Chapter 10- Apprehensive
The wind whipped around me as I stood on the end of the boat overlooking the water. The journey to the mainland was never really something I looked forward to and the dread I felt over this trip only seemed to make the trek longer. It gave me time to think, time to rehash, and time to feel the overwhelming guilt that crushed at my chest.
As much as I wanted to understand, as much as I wanted to fight, I knew that it was pointless. There were no words to describe the intense pain that I was feeling so instead I chose to be silent. For the life of me, I couldn't help but blame myself…
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19 hours prior-
There was a desire present in her eyes that was unmistakable and unbelievably attractive. I could feel the roughness of the rocks as I sat on a small formation and pulled her closer to me our breaths echoing off the cave walls.
"We wouldn't want you to be cold," I teased as my hands rubbed up and down her arms. Our lips met and wrestled together, our tongues reaching out and tangling.
"Are you sure?" I questioned her softly as I looked at our surroundings.
"More sure than ever," she replied her voice tender, "I love you."
"I love you too," I replied as I tugged my coat off of me and bunched it behind me, using it to protect my back and prop me against the wall as I pulled her into my lap.
Our eyes locked and she smiled softly at me as she wrapped her arms around my neck and pulled me down for a quick peck. "I trust you," she mumbled as she pulled her coat off and threw it on the floor of the cave, "I want to be yours."
Her words did things to me that I couldn't explain and I tangled my hands in her hair pulling her to me tightly and kissing her. I could feel her tongue snake out and run across my lips and I couldn't help the moan that escaped my lips as I bucked up against her. She whimpered at the action, her eyes closing tightly.
Her hand snaked up my back, pulling my sweater with it, quickly removing it and throwing it behind her. Smiling mischievously I gripped her shirt tugging on it before slowly peeling it off her. Pulling me off of the rock and into a standing position we stood looking at one another. I couldn't help but be entranced by the pure white lace of her bra.
Pulling her to me and holding her in my arms I kissed her forehead for a moment, my eyes searching the area for the best place to move this to before things got out of control and then she tugged on my belt.
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The boat pulled up and docked slowly and I looked through the crowd, a force of habit I would never break. I made my way to the transportation area and stood in line for a cab. It was a short enough distance to the hospital that I could have walked it, but I just didn't have the energy to.
My phone buzzed in my pocket and I sighed as I pulled it out looking at the flashing Alice on the screen. I contemplated for just a moment before hitting the ignore button and sticking it back into my pocket. She had said everything that she had needed to and right now I had other things to deal with and think about. I would worry about the conversation the two of us needed to have later.
The cab line moved slowly, frustratingly slowly, but eventually it was my turn and I hopped in.
"Mercy Memorial please."
A grunt was the drivers reply as he pulled away and into the busy traffic. I was suddenly regretting my decision not to walk. I probably would have gotten there faster.
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Her arms were wrapped around me, clinging to me as I pressed her against the smooth rock. Her body trembled as I pressed myself closer, amazed at the feel of her body against mine. Leaning in I teased her neck, first with my tongue and then with gentle nips trailing down to her breasts. Her hands tangled in my hair tugging at the ends and I let out a low moan which echoed back at me.
Picking her legs up I wrapped them around my waist, feeling them squeeze around me and pull me closer. I could tell she was frustrated with the pace and that she wanted to speed things up and as her body bucked against mine I had a hard time controlling the urge to just plow into her. Instead I pressed my face in her neck, relishing the familiar scent of her shampoo and allowing myself a second to collect my thoughts.
"Please," she whispered.
I knew I couldn't deny her any longer, so I slowly pressed against her heated flesh, sighing at the feeling. I stilled for just a moment before moving into her slowly, relishing the feeling of her body wrapping around me.
Once I was fully inside her I halted and looked into her eyes, amazed at the love and devotion I found there. I relished the feeling for a moment more before finally pulling out and pushing back in, setting a pace that was excruciating slow but intimate and intense.
Her cries echoed off the walls as I continued to play her body, each sigh and moan bringing me closer to the edge. Our lips met once more, languidly resting open against one another as our breathing mingled. She fit me perfectly and I was so overcome by emotion that it hurt to breathe.
As if sensing what I was thinking or feeling her eyes opened and met mine, a single tear falling down her cheek. I would worship the time I had with her, worship her for as long as I could because in that moment it felt like home to me.
The tightness of her body convulsing around me sent me over the edge. "I love you," I moaned as I released inside of her, my head lying against her shoulder as I tried to catch my breath.
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I grabbed a few bills and handed them to the driver, hopping out of the vehicle and making my way into the building. Having been in this hospital before I made my way through the entrance and grabbed an elevator, hitting the button for the fourth floor.
Each ding brought me one step closer to her and I found myself holding my breath hoping that it would somehow ease the nerves in my stomach. As the doors opened I made my way down the hall, stopping at the right room.
My hand rose to knock but I couldn't find the courage. Resting my head against the wall I slid down and sat in the hallway organizing my thoughts.
I loved her.
It was my fault she was in here.
Alice hated me.
Would anything ever go right?
The door I was sitting beside opened and I looked up surprised to see a familiar set of brown eyes.
"There you are," she sighed and her body seemed to relax as she looked at me.
"Hi," I whispered waving softly before running my hand through my hair.
Her head tilted to the side, studying me for a moment, before she frowned and brought her hand up nibbling on one of her nails.
Her hand reached out, beckoning me to get off the floor and join her in the room. Rising slowly I followed her inside and watched her climb back into her bed. Patting the space beside her, she lowered her head onto her pillow and sighed.
I moved to sit next to her, letting my hand run through her tangled hair.
"I know what you are thinking," she whispered, "but this isn't your fault."
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Her body slumped and I couldn't help but smirk at the feeling of satisfaction that ran through my body. I had done that to her. She was finally mine. It was euphoric and I couldn't help but smirk as I gently kissed her forehead and then her mouth.
The chill in the air had all but dissipated and I felt toasty warm in the cavern we were occupying but I still knew that we should get dressed. I handed her clothes to her, holding her steady as she put them on before pulling mine on. Gripping her hand I couldn't help but laugh as I listened to her mumble behind me as we made our way out into the rainy weather and back down the beach towards home.
The trek back seemed excruciatingly long and tiring and by the time we reached the house I was surprised to find myself out of breath. Turning back to look at Bella I was shocked to see how red her face was.
"Are you alright?" I questioned, looking at her panting form in concern.
"I'm fine," her voice was ragged and breathy and it concerned me more than a little bit.
"We need to get you inside," I growled, as I looked her over once more.
"I'm fine," she growled.
I watched her face turn red and she looked up at me surprised and then it happened; her body collapsed. I lunged for her, my arms tightening around her as I lowered her to the deck and yelled for help. I could hear people inside the house, running to the patio door but I refused to look away from her. The tears in my eyes were blurring my vision and the rain only added to the wetness. I bent over trying to protect her face from the onslaught of water and sat shocked as I watched a small trickle of blood escape her mouth.
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I had a bit of trouble writing this chapter and I am still not sure if I am happy with it... I rewrote it about 3 times before deciding I was going to stick with what I originally wrote... so hopefully you guys liked it! You will find out what is wrong with Bella very soon!
Thanks to Pixielovestoshop for betaing for me while studying for midterms! You rock girlie!
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