A/N I do not own twilight
As I walked in with Alice by side, I saw Edward sitting in the couch, watching the morning news with Esme.
Before I could say anything, Edward was in front of me, giving me a hug. I hugged him back.
"I think we need to talk." I whispered to Edward, not meeting his eye.
Not waiting for him to see if he agreed with me or not, I walked up the stairs a little to fast to be called a walk. When I got to his room, he was right behind me. I didn't know what to say, so I waited for him to speak.
It seems like he was determined to do the same thing, because the silence stretched. The silence was becoming really uncomfortable, as I said, "Hi"
A light, teasing smirk came across Edward's face. "Hello, to you too, Bella."
He grabbed my hand and led me over to his, ours, king size bed. It was made up, like no one slept in it last night. Then I remembered that no one did sleep in it last night. I felt instantly guilty.
I scooted over to the middle of the bed and wrapped my arms around my legs. "I want to talk to you."
"You already said that, Bella. Now what do you want to talk about?" He was cutting to the chase.
"You love me right?" I already knew the answer to this question, but it was important to remind him so.
"Yes, of course, Bella, more than anything."
I took in a deep breath. "And you know that I love you, too, right?"
"Yea, Bella, I do know that."
"And you trust me right?" This question I didn't know the answer to. He was silent for a long time, when I decided to add, "Tell the truth, please."
He was silent for a few more moments. "It depends on the situation."
His words stung more than I thought they would. My eyes began to water, but I pushed back the tears. I had to be strong and prove to him that I can handle this on myself. I took another deep breath.
When I let the air out, said in the straightest voice I could muster, "And do you trust me with myself? Do you trust me to know my own needs?"
He had to think about this for a minute too. "No, not in all situations."
"Can you give me an example of a situation you don't trust me in?" I asked, though it sounded more like a demand.
"I don't trust you to know what you want anymore. I don't trust you when you're alone. I don't know what'll happen if I'm not there."
Wow, was he truthful!
Though, that did hurt me, so much more than I could ever tell him, I did not let my face show any emotion. "So, you don't trust me on my need to not have therapy?"
His face became very vulnerable and had hints of ancient sadness. "No, Bella, I don't trust you in that area." He got up and put on a CD in the stereo, and hit the play button. The song that came on was my lullaby. "Do you know why I wrote this? What it was that inspired me, about you?"
I shook my head, suddenly relaxed by the sounds of the familiar tune. "That you love me?"
"Yes, that certainly has a large part." He smiled as he slid back next to me and laying us both back on the bed, with me snuggled up against his chest. "But another reason I selected some of these keys was because of your gentleness and your innocence."
I looked up at Edward, curiously. "But my innocence was taken away."
Edward smiled sadly at me. Then, he started to play with my hair. "No, not really, Bella. Don't you see? You think your innocence was taken away from you, but if you still want it, you can still have it. You didn't want what he did to you. I know your not going to accept that right off the back. But you have to understand. A few trips to the psychologist would do you more than you expect it too, if you let it."
I sighed. No matter what he said, I was not going to change my mind.
A/N that's it sorry, my dad juat called and I have to talk to him
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