Tjugosjätte Oktober –
Something strange happened today, and it wasn't a good-stranger either. Strange and bad things always happen when the dorm is empty and I'm in the bathroom, I've noticed. Anyway, I was just about to come out of the bathroom today when I hear a sound, like a grunt and a giggle followed by a weird wet sound. I knew immediately what it was, and that's when I heard a voice that was undeniably Mathias asking, "can we? No one's around."
I didn't hear the response of whoever was with him, but then I heard a thud and another giggle. That was when I dared to look around the door, mainly because I felt if they were going to be doing… well… I shouldn't be there. So I had to make sure. Of course, I regretted my decision and when I looked out, I saw that Lukas had Mathias pressed up against the wall by his bed and they were kissing… Mathias was even smiling! I'm not sure why I was so shocked, I've suspected they had something for a while. They must have nerve! Doing things like that in school.
I quite promptly left after that, and I went and sat under my tree, I'm pretty sure they were both too into their kissing to know I'd left or even been there in the first place. At least that's what I'm hoping. It's the very first time I've allowed myself to cry since I've been at this school. I can't believe how stupid I've been; and I'm not sure why this whole ordeal has upset me so much. I suppose it's because, being honest with myself now, I like Lukas and I trust him, even though I haven't even known him for that long. I've always known it ever since he stuck up for me that time when Allistor shouted at me in Prep, but I guess it's always been one sided. Maybe he just feels sorry for me.
That's what happens. You let people in and they destroy you.
A.N - i'm not sure about this. hmmm. i hope you like it ^-^