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Reed's POV
"Ivy explain to me why you are trying so hard to get Josh back. You cheated on him." I said.
"Hypocrite, you did too." She shot back.
"I almost did. I regret it and I was drugged. You were sober; you repeatedly have done it and still are with another guy." I said.
"Well he may have loved you once but he loved me too." Ivy said.
"So what if he did, it hurts to know it but I know he has feelings for me still." I said.
"How would you know that?" Ivy asked.
"Because he went through the trouble of finding a ton of candles and a plastic candle to prove his love. He also got me this." I said showing her the ring that was on the shiny silver chain around my neck.
"Maybe he just wants to get with you," Ivy suggested.
"Um he never even suggested that when our relationship was strong." I said.
"See that admits you are weak." Ivy said.
"I meant before you came into the picture." I said.
"What do candles have to do with anything?" she asked as if it were her own personal joke. She snorted at the thought.
"He lit twenty candles in the art cemetery and told me when the last one burns down his love for me could only then end. The last candle was plastic." I said. Her face was momentarily stunned at his romantic words and I could feel the jealousy burning from her skin.
"Well that's stupid." She said.
"Maybe it is to you but it's sentimental to me. It shows he loves me. He dealt with Noelle and when she doesn't like someone she can be a bitch so…" I said.
"Well Reed you're trying to make it so I don't call Josh the father but that won't happen." Ivy said.
"Gage won't be happy." I said.
"Well that's too bad." She said.
"Ivy please," I said.
"No one would believe me; they see how he looks at you Reed. They saw the pain in his eyes when he looked at me." Ivy said. I was speechless.
"The thing is I really did like him for a while but he didn't meet my needs." I said.
Again I was speechless. I didn't know what to do.
"When you came back in the picture I knew it wouldn't last. He was obviously staying with me because I was hurt and everyone knew that too. It's just well I am jealous a little bit but I don't know. I don't want to give Josh up like that but I don't want to hold him back so Reed I won't tell everyone he is the father." Ivy said with such sweetness it was almost fake.
"Really?" I asked happily. It was too good to be true I sensed it.
"No. None of it. Stay away from Josh Reed if you know what is good for you." Ivy said.
"And Ivy if you know what is good for you tell the truth. It won't change how he feels." I said.
"Well be careful, people don't like when the pregnant girl gets picked on. You would be the whore. The slut. The hurricane, the home wrecker. You would be looked down upon." Ivy said with an icy stare.
"I survived treading water for two hours, I survived being nearly killed a number of times. I have survived being blamed for murder and having a boyfriend die. I have survived getting my heart broken and torn to pieces," My voice cracked a little, "I have survived twisted best friends and attempted murders and unfortunately it got you shot. I wanted to be your friend. Point is I have survived a lot and if you think you can change my strength or weaken me or tear me down or even break me you are so wrong. Just because Billings is gone doesn't mean our strength dignity and power is gone. Watch you back because I won't break. I can deal with no PDA or with no Josh for a little while because deep down I know how it is and I know how awful you are. I'll be busy with Billings you won't even be hurting me. Just yourself, and Gage. Maybe even hurting Josh worse. Point is you can't hurt me or break me and you won't so I would give up before you waist all your energy on it because you are going o need energy to raise your baby. You are also going to need a non pissed off father. Gage will be pissed. Only you can get hurt from this but if you insist be my guest." I said with strength. I turned my back and walked out the door. I heard her scream and slam the door walking down the steps.
I opened my door to see Noelle pressed against the wall.
"I'm a bitch?" She asked.
"Wait I know I am so never mind." She said laughing. I laughed with her.
"Good job sticking up for yourself Reed," She said. I let a tear escape my eye and she hugged me.
"It is going to be hard to stay away from Josh that much." I said.
"Well how about I promise that this weekend I won't completely dominate you with Billings things. Just know it will take up a lot of your time." Noelle said.
"Fine, I can live with that." I said.
"Good, now you don't have to pack because I already have." Noelle said. She rolled out a suitcase I had never seen before filled with clothes that weren't originally mine. More clothes than I needed for New York.
"I felt bad for how I treated you after the legacy thing." Noelle said then showing me two other suitcases just as full as the first full of new clothes.
"Um I'm not bringing all of this right?" I asked.
"Of course not, just this one." Noelle said referring to the first one she showed me.
"Thanks Noelle," I said.
"Eh no problem." She said.
I just smiled.
"Come on glass licker time for bed." Noelle said shutting the lights off.
I tripped over a ton of stuff on my way to my bed. I guessed about where my pajama pants and tank top were and threw them on in the dark. I plugged my phone in and put my head down. I couldn't seem to sleep so I pressed my ear to the wall and listened into the next room.
"Josh please," Ivy was on the phone.
"Josh!" She said louder. I took a deep breath.
"She's using you. I saw her talking with Upton on the phone." Ivy said.
"I'm telling the truth," Ivy said throwing her phone against the wall.
He couldn't believe her. He wouldn't, would he? Well at least tomorrow was Friday. I was so glad they decided school should start on a Thursday.
I closed my eyes and tried to go to sleep.
"Reed I hate you. I never want to see your face again. It makes me want to hurl. I only wanted you because I want everything Thomas wants. You were the fun new girl to play with. Thomas only wanted you because then he would have slept with practically every girl in school. You are a stupid charity case and no one wants you anymore." Josh said.
"Josh I love you." I cried.
"Thomas killed himself when you told him you loved him. He said he took it too far." Josh said.
"No, that's not true. He loved me and so did you." The tears came harder now.
"You killed Thomas Reed, you killed him and no you are killing me." Josh said. Next thing I knew he shot himself.
I woke up screaming on the top of my lungs. I was in a heavy sweat. It was just an awful nightmare.
"Reed," Noelle said throwing a pillow at me.
I decided to shower quickly and go for a morning walk. It was only 4:30.
I threw on some jeans and a hoody from Upton's locker of hoodies and threw on some uggs and traveled outside. The snow was starting to melt but not doing a great job of it. It was still pretty high.
I was walking across the quad to my favorite bench to sit at and think it was facing a set up of trees that were just gorgeous especially in the winter time. About ten feet from the bench I met ice that I wasn't suspecting. My feet started to give out and a small screech escaped my throat. I was waiting for my butt to touch the ice…well actually smack the ice when I felt a strong pair of hands around my arms hold me up. To my surprise when I turned around it was Dash.
"Dash," I said excitedly.
"Hey Reed. Let me guess Noelle is still asleep.
"Um, it's like 4:30." I said.
"You're up," He said.
"Nightmare," I shrugged.
"Oh well I was just going to surprise Noelle but she will probably be pissed if I wake her up so you wanna go for a walk…just as friends I mean." Dash said fixing himself.
I laughed a little bit. We had cleared things up and he was my friend.
"Yes Dash, as friends. You love Noelle and I love Josh. Even if Ivy is trying to mess with it." I said.
"What is she doing now?" He asked.
"She is pregnant and is saying Josh is the father. He hasn't slept with her. It's Gage and Gage knows but she is still trying to blame Josh and is using it to keep us apart." I said.
"Tough position. You can't really mess with the pregnant girl." Dash said.
"Exactly, we are trying to just stay out of PDA and stuff. Maybe wait a while." I said.
"Is he still coming this weekend at least?" Dash asked.
"Yeah." I said.
"Good, I'll need another guy to hang with while you guys are dong Billings things. Sawyer read a lot and I would have been bored." Dash said. I laughed again. No one really got Sawyer but me and Taylor.
"So what time are we leaving today?" I asked.
"After your last class," He said.
"Cool," I said.
Just then we hit another random ice patch and again I couldn't hold my balance and as a reaction grabbed his arm pulling him down on to the ice with me.
We both started cracking and we both struggled getting up again. I got to my fee but shortly after I fell again. I was laughing so hard I could barely breathe.
"Reed?" I heard someone ask.
I flopped onto my stomach to find Josh staring into my eyes.
"Hey," I said. He walked over to help me up then helped Dash up to. The look in his eyes was a death glare.
"What's going on?" He asked.
"Hey man, sorry, Noelle was asleep and Reed almost fell before but I caught her and Noelle would be pissed if I woke her up so we were just walking and talking and stuff. I swear to you nothing happened man." Dash said.
"It's cool, I'm fine with you." He said.
"What's wrong then?" I asked.
"You tell me," Josh said.
"What are you talking about?" I asked.
"Ivy called me last night. She told me you were talking on the phone with Upton, that you were playing me." Josh said.
"You believed her?" I asked shocked.
"Not until I saw you rolling around on the ground with Dash." Josh said.
"He was awake, we are friends. It was icy and we slipped Josh." I said.
"Well what about Upton?" He asked.
"He actually is saying he I broken hearted because Reed broke his heart last night or something. When she officially ended it." Dash said.
"I ended it when I was with Sawyer, he just didn't get it." I said.
"I'm sorry, it's just Ivy is stressing me out. I know Gage is the father but I don't know how to prove it." Josh said.
"Won't Gage be pissed at her?" Dash asked.
"He already is," I said.
"Well I thought she loved him." Dash said.
"She does she is just crazy and doesn't want to let me go." Josh said.
"Well can Gage talk sense into her?" Dash asked.
"No he just walked off, we told her he wouldn't want to be with her and just said I don't care." I said.
"Well my advice is not to worry about it, you will figure it out." Dash said.
"I would hope so but she is calling me the home wrecker." I said looking down at my feet.
"Hey Reed, I forgot to ask what was your nightmare about?" Dash asked kind of changing the subject.
"Nightmare?" Josh asked.
"I needed a walk. I woke up in one of my nightmare things." I said.
I stared intently into Josh's eyes.
"I am going to wake up Noelle, she can't be that mad." Dash said.
"If we here girlish shrieks we will come to your rescue." Josh said.
"Haha very funny." Dash said.
"She is room," I started.
"I know she told me." Dash called behind his back.
"Reed I am sorry I blew up on you." Josh said.
"It's ok; Ivy is messing with us all." I said starting to walk forward.
He caught up with me instantly.
"Why are you walking away?" He asked.
"Josh I really don't need a worse reputation than I already have." I said.
"Reed, I will look worse than you." Josh said.
"No you won't people wait for stuff to happen to me." I said.
"Its 5 in the morning. No one will be up for a while. Can you at least ell me about your nightmare so I can make you feel better." He said moving the hair from in front of my eyes and wiping the few tears that escaped from my face. I swallowed me in a hug.
"It was about you." I said.
"Wow, I didn't know I inspired nightmares." He said.
"Well you were just saying you and Thomas both used me to sleep with me. That I was charity. That I killed Thomas then you killed yourself and blamed it on me." I said.
"Reed, you know none of that is true. I hate to admit it but Thomas may not have shown it he loved you too. You know I love you more than anything in the world." Josh said.
"Josh I know, that's why you have to stay away from me." I said.
"What do you mean Reed?" He asked. This was so hard for me to do.
"Josh I only bring problems. I am a hurricane and cause death all around me. I don't want you to get hurt too." I said.
"Reed," He tried to reason.
"Josh I don't want you to get hurt." I said. Tears were flowing from my eyes. I didn't want to let him go but my nightmare made me think, what if Ivy went crazy like Ariana and Sabine? What if she got mad and killed Josh or me?
"Reed I don't care if I get hurt." He said.
"Josh," I said.
"No, no matter what you say I am going with you this weekend. After that you said you wanted to stay away because of Ivy that is fine but don't tell me to leave your side because you are afraid I will get hurt. I won't leave your side and that is a promise." Josh said.
My eyes started watering again.
I stayed silent and he stood his ground.
"Say something Reed," Josh demanded.
"Bye Josh," I said. I didn't want to let him go but I didn't want him to get hurt. What was I supposed to do about New York?
I suppose Josh could go to New York and I could stay away from him after that. I wouldn't be able to live with myself if he got hurt too.
"Reed," I heard that Allison girl sneer.
"Ali," I said.
"You bitch; I heard you were a home wrecker. Ivy said that she is pregnant with Josh's baby but you are still trying to break them up." Allison said.
"So you haven't learned your lesson." I said.
"I have and Jimmy and I are happy together now." I said.
"What's that, poor Jimmy, she is sleeping with Nick, her best friend's boyfriend?" I said.
Her face fell.
"Jackpot, now if you want to keep your secret you will stop spreading rumors about me." I said.
"But Ivy said," Allison tried to say.
"Ivy lied," I said and walked away.
My heart was pounding in my chest. Ivy was already telling people. I quickly turned around to see Josh still staring at my retreating figure.
What if it wouldn't endanger him to be with me? I could only hope. But there was still Ivy in the way. My life was a mess. I really needed this weekend. I needed Josh to be my rock again. I needed Ivy to stop starting stuff. I needed to stop hearing rumors about me. I needed Billings back. I needed Josh back.
Sorry this chapter was kind of lame. It was just a filler chapter.
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