Authors note: Alright peeps here is an update for you. Hope you like it.

John sat walking around the house trying to clean it up. It was the only thing that he could do to keep from getting into his jeep and going over to her house and making love to her. He should have ran after her but he was trying so hard to understand her side of the story and not be selfish. It may be one of the hardest things he has ever done. He had never wanted anything more in his life than how he wanted her. Maybe he should call her just to make sure that she was home. But who was he kidding all he wanted was to here the sound of her voice. To here her laughter ring in his ears all night. Walking upstairs he pulled out his ringing cell phone and saw that it was Tim. Taking a deep breath he picked up," What's up bro?"

"Not much. Just taking a break from all this work I have to do. Wanted to see what you were up to."

"Nothing, just getting ready to crash."

"That's cool. How is everyone?" Tim asked.

"Good, just doing their own thing. Keeping busy. It's been a little depressing without you."

"Yeah I hear that." Tim agreed.

Than they both stopped talking for what seemed to be almost an hour. "Alright dude well I guess I'll call you later." John broke the silence not being able to handle it anymore.

"Alright. Sounds good. But, John."

"What's up?"

"How's Lindsey doing?" Tim sputtered out.

"She's all right I guess. We really haven't seen much of her but that's just because she's been working." John spoke quickly trying to ignore the feeling of his stomach dropping. Tim had every right to ask after all he was falling for her pretty fast before he left.

"Well that's good. All right. Tell everyone I said hi and I miss them." Tim spoke softly.

"Okay. Take care and I'll talk to you soon." John hung up the phone. Running his hands through his hair he sat down on his bed sighing trying to make himself regret what he was doing. But he just couldn't. He was in love with her and that's all there was to it. Tim would understand in the end.

The next day….

Lindsey sat on her couch trying to concentrate on the work before. She had deliberately packed extra work for herself so that she could do something other than sitting around the house moping and thinking about Tim and John. But now she had extra work and was sitting around moping. Wow she just couldn't get a break lately. She wondered what Tim was doing right now at this very moment. Was he thinking about her? Did he want to call her? She wanted to call him even if she got voicemail it would be nice to hear his voice. Than there was John who was trying so damn hard to convince her that he was in love with her. But she could never really trust much of what he said. Hearing a knock on the door she stood up and walked over looking through the peephole. Shit it was John. Taking a deep breath she opened the door and stared at him.

"Can I come in?" He smiled.

"I'd rather you not but you don't seem to listen well." Lindsey smirked stepping aside.

"I know that things last night started to get intense and I understand that you are dealing with a lot right now. Lindsey I really am trying to understand and be patient. But you also to need to do the same for me. It's very important that you see where I'm coming from." John stared at her.

"That's fine. You are allowed your own opinion. But try not to expect too much from me because you treated me like shit for the longest time. And I just didn't do anything to deserve it."

"I can't make excuses for that and I don't really understand why I did it. Some people think it was because that's how long I've loved you." John tried to ignore the fact that she flinched when he said the word love.

"You also have to understand that I was starting to fall for someone and you basically came in and tried to take me away. What happened between Tim and I wasn't your fault but you weren't being the best brother when he started dating me."

"I know that and you don't think I feel guilty. I do I honestly do. But he's gone and I'm here." John snapped.

"Just because you're here doesn't mean I want you." Lindsey snapped back."

"Bullshit." John went for her and grabbed her close pressing a hard kiss to her lips. Whimpering Lindsey tried to push him away but melted into his arms as his kiss became slower and sweeter. Grabbing her he lifted her up so that her legs wrapped around his waist. Without breaking the kiss he moved into the bedroom laying her down for a second so he could take his shirt off. Lying down beside her he pulled her close trying not to rush but he had waited so long to be with her.

"John." She gasped as he moved down her body so that he could undress her. Taking the rest of his clothes off he moved back to her falling into her arms. Kissing her deeply he took the time to explore every inch of her body until she was trembling. Rolling her over so that he was on top of her he moved inside of her taking his time. John didn't let her take his eyes off her until they were both spent. Never realizing that is was going to be that good his first time with her. When they were done he lay next to her holding her in his arms. For now they wouldn't say anything and deal with the consequences later.

Author's note: Hope you like it. Merry Christmas.