"You will do foolish things, but do them with enthusiasm." - Colette

October went by fast it seemed, the air got colder and the leaves fell quickly. Our first DA meeting went well and Halloween was the same as always with the celebration feast full of candy, floating pumpkins and bats flying around.

Now November has started and it was freezing outside with the absence of snow which I believe coldness without snow is un-necessary. But luckily I had a tall red haired boy's arm around me keeping me warm as we headed down to the quidditch pitch. I wasn't worried about my brother since he would be getting ready for the game against Gryffindor. Sadly the arm around me most likely didn't mean the same to him as it did to me or if it did we were both too stupid to admit our feelings as Ali would tell me almost every day of my life She insisted upon Ron liking me and I being too thick headed to notice. Which is true for the most part.

"So Hagrid is back?" I looked up at Ron trying to break the silence that wasn't awkward but I constantly wanted to talk to him.

"Yeah we visited him earlier" Ron smiled "He is a mess though, all banged up with cuts oozing weird stuff" he grimaced

I laughed "I'm glad he is ok at least"

"Me too, so are you going to sit with me and Hermione?" Ron's eyes lit up with hope

"Only if you keep me warm" I smiled

"It's a deal then, where is Ali anyhow?" He asked looking around realizing Ali was actually not by my side.

"She went down early with Draco, not sure where she is sitting" I said now thinking if she mentioned anything before she ran off to meet my brother after breakfast.

"So your all mine?" He looked down at me with a huge smile

"It seems to be that way" I grinned and he hugged his arm tighter around me.

The match started off well but took a turn for the worse, for the very worse. I stood in shock and horror as the events un-rolled. Ron had stood frozen, his hands in tight fists and Hermione started to run down to the field where the fighting had started.

Harry, Fred and George had been banned from Quidditch, their brooms were even taken away and locked up. I didn't believe that horrible short pig like women could do such a thing. She was a Bitch. Worst of all I had to hear my brother gloat about it. I almost punched him in the face the next day.

My arm was raised and everything, Ali had to hold me back. My brother was in shock and confused for he had no idea why I wanted to hit him. I never tried to hit him before, maybe a slap here and there but nothing hard. He normally deserved it when he said something rude and un-called for.

The good thing was Hagrid was back to teaching Care of Magical Creatures. Which made Harry in a better mood when we had class. Also the fact I almost punched my brother in the face amused both Harry and Ron. Hermione even seemed a little impressed.

I got excited because we were learning about thestrals. Which I never really mentioned to anyone I could see the black skeleton horses with wings that pulled the carriages up to the school. I was never one to want to talk about it or have the other kids look at me confused since most others couldn't see them.

I was happy to see that Harry and Nevil could see them too even though none of us mentioned our stories on what happened to us to be able to see them. Harry's seemed obvious to me though, he did see Cedric die the year before after all.

"So you can see those things?" Ron asked me after class as we trudged up to the castle for lunch

"Yeah" I said wanting to not start this topic

"So you saw someone die?" His face held such a curious cute expression but it didn't change the fact that this topic was off limits to me

"Yeah, but I'm not telling you anything about it" I had slight aggravation seeping in my voice

"You know, you can talk to me about anything if you have to" Ron had stopped me and placed both of his hands on either side of my arms, his voice was now sincere and his blue eyes concerned.

He basically made me melt inside and it truly was not fair at all.

"I know, it was just something that happened when I was very young and don't like to bring up the thought of it" I sighed

Ron wrapped his arms around me, saying nothing but just hugged me for the longest time. It made me feel safe and secure. It made me smile. He let go and looked down at me with a slight grin.

"Thanks" I whispered

"For what?" He lifted his eyebrows

"For being sweet" I smiled and started back up towards the castle, Ron following a few steps behind me.

I tried to block out the thought that night when I was trying to fall asleep but it wouldn't go away. It wasn't Ron's fault, it was more so just the class in general even though I loved the lesson. I couldn't block out the menacing flash of green light or the body falling to the ground.

I hadn't known the person who had fallen, and turned lifeless. I hardly understood what happened at first, being so young death didn't comprehend to my mind right away. No one could explain what happened to me right away either. I was hiding in the closet, no one knew I was there. Draco had been the one to explain it to me after I told him what happened after a week. He kept bugging me and asking what was wrong.

It was strange for a little four year old girl to not want to go out and play or get in trouble with her brother. Which made him convince me to tell him. It had helped after he comforted me and explained what happened and went about how he would keep me safe forever where nothing like that could ever happen to me.

And my brother definitely took his job in protecting me very seriously. Hence why having a boyfriend was so hard. I was surprised he didn't insist I was put in Slytherin just so he could keep an eye on me. Or maybe he did do that. Sounds like something Draco would try to do.

The thoughts of my brother gladly kept my mind off others things and let my mind ease and fall asleep eventually.