This is three weeks after Tobi's first fight with Itachi, the weapons fight was postponed till Tobi was better and not depressed. Any way, this chapter is in paragraphs too. I know, a shocker. And it will be really really long
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~Tobi's POV~
I was back at my house in the little village that me and my siblings used to live in. the small four bedroom house. It was the day after my sister ran away.
I watched as I saw myself enter my bedroom, I was 5 again. The wonderful year of innocence. The younger me didn't notice me, she went straight to a Barbie doll that my sister Cho had given me right before she ran away, and started playing with it.
The younger me was humming; it was a song my mom used to sing all the time when I was that age. I softly sang along.
You are my sunshine
My only sunshine
You keep me happy
When skis are grey
You'll never know dear
How much I love you
If you take my sunshine away.
Knock, Knock, Knock. I knew that knock, and I started panicking as the younger me said in the high voice that I used to have "Come in." Then the teen Orochimaru and his assistant Kabuto, walked through the door.
"Excuse me, but you must be Konton." Hearing the name I was given at birth brought back loads of memories, "Your mother told me to come and get you so you could help her entertain us." He walked over to the younger me and reached out his hand.
I started shouting warnings at her but she didn't hear me, she grabbed his hand smiling "Okay, mister." He led her out the door, and I followed.
Instead of walking into the living room, he led me out the front door and into the middle of the clan compound. Every one I ever knew at that age was standing around with looks of fear on their faces. I looked confused, until one my cousin Osanago yelled "Run Koko, Run!" I watched as I tried to run not able to do anything, but I was caught by the teen.
"I cant Osa, he wont let me!" The younger me struggled against the arms of the older teen.
Just then, he stepped out, he looked the younger me over with cold yellow eyes. There was nothing but fear on the five year olds face. "Hmmmmmmmmm, how interesting………" I had no idea what he was talking about, neither when I was that old nor now. "We'll just have to coax her out of the shell now wont we?" He walked over to my cousin, Osanago, and stabbed her through the stomach. She turned pale as she slowly bled to death. Then he went over to her brother and used some sort of fire jutsu on him, and he slowly burned to death.
As he approached my mother with a long dull sword, I screamed. I had no recollection of this because I blacked out, but I watched as a red hourglass in a white diamond in a black square appeared on my fore head, only I noticed because it was me and I saw it through the hair that always hung down over my face. The younger me hung her head down, as if in sorrow, but a few seconds after he stabbed my mother, the teen restraining her was engulfed by bright blue flames. Said flames engulfed the tiny body that was once my own as she walked over to my family with a sorrowful face and said, "I'm sorry, but it is better to die quick and painless at my hands then to be tortured before you die at his." With that I watched as a large tsunami came out of the ground with crushing force that killed all my family. There was nothing little and immature about this girl now, as she took a fighting stance and looked at Orochimaru. "You didn't come here just to make me kill all my family now did you? You came here for something else."
"You're right little girl, I didn't come here just to make you kill your family, although that was useful, but now that it seems you're ready to fight me, I guess I have to use something that I reserved only if you got out of hand." I felt, and watched, a thin katana get shoved through my stomach from behind.
The younger me looked down and smiled, "Good planning." We both fell to our knees at the same time, but right as my head was about to hit the floor I woke up with a jolt.
I lifted the hem of the baggy shirt I was wearing to look at a scar that I had always had but never knew how it got there. It was still there, in the middle of my stomach. Paler than my skin, which was saying something.
"I'm sorry you had to see that…" my imagination, Chaos, said to me sorrowfully.
"Who was that?" I asked, though I knew the answer, I didn't want to believe it.
"That was you." She replied. "I hid that away from you and made you think that Orochimaru killed your clan, because at that age, you wouldn't be able to handle the information."
"But why do you show it to me now?"
"Because you need to know. You can't go around hating yourself for it; you did it so your family wouldn't have to suffer. You knew that Orochimaru wouldn't just take you and leave your family alive, he would have killed them any way, made them suffer, tortured them. You let them have a quick peaceful death."
I started crying. The song my mother used to sing when I was young was going through my head. I felt a warm body next to me when they woke up to the sound of my sobbing. "Tobi, what happened? What's wrong?
Warai was lying next to me that made me feel better. I turned and sobbed into his chest. He held me tight and tried to soothe me, but right then nothing would soothe me. I killed my mom, my dad, my cousins….if my brothers and sisters had been there I would have killed them too.
I stopped crying and just sat there being held by Warai. I was in the fetal position and my legs were starting to ach, but I just sat there.
After a five minute silence, Warai spoke, "You must be uncomfortable." I shook my head like a disobedient child.
He laughed, "You're uncomfortable I know." He turned me around and straightened out my legs. It was better. He held me closer to him. "You know, I will always be here for you, right?" I nodded, and snuggled closer to him. "You act like your dead, you know that. Like some one took the hyper, happy, wonderful girl I was going out with and killed her. I want you back, not your shell, I want you! I want to help you be happy, but I cant if I don't know what's wrong."
"You'll hate me if I told you." I was just whispering. I was surprised he could hear me to respond.
"I could never hate you." With that he turned me around and kissed me passionately. "I'm with you no matter what."
"Do you really want to know?" I looked him straight in the eyes, I noticed how much they looked like Hershey's chocolate right then, and I zoned out. I jumped when he answered
"Yes, I want to help."
"I just found out that Orochimaru didn't kill my clan, but I did."
I waited for him to respond. After 78 seconds, he replied. "At least they went painlessly."
I looked up and saw he was smiling softly, "Your not repulsed?" I asked.
"I said I was with you no matter what, right?" He kissed me again, but this time it didn't end so soon….
I woke up to the sound of my alarm clock and remember what had happened during the night. I looked over to see that Warai was still asleep, I smiled. He looked so peaceful. The only thing I didn't like about him sleeping was that I couldn't see his eyes. But he looked so angelic.
I was knocked out of my reverie by a soft tapping at my door. I turned to face it, "Come in." I sang softly.
My friend Ronan stepped in, "Morning to-…!!!" She stopped short as she noticed all the clothes on the floor, "What the fucking hell did you two do?!?!" She yelled.
"Shhhhhhhhh!" I shushed her before she woke up Warai, or alerted my uncle. "Do you want me to die?!"
"But you and him……..duuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuude…..!"
"You're going to wake him up!" I looked over at Warai but it was too late, his chocolate brown eyes where open and staring at Ronan.
"What are you doing in here?" He demanded.
"Hey, I thought all you did was sleep in the same bed as her to keep her from waking up and killing herself, I didn't know you fucked her!" Ronan's eyes kept switching back and forth between me and Warai, and then they flickered down to his abbs. "Duuuuuuuuuuuuude…..now I know why you like him Tobi….."
I blushed at that comment, when Asagi walked through the door shouting "Are you awake to-…..HOLY SHIT! MY EYES! I DID NOT WANT TO SEE THAT MUCH!" Asagi covered her eyes and started wandering around the room blindly.
"Shhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!" I shushed again, "My uncle will kill me if he found out!"
Warai blushed and mumbled something about having to take a shower. He wrapped the sheet around himself and walked to the nearest bathroom.
As soon as every one heard the water turn on, Asagi and Ronan started asking me questions like they were my parents or something. "Guys we're not stupid, and I can't get pregnant." I said to them, not wanting to hear any more uncomfortable questions.
"Why not?" Asagi asked.
"It's obvious," Ronan answered for me, "She's taken to many injuries to the stomach."
"Oooooooooooh…..that's sad." Asagi looked down in sorrow.
Ronan and I just stared in silence at her waiting for an explanation, but we didn't get any.
Warai walked out in a towel then looked at Ronan and Asagi, "May you guys please get out?"
"Why?" Asagi looked questioningly at Warai then said, "Oh."
Ronan and Asagi both exited the room. Warai walked over to me, "Morning, babe."
"You've never called me babe before." I looked at him wondering what was up.
"There's a first for every thing." he replied while kissing me softly on the lips.
"Like last night." I winked at him and he smiled mischievously.
"You might want to take a shower." He looked me over, I turned my head and looked in my closet mirror.
My hair was a mess and I had 2 hickeys on my neck. "This is going to be fun to keep from ojisan." I whispered.
"Who said you had to keep it from him?"
"Do you want to die?" my uncle had never lost a battle.
"I can protect my self."
"Not against him." I was not going to let my boyfriend fight my uncle. Never.
"You don't own any turtle necks." he reminded me.
"Fine you win." I looked down and put on my best puppy dog face.
He looked at my face then laughed, "Go take a shower."
"Not unless you come with me." I was going to be stubborn about it.
"Only if you want me to." He picked me up and carried me over to the shower.
Two wonderful, lovely hours later, we both walked out of the bathroom. I walked to my closet and grabbed some clothes and started getting dressed. Warai did the same thing, except he had clothes in a bag on the floor near the door. My outfit was very normal and consisted of dark blue jeans, a black lacy tank top, and a blood red long sleeved shirt. I put on a black vest over it. It had become very cold with out Warai, holding me. I was brushing my wet hair into my signature pony tail that I always wore, when Warai walked up behind me and started brushing my hair so it was down.
"You could leave your hair down for once." He said while combing his fingers through my hair.
"But I like it up." I stated turning around and looking into his eyes again, while hugging his waist.
"C'mon, leave it down, just for today?" He put on puppy dog eyes, and I just couldn't resist.
"Fine," I said submitting, "Have it your way." I shook my head and water flew all around us, and just floated their, then spread out and made a thin bubble around us… the bubble then formed into a heart.
He smiled and kissed me again, "You're back to normal, right?" he asked seriously concerned.
"Yep, and there is nothing you can do about it." I stuck my tongue playfully and he smiled, I gave him a big grin.
"Good." He tapped me on the nose, and we walked out of my bedroom hand in hand.
We arrived in the living room and saw Deidara and Ronan snuggled up on the couch watching some bloody movie full of explosions. I signaled to Warai to be silent, and I snuck up behind them. I hid behind the couch and when Deidara went to kiss Ronan I jumped up and yelled "PEDIPHILE!!"
They both jumped and ended up kissing any way. "My work here is done." I pretended to dust my hands off while smiling.
Deidara started yelling at me about being annoying but I didn't listen, Ronan jumped up and hugged me shouting, "SHE'S BACK SHE'S BACK SHE'S BACK!"
"IT BURNS!!!" I said a little mellow dramatic, but she just hugged me tighter.
"What do you mean she's back? I was enjoying the silence." Deidara looked at me with sad little puppy eyes.
"Don't cry to me, she's your girlfriend," I said pointing to Ronan.
Ronan blushed, "No I'm not."
"Dude, you guys were just about to kiss." I said looking at them, they both blushed. "You are going out, aren't you?" I said suddenly excited. "How long, and how did it start?"
"What's the chance you'll just walk away, and leave this alone?" Asks Ronan, already knowing the answer.
"Hmmm….Slim to none. I'll keep it secret, like you guys were. I swear!" I looked at them with the biggest roundest eyes I could muster, with out creeping every one out.
"Fine, you know when you went all emo for a few weeks?" Ronan asked me.
"I would rather not talk about it." I said apologetically.
"Well on about the fourth day, he saw how depressed your depression was making me, and comforted me, and one thing let to another and we ended up-"
I cut her off, "YOU DIDN'T! DID YOU? YOU CAN'T HAVE! YOU'RE THE ROLE MODLE IN THIS GROUP!"
"Tobi, what ever perverted idea is going through your mind we (probably) didn't do it, if you let me finish the sentence was 'and we ended up going out,'"
"Oh," I let out a sigh, "That's good, cause then that means I'm the first one in this group of outcasts that-," Ronan covered my mouth not wanting me to say any more.
"TOBI! We do not need to hear what you and Warai did last night!"
"I wasn't going to tell any one that, I was going to say that I was the first to have a caffeine addiction."
Every one look at me like I was crazy, which maybe I was. I do talk to insane homicidal triplets that only I can hear and see, but we're getting off the subject. "I'm going to go eat breakfast, I'm starving."
"You haven't eaten for three weeks, of course you're hungry." Ronan pointed out. Every one just found out that instead of eating like a pig when I got depressed, I starved myself. It was mostly because I wasn't hungry, so I didn't eat. But again we are getting off subject.
Itachi walked through the door of the living room, and tapped me on the shoulder. "Um, Tobi….leader-san says I need to say sorry to you and give you an apology smoothie."
He held out an "aloha pineapple" smoothie from jamba juice. "What additive did they put into it?" I asked secretly crossing my fingers for Green Caffeine.
"Um….green caffeine." I grabbed the smoothie and started drinking it, it was cold and made me shudder, but I drank it anyway. It hurt when the smoothie hit my empty stomach.
"What's for breakfast?" I asked while sucking on the straw to the smoothie.
"What ever you're cooking," replied Kisame, who had just walked in.
I stepped right up to him and dragged his head down so I could look him in the eye, with a stern voice and cold eyes I threatened him, "If you don't make me breakfast, I'll be cooking dinner, and I will be sure to get one of you're dear siblings and fillet` them and cook them in a stir-fry and force you to eat it!"
"Okay, I'll make you breakfast! What are you PMSing?"
"No, I just don't like it when people use my mom's catch phrases." it made me depressed and I had to either fake a smile and deal with it, or get people to shut up and never say it again. Usually I chose the ladder.
"Then we need a list of he catch phrases." Itachi looked really bored while he said that. He was the person I hung out most with, besides Warai, when I get depressed. Mostly because he doesn't talk, and he doesn't ask a lot of questions. He just sat there.
"I'll post them tonight, when I carve them on your skin weasel-kun!" I shouted after him as he and Kisame left to the kitchen. He just flipped me off. "Fuck you too!" I told him.
"Tobi no need for language like that." Warai was still holding my hand.
"What?" I put on an innocent look. Warai laughed again, "Lets go eat breakfast." I said a bit enthusiastically.
"You're back!" Ronan shouted again.
"Of course I'm back. I couldn't leave you all here with out me, now could I?" I was genuinely happy today.
"You have no idea what its like with out a hyper Tobi, it was scary. You could have like 80 cups of coffee, and all that would happen was your hand would start twitching, but your face….it just stayed on one emotion. It was scary." Ronan must have really missed it when I was hyper. But she would know about being depressed more than me, it was usually her in the emo corner.
"Don't ever do that to us again." Warai said exasperated, "Especially to me, I was lonely with out you."
"In many more ways than one." Ronan smirked a perverted mischievous smirk.
"Do I even want to know?" I looked between them.
"No you don't, but it involved his hand, a microwave grapefruit, and some butter." I really did not want to know.
"Okaaaaaaaaaaaay….I do not want to hear the details."
"Lets just go eat breakfast, you need your strength if your going to fight Itachi tonight." Warai said, blushing while trying to divert attention from him to food.
"Okay. I'm still starving."
My stomach growled again. "Time for food before you kill any one." Warai pulled me by the hand toward the kitchen.
"I'm really hungry." I said once we entered the kitchen. I was shoved into a chair as Kisame was finishing up making some sort of waffle batter like substance, "What you making?"
"Ummmmm," Kisame looked at the kitchen in general as he was trying to figure out what he's making, "Pancakes?"
"What type of pancakes?"
"Crapes."
"I'll eat those, because they don't look like pancake pancakes." Hidan then walks into the kitchen.
"What the hell is for breakfast? Oh hey Tobi." he noticed me, "Your, um, alive agai- what the fuck are those on your neck!!" he semi yelled.
"They're, um," I racked my brain for a decent lie to tell him, "They're bruises."
"Bull shit, that's a hickey and you know it," he smiled evilly, "I'm going to tell leader-sama! Maybe he'll let me sacrifice the heathen who deflowered you…." Hidan's voice trailed off.
~gosh, Hidan is a jackass~ I thought, "Hidan if you even touch him I will murder you," I said with a very serious look on my face.
"Like you could, I'm immortal, bitch."
"I know that, I've just always wondered what would happen if I cut your head off and burned your body," He looked at me as I said that.
"I've wondered that too, you want to go see what would happen?" Ronan asked the rest of the room.
"Ya! Any one want to come too?" I said as Ronan and I smile mischievously at him.