Author's Notes:
TW for mentions of suicide, violent scenes and all the depression found in Arkadia. I'm sorry...
No Beta so all mistakes are mine...
Polis, 2150
"I'm going to kill her." Clarke seethed in anger while moving around Lexa's room. "She just put your life in danger by doing this!"
"She didn't know." Lexa said softly. "Her reality is different than ours and her only fear is retribution from the clans. She's not aware of this machine and its connection to me."
"Are you really going to defend her?" Clarke said angrily.
"I can understand why she did it. I was going to do it for you as well." she confessed while staring at angry blue eyes. "Can you really blame her for wanting to protect you?"
"We both know she did it because she thought I wouldn't do it, because she doesn't think I love you enough." Clarke murmured while sitting in Lexa's bed. "But I do love you."
"I know that ai niron." Lexa immediately grabbed the blonde's hands. "Your future self is different than you, more immersed in my culture and that's why this, killing a natrona, is easier for her to do: She became Trikru."
"I was going to do it. I was going to protect you." Clarke grabbed Lexa's cheek and caressed it. "I love you with my whole soul, Lexa. Please believe me when I tell you that."
"And I love you more Clarke." she smiled sadly. "Which is why I can't be mad at any version of you, no matter what they do."
"What will happen now that Titus is dead?"
"Since you, or a version of yourself, killed him then there will be no problems from the Ambassadors. They will return to their homes with news of Nia's death and the blockade entering into full effect."
"And what will we do? We know nothing about your symbol or why the chip Murphy showed us has it."
"Although Titus was the Fleimkepa, he's not the only one that may know the many legends involving the Spirit of the Commander." Lexa murmured. "There's a woman everyone in Polis knows. But only a few desperate people seek. They say she's wise and is blessed by the Spirit by giving her visions."
"Visions of what?"
"Visions of things that will happen, or things that already happened. It depends on what the Spirit wants you to know. But there is a price. There's always a price." Lexa said knowingly.
"You went to see her." Clarke said sadly.
"After Costia disappeared, I went to see her so I could learn where the Azgeda were keeping her. To rescue her." Lexa confessed while staring at her own hands. "And the old woman told me that they were keeping Costia near one of the border villages between Trikru and Azgeda territory." Lexa smiled bitterly. "But it wasn't as easy as that. No, the old woman told me that I had to make a choice: Between saving Costia or ride towards the border of Trikru and Sangedakru who were ready to sign the treaty that would enter them into the Coalition." she stared at Clarke begging for understanding. "You must understand that during that time, having Sangedakru join my Coalition meant that Azgeda would have to follow. Them signing the treaty would ensure the remaining clans join as well, would ensure peace."
"So you chose to ride for Sangedakru." Clarke understood, she really did.
"I sent a small force to find her and bring her back." she whispered while crying. "But they were ambushed by Azgeda soldiers midway. Although they managed to beat the assassins, when they finally reached the village where Costia was being held it was too late. The abductors had already entered Azgeda territory and my troops could not follow without declaring war to Azgeda."
"I'm sorry Lexa." Clarke said softly while kissing the brunette's hands.
"After that I knew to never approach her again because her visions always come with a price, a consequence that cannot be prevented or stopped."
"But you want to do that now?" Clarke asked softly.
"After having met you Clarke, and knowing what I now know, I can't help but believe that the Spirit planned for us to be together. So every choice I had to make, even the one of choosing my people over Costia, was done because I was meant to be with you." she confessed and saw the way Clarke smiled sadly at her.
"Our souls are entwined." Clarke whispered lovingly. "And I feel your pain Lexa, which is why I will support whatever decision you make. I stand by you."
"I see no other way to find the answers we seek." Lexa said dejectedly. "I don't trust her but I know she's wise and that the Spirit talks to her."
"But doesn't the Spirit also talk to you?" Clarke remembered an earlier conversation with Lexa where the brunette told her that previous Commanders spoke to her through dreams.
"It's different." Lexa explained to her. "They warn me of past mistakes, of patterns and situations they had when they ruled. But the old woman can see beyond her previous selves."
"So what do you want to do?" Clarke asked her again.
"I don't know yet. First I want to go confront your older self and see if Titus said something to her."
"The last thing I want to do is see her." Clarke seethed in anger.
"I'm afraid this must be done ai niron if we want to get the answers we seek."
"You think she knows more than what she's telling us?"
"She has the tattoos of Heda, which means that at some point she had to learn about the Spirit. Perhaps they told her something that we don't know. Joining ceremonies in my culture are rare because we only do them when we're sure we have found our tenia keryon." she smiled shyly at Clarke. "So when they're done there is a special ritual performed. One that is meant to be kept a secret from everyone but the couple and the official performing the ceremony."
"So perhaps during that ceremony she learned things that we don't know yet." Clarke whispered and didn't notice the smile Lexa showed when she said 'yet'.
"We can ask her and see what she knows before deciding to go talk to the old woman. I only want to do that as a last resort measure."
"Ok." Clarke said while hugging the brunette. "But if I hit my older self don't try to stop me because she deserves it."
"I will try to not interfere." Lexa promised. "I stand by you as well."
"Good, then let's go talk to her."
CLCLCLCL
"You just ruined our chance to get him to answer our questions!" Clarke screamed at her older self.
It didn't take Lexa and her long to find future Clarke. In fact, the woman had stayed inside Clarke's room patiently waiting for them to finish their discussion, knowing that they needed to talk. But what was upsetting Clarke more was that her older self was completely unaware of the consequences her actions just had on saving Arkadia and her people.
The fact that future Clarke had just killed the only person who could have possibly known about the origins of scar in Lexa's neck worried younger Clarke tremendously. It meant that they would go to Arkadia and face Jaha and A.L.I.E basically blind. And if there was one thing Clarke learned from her time on the ground it was to never be unprepared for a situation. And she learned that the hard way.
"I did what needed to be done." future Clarke said firmly. "To protect our soulmate."
"She's my soulmate." younger Clarke replied angrily. "Your soulmate is back in your timeline."
"A timeline that I can't return to because the Spirit doesn't want me to!" future Clarke said angrily. "So until that happens, I will continue to protect Lexa from any kind of harm."
"I would do anything, and I mean anything, to protect Lexa. I love her." Clarke said fiercely. "So if you think that what you just did to Titus protected Lexa then you're mistaken."
"You're not as strong as you pretend to be. But I am." future Clarke said determinedly. "Lexa knew this, and because she's Lexa, she would have offered to kill Titus. To protect you. But she's the one that needs protection now. So I did what I had already done once before."
"You killed Titus in your timeline as well." Lexa understood what future Clarke had meant.
Future Clarke nodded. "I did it because he hurt you. Because he almost made me lose you to wamplei kom tenia keryon." she said the last part angrily. "Jus drein jus daun."
"This Titus didn't do that." younger Clarke said exasperated.
"Because he didn't succeed. What do you think would have happened if he shot Lexa? What would you have done?" she stared at her younger self waiting for an answer.
"I would have been devastated." Clarke confessed. "Destroyed." she whispered.
"And you?" she turned towards Lexa. "We both know you would have avenged Clarke and then take your life. Because you see Clarke as your tenia keryon."
Lexa looked down but didn't refute future Clarke's claims because she was right. From the moment Clarke told her that she loved Lexa their bond had evolved to something else. It had become the one of soulmates and she knew she also wanted to have a joining ceremony with her Clarke.
She starred at Clarke who was giving her an understanding and loving look, telling her that what she felt was not weakness or something to be ashamed of. And that her feelings were not alone, that they were reciprocated just as fiercely.
"You see, just as I suspected." future Clarke interrupted their inner conversation.
"What we are facing is completely different to what you had to face." younger Clarke moved around the room to stand in front of herself. "You just put Lexa's life in further danger."
"I saved Lexa from further danger!"
"No, you didn't! The Ambassadors and clan politics are not the only things trying to kill Lexa. People at Arkadia are also threatening the security of Heda."
"You mean the rebels of farm station." future Clarke said exasperated. "We already talked about this, Clarke. You need to be strong and firm, eliminate the rebellion and secure Skaikru's place in the Coalition. That is the key. That will make things return to how they used to be!"
"They won't! Because sadly, things changed in my reality the moment my Lexa made the deal with Mount Weather." she said somberly and noticed the way the Commander flinched. "My future will always be different than yours. No matter what you try to do. And I want it to be different because I'm not like you!"
"You are me." future Clarke got closer to herself. "That's how I knew you would hesitate to kill Titus."
"I hesitate because I find value in human life. Because I don't like to kill. But I would have done it for Lexa. I was going to do it for her." younger Clarke said firmly.
"I also value human life. But I value the safety of my wife more. She's my life. My everything."
"Although Lexa is not my wife she means the world to me. I love her. And if you say you're me then you must know that my love for her will always overrule my fear and hesitation." Clarke said determinedly.
Any answer that her future self would have was never heard because a knock outside the door of Clarke's room alerted them that they were no longer alone. Fuming in anger and desperation, younger Clarke merely moved away from her future self and went to where Lexa was standing, who had silently listening to the argument between the two Clarkes'. Younger Clarke understood that the reason the Heda stayed away from it was because she wanted to show her support and trust by allowing Clarke the opportunity to confront this betrayal done by herself.
"This is not over." younger Clarke warned her older self sternly. "And you..." she said softly to Lexa. "Remember that I forgave you, Lexa. I don't regret anything that I have done until this moment because it brought me to you. And I will never regret loving you." she caressed the brunette's cheek. "Do you understand?"
"Sha." Lexa whispered hopefully and then stared at the door. "Come in." she addressed the guard.
"Heda, Wanheda." they were interrupted by a guard who stared at the two blondes with fear and shock.
"Speak." Lexa ordered him sternly and the man got out of his shock.
"The old woman is outside seeking an audience with Heda, Wanheda and SkaiHeda." he murmured what the old woman had told him to say.
"The old woman? Why would she come here?" Lexa said and then stared at her Clarke who was just as shocked.
"How could she know that we wanted to see her if we just talked about this a few hours ago?" younger Clarke asked Lexa.
"You wanted to see the old woman?" future Clarke asked Lexa. "But you were the one that told me to never go seek her out."
"As you may be aware of I have my reasons for telling you that." she said strongly. "But the trouble we have within Arkadia requires knowledge that only the Fleimkepa possessed."
"And you killed him." younger Clarke said angrily. "Which is why now we must ask the old woman about it. Because of you." she stared at her older self and finally saw the older woman flinch.
"I didn't know..." she murmured and then stared at Lexa. "I'm sorry I'm forcing you to relieve painful memories."
"I'm sorry too." Lexa said somberly while getting closer to her Clarke. "You can bring her here." she addressed the guard who nodded in understanding and immediately an old woman entered the room.
"The Spirit told me that Heda and Wanheda were seeking answers to some important questions." the old woman said to them while smiling softly. "And I had already agreed to deliver a message to SkaiHeda."
"You went to see her?" Lexa asked future Clarke angrily. "Even after everything my future self must have told you and warned you about contacting her."
"I know you told me not to. Or my Lexa did." she admitted regretfully. "But I had no idea why I was here or who to ask for help. So when I went to see her not only did I learn that my timeline is still there, but that I have a mission to fulfill." she then stared at Lexa with a sad smile. "And she's the reason I made it back here before Titus killed you."
"If that's the case then I owe her my gratitude." Lexa murmured while staring at the old woman. "Mochof."
"Pro Heda, it's nice to see you alive and well." the old woman then got closer to Lexa who looked down. "I know I'm not the person you currently want to see, but I never told you how sorry I was for giving you the Spirit's message that day."
"I always thought that it was because of you that I had to choose between Costia and my Coalition. But I now know that the Spirit spoke to me through you, gave me the freedom to decide my own fate. And right now, after everything that has happened, I don't regret anything." Lexa said firmly while staring at her Clarke. "So again, I thank you."
"I was only doing what the Spirit asked me to do." the old woman nodded in acceptance and she then looked at future Clarke. "Joel is well, healing from his wound and complaining about it. But well."
"I'm glad to hear that." future Clarke smiled softly. "But I must ask you what you're doing here?"
"I came here to warn you about a future threat to the Spirit." the old woman replied somberly.
"Do you mean Skaikru?" Lexa asked her. "And the threat of that woman that knows about the symbol of the Commander?"
"It's something else." the old woman replied tersely. "Something distant and familiar." she then looked at the two blondes. "Closely tied to you." and then she stared at Lexa. "And you Heda."
"So the danger you're warning us about is related to the three of us as in a common enemy?" younger Clarke asked.
"Perhaps..." the old woman replied.
"That's a very vague answer." Lexa complained. "As usual..."
"As you're aware I can't see the who but the what, Heda." the old woman reminded the Heda. "But what I do know is that it's coming, and soon." she warned them. "Do not trust anyone, apart from yourselves. The betrayal of the Fleimkepa was just the beginning."
"The fleimkepa already paid for his crime." future Clarke said somberly.
"And that's why the Heda and Wanheda wanted to see me." the old woman understood. "Because you killed the fleimkepa before they could ask him about the Conclave."
"Why do you want to know about the Conclave?" future Clarke asked suspiciously.
"Because of this." younger Clarke gave the chip to future Clarke and saw her open her eyes in shock. "Bet you have seen this symbol before."
"The symbol of the Commander." future Clarke whispered. "How does Jaha has it?"
"What happened to Jaha in your reality?" younger Clarke asked instead.
"He left with a group of people to find the City of Light but we never heard of them." future Clarke shrugged. "We always assumed that the City of Light was a myth that mutated grounders believed in."
"Well, according to Murphy, it seems that it's not." younger Clarke said exasperated. "And you would have known all of this if you would have just talked to us instead of act behind our backs."
"But you can help us now." Lexa said to future Clarke who was looking down in shame. "I know it's hard for you to accept that you've made a mistake." she smiled at her Clarke who was staring stubbornly at her older self. "But you always act with the best intentions." she grabbed future Clarke's hand. "And right now we need your help."
"What can I do?" future Clarke asked while caressing Lexa's hand.
"Tell us everything you know about the Conclave." younger Clarke spoke instead of Lexa. "Since you're joined with Lexa, you must know certain things about the Spirit that couples are only told during the joining ceremony."
"But..." future Clarke started to mutter. "They're secrets about the Spirit that are only shared to soulmates. To my Lexa and myself." she choked out.
"I know this is important to both of you." Lexa said softly. "But believe me, if this knowledge can help us prevent a catastrophe from happening then I'm sure my future self would agree with you sharing this information with us. We will protect it and cherish it." she promised her future wife.
"Ok." future Clarke said after a while and sat down in front of the three women. "When Lexa and I joined, we got told by the Spirit that the two of us were predestined to be together in any reality and realm that existed." she smiled sadly. "Which I can now see is true." she motioned towards Lexa's and Clarke's joined hands. "And that the bond that the of us shared went beyond the power of Heda and SkaiHeda, that it was blessed by the Spirit because it was meant to continue the line of humanity."
"The line of humanity?" Clarke asked confused.
"The continuation of life as we know it. The battle at the Mountain was the pivotal moment in which grounders and Skaikru united, but the moment the two of them really became one true clan was when Lexa and I got married." future Clarke explained. "And without the Maunon, that meant that Skaikru was the most technologically advanced Clan."
"Hence we continue the line of humanity by ensuring peace and a merge of cultures." Lexa understood what future Clarke was saying. "How many of the others Clans have allowed Skaikru access to their villages?"
"Almost all the clans have Skaikru living in them. Some even have children of their own already being half-grounder/half-skaikru." future Clarke smiled happily. "The next goal that Lexa and I have is creating laws that are no longer merely Skaikru or grounder, but accepted and adapted based on our new way of life."
"And we have the approval of the Coalition to do that?" Lexa asked completely shocked.
"You underestimate the influence Skaikru has had after the Mountain. And the fact that many of Skaikru have joined the members of the other clans, mostly your own Ambassadors." future Clarke smirked.
"I guess I can see that happening." Lexa said while looking at her Clarke intently and blushing because of it. "Skaikru seem to have a special charm."
"Of course we do." younger Clarke flirted.
"But that's not the only thing the Spirit told you, did it?" the old woman intervened.
"No, it said that we would be capable of having some kind of powers..." future Clarke said confused. "And I never really understood this part of the ceremony." she then opened up her eyes in shock and stared at the old woman. "When I was captured by Titus, I felt this anger inside of me. Anger at not being able to save Lexa, at myself for being weak. And after he threatened to kill her I just exploded." she recollected. "But it was more than that, it was like a wave of power went through me, literally giving me more strength than the one I normally possess."
"Murphy told me this, that your eyes were black and that you freed yourself from your bindings." younger Clarke added. "I thought he had been hallucinating because he had been starved and deprived of water for days..."
"That's one of the Spirit's blessing. Heda has similar properties already." she said while staring at Lexa.
"I do." Lexa agreed. "I am stronger than most people and I heal faster as well. I thought it was because of my condition as natblida that I had these properties."
"All natblidas have these properties because they come from the line of the Commander." the old woman agreed. "But your powers are also shared by Clarke and she's not a natblida."
"But I am her tenia keryon." younger Clarke said determinedly and received a loving smile from Lexa.
"That you are, ai niron."
"Lexa understood what the Spirit meant as well." future Clarke remembered. "Because she was truly surprised for a while and then told me that the Spirit had blessed us with more than just supporting this union, but blessing it as well."
"She said blessing it?" Lexa whispered and younger Clarke immediately got close to her.
"Yes, those were her exact words. And she was ecstatic. Happy."
"It's an old legend natblidas have been told." Lexa whispered to her Clarke. "That when the true soulmate of the Commander came the union would be blessed with a child, a true child of the Spirit and a confirmation that humanity has made amends for past transgressions."
"A child? Between two women?" younger Clarke said completely shocked. "But that's impossible."
"Nothing is impossible for the Spirit." future Clarke, Lexa and the old woman said at the same time.
"It brought her here." the old woman pointed at future Clarke. "So who's to say giving you both a child is not a possibility."
"I'm so confused." younger Clarke said softly. "A child..."
"I never believed it could ever happen." Lexa said completely shocked. "Many Commanders have told me of the legend, their longing to have a child of their own with their partners never met by the Spirit. Their frustration." she smiled sadly.
"It wasn't their time yet." the old woman said also sadly. "And it seems that the Spirit picked you two." she pointed at Lexa and younger Clarke who were now holding hands. "As the couple worthy of its blessing."
"This is why Lexa has been pushing for universal laws to be passed by the Coalition." future Clarke now understood. "She believes that the further we integrate our people, the sooner we'll be blessed by the Spirit."
"An exchange of some sorts." the old woman confirmed. "That's the way the Spirit tends to work and your wife knows this very well."
"But do you want that?" younger Clarke asked her older self. "A child in this world?"
"A child in my world." future Clarke replied with a happy smile. "Lexa and I have dreamed of this. Wished to share our love and happiness with a child of our own. But it was just that, talks and dreams." she started crying. My world is different than yours, Clarke. In mine, the only things we have to worry about is grumpy Ambassadors and border issues that are still being fixed after the war." she then looked at Lexa. "I no longer worry too much about you not returning home to me. And you no longer worry too much about me being ambushed by an enemy clan. We have peace. True peace."
Lexa smiled happily. "That's all I have ever wanted. And it seems that with you." she looked at her Clarke. "We can achieve it."
"But their world is different, their situation is different." Clarke started arguing.
"But we're not. Our essence, what defines us as individuals, is still us. I can see you in her, just as much as you can see yourself in her." Lexa said knowingly and then looked at older Clarke. "And just as much as you can see your wife in me." she grabbed the blonde's hands. "We have been given such a gift: Proof that peace between us is possible. That jus drein jus no daun works! That Titus was wrong!" Lexa was getting excited while pacing around the room but then suddenly stopped when she remembered who else was with them. "But it's not that simple. With the Spirit it never is."
"I'm afraid it's not. Unlike SkaiHeda, who had to face the Clans in order to bring peace, you two must face another threat, one that threatens to destroy the line of humanity from its core. One that threatens to destroy the Spirit itself."
Arkadia, 2150
39 days since Lexa died...
(City of Light)
"Lexa..." Clarke moaned while moving on top of the brunette who was looking at her with hooded eyes. "Lexa, ai hodnes." she kept on chanting while the Heda's hand moved below her. "Fuck..." she cried when fingers swiftly entered her.
"Ai niron." Lexa was crying and moving her fingers in tandem with Clarke's body, the two of them desperate to reach oblivion. "Let go..." she whispered in the blonde's ear while biting it. "I got you." she kissed her jaw lovingly.
"Lexaaa." Clarke cried one last time and was absorbed by her climax, the feeling of the Heda's body hugging her tight relaxing her completely after being on the edge for some time. "I love you." she cried while kissing Lexa's face. "I love you."
"And I love you more." Lexa was crying as well, knowing that they couldn't stay like this forever. That it was selfish of her to take from Clarke and be unable to give her more in return.
"Please..." Clarke whispered. "Don't regret this. Don't ask me to leave you again."
"I don't regret this. I could never regret meeting you, loving you." she promised the blonde woman. "But you can't stay here." she cried. "You know this. I can't give you anything you deserve because I'm no longer alive."
"But you're here, talking to me." Clarke whimpered. "Touching me, loving me."
"But it's not real." Lexa cried loudly and she had no shame in doing so. "No matter how much I ask the Spirit for it to be, it won't be real until we meet again."
"Then we'll meet again." Clarke vowed.
"Don't Clarke..." Lexa whimpered. "Please, your people still need you. The world still needs you. Don't leave it because of me. I could never forgive myself."
"I need you." she said brokenly. "What about the things I want? When will I have the freedom to choose?"
"You won't." Lexa was honest. "As leaders our people always come first."
"I never wanted this." Clarke cried while hugging Lexa tighter. "I only want you."
"For many years I thought I wanted to lead. To help my people. But when I had to choose between my people and my heart, it pained me to never choose the latter. And then I hated that I got chosen by the Spirit. I hated that I had no free will, no voice in the matter, no one to love." Lexa gave her a sad smile. "Until I met you, ai niron, and I learned that I could do both things; love my people and love you."
"But you died because of it." Clarke whimpered.
"I died because my own people didn't trust me." Lexa said somberly. "It was not your fault." she caressed Clarke's face. "Please don't believe that."
"I'm trying..." Clarke choked out. "But every time someone talks to me about you, I feel everything, remember every bit of what happened that day."
"The pain will pass." Lexa whispered.
"No it won't and we both know it." Clarke smiled angrily. "It took me this long to realize it, but the reason we can talk, the reason only I can see you is because you're my soulmate. And I was blinded by anger and revenge to notice it earlier. I was a fool. A child."
"I betrayed you, you had every right." Lexa promised her. "And as I have told you many times, I regret nothing because it all led me to you."
"But you are no longer with me." Clarke whimpered.
"I am." Lexa smiled lovingly while kissing her lips. "Right here." she pointed at her chest. "And I will remain there, forever."
"So this is goodbye?" Clarke cried even more than before.
"Not goodbye, but a 'see you later'." Lexa tried to joke but the tears in her eyes were not helping. "I love you, Clarke Kom Skaikru."
"And I love you, Lexa Kom Trikru." Clarke whispered while kissing the brunette desperately. "Always."
"I will see you again." Lexa said from where she was laying on the bed. "I promise you."
"And I promise you to honor our promise. No matter how much it pains me to." Clarke said reverently and hugged Lexa one more time. "My soul is entwined to yours."
"Forever." Lexa whispered with a sad smile and her body started to dissipate, leaving Clarke alone in the bed where seconds earlier there had been two people.
Closing her eyes, Clarke allowed her mind to return to her body, the feeling that she had lost Lexa again deep inside her heart.
(End of Scene)
"Clarke Kom Skaikru." Indra approached her worriedly and Clarke knew something was wrong.
"What is it, Indra?" the blonde asked.
They had sent a group of messenger to Arkadia so they could warn their people about the prisoners arriving with them and they were at the border of Arkadia to bring them in. After returning to Arkadia for a couple of days, Clarke left with Marcus and another trained group to find the remaining rebels and Pike, an event that had been futile because Pike had evaded them yet again. Nevertheless, Marcus was sure that they now had almost all of Pike's supporters captured, which meant that either Pike would try to make a move on Arkadia and destroy the settlement or just die alone in the wilderness.
"Arkadia is under attack." Indra said and Clarke rose from her meditation stand.
"But that's impossible, we have all of his people, and their weapons."
"Someone betrayed us, Clarke." Indra muttered angrily. "And gave Pike access to Arkadia and to the people that we had already captured. So they are overtaking the settlement."
"And we're here, leaving it basically defenseless." she murmured and then turned to Marcus. "We have to move, they're in Arkadia!" she said and immediately all the people started running towards the gates.
"Shit, they're open." Clarke muttered while taking her gun out and quickly entering the camp.
Looking around, she saw some people on the floor, members of Skaikru trying to fight the rebels that had guns while they didn't. Trying to contain her anger, she ran towards the center of the town and noticed that Jaha's group was safely inside one of the tents, all holding hands and praying.
They're all in the City of Light, Clarke understood right away.
Still, she went past them and told some guards to remain with them outside the tent, keeping watch just in case a rebel found them. When that was done, Clarke continued to move with Indra and Kane following closely, the three of them armed and ready to fight. But what Clarke saw almost left her completely breathless. In the main plaza, Pike was with a shotgun, shooting at the remaining Ark guards while Octavia had a knife pointed towards Abby's neck.
"Octavia..." Clarke heard a choked whisper and noticed Lincoln had been following them.
"You were part of the messenger group, correct?" Clarke asked him with anger.
"Yes, but I returned while Octavia asked me if it was fine for her to stay and talk to Raven. I could have never known..."
"Natrona." Indra said completely filled with anger. "What does she think she's doing?"
"Jus drein jus daun." Clarke said angrily. "Because I killed her brother she now wants to kill the last person I love."
"But Bellamy was guilty." Lincoln said.
"And when has that mattered to Octavia?" Indra retorted back to him. He nodded in shame and acceptance because the warrior was right. Octavia protected her own no matter their actions.
"Clarke Griffin." Pike finally noticed them after a couple of seconds. "You honor us with your presence."
"Traitor." Clarke spat at him and then saw her mom. "I promise you it will be alright." she said to her.
"Don't tell her promises you know you won't keep." Octavia said back angrily. "Because you know I will kill her."
"You don't have to because she doesn't deserve it." Clarke argued. "She has done nothing wrong. She's innocent."
"She's your mother! And the last person you love. I will take her away from you just like you took Bellamy away from me."
"Bellamy killed himself by allying with a murderer." Lincoln defended Clarke. "Please Octavia, don't do this. You don't want to."
"I want to." Octavia said back with anger. "Because she fucking deserves to suffer. She deserves to feel the pain I feel."
"But Abby doesn't deserve to suffer." Lincoln was trying. "She's innocent Octavia."
"So were many more people that died at the hands of Clarke."
"I did what I had to do for my people." Clarke replied strongly. "What you're doing is for your own revenge. A selfish act. A coward's act."
"I will kill her Clarke." Octavia threatened yet again and pushed the knife further into Abby's neck.
"What do you want?" she asked. "Do you want me to die?"
"No. I want you to suffer. To be completely alone without the people you love. To know that everyone left here either hates you or fears you." Octavia said strongly. "Because that's what Wanheda deserves." she spat her title.
Staring at Indra, Clarke nodded for her to give the signal to Kane, who had stayed behind with some men. They knew that they had to capture Pike and that the best way to do so what with a distraction. Although it worried her tremendously, this hostage situation with Octavia was the perfect one.
"Octavia, what you're doing right now... There will be no coming back from that." Indra said seriously. "Your future, your life with Lincoln, becoming Trikru, all of it will be gone. Because we never accept Natronas."
"But you accept ripas." she sneered while staring at Clarke. "Because that's what she is. A ripa!"
"We're all killers Octavia!" Clarke said strongly. "But your brother, what he did, it couldn't be forgiven. Not in this life. Perhaps in the next one he gets he'll make better choices."
"You have no right to decide who lives or dies. You're no god."
"I'm not but as a leader it's my duty to do what's best for my people. Your brother promised to do the same thing, but he failed. He allowed his anger and hate to rule over him and almost destroyed Arkadia and its people."
"LIES! He could have changed! You just needed to give him a chance, like the many ones you've had."
"He had many chances and he still chose his anger and hate over the good of his people." Indra answered instead of Clarke.
"You're just supporting her because Lexa did." Octavia was adamant about her revenge.
"I support her because she's the leader Skaikru needs. Without her, your people would have died many months ago. She's the reason you're all alive." Indra continued arguing.
"I don't care." Octavia said stubbornly. "I want to see her suffer. She deserves to suffer." she then looked at Abby with regret. "I'm sorry Abby." she whispered.
"NOOO!" Clarke screamed and started running towards Octavia was but it was too late.
Octavia had moved her knife to the lowest part of Abby's throat, and without taking her eyes away from Clarke, she whispered in the older woman's ear.
"For my brother..."
As soon as those words were said, blood started pouring out of Abby's neck, spilling Octavia's face and the floor. Immediately moving out of the way, the brunette noticed Clarke going towards her with tears in her eyes. Smiling at the prospect of finally dying and it shattering the remaining parts of the blonde's soul, she was surprised when instead she was met by Clarke's angry punches.
"I will kill you!" Clarke screamed to her while tears were falling from her eyes. "I will fucking kill you!"
"Clarke..." she heard a whimper and the blonde stopped hitting Octavia who had been knocked out by one of her many punches.
"Mom..." Clarke cried while moving away from Octavia to stand where her mother was laying. "Please don't leave me, not you too."
"I'm sorry Clarke." Abby whimpered while staring at her daughter with sadness. "I'm sorry I couldn't protect you."
"I can't do this without you. Please hold on." she whimpered.
"My fight is over." she smiled sadly at her daughter who cried even more. "May we meet again, my dear daughter."
"NOOO." Clarke cried while hugging her mother tightly. "Mom." she whispered while closing her mother's eyes and placing her on the ground.
It was a few minutes of complete silence where everyone had just stared at the horrible scene in front of them. Clarke was crying on top of her mother's body, screaming with anger and pain at the fact that she just lost everyone she loved. She had been betrayed by her people again and it hurt to know it was because of a foolish revenge. She wanted to just go to where Octavia was laying down and put a bullet through her brain. But then again, Lincoln didn't deserve that kind of suffering. He deserved a choice because Clarke wished she would have had a choice before Lexa died. Standing up from the floor, she moved forward to see the faces of Indra and Marcus staring at her with sadness and desolation. Abby had earned the respect of many and it was clear that her loss was going to affect everyone at Arkadia. Nevertheless, the only person she had eyes for was Octavia, who was now staring at the scene with shock and fear.
"What did I do?" she cried when she got a look at Abby's body. "Forgive me Abby." she cried.
"Don't speak her name." Clarke said with a dead voice.
"Clarke..." Octavia started to move towards her. "I..."
"Don't." the blonde threatened her. "You did this because you wanted to see Wanheda." she then looked at all the people of Arkadia that came out. "And so you'll see her." she then got close to Pike who in the middle of everything had been captured by Kane's Elite Army.
"Your sentence for treason against Skaikru and the Coalition is death." she said coldly and without a single care she shot a bullet through the man's brain.
"Clarke..." Kane tried to speak to her but she just raised her hand to keep him quiet.
"Anyone else who wants to even consider rebelling against Kane and his leadership will face worse consequences than the one Pike and his people had. That I promise you." she vowed and then stared at Octavia, her old friend. "For killing Abby Kom Skaikru." she closed her eyes. "The punishment is death."
"Clarke!" Lincoln begged her. "Please, she's not ok. She didn't mean for this to happen."
"Yes she did." she said angrily. "But because she's your soulmate and I know the pain of living without one, I won't kill her." Clarke stared at Octavia. "I give her a choice: Leave, banished from our lands and the dead zone your only place of refuge, or stay here and die by a thousand cuts. Your choice." she then looked at Lincoln. "You may choose to go with her. No one will attack you but no one will help you. I hope you understand."
"We do Wanheda." Lincoln nodded solemnly.
"I hope you got what you wished for Octavia." Clarke sneered with hate. "Because you just destroyed not only your life, but your soulmate's one. Jus drein jus daun."
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