Three months pregnant
Stef
I woke up and tried to ignore the nausea but it seems to be getting worst. I turned into Lena and she woke up.
"You ok, babe" she asked taking me into her arms. I shook my head and it was even worst.
"Oh sweetie" she said as I got up and ran to the bathroom. I would appreciate waking up at least one morning not too the feeling of needing to puke. It's happened every morning for the last two weeks or so.
"I know baby" she said rubbing my back. She helped me up and after brushing my teeth took me to bed.
"I know" she said and kissed my just starting to show stomach. She laid her head against my chest.
"Hey sweetie you are going to drive your mom insane. Also it would be nice if you stopped making mom sick all the time" she joked and I rolled my eyes.
"She's driving you insane?" I asked taking a deep breath to try and subside the nausea. She smiled at me and kissed my nose then went back to her original position.
"We love you so much and can't wait 'till you join the world" she said and I laughed.
"Yes really can't wait" I said and she laughed. She went up and wrapped her arms around me.
Dana
I still can't believe all that is going on. I feel so bad for my daughter-in-law. What she's doing is amazing. I couldn't do it, that's for sure.
"You know we probably should have called." Stewart said and I sighed.
"Yeah well we have waited long enough and this might be our last time we could go out before that baby is born." I said and he nodded.
"Don't say anything too Stef" he said and I glared at him.
"Why would I do that? I would never say that too her, but I know how Lena feels about it" I said knowing the situation isn't quite how it seems.
"You don't know that, Dana" he argued as we finally got took our seats on the plane.
"All I'm saying is from what she's said makes it seem like the idea of this baby is a nightmare too her" I said and he sighed.
"I know you think she should have just got an abortion but that doesn't mean Lena agrees with you, she normally doesn't" he said and i looked at him shocked. Me and Lena normally don't see eye to eye but that doesn't mean i'm wrong right now.
"She has five kids already and after losing Frankie I don't know if she has room for more." I said and he looked at me shocked.
"Dana!" he said.
"Listen all I'm saying is she doesn't feel anything for that baby, she's going through with the motions but that's it" I said and I know it's terrible to say but I can't blame her.
"I'm sure that's not true, and even if it is she has like six months to feel that connection. Besides she's probably just feeling the baby daddy blues" he points out and I sighed.
"Lets hope" I said hoping my daughter isn't getting in over her head.
Lena
Me, Stef and the kids were watching a movie when their was a knock on the door.
"Hey can one of you guys get the door?" I asked not wanting to get up from my spot on the couch and have to make Stef move.
"Got it" Mariana said and got the door.
"Grandma, grandpa" she said excitedly and I looked over at Stef confused. What are my parents doing here? The kids got up and hesitantly me and Stef did the same.
"Mom, dad?" I said confused hugging them both.
"What are you doing here?" I asked as they hugged Stef.
"Oh we can't come randomly?" my mom asked.
"No of course you can just…" I trailed off.
"She's teasing you, honey." my dad said. "We thought we would come in too see everyone"
"You look great my dear" my mom said too Stef.
"Thank you" she said and we both shared a look of 'ok then'.
"Anyways sorry we are getting in late, San Diego's traffic is horrendous" my mom said and I gave dad a look of 'should I be concerned?' He shook his head but i'm not entirely convinced. I have talked too my mom many times in the last three months and she has all but said that she doesn't support us having the baby. I just hope she won't slip up and say something in front of Stef. It's one thing when she says it too me but that's the last thing Stef needs. She deals with enough of it.
I gave mom a look telling her too watch what she says, which she has a problem with. I'm sure my dad has already said something to her but still.
"How long are you staying for?" Jesus asked.
"Oh just an extended weekend, you're granddad has an important business trip to New York City in a few days" my mom said to him.
"Anyways what did we interrupt?" she asked as I instructed the kids to take their suitcases too our room.
"Oh we had a movie on" Stef said and they nodded. Once Jesus and Brandon got back downstairs we turned the movie back on filling them in on the twenty minutes they missed.
My dad texted me saying he was sorry.
Me:it's ok as long as she doesn't say anything to Stef.
Dad:already talked to her
Me: yeah because that makes a difference
He looked over at me and we both almost broke out laughing. I just hope that my mom knows not to say anything in front of Stef.
When I finally got my mom alone I went up to her.
"Look I know that you don't approve of this pregnancy but just don't mention it in front of Stef" I said and she shook her head.
"Why do you guys think I'm that terrible. I would never tell Stef any of that. Also I'm not the one opposed to this pregnancy" she said. What does she mean by that?
"Excuse me?" I asked not liking what she's implying.
"Come on Lena, we both know you are just going through the motions" she said and I shook my head.
"No mom you don't know. You don't know how many nights I have woke up to Stef having a nightmare, or how many days I'm called during work asking me to pick her up because she's having a panic attack. You don't know" I yelled and she sighed.
"Honey in no way do I blame you for that. You're both going through to much right now." She said and I sighed.
"I just don't know what to do. It just seems she's never getting better. I know it's not the baby's fault but I just can't keep thinking of her as a reminder of what she's been through" I said and she put her hand on top of mine.
"I really want to forget about it and completely accept this but it's just..." I started to say and she smiled at me.
"Does this make me a bad mom?" I asked and she shook her head.
"It makes you human" she said hugging me.
"You are such an amazing mom I have no doubt in my mind this will fade. That baby is going to come into this world and everything will change. " she said confidently. She patted my hand and got up and left.
Stef
I sunk to the floor of the shower tears in my eyes.
"Stef?" Lena said knocking on the door. She came in and I got up turning the shower off and wrapped the towel around me. I have gotten more comfortable with her in the last three months. She has seen me naked since then but we haven't done anything yet.
"Oh baby" she said pulling me into her arms. I pulled away and smiled at her.
"I'm fine, love. You don't have to worry about me" I argued and she sighed.
"I'm always going to worry about you, you know that" she pointed out and I know she's right. She has always worried about me especially when it came to work.
"I know but i'm not broken" I said and she nodded.
"You're right. I know you're not it's just I worry about you." she said and I kissed her.
"I know and I know that's not going to stop but i'm fine" I said pulling her against me and kissed her again. I know she's not going to make the first move right now because of everything so it has to be me. I kissed her neck and she stopped me.
"Hey are you sure about this?" she asked after seeing my confused look.
"Of course" I said kissing her again.
"We don't have to do anything until you're ready, babe" she said and I smiled at her.
"I'm...ready" I said in between kissing her.
"You... sure?" she asked when we broke apart from each other.
"Love please shut up" I said going back to kissing her neck. I have never been more sure of everything. I need her.
"You can stop at any time" she said letting me know I have control.
"Stay where I can see you" I said and she nodded unwrapping me from my towel. I laid their under her naked and I knew I need to get her naked so I don't feel so vulnerable.
Lena
I laid next to her and she laughed pulling me into her.
"How did we go three months without doing that?" she asked me playing with one of my curls.
"It was worth the wait" I said kissing her and watched as she fell asleep exhausted.
"I love you" I said kissing her cheek and then falling asleep myself.
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