AN: Meyer, Stephanie. Twilight.

New York and Boston: Little, Brown and Company, 2005

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"You love her, Alice, don't you?"

BPOV:

I froze in shock just sitting there string at her as she finished her proclamation to me. I was flabbergasted with the assumption, but the more I thought of it, the more I accepted my feelings towards her. My best friend had taken a permanent place in my thoughts since my confrontation with Kate and again here with Irina. I couldn't shove the euphoria that I received when I thought of My Alice, wait my Alice. She is not mine she was Jasper's. I couldn't help, but suppress a growl that was seeming out of me as I was raking around thoughts. I looked back towards Irina to see her reaction to my inner musings. She had a slight amused look in her face, but the sadness in her eyes did not evade my gaze as I gave her a slight nod.

"Laurent, will you give us a little privacy," she said turning around to look at her partner. Laurent appeared to be a little hesitative as he looked towards me with questioning in his eyes. Irina seeming to pick up his thoughts reassured him that she would fine and that I would not be tempted to take a bite of the nearby humans. Laurent eventually walked away saying that he was going to find Tanya as Irina turned towards me. "Bella, let's go to the restrooms" she said.

"If we were going to go to the restrooms then why would you send Laurent away anyways" I questioned in a low voice. The thoughts of the previous and possibly looming conversation was still floating through my head as I followed her towards the ladies room.

"Indeed, it sounds particular, but Laurent only thinks we were going to stay at the bar. He would never know that we went to the restrooms and is too much of, somewhat, a gentleman to listen to our conversations in there. Plus I want to talk to you in private," she said explaining her current actions. We opened the door and stepped into the restroom. The restroom had grey flagstones covering the floor. There were six stalls to the right of the door with one of them currently occupied. Three sinks adorned the opposite side of the stalls within a slab of polished grey stone with what looked like opals encrusted within the stone. There were mirrors above each sink and two hand driers. A baby changing station was set along the opposite wall of the door and a dispenser a few feet to its right.

I walked over to the sinks with Irina in silence expecting a confrontation of my feeling, but she remained silent. I looked towards the mirror and was shocked by what I saw given that I had not really seen myself since I woke up. My face had become a little paler and flawless with deep burgundy eyes that were staring back at me. I was a little startled by the colors of my eyes I had expected them to still be a crimson red, but they had started to change color. My once dull brown hair now with emphasized red highlights that added a sense of beauty to my hair. I wore a pair of tight black jeans with holes in the knees. I had a crimson red top with a plunging neckline. I had argued endlessly saying that it was too revealing, but she had argued the fact. At a point my vision was engulfed with the memory of all the times that Alice had tried to perform the same feat Irina and Kate were attempting now. I ended up giving up, but not because they accepted their points. It was two painful reliving the memories of Alice and the fun times I had with her.

A woman about 39 stepped out of the stall then and walked up beside myself at the next sink and started to clean her hands.

"Are you two having a good time," she said trying to bring up a conversation. I tried to remain calm, but the proximity of blood had flared the burn in my throat. Thankfully Irina had stepped in and reverted my lingering attention back to her.

"Ah we were having a wonderful time, but Bella here was reminded of a terrible break up and I was trying to provide comfort to her," she said smoothly spouting out a lie giving the poor woman a dazzling glance. I reverted my gaze away from her as his crooked smile flashed through my mind as I started to sob. It probably help convince this woman of the lie, and she looked rather concerned. She asked if she could help consul me, but Irina hopped in telling her that we were fine and to return to the other partygoers. The woman had a dazed look in her eyes as she slandered out of the restroom leaves Irina and I to ourselves.

"Well, that went well," she started, "Bella you shouldn't be ashamed that you re in love with our cousin Alice. I bet she has the same feelings for you and would gladly except you back into her family. The Cullens are dear to us and I know that would be glad especially given all the commentary from Alice about her you have changed her family for the better," she said, but I cut her off before she could continue.

"Stop it," I tried to sound firm, but it came out a whimper. "They don't love me. They don't even want me, and all I ever was was mild amusement for them. Alice doesn't love me, she probably never had or will love me and besides she is married to Jasper."

"Bella," she said, "she indeed loves you. From all the discussions that I have had with her I can conclude that she loves you with all of her heart. Plus, to be honest with you, Alice confided in me the fact that she was never really with Jasper. They had pretended for the purposes of making everyone happy. They are great friends and Alice never thought that she would find her mate. You have found your mate so stop pretending that you're the only one whose is broken. We all are broken," she finished. I couldn't look her in the eyes. I had accepted her words and they left me elated with the thought of Alice loving me, but I could never do that. I can't go back to the cullens and get my heart tore into any more pieces.

"Look Bella did you notice how Kate acted out on the dance floor or even just as we entered the parking lot," she asked. I nodded numbly thinking back to my erotic sister. "In the beginning after we all were left to started our new lives, we all lived like that to try and find some sort of companionship or just to feel complete." She started to explain.

"But you had each other right so you weren't truly alone," I interrupted.

"Yes, but as you have figured out it is never the same as having some sort of companionship with another," she sighed. "We all were what you would consider succubi to try and make a life and it was never fulfilling, but you would think we at least had each other right." I nodded numbly listening carefully to her story. "We all felt rather lonely and it only made it worse when we came across the cullens. Tanya immediately fell for Edward, but since he didn't return her feeling then she became desperate and broken. Mortals say that time heals all wounds even the one that Tanya received on her heart, but what they forget to mention is that in matters of the heart it would only harden it with the pain in side. Tanya's heart was broken, since she never stopped loving him that hardened and hurt her heart. She tries to remain indifferent fore that is the easiest way to ignore the pain even if it's always there until he returns the feelings. She was pretty cross with you because you gained his attention when she couldn't. It made her mood even worse when she found out you don't return his feelings and insisted on his flaws.

I have started to patch up my heart upon the arrival of Laurent. That is why we consider that we owe the Cullens a debt. I owe them, Alice especially, for me happiness." She explained slowly lowering her voice.

"But why do you owe Alice for Laurent showing up and granting you happiness," I sked catching the mention of my Alice.

"Oh Bella it was Alice who called ahead and confirmed that Laurent would make a good addition to my family at the time. Originally Tanya was going to refuse him coming here after hearing what he has done, but Alice debated with her that it would make everyone happier. She was reluctant to accept after Alice's words and encouragement from Carmen narrowly convinced her. I didn't have any idea of how he would make us happier, but when he showed up I immediately felt drawn to him. After getting to know him a few days, and the fact that I felt happier around him; we proclaimed our relationship to the family. Even though they knew before us they congratulated us and wished us a good life.

Unfortunately for Kate, she has yet to find someone that would interest her. She feels even worse knowing that the entire family, even Tanya, has found someone to love. Kate continues to act like a succubus in order to try to forget the pain of loneliness. When you came to the family, Kate was intrigued by you and thought you were beautiful and hoped that you were hers. It sort of crushed her spirit when you ran the other day after that kiss, but you must understand after about a thousand years she has become desperate. So desperate she invoked that kiss just to feel something and hope for love but to no end.

Don't you get it we understand your feelings and want to help you through this? Eventually I want to get you back to Alice even if I have to kidnap her and lock you two away just to make you better. It may not look like it, but we know your pain and want to help. So just think about that," she said turning around walking out to find her mate s I began to think of all the new information I received.

AN: It was a little rushed. Sorry if it is a little confusing towards the end, but I hope you like it. Will see you next time with the story based around the Cullens and possibly the reservation