was more then I was able to do the last time.

"What happen" Carlisle came up beside me. The whole family was in the living room now.

"I touched Jacob, and I got a flash. I felt sadness, pain, and death" I dropped my face into my hands. Esme came around and hugged me.

"Alice, what do you see" Bella asked with worry in her voice.

"I don't see anything" I looked at Alice frustrated, what did this mean where we all going to die?

"The wolves" Edwards's voice made me jump. I was completely on edge.

"You think this has something to do with the Pack, Edward?" Jacob was now visible

"She touched you Jacob, and Alice can't see anything so that would be my best guess." Guesses that's what we were going on.

"Dig deeper Alice" I heard Jasper whisper.

I placed my head in my hands again; this was my entire fault I was causing so much worry and grief to this family. They didn't deserve this.

"You've done great Jaden" Carlisle's voice was reassuring; he placed his hand under my chin to tilt it up when I felt it again. This time it was stronger, but the same pain, sadness and death. I jumped at his touch throwing both him and Esme away from me. Jasper shot a quick glance at me, I knew he just felt what I felt and he knew that those emotions weren't coming from this room.

"Alice..." but before I could finish my sentence Alice's face was blank and Edwards was in shock.

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