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Chapter 10 Cold

"And I think its best we do not see each other behind Tamki's back anymore." The words burned. Seared at my heart till it was spreading through my body. The words attacked every nerve in my body sent every single atom into convulsions. Then like a blizzard my body went cold and I was frozen stiff. The world slowed and silenced all around me. Nothing moved.

He was just watching me. So calm, so cool like he felt nothing at all. His dark, wonderful eyes were as cold as I felt. Empty of all the love and feelings he'd shown me in the last month. What was wrong with him? This must be a dream. Yes, that was it. I was only dreaming. Kyouya would never do this to me, to us. He said he loved me…..

"You'd better get back out there, Haruhi. Your debt is still large." I remained motionless my eyes frozen open in shock my body ridged as I felt his presence move pass me. Then emptiness filled in where he had been once. In my heart numbness companied by an empty hopeless feeling.

"K-Kyouya…." My voice shook and it took all I had to stay on my feet. Knowing I need a support of some kind I wobbled over to the wall, leaning against it heavily my breath seemed to escape all at once. That's when I realized I'd been holding it. It all came to fast, to heavy I felt like I would pass out. But I couldn't…I had to get on my feet and walk out of here my head held high. Until I was awake at least. There was no way this could be true. I…loved him.

I came walking out of the back room a pile of books towering in my arms. Everyone looked up as I exited, a clearly annoyed look painted on my face to perfection. I refused to look around at everyone. I kept my eyes ahead watching my path to the door out of the band room. Out of this nightmare. A flash caught my attention from the corner, but I refused to look.

"Where are you going with those books Haruhi?" Tamaki asked relieving me of a few off the top. I sighed as the weight was lifted.

"I need to take them down stairs." I said keeping my voice level and calm. I had no clue how I was pulling it off, but I was doing it.

"I'll come too."

"Alright, thank you." He took up pace besides me pulling a few more books off the top with a sideways grin at me. I tired to grin back but my lips barely twitched. Smiling, grinning, any emotions related to happiness was in total meltdown at the moment.

"Have you decided if you want to come with me Haruhi?" Tamaki asked when we reached the library. I placed the books on the cart slowly, my eyes staring at nothing as my hand moved mechanically.

"Huh?" I turned to him confused for a moment.

"Oh." I remembered before he could answer and he waited patiently for my answer.

"I'd love to go away with you Tamaki. Just the two of us."

"Really?" He looked completely surprised by this. I titled my head to the side staring up at him.

"You are my boyfriend. Tamaki, I want to spend time with you." I looked away feeling the words freeze on my lips. The books made soft thunking noises as I placed them on the metal cart. We seemed to be the only ones in the library, but it felt to quiet. Like someone was there, frozen so as not to be seen, or heard.

"Thanks Haruhi. That means a lot to me." I gasped, surprised as he wrapped his arms around my waist resting his chin on my shoulder. He leaned his cheek against mine rubbing the smooth textures together in a gentle nuzzle.

"Haruhi you're so cold. Are you alright?" He pulled back reaching up to place his hands on my face. They were warm, but I was cold. Starting from my heart and working my way out. I was frozen in a wintry hell as it finally settled on me. I was not dreaming.

Kyouya's POV

"I think its best that we don't not see each other behind Tamaki's back any more." The look on her face. It makes me want to die, die like the horrible monster I am. I'm breaking her heart. Its so easy to see on her face. My hands clench to keep from reaching out to embrace her. I want to soothe her, comfort her, but I've had a long time to think about this. It had to be the right choice. It saved Tamaki the heart break and betrayal. It saved Haruhi the guilt and loss of a friend. It was better for everyone that we no longer saw each other. Well, everyone but me. Just saying this was making me feel numb inside.

"You'd better hurry and get back out there Haruhi, your debt is still large." I knew that wasn't what needed to be say, but as I passed her I felt a chill sweep over me. She hadn't moved a muscle, it looked like she hadn't even breathed. I couldn't stand to look at her any longer, for fear I might crack and beg forgiveness.

The others are watching me as I stand in my corner scribbling on in my notebook. I notice Tamaki's gaze flickering to the back room on more then one occasion. Yes that's it go in there comfort her, I can't anymore. Tamaki stood from his seat but doesn't get more then a foot away before Haruhi reappears. Why does she have all those books? I wondered lifting my gaze slightly to peer at her over my glasses. The light reflected off them sending out a bright pulse that I am sure Haruhi saw. Her eyes tightened looking more determined now as she walked towards the door.

"Where are you going with all these books Haruhi?" Tamaki asks for me. I watch her, unable to turn my eyes away from her. I can see it in her eyes, she is in shock. She can't believe it. I can't believe it either. Just these few moments of knowing that she was not mine any longer was enough to make me scream. I felt my chest tighten to an unbearable point where my breathing cause in shallow gasps.

Mistake. This was a horrible, terrible mistake. I was wrong. Haruhi needed me, she loved me. Tamaki…he is our friend. He'd want her to be happy, and maybe eventually he would be able to forgive me. I had to go to her. I had to get her back. Just moments away and I was ready to dive out a window. My heart revved and speed to top speeds as she walked away from me and the band room. Tamaki by her side. Oh my god. What have I done?

I followed them all the way to the library but I stayed behind the wall waiting and listening. It was so quiet in there, I could have sworn they heard my heart panicking in my chest as it tightened and tightened till I could hardly breathe.

"Have you decided if you want to come with me Haruhi?" What was that supposed to mean? Where was he taking her?

"Huh?" She seemed just as confused, that was a good sign.

"Oh." Bad sign. She seemed to know now.

"I'd love to go away with you. Tamaki, just the two of us." What's that strange tone she's using?

"Really?" Why did he sound so surprised? Usually he'd be screaming by now.

"You are my boyfriend Tamaki. I want to spend time with you." My body went stiff as she spoke that sentence. She….so easily? She forgot about me so quickly? I….I lost her so soon? I….I was an idiot I shouldn't have let her go. Now she's gone. I found myself running down the hall away from the library. She would be happy with Tamaki.

I…….

A/N: Eek XO don't really love the Kyouya's view part but I like this chapter so sad :( Please review I'll update soon as humanly possible for me :D thanks for reading so much