Shattered Illusions

Summary: Yamato ran away from a past full of pain and suffering. Then, he met Taichi- a stunning image of beauty. But then, any illusion, including the most stunning, can be shattered by the smallest whisper of emotion

D-Angel: Ok, so I lied. It took me a lot longer than 7 months to update this... A year and six months in fact. But you guys can forgive me and I can get back on track with this story! Now, this chapter is pretty much a filler chapter, although it is necessary and as important as all the rest. So please, sit back and enjoy a chapter with hardly any angst :)

Warnings: Sexual content, oh yes

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Chapter 9- Existentialism

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"Oh my God! I love funfairs!" Tai exclaimed as he rushed forward into a bustling crowd of old and young people alike. Matt sighed under his breath before he chased after the energetic brunette.

After pushing his way through the crowd, Tai's eyes widened at the sight. Colourful flashing neon lights swirled around stalls with fun looking games and tall rides; including a dilapidated rollercoaster and a humungous Ferris wheel which Tai promptly pointed his finger at. Matt turned deathly pale.

Loud pop and techno music was blasting from various hidden speakers around the venue. Tai bopped his head along the beat while Matt chuckled inwardly. The brunette was entertaining at the best of times.

"Nii-chan!"

Kari was a few paces in front of them with Daisuke. She wiggled through the crowd and rushed up to Tai, before she wrapped her arms around him tightly. Daisuke tried to wave at Tai and Matt, although he had great difficulty since he had a giant cat shaped soft toy cradled in his arms. Kari laughed while she gestured towards the toy, as if Matt and Tai had not already noticed it.

"Dai won me it."

"My basketball skills paid off," Daisuke boasted while he mimed slam dunking the stuffed animal into an imaginary hoop. Tai smirked. He hooked his arm around Matt's.

"Good job."

Daisuke grinned.

"Well, we won't keep you; especially while knowing how long the queues are starting to get," Kari said while sliding an arm around Daisuke's waist.

"Aw, ok," Tai softly said while his eyes darted between the young couple, "stay safe, I'll phone you later."

"Kari's safe with me," Daisuke reassured as he placed his arm around Kari's shoulders, but had to quickly remove it when the soft toy almost fell from his remaining arm.

"Look after my brother, Yamato," Kari giggled. Matt nodded. Tai watched for a moments while Daisuke walked off with Kari before he nudged Matt's hip.

"Lets make the most out of these rides then."

First they went on the waltzers. Matt was quiet throughout the entire ride, although Tai was too busy whooping and cheering to notice. It was not until they had stepped off the ride that Tai realized Matt had turned slightly green.

"Yama, are you ok?" Tai asked, just before Matt was sick into a nearby bin. Tai rubbed Matt's back while they queued up in the food line to get a bottle of water. Matt sighed and shook his head.

"I've ruined our date already."

Tai laced his fingers with Matt's.

"Relax," Tai glanced over at one of the game stands. "Hey, I'll win you a toy later."

Half an hour passed and Matt was sat besides Tai on a bench while he sipped on his bottle of water. Tai was staring in awe at the giant Ferris wheel, although he was convinced Matt probably would not be able to stomach it.

"How are you feeling?"

"Mmm, still a little queasy."

Tai placed an arm around Matt's waist.

"Shall we head back?" Tai breezed into Matt's ear. He shuddered as the brunette's breath teased his earlobe, and caused his heart to start pounding heavily against his chest. Suddenly, he didn't feel sick anymore. He knew what Taichi was implicating, the thought of which made him grow excited.

They hurried back to the car park and Matt drove them back to their University halls of residence.

'Put your hand in my hand

Let me show you the way'

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They staggered into Tai's dormitory room just after the clock turned ten. Matt shut the door but did not turn on the light switch. Tai pulled off his trainers before he shimmied over to his bed and sat down on the edge of the mattress. He could just about make out Matt's silhouette on the other side of the room, and he was partially curious as to why the blond haired teenager was just standing there.

Tai chuckled feverishly as he fell backwards onto the bed, his t-shirt riding up above his navel slightly while he shuffled back to prop his head on the pillows. Matt kicked off his shoes and socks before padding over to the bed, as best he could in the darkened room. He sat down and leant over Tai's clothed body before he slid a tongue against his lower lip.

Tai's heart started to drum furiously against his chest. He had never slept with another man before, and he had only slept with one girl in his entire twenty (well almost) years of his life. Tai rolled onto his side when Matt stretched himself out on the bed. Matt turned and faced Tai, who had a hand resting on his cheek. The brunette gasped under his breath as Matt snaked his arms tightly around his waist and pulled his body closer towards his, before eagerly pressing their lips together.

Soon, Tai's t-shirt was on the floor. Matt gently massaged his shoulders as they kissed passionately. Tai shivered at the electrifying sensation he received every time Matt applied pressure with his fingertips to the back of his neck.

"Feels, good," Tai panted as Matt started to plant kisses along his collarbone.

It was not long until Tai was naked and sighing softly while Matt's hands caressed his burning hot flesh.

"You have such an amazing body," Matt breezed into Tai's ear while he slipped a hand down the brunette's stomach and in between his toned thighs. Tai closed his eyes tightly and tried to muffle the moan that attempted to escape from his lips. Matt nibbled on Tai's earlobe while his hand ran up and down the brunette's hardened length. Matt was amused when Tai started to move his hips in a circular motion, to encourage him to speed up his pace.

Tai was at the point of breaking, Matt's touch was driving him crazy and he could no longer hold back his urges.

"I want it, Yama," Tai stated seriously, his brown eyes trembling with lust. It was all Matt had to hear to know that he had permission to take charge. Matt traced a hand over Tai's toned buttocks while he locked their lips together for a few moments.

Tai shivered when Matt slid a finger into his lower entrance, it felt surprisingly enjoyable. It was apparent that Matt was very experienced as he slipped in another finger and continued to stroke his inner walls. Tai was wiggling about on the bed while small gasps emitted from his trembling lips. He sighed in disappointment as Matt withdrew his fingers.

Matt leant over to the side of his bed to search for his wallet inside his jeans, and soon climbed back onto the bed with a wrapped condom between his teeth. He preferred not to use condoms, but with it being Tai's first time, he didn't want to take any risks. He slid the condom over his erection while Tai watched like a naïve schoolgirl. Just as the brunette was about to roll over onto his stomach, Matt grabbed him by his wrists and kept him pinned on his back.

"Stay like this," Matt instructed, licking his lips as Tai stared up at him through nervous eyes. The blond shuffled forward into position.

"I'm going slowly so I don't hurt you," Matt whispered as he pressed the head of his erection up against Tai's entrance. The brunette mewled in pleasure and anticipation. Matt placed one hand on Tai's hip as he slid into him, a small grunt escaping from his own lips. The brunette was tight, a lot tighter than any guy he had ever had sex with.

"How is it?" Matt asked as he looked down at his boyfriend who was wincing.

"Hurts a little," Tai said as a couple of tears slipped down his cheeks. Matt laced his fingers with Tai's and then asked the brunette to sit up. Now Tai was sitting upright on Matt's lap, his chin resting on the blond haired teen's shoulder.

"I'm all the way in now," Matt informed, "all you have to do is sit and relax while I do all the work."

Tai nodded his head and held Matt's hand tighter. The blond started to thrust his hips upwards before lowering them in a continuous pattern, panting as his erection slid back and forth Tai's tight walls. Tai bit down on his lower lip as an uncomfortable pain plagued his body for a couple of minutes. Matt stopped occasionally just so Tai could grow accustomed to the foreign sensations, and to make sure he did not hurt him.

"What do you want me to do?" Matt asked as he gazed down at Tai, "I can stop if you'd like…"

Tai shook his head.

"Go crazy."

Matt smiled. He laced his fingers with Tai's and pushed in deeper, quickening his previous motion. Tai kept his eyes shut tightly as he body started to slide back and forth against the bed covers while Matt rocked his body to and fro. A loud moan fell from Tai's parted lips as Matt wrapped a hand around his erection.

"Keep making those sounds," Matt whispered while he lifted one of Tai's legs over his shoulder while he maintained the same pace. Tai's hands gripped the onto the bed covers while he shivered with ecstasy. With every stroke he could feel himself growing closer towards the point of release, yet he did not want the moment to ever end. He could have quite happily died with Matt fuelling his sexual desires.

Tai had hit the point of no return, he could not hold back any longer. He panted and moaned vociferously as he reached his climax, his seed coating his stomach and Matt's hand. The blond continued to rock his body back and forth, only a lot more vigorously. He dug his nails into Tai's skin as he reached his peak while he arched his body backwards, strands of his damp hair swished from side to side as a long sigh emitted from his parted lips. Tai thought it was a beautiful sight.

Matt collapsed onto Tai's sweat covered body, still breathing heavily, and still inside the brunette. Tai's heart turned to jelly when Matt held him close and whispered how much he loved him. During that instance, all their worries and anxieties were forgotten. All that mattered was that they were together, and nothing could tear them apart.

Tai was first to fall asleep. Matt watched him until he also fell into a state of sleep with his arms wrapped around Tai's waist from behind. He had missed having a warm body to hold at night.

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Upon waking in the morning, Tai turned around and found the space next to him was once again cold and empty.

Song Lyrics:

"The Way" by Divine Inspiration

D-Angel: Yeah, sorry if the first part of the chapter seemed rushed… I had a great scene in mind where Matt and Tai happily frolicked about on the funfair rides, like one of those super happy montages you get in romantic films (or like in the music video for 'The Way'), but it didn't quite turn out that way. I was probably just too keen to get into writing the sex scene, lol. Been a while since I've written a proper lemon too, surprisingly.
So, yes, next chapter will most likely be up in early 2009, since I have way too much university coursework to actually focus heavily on my fanfiction (up until the end of January anyways). Also, things will go back to being all angsty, but of course I'll add a bit of fluff and smut.

Hope you enjoyed this filler chapter anyways. Thanks for your patience and all your wonderful reviews so far! Much love.
I shall see you next chapter!

P.S. Let me know if you spot any spelling/grammar mistakes... I often miss them :(

D-Angel
29/11/08