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Hello!!

Here comes chapter nine and I hope you like it.

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// Miss-Jojjo

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Chapter nine: It's so tiny

My life has changed, big time. More than I could possible imagine. I don't know if it is a good change or a bad change, come to think of it it's more than one change, it is many changes. I can't help but to wonder what my life would look like if I wouldn't have gone to band camp and I wouldn't have met him. Ricky Underwood the man of my dreams, or at least my boyfriend for about 24 hours. So maybe I shouldn't exaggerate it. But I can't help but to miss him, just a little. Although I have to say that the hour I spent with him in his car yesterday was pretty good. Not that anything seriously happened; we have decided to take things slow and I am already caring his baby. Yes, I am about three and a half month pregnant and today I have a doctor's appointment. Ricky is suppose to take me and I'm glad that he is willing to do that. Ricky has known that I am pregnant for like a month. My best friends have known about it for like a month as well. I had also admitted it to my ex-boyfriend after someone had started a rumor saying that I was pregnant or that I had an eating disorder, people really needed to get a life and start to let me live mine. Then there is my sister Ashley who has known the longest and I told parents about it like four days ago. They didn't get too happy about it. I mean how could they? Their fifteen year old daughter is having a baby. So you can talk about changes in my life and in six months I am going to have another big change in my life when I am having the baby. I haven't exactly decided yet if that's what I am going to do, but it feels like the best thing to do.

So like I said, my life has changed. I lied awake this night thinking about Ricky and how his life has changed. I wondered if he was thinking of me too or if he was fast asleep in his bed and maybe instead of thinking maybe he was dreaming of me and the baby. I think he could be a good father and I think I could be a good mother even though were not that old. But I do believe that we could be good parents, no I believe that we can be great parents. The biggest question is if we are ready.

*

I saw his eyes in front of me, God those beautiful eyes. That deep brown color that just made you believe that you were able to see into his soul. I'm pretty sure that Ricky Underwood's soul would be an amazing soul. Because he has proven to me that he is an amazing guy. His eyes are one of the things that I adored about him. Another is his hair. That messy hair that you just wanted to put your hands in and start to play with. Then it was his lips. God, could a person have so lovely and kissable lips. Apparently someone could, I had the proof. I wanted to see into his eyes and I wanted to play with his hair but most of all I wanted to kiss his lips. Feeling the sensation of his soft lips on mine, feeling….

"Amy" Madison said but nothing worked "Amy, snap out of it" I gave a jump and noticed that Madison and Lauren were about to take a seat at my table.

"Sorry" I said feeling a little embarrassed over myself. I can't believe that I was sitting here in the middle of school having those thoughts about Ricky. No I could believe that I had those thoughts since it was Ricky we were talking about. But still it was kind of embarrassing.

I looked around trying to find him in the crowd of people that were having lunch in the beautiful weather. After the rain that had poured down this weekend it seemed like people wanted to get the most out of the sunshine that they could. I looked around at the red tables that was placed around the school yard and at the people having their lunch. People going about their life like usual and after this they would just continue to class and then maybe go to some after school activity and then go home. People who didn't have to worry about getting in time to an ultra sound so they could know that their baby is doing okay and who didn't have to worry that they are about to become parents in six months.

"So what did you guys do this weekend?" I asked and ignored the rest of the world for a few seconds and trying to get out Ricky of my head which seemed impossible.

"Nothing" Madison said. "We have boring a life" she stated and Lauren agreed with her.

"We should do something interesting sometime" Lauren said and shook her head and looked at me "what did you do, Amy?"

"I told them" I admitted slowly but had a smile on my face. Before I had been kind of nervous talking about this at school but now I had realized that no one cared enough to listen in to our conversation so I think it was safe to talk about it.

"Wait what?" Madison asked.

"My parents" I said.

"How did they take it?" Lauren asked me.

"Well, I only got to see their immediate reaction since I kind of had to get out of there" I admitted.

"Where did you go?" Madison asked me.

"Ricky's" I said and the smile on my face got bigger. I loved to say his name.

"Ricky's?" Madison said questioning.

"Yeah, I sorted of stayed the night there. Since I didn't want to go home to my parents" I explained. I could see that both Madison and Lauren were surprised at hearing this, but it was after all the truth.

"What were you thinking, Amy?" Lauren asked.

"Good question" Madison joined in. "What were you thinking?"

"Look" I began, not that I need to explain myself to them or anything. But I had kind of brought it up. "Nothing happened. I just slept there and then he took me home"

"So that's it?" Madison asked. "Nothing more?"

"Well" I said and looked down at my food.

"There's more?" Lauren asked.

"We sort of met again yesterday and went on a little car trip to some mall where I bought some maternity clothes" I smiled telling them this, knowing that that day would be a memory I would always have with me.

"How nice of him" Madison said and I could hear the jealousy in her voice.

"My life is so not interesting" Lauren said and put her head in her hands.

"Be happy for that" I said and we both laughed even though we knew it wasn't funny.

"At least he's there for you" Madison pointed out "That must feel good?"

"It does" I said quietly and began thinking of Ricky again wondering if he in this instant was thinking of me too. I hoped so.

"It sounds like he treats you like he is your boyfriend" Madison mumbled.

"He is" I said "He's my boyfriend" I swear to god that I could see their jaws drop to the ground as I said so.

"He's your boyfriend?" Lauren asked.

"Yes" I said and nodded. "He's my boyfriend. Ricky Underwood is my boyfriend"

"Lucky you" Madison said and I completely ignored the sarcasm I could hear in her voice.

"Lucky me" I said and knew that it was the truth. I was lucky having a guy like Ricky caring for me, caring for us.

*

"Are you ready to go?" Ricky asked me as I stepped into his car.

"I think so" I said feeling a little unsure. We were about to go to our second doctor appointment and I have to admit that I was beginning to get nervous, which was only natural. I had thought about asking my mum to come with me but I figured that it might be a little too soon after I had told her. I should probably give her at least a week before I ask her to come with me to a thing like this.

"It is okay to be nervous, Amy" Ricky told me in an attempt to calm me down.

"I know" I said and took a deep and audible breath. "That goes for you too" I added and looked at Ricky.

"I know" He answered me repeating what I had said and therefore we both laughed a little.

"It's gonna go just fine" I said trying to convince the both of us.

"Yeah, I'm sure it will" Ricky said and drove into to the parking lot outside the hospital and then parked the car.

"Here we are" I said and looked out the window.

"Yes" Ricky said "Here we are" He reached for my hand and I let him take it.

"Let's go" I said before I got more nervous and then we headed out of the car and walked towards the entrance.

Inside we walked up to the desk and I looked around the waiting room that I had been in once before, also with Ricky. I looked at the uncomfortable chairs and there were still a bunch of screaming kids playing around. Sitting by the wall on a row were four pregnant women. They didn't look like there were teenagers; they looked like they were in the right age to become a mother. I could feel that people stared at me and Ricky as we went to take the only two available seats in the room under the window right bedside the toys where the screaming kids were playing and crying.

"Remember to breath" Ricky said as we sat waiting.

"I am breathing" I said but wasn't too certain about it. My heart was beating faster and faster and my legs were shaking slightly.

"Just try to relax" Ricky tried and then reached for my hands and wrapped them in his trying to calm me down. "I'm sure we will be in soon"

And just as he said that there was a nurse calling my name at the end of the room. I got up from the chair and I felt Ricky walking right behind me.

"Down this hall and the last door to your left and Dr. Anderson will be with you any minute" She said with a big smile.

"Thank you" Ricky said and then we walked down the hall and into the room. I was way too nervous to say anything so I just took a seat and Ricky came right behind me.

The door opened up and Dr. Anderson came in and took a seat at her desk.

"Hey Amy" She said. "How are you doing today?"

"Fine" I said "And a little nervous" I admitted.

"There's no need to be nervous, but I can understand it" She said. There's something special about doctors they have this weird influence on you and they can either make you more nervous or they can make you feel calmer. Luckily, Dr. Anderson was the type who made me feel calmer, like I was in the right hands.

"So before we begin with the ultra sound I just thought I should hear how everything is going" She said and looked at me "So how is it going?"

"I told my parents" I said to her "Like you thought I should do. They didn't get too happy about it, but I think they'll be okay"

"So any morning sickness?" She asked and started to fill out my journal.

"Some" I said. "But not as much as before"

"Well, that's normal" She said "The morning sickness usually fade out and eventually stop"

"Good" I said. It was good news to hear that I wouldn't have to have morning sickness through the whole pregnancy.

"No pain or anything?" She asked me.

"No, nothing"

"Okay. That is good. We will found out more about the baby once we do the ultra sound"

"Yes, the ultra sound" I said feeling more nervous. It would mean that I would have the chance to see the baby on the screen. It would mean that I would be able to see the baby for the first time and find out if it was fine there inside my stomach.

"It's nothing to worry about. The ultra sound is a normal procedure and it can't harm the baby" the doctor said and I knew that. It wasn't the ultra sound itself that was scary it was what the ultra sound would show. "Anything else you want to ask about before, something you are wondering about?" I thought hard.

"No" I said "Not that I can come to think of" I looked at Ricky wondering if he wanted to ask something. He looked more nervous now. He was biting the nails on one of his finger and from the look in his eyes I could see that he was nervous as well.

"Then let's move over here" Dr. Anderson said and we walked over to the ultra sound. "You can lie down here" She showed me a small and hard bed. "And Ricky you can take that chair over there and drag it closer" Ricky did as he was told. And once he had taken a seat he grabbed my hand and I could feel that he was shaking a bit and so was I.

"Now I want you to take deep breaths" Dr. Anderson began in a composed voice. "This might be a little cold but it won't hurt" She grabbed a bottle of gel and I pulled up my sweater so she could put it on my stomach. She was right, it was cold and it was also very sticky. I took Ricky's hand again and looked over at him.

"I'll be here all the time" He promised me.

"Okay" I said with a sigh.

"So I'm going to use this" Dr. Anderson said and showed me some weird instrument that looked like a grey remote. It was connected to the screen with a cord. "And if you want you can look at the screen and I will tell you what it is you can see"

"Okay" I said. She put the remote on my stomach and started to move it around. I thought it was going to hurt but it didn't. I looked over at the screen but I couldn't tell what it was. It was all too blurry in shades of white and black but somehow it all looked grey. Then she stopped on the lower part of my stomach and started to tap on a key that also was connected to the screen.

"Here it is" she said and pointed at the screen. "There's your baby Amy" I looked at the screen and first I couldn't see anything than as I looked where she was pointing I could see it, my baby. It was very small and tiny but you could see that there was something that was familiar to the shape of a small human being. My body heated up and I hardened the grip of Ricky's hand and I could feel that he was doing the same. I wanted to cry as I saw the screen. There it was so real and so amazing. It was hard to believe that I was actually caring it, right in this second I had a baby growing inside of me.

"That's our baby?" I asked her and she nodded and then I dared to look over at Ricky and seeing his expression was like a milder shock. It looked like he as well was about to cry.

"Yes" Dr. Anderson said "And it's doing just fine. It's healthy and its heart beat is normal"

"It's so small" Ricky said and as he said so I let a tear escape my eye. He was right, it was so small.

"Would you like to know the sex of the baby?" Dr. Anderson asked us. Both Ricky and I looked at each other.

"Can you tell that so soon?" I asked. This wasn't something I had been expecting. I mean of course it had to be a boy or a girl but I had always thought of it as a just a baby, never had I thought that the baby would have a sex or that it would be so small.

"Yes, we can tell this soon" Dr. Anderson said answering my question.

"Do you want to know?" I asked Ricky and looked over at him.

"If you want to" he said with a small smile.

"I never thought of the fact that it would have a sex" I admitted slowly. "But I think I would like to know" Ricky smiled.

"Then we want to know" he said to Dr. Anderson.

"Congratulations to you two" She began "It looks like you are about to have a son"

"You mean it's a boy" Ricky said and his face shined up slightly.

"Yes, it's a boy" She said. Wow, I was having a boy. Ricky and I were having a boy.

"I can't believe it" Ricky said "Were gonna have a son" He smiled and gave me a kiss on the mouth. I was grateful that he was taking all this so well and wasn't scared of it. I'm so glad that I had him.

"If you want I can give you a picture of the ultra sound" She offered.

"We can have a picture of it?" I asked "Of him, I mean" I felt happy inside. I could have a picture of my son.

"That can be arranged" Dr. Anderson said happily.

*

In the car ride home all I did was sit and stare at the little photo from the ultra sound. It was an extraordinary feeling I got from looking at it. It was like something inside of me finally realized how much this baby meant to me.

"So we have arrived yet again" Ricky said as he pulled over outside my house. I put the picture in the pocket of my jacket.

"Thank you for coming with me today" I said to Ricky not wanting to step out of the car. "You know it meant a lot"

"I know" He said "And thank you for letting me come"

"Anytime" I said. "I'll see you in school" I gave him a kiss on the mouth and he kissed me back. It wasn't a long one, I figured I was gonna leave him wanting more. I got out of the car and walked towards my house with a smile on my lips. I was going to be a mother. I knew that now. There was no other option. I had started to like this baby too much to let it go, I think I even loved it. And I knew that I was ready and I knew that Ricky was as well. There might be people out there who's gonna doubt my ability to be a mother, our ability to be parents. But I knew that I was going to be a great mother and that Ricky and I was going to be great parents to this child, to our boy. And I was ready to let the world know that. I was ready to show the world what an amazing thing I was caring. I was ready to let everybody know that I was about to become a mother and that nothing was going to stop me. I was so ready.

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