Warning: Some mentioning of sexual assault (Flashbacks of the night before and in more detail). You have been warned
DISCLAIMER: SM OWNS TWILIGHT
September 13 2002,
Everyone started showing up after the Delanie's arrived and decided to ruin just about every bit of happiness I had left and excitement for my own birthday party. Keeping a smile on my face would be a difficult task to pull off knowing well that Edward will notice and ask what was wrong… what could I say? 'Hey Edward, Tanya stole a very personal and secretive journal of mine that I professed my undying love for you…' Yeah… I may be 11, but I am not an idiot. I would just have to keep my mouth shut and smile… I was getting pretty good at it when I was around my parents.
After Tanya and her goon's showed up, Nikki, Angela and Ashley all came together. I greeted them and thanked them for the presents that I nicely put on my invite to not feel obligated to bring… figured they would ignore it.
"This is so cool Bella!" Ashley told me once Edward and I placed the presents on the table. Our basement had white Christmas lights that Mrs. Esme let me borrow to string up around the ceiling. The lighting was pretty low since I was able to put the TV down here to watch movies. Every few minutes, Charlie would come down and turn the lights on all the way up and smile at me, but then I would just turn it back down after he left. We were only 11 years old… not 17.
"Thanks, until everyone gets here I will get the movies ready for us to watch. Oh! I forgot the pillows to put on the ground for everyone to sit, I'll be right back!" I said as I ran up the stairs to retrieve the forgotten items. Once I made it to the main floor, I almost ran into someone who was trying to go downstairs. I looked up and noticed it was Rosalie, Lauren and Jessica.
"Oh! Sorry! I wasn't watching where I was going. I'm so glad you all made it!" I told them in a rush. It felt weird that Rosalie was here, but since Emmett was going to be here I'm sure it would be well worth it.
"I have to go get some things and I'll be right down, the party is down there. Ashley, Angela and Nikki are already here, including some of Edward's out of town friends" I sighed.
"Okay, Happy Birthday Bella" Rosalie smiled.
"Yeah… um… Where's Edward?" Jessica ignored Rose's greeting.
"He's… he is down there too." I tried to say nicely. I was not going to let Jessica ruin my day
"Oh, Okay! Take your time… really" Lauren snorted at Jessica's comment
I decided to just ignore Jessica for the remainder of the day… at least I know she will be ignored by Edward. I grabbed all my pillows from my room and started to head back downstairs to the main floor to ask my mom if I could borrow some of her pillows… that was until I heard them.
"I mean it Charlie… we are leaving. I already have Bella's bags packed in the car. Once all her friends leave than we are gone" I heard my mother whisper loudly
"You are not taking MY daughter Renee! She will stay here with me! That is final. She has Edward here, her friends! Why do you want to take that away from her!" My dad responded back harshly.
"She is young and will get new friends. Besides, that relationship of her and Edward is just young puppy love. They will get over it… just like I did." I gasped quietly after hearing their conversation. Leaving? Tonight?
I didn't know what to think at that moment… all I could do was wonder what would happen if I told Edward this… how would be react? I couldn't leave him… he needed me. Just last night I told him I wasn't going anywhere after his nightmare.
"Hey Bellllla!" Emmett called out when he walked into the house. My parents jumped at the sound of Emmett's voice and noticed I was standing there… listening to their argument. I couldn't move… I felt trapped in my body without any indication that I could even speak. All I could do was shake my head slightly and move backwards into the wall.
"Bella?" Emmett asked when he saw my movements. "You okay?" he stepped in front of me.
"Yeah… I am" I lied. "Umm… parties downstairs" I managed to get out. I still had all my pillows in my arms as I gripped them with all I had. "Let's go". He just nodded and followed me towards the basement. I could hear a wave of laughter coming from there. I was half way down the steps when I saw Tanya, Irina, Kate, Lauren and Jessica all huddled together giggling. Rose, Angela, Nikki and Ashley were grouped up together telling them to shut up. I was confused about the commotion going on and couldn't find Edward anywhere until he stepped out of the restroom. I was even more confused with the look on his face; It was a mixture of anger, rage with a bit of sadness. I couldn't point out which emotion that was going through him and wasn't sure if I wanted to know with the way he looked at me. I just knew at that moment… everything changed.
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September 12, 2009
I couldn't move once I felt the burning touch of the sunlight from outside. I tried to keep the memories from last night away from my dreams …. But they made it into my nightmares. What if I wasn't strong enough to push him off of me? What if I just went along with whatever he wanted to do? What if I had just not left the dance with him in the first place?
My neck started to ache and I knew there was a bruise there from Mike. He handled me too roughly when he held me against the car door. Since I was very fair skinned, I knew I bruised easily… a little too easily. I was afraid to look at what damage was done but even more afraid what would happen if anyone saw.
Alice left sometime during the night after I was able to calm down enough to sleep. I knew she wouldn't tell Edward about what Mike did…. and tried to do to me.
I stood up slowly and decided to see how much damage was done. I gasped once I stepped in front of my mirror and saw the blue fingerprints on my neck. I closed my eyes at once and the images from last night drifted back to me
Mike gripping my neck tightly as he push my dress up my thigh, touching the edges of my panties. I could feel the recognition of what was going on at that moment… I started to push him off of me but he was just too strong. He gripped onto my waist tightly and then my hips. My breathing started to get quicker… feeling my panic go through me.
I opened my eyes slowly and felt the a single tear go down my cheek. I touched the area that my hip was violated with Mike's hands and winced at the pain. How could have I let this happen? I should have just stopped him the moment he kissed me and left…
I pushed him again and gained a bit of force to lift him a bit, but his strength won out when he pushed me back down. "Stop" I whimpered but he put his hand from my hip to my face to cover my mouth. I felt his thumb push down under my eye and cried out in pain as he kissed down my jaw line. Finally I pushed him off of me… it was finally over with when he let me go.
My tears were becoming more frantic when I looked back to the mirror and found that thumb print from Mike's force.
*RING RING RING*
I felt like I jumped out of my skin once I heard my cell phone going off…
*RING RING RING*
I ran over towards my night stand and picked up my phone. I didn't recognize the number but picked up anyways
"Hello?" I asked warily
"Bella?" I automatically stopped breathing once I heard his voice. I didn't want to assume it was him… but I would know that voice anywhere.
"Who's this?" I asked nervously
"Um… It's me… Edward" he stumbled with his words. I was afraid to turn around because I knew he would be right there… but I did anyways.
Once I turned around, Edward was standing in front of his window, fidgeting with something in his hands. I didn't walk too far to my window, afraid he would see the bruises.
"Look, I…." he was trying to say something but kept getting flustered. I just stood there waiting patiently
"Are you still on… to meet at our place?" He finally asked.
"I… I don't know Edward" I didn't know if I could go through anymore hurt.
"Please… its… I know you hate me for what I did….but could you just give me a chance… I promise after today I'll leave you alone if you ask" I thought about it for a moment and looked back at the mirror. He couldn't see them… he would kill Mike. I needed Rose to help me…
"Okay" I said "I'll meet with you… at our place" I choked out
I noticed a smile coming up on his perfect face.
"Great... thank you Bella… I… I have to go run some errands and I'll meet you there. Wait! Do you want to drive together or just meet there?" he stumbled again on his words.
"I'll meet you there… I have to get some things taken care of and I'll see you there." I agreed
"Bye Bells" he sighed
"Bye" I said quickly and hung up the phone. I dialed Rose's number immediately.
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I was pacing back and forth in my bedroom waiting for Rose to get here. Charlie was out fishing for the weekend so I was able to have the house to myself… with time also for the bruises to go down.
I found a turtleneck sweater that Alice picked out for me, it would hide the bruises without worrying about covering them up with make up and a pair of loose fitting jeans that didn't rub up against my hips too harshly. I wasn't looking for something fashionable at this moment… I wanted comfort… I wanted to be back to my old self…
"Bella! Didn't you hear me knocking at the door, I've been out there-" I then heard a quick gasp from Rose who stopped dead in her tracks as soon as she made it into my room and saw me.
"Bella… what…" She asked "What the hell did he do to you?" She knew
"It's fine… it isn't as bad as you think" I lied
"Bullshit! Bella… What… did he..?"
"NO! No… he didn't… I stopped him" I said while looking down ashamed I put myself in that situation.
"Good god… Bella… " she gasped when she looked at my next
"I'm fine" I said sternly. I didn't want that pity look… I needed her help. "I need your help. I'm meeting Edward today and I can not let him see this…" I felt the panic pass through my body
"Why the hell not? He needs to know Bella! If he isn't going to kick that fucker's ass, I will!" She freaked
"Rose! No! I will not be telling Edward… and neither are you!" I knew if I didn't she would threaten to tell him
"Fine… but if I see that asshole lay another finger on you…. I'll" she was getting angrier by the moment but calmed down long enough to continue "Bella… you can't keep this to your self for long… it will eat you up"
"And how do you know!" I yelled out in frustration
"Because I've been there!" she yelled back. I stood there shocked for a moment trying to comprehend what she just told me. "I've been there Bella" she whispered and sat down on the edge of my bed.
"Rose… I'm sorry… I had no idea" I told her
"No one does… except for a few people like Emmett. It… it happened during summer break two years ago… when Emmett and I were on a break from one another." She continued to tell me her story about how she started seeing this guy named Royce who was a team helper at the volleyball camp she use to attend. He wanted to do more with her but she didn't feel comfortable having that kind of relationship since she never had sex before… she always thought Emmett would be her first.
"He… Royce took everything from me" A tear started going down her cheek. I sat by her as we held each other for dear life. My hip was burning in pain but I ignored it for the time being. "I became depressed after that and when I came back from camp, Emmett was with another girl and I buried myself too deep" she explained. "Emmett and I hardly spoke when school started but then in October of that year… I started getting reckless and Emmett noticed. He begged me to tell him what happened when my mother wouldn't tell him… and I just did. And I felt like… like that pain I was holding started to disappear. Emmett and I decided to try again and by the end of the year, he went to therapy with me. I still go a few times a month… because of the flashbacks. But telling Emmett was the turning point of it all and I seriously would not know where I would be without him." She smiled. I couldn't keep my own tears from escaping but failed miserably at it.
"Bella… I understand completely why you don't want to tell Edward… or anyone for that matter… but I promise you it will help. So… until then, if you need to talk about it… I'm here" I nodded without any hesitation and closed my eyes to stop myself from sobbing.
"Okay… I promise I'll tell him… but not today." She nodded at my promise and started to help me cover up my bruises with makeup.
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Rose was able to cover up as much as she could and helped me get ready for the day.
"So… what do you think he wants to talk about?" She asked while she was brushing my hair.
"I don't know… but whatever it is he said it was important" I sighed
"Well, I think he is a total stuck up sick, but I guess he's okay. I hung around him because of Emmett and he isn't as bad as I thought he was"
"What was up with you two? Ya'll were at each other's throats ever since he moved here" I laughed for the first time this morning
"It was our first time meeting. His mom and dad were kind of close to my parents in the past and thought it would be cool for us to have a play date together… hoping we would be little soul mates. I hated him the moment he stepped onto the playground when he was whining to his mom that he didn't like girls. I was offended instantly and pushed him off the swing set. We just… our personalities were completely different and couldn't stand the site of each other." I laughed at her confession about the back story of her and Edward. I had always wondered why they were like that, but I guess I would have been offended if that had happened to me.
"I was a bit jealous of you up until the day you invited me to your birthday party" she admitted. I turned around quickly as soon as I heard what she said.
"Why?" I asked
"Because I remembered what he said about not liking girls at all and then a few days later I saw you two playing with each other. I think that's when I had my first case of jealousy that someone didn't want to be my friend" she laughed
"Oh… I'm sorry" I bit my lip
"Bella! I'm not telling you this because I was upset with you. I wasn't upset that you were his friend, I was just confused on what you had that I didn't, because we were both girls. Besides, I was five years old. What do you expect me to think? I didn't know that you two were meant to practically be little soul mates" she stopped when she realized what she said "sorry"
"Rose, it's fine. Edward and I are somewhat talking now… and hopefully after I get my answers today, I'll get over it. I have to…" I shook my head
"Alright, well…. He's an idiot anyways. That's all I'm saying"
"Yeah…. But he was my idiot" I smiled
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"Call me if anything happens!" Rose demanded as I got into my truck.
"I will… I promise." I strapped on my seatbelt "Thanks again Rose… I appreciate it"
"No problem. You let me know everything that happens! I want to know why he is having you drive to meet him when he couldn't come here… one door over, to pick you up" she shook her head
"We both had things to do today Rose, and I would rather drive today… I need that time to think for myself."
"Alright. Well, Alice and I will be planning your birthday for tomorrow and…. Do not give me that look Swan…. You are turning 18 years old tomorrow and we want you to enjoy it"
"Fine" I whined "But no spa's, no presents and definitely no party" I warned her
"Promise" she held her arms up in surrender
"Bye Rose" I laughed and closed my car door and then bringing my car to life.
The drive over to the spot felt almost too familiar for me. It should… considering how many times I've walked there. There were no pathway to the meadow… it felt like it was almost instinct to go there… like it was pulling me there.
I parked to the car on the side of the road and started making my way down in the woods. Everything looked like nothing had changed over the years … but just enough different for me to notice. I had to pull a few limbs out of the way before finally reaching the clearing. I couldn't believe at how beautiful the meadow looked… almost like it left the way it was when I left seven years ago. I walked over towards the middle of the clearing and felt the flood of memories of our childhood. The water hole with the beautiful waterfall was just a bit of a walk from the meadow. I could hear the water trickling from the distance and I let the familiar smell take me over.
"Bella?" I stiffened when I heard him. I was not sure if I should stay and listen to what he had to say…. Or just leave. I could feel his eyes on me from behind….my breathing started to become shallower and quicker than I would like it to be. I decided then… no more hiding. I turned slowly around and found him standing there at the edge of the clearing with his hands in his pockets. He looked so perfect in the sunlight and couldn't keep my eyes off of him…
"Edward" I acknowledged him. His hair looked like his usual disarray with the sunlight bringing out the natural bronze of his hair. I could still see the young copper hair boy in there… his piercing green eyes never changed…
There was an awkward silence between us, neither of us moving and willing to make the first step. This was a place that we could communicate in… a place that we were not interrupted by the outside force that kept us apart… our place. I didn't know how much silence I could take.
I noticed then a basket that he was holding the entire time… a picnic. I smiled when I remembered the picnics we would have as children out here, just two best friends together. This was his piece offering… wanting that little piece back…
"Banana?" I broke the ice. He looked at my confusingly and then smiled when he realized what I meant.
"What else?" he laughed.
"Well… I haven't eaten today." He took the hint and walked over towards the middle of the meadow where I was. He then placed the basket on the ground and started to set everything out, even a blanket for us to sit on. The peace offering was one of his best ideas to start of the day and made my nervousness disappear… more comfortable. As I sat down, I could still feel the stinging on the side of my hips from the bruise.
"You okay?" he noticed
"Yeah" I lied "Um… just hurt from sitting on those benches last night" I laughed
"Oh" was all he would say
"You all did great last night, it was my first time to a football game" I tried to change the subject
"Yeah? Was it fun for you last night?" he asked
"Yeah, except for the banshee squealing from the stands" I laughed. He grimaced at my comment and figured he knew who I was talking about.
"So how long have you and banshee been going?" I asked. His eyes widen and tried to speak a coherent explanation why Tanya was there.
"It's okay Edward, Alice told me she was just here for the night and you pretty much had to take her" I laughed
"Yeah" he laughed nervously "It was either that or they would have stayed all weekend" he explained
"Did you have a good time with Mike last night?" he asked with sadness in his eyes
"I guess" I wanted to be truthful… but I couldn't "he just dropped me off and that's it" I lied.
"So, he didn't try anything on you last night?" I was surprised by his question. I could feel that panic shoot through my body
"I… I really don't want to talk about Mike right now… let's just say there wont be a next date"
"Okay…"
We fell into an other uncomfortable silence as I ate my sandwich.
"Bella… the reason I asked you to come here today… I wanted to….." he started "I wanted to give you something" he looked up at me as he pulled out something from his pocket. It was a folded up paper that looked worn down from years of opening and closing. He handed me the brown looking piece of paper and I looked at him questionably
"What is it?" I asked, unsure if I wanted to know what was on that paper
"It's…. just open it." I pleaded me with his eyes. I took the paper out of his hand and studied it before opening it. The folded up paper looked familiar to me… but couldn't place where I have seen it before.
"Open it Bella" he told me
I opened it slowly and carefully, hoping to not tear the delicate looking paper.
Holy Shit….
My eyes widen at recognition and looked back up at Edward for confirmation. He nodded his head and urged me to read what was on the page…. The page from my journal when I was just eleven years old…
Isabella Marie Swan
August 27, 2002
Dear Diary,
It has been a while since I have written to you, my trusty friend. Summer is just about to end and I can feel the cool air of September coming through. Edward and I have enjoyed our summer together by having picnics at our meadow and swimming in our waterhole. Edward convinced me to jump one day from of the tree branches into the water… I was absolutely terrified that I thought I would pass out from hyperventilating. After some more convincing, I finally jumped and accidently drug him under the water with me. I felt terrible for being such a ninny that he had to promise to catch me… but I wanted him to catch me. … I knew he would. I trust him with everything Diary; he is my light when my world turns into the blackest night… my comfort. I have a secret… a secret I can never tell anyone Diary… only you will know and keep It safe. I've been having weird feelings in my stomach whenever I am around Edward, I can't explain it. It is almost like a hundred butterflies dancing around and I can hardly think straight. I started reading one of my books that my Grandma Marie gave me and never understood exactly why these characters acted so funny when they were around the one they loved…. That was it… they were in love. Am I in love? No… maybe not. He is my best friend, so of course I love him… but could there be something more? I'm only 10 years old Diary and I think I am falling for my best friend! These feelings have been like this since the beginning of summer and I am not sure what to do with them… do I tell him? No… he would find me silly and stop being friends with me… I cherish our friendship.
Well, we are planning my birthday party… I think I am going to tell him…. Or at least try. Wish me luck friend,
Hopelessly confused,
Isabella Marie Swan
I blinked away a few of my tears quickly and looked up at Edward after reading my personal entry from years ago. How did he get this?
"Edward? Where did you get this?' I asked him. He started getting nervous again and ran his hands through his already messy locks.
"I found it" he said quietly "the day of your party" he explained. I looked back down at the paper and couldn't believe that he had it the entire time… the page I have been missing since I left Forks that day. One I thought Tanya had…
I closed my eyes to keep the tears from betraying me and couldn't stop the memories was coming back… ones I kept hidden away all these years.
(FLASHBACK)
I was half way down the steps when I saw Tanya, Irina, Kate, Lauren and Jessica all huddled together giggling. Rose, Angela, Nikki and Ashley were grouped up together telling them to shut up. I was confused about the commotion going on and couldn't find Edward anywhere until he stepped out of the restroom. I was even more confused with the look on his face; It was a mixture of anger, rage with a bit of sadness. I couldn't point out which emotion that was going through him and wasn't sure if I wanted to know with the way he looked at me. I just knew at that moment… everything changed.
"Edward?" I asked nervously. Just then, Mike came walking down the stairs… completing the guest list.
"Everyone's here… let's start the movie" he said with no emotion… almost like it was mechanical. What was going on?
Tanya and the others were still in their giggle fits as I placed the pillows on the ground. Nikki, Ashley, Angela and Rosalie sat on one side of me as the others sat down on my other side… me in the middle. Edward put the movie in and walked over to sit down.
"Eddie! Sit with me!" Tanya asked sweetly. Edward looked annoyed as always whenever she used that fake voice but what surprised me the most… he sat right by her. I just sat there… completely confused on what just happened. Was he mad at me? What did I do? The movie went for the next hour until I heard Esme knocking on the door to let us know she was coming down. Esme even looked confused that the sitting arrangement but decided not to question it.
"Pizza's here kids, lets eat!" Everyone got back quickly and ran upstairs. I waited for Edward and pulled him aside
"Whats going on Edward?" I asked him with worry. This wasn't like him… I felt almost disconnected from him
"Why would there be anything wrong?" he asked coldly
"This isn't you Edward… did I do something?"
"Pizza is getting cold, let's go." He started walking off but stopped suddenly and hunch his shoulders over. Edward turned around and took my hand giving me a small smile; then leading me up stairs so we could eat the pizza. He was a bit nicer… but something was off. My mother was even acting strange when we made it upstairs, almost on edge. I had hopped dad talked her into letting me stay… I couldn't leave Edward. She knew that
After we ate, we all decided to go back downstairs to open up gifts. The grownups already gave me my gifts during dinner.
Edward went back to his bad mood during the process of opening up gifts. I got a few cards with funny pictures inside and a gift card to Wal-Mart. Edward handed me his gift and stepped away from me. I could see Rose glaring at Edward for acting this way while Tanya and other others started their giggle fest again. It was a wrapped up in a manila envelope and really light weight. I took out the contents and found it was a musical piece… on the top it was labeled "Bella's Song" composed by Edward Cullen
I felt my cheeks get hot and my smile widen as I looked at the paper. I looked up at Edward who was fidgeting around.
"Thank you Edward…. You'll play it for me… wont you?" I asked
"Yeah… sure" was all he said
"Hey! I have something better we could do" Tanya called out. I turned to her to object but she eyed her bag that contained my Diary.
"What Tanya?" I asked "What would you like to do?"
"Truth or Dare" She smiled evilly. This was not good….
"Umm… I don't know…" I started
"It's fun! But in this game it's truth's…. and only truths." She smiled wider
"Fine" I knew what she was getting at…. But I was strong.
We all sat around in a circle, waiting for Queen Tanya to set the rules. After learning the rules, Tanya decided she would go first.
"Umm… I will start off with…. Bella" She smiled mischievously "I'll start off with the birthday girl"
"Alright, what's my question?" I acted uninterested
"Do you keep any secrets?" She wouldn't…
"No…" I said immediately
"I think that was a lie Bella… you can't lie in the game" Jessica added
"Fine… yes, I do have some secrets" I lowered my gaze from everyone
"Do you keep them in a book?" She asked
"Tanya that's enough" Edward snapped at her "She answered the question, now let Bella have her turn." I smiled at Edward and gave him a silent thank you.
"Um… okay… Ashley" I chose her because I had no idea what I wanted to ask "What is your favorite book?" I was kind of interested
She was about to answer until Miss. Know it All opened her mouth…
"Boooring!" Tanya yawned "Your not playing it right. Ask a good question" she looked at me, giving me the 'you better do as I say look… I have your Diary hostage'
"Fine! Okay… Ashley… who do you like at our school?"
"Better! I'm interested now" Tanya butted in as usual
"Um.. I don't know… I guess I kind of like Mike?" she blushed. Mike just sat there with a smug look on his face.
"Anyways… um… Jessica" Ashley started "Where did you go this summer?"
"Oh! I went to my Aunt's house in Los Angeles, I was able to meet a lot of actors" she gloated. She didn't even go to California from what I heard my mom say… she really went to an all-girl school camp on how to be a lady.
"Okay… I pick… Tanya" she grinned "What secret have you been holding?" she asked
"I know how Isabella really feels for her best friend… Edward" she grinned at me. I could feel my heart beat go faster and my breathing get shorter.
"Bella! Is that the secret you've been hiding?" Jessica asked
I looked at Edward who had an angry look on his face as he balled his fists tightly.
"I.." I didn't know what to do… do I tell him now? Or let Tanya read it out?
"Does this look familiar Bella?" she asked as she took out my Diary
"Please…. Don't" I begged "Give me my book back Tanya… please!" I walked over towards it.
"Jessica, you missed the best part from earlier" she snickered "I thought it was sweet" she ran with the book and started to recite my personal words…
"he is my light when my world turns into the blackest night… my comfort. I have a secret… a secret I can never tell anyone Diary… only you will know and keep It safe. I've been having weird feelings in my stomach whenever I am around Edward, I can't explain it." She was putting dramatic effects on each work and was finally able to grab the book from her prying hands. She pulled the paper she was reading from out and put it in his pocket. I just stood there… embarrassed on what had just happened…. She set this up…. And I let it happen. I let my insecurities about Edward knowing how I left get in the way and he had to find out the worst way…
Before I could do anything or even look at Edward to see what his reaction was, I heard my mother screaming at my father…. Now I was even more embarrassed.
"Kids" My mom said calmly "Party is over" she sniffed. "Isabella, we are leaving… now"
"NO!" I yelled…. "Mom! I can't! Please!"
"So not yell at me Isabella…. We are leaving and that is final" she said as she walked back upstairs.
"Wow, what a party" Irina commented
I ignored her comment and looked at Edward who seemed hurt at the revelation that I was leaving.
"Edward…." I said walking up to him
"Go Bella" he said as she closed his eyes shut
"What? No! I'm not leaving! I'm going to goto my dad and-"
"Bella… You have to go with your mom…" Edward said slowly.
"NO… I can't Edward" I started to tear up "I can't leave you…"
"I… I don't want you.. I… I hate you…" he whispered "Nobody wants you here" he glared at me
I just stood there in disbelief… my Edward… my bestfriend said he hated me… he didn't want me.
"What?" I choked out. I could hear murmurings of everyone talking but couldn't understand what was said.
"Bella… please" he closed his eyes tightly, pleading for me to just leave…. Not to ask him anymore
"I…" I was going to protest
"ISABELLA! WE ARE LEAVING NOW! SAY GOODBYE!" I heard my mother yell out
"Go Isabella" Tanya teased "You heard Eddie… its time for you to leave" she smiled. I wanted to scream, kick, yell, cry, hit… something…
She put her arm into Edward's and grinned widely
"I hate you Edward Cullen…" I said and ran up the stairs to get out of here…. I couldn't stay… not anymore. I grabbed my coat and gave my father a big hug.
"Bye Kiddo.. I love you so much!" my dad cried "I'll get you back baby… we will work this out" I simply nodded and then turned to Esme. She looked so sad that she was in stuck in the middle of this situation.
"Bye sweet heart" she hugged me tightly "We love you, both Edward and I do… we love you so much!" I cried out as she told me this… she didn't know Edward hated me now… for reason's I don't know…
"I love you too" I told her… because I did… I didn't hate Edward… I was just angry, hurt.
"Isabella… it's time to go" My mother said softly and took my hand. We went straight for the car and she loaded me up in the back. I looked out the window as we drove off towards the main road. Next thing I knew, Edward was running towards us to catch up. I smiled brightly thinking I could talk to him one last time, but Esme caught up with him and held him as he fought to get out of her grips. He gave up finally and looked towards the moving car… as he got smaller and smaller.
"This is for the best Isabella" My mom reassured me "You'll make new friends baby. You'll love Arizona…. It is sunny everyday… not a bit of rain like here."
But I loved the rain…. And Edward.
(End Flashback)
I opened my eyes and gazed it back on the piece of paper. I haven't thought about that day in so long… but yet one piece of paper changed that. I felt my heart rip open more than before…
"Why did you hate me Edward?" I finally asked him as I looked up at him through my lashes. "What did I do that day to make you… hate me?" I felt the hot tears rolling down my face, unable to keep them in any longer. He just stared at me for a moment, contemplating on what to day…
"I didn't hate you Bella" he said quietly, looking straight into my eyes. "I never hated you…"
"Then… why? Why did you say it?" I was confused
"There is a lot you don't know…. Things that happened that day Bella. I didn't want to… I hated myself since that day…"
"What kind of thing's happen?" I kept my gaze on his eyes.
*Okay… stopping it here. No worries! At least you now know the big Birthday Fiasco! Up next is Edward's POV…
Why do yall think he was acting the way he did?
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I have the next chapter halfway finished, so it wont be long till that comes out.
Oh, and apologies for any grammer problems or dialect problems. I am southern, so I sometimes put my own dialect while writing, so you might see a few "Ya'lls" or "Fixen to" I know… it's a habit I have as I write.
Don't forget my other story that I have been working on: Vision's of You
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