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AN: Sorry it has been so long in the updates. I have been in the process of packing for my third and final(hopefully) move in the last two years. It will take two or three weeks before we get in and unpack but I will try and update as soon as possible. Thank you all so much for being so patient. Thank you for the reviews as well. It took me forever to write this chapter. Then I noticed it was getting to long so I made a stopping point for this one, and will use the rest for the next chapter. This story will probably be the longest I have written so far! I'm excited. but enough of me babbling. Here is chapter 10!

I could take every fucking word she says
Throw it in her face
but would she even care
I still remember when she looked at me
that frown upon her face
Trying to be sincere
I gathered all those little things she said
Kept them close to me
Trying to make this real
This cloud will always hover over me
I'm leaving you today
'cause now I see

Suffocate, you suffocate
That you lie (I don't lie)
That your fake (I'm not Fake)
Suffocate, you suffocate
You always take (I don't take)
What you can (what I can)

I could take every fucking game you play
Blow it all away
but would you even care
I could take all those lies you said to me
Never go away
Never disappear
This cloud will always hover over me
I'm leaving you today
'Cause now I see

Suffocate, you suffocate
That you lie (I don't lie)
That your fake (I'm not Fake)
Suffocate, you suffocate
You always take (I don't take)
What you can (what I can)

The week had gone by fast. Tsukushi was miserable. The press was hounding Tsukasa everywhere, but school. Thanks to the school security policy, no member of the press would step foot on its grounds. They barely had a chance to speak to each other. Tsukasa was starting to get terribly moody, not to mention jealous. It wasn't her fault the press was keeping them apart. Tsukasa had given her a cell phone, and whenever they weren't in school he called her constantly. This wasn't helping her at her at work. Her boss was already hinting at firing her, but to ignore the calls was far worse. She felt stuck between a rock and a hard place. To make things worse the meeting with her uncle was coming up. With all this chaos going on sleep was hard to come by. She was trying to keep everyone happy; Tsukasa, work, and her parents, but the stress was beginning to take its toll. She had begun to turn her cell phone on silent during work. She really needed the money, not that Tsukasa could understand this, no matter how much she had tried to explain.

Wednesday

Two days before the meeting with her uncle, Tsukasa had come up to her at school. "Tsukushi, meet me in the parking lot, Friday. I will take you to my house. It shouldn't be too hard, if you keep your head down till we get there. Afterwards, one of the maids will take you home. Maybe Mai, she can just say you are one of her granddaughters visiting. It'll be a piece of pie." He was smiling triumphantly. It made Tsukushi frown even more. "I think you mean it will be a piece of cake...Tsukasa I can't go. My uncle is visiting that day. As much as I would rather spend the day with you, to deny him this meeting would be bad." He looked like he wanted to protest. "Please Tsukasa, this week has been hell for me, just let me get this meeting over with, once he goes away I can sleep easier." She could still see the anger in his eyes, she watched him take a deep breath. "Fine, but next time I make plans you have to come no matter what." Tsukushi could feel her anger rising, but she was too exhausted to fight back. "Fine." With that she went home unaware that someone had heard their conversation. Asai was smiling as yet another evil plan formed in her mind.

Thursday

Asai was peeking over the corner with her groupies just waiting for Tsukasa. This plan of hers couldn't fail. A smile still on her face, then she saw him. She opened the book she was holding. And the pre-planned dialog rolled. "That's a real racy book Asai. Is that really true about younger prostitutes calling the guys they go with "papas" and "uncles?"" She saw him slow down. "It says right here young prostitutes up until the end of high school will call their clients "papa" or "uncle." "Papa" is used for the regulars, and "uncle" is used for the guys who fly in every now and then." She was smiling as she watched him stand stock-still letting the implications sink in. Now for the killing blow. "Hmm, why call them anything like that at all? Wait it says here..." She was trying not to sound to fake about it. "The names are used so they will not be caught. The police would not suspect anything about the grown man hanging out with his niece or daughter...I suppose that is true...Hmmm....Oh this is interesting...The "papas" pay after, but the "uncles" pay half before and half after, due to most are businessmen and may have to fly off before their...um well their scheduled meeting with the girl. This is so the girl won't lose interest due to their time might be interrupted and she might not get paid. The first payment is usually at school the uncle will come up with an envelope saying that his niece forgot her lunch money and he was dropping it off. That is why it is so hard to catch the younger prostitutes." She looked up at his face a smile curled her lips just before she turned it into a concerned frown. "That's horrible. Girls selling themselves for money. I think I am going to return this horrible book the cover was so misleading. How was I to know it was such a vulgar book?" With that her and her groupies walked off. The second part of her plan would start tomorrow. Now she had to go find the office aide and pay her off. The envelope marked Tsukushi Makino's lunch money already in her bag.

Tsukasa felt his mind spinning at Asai's words long after she had left. His mind was in a daze as he went through the school halls. He had heard about the term "papa" being used. Hell, Akira's dad had had a young mistress once. He felt as if he was going to be sick. "Tsukushi wouldn't do that!" He whispered harshly. Then he remembered in the park, before the press interrupted. She was so willing then, maybe she would do that. Then the scene when she came running up saying she was still a virgin came into his head. Then her words yesterday. "Tsukasa I can't go. My uncle is visiting that day. As much as I would rather spend the day with you, to deny him this meeting would be bad." Her words could be taken so many ways. Then Asai's words came. The "uncles" pay half before and half after, due to most are businessmen and may have to fly off before their...um well their scheduled meeting with the girl. Tsukushi had said. To deny him this meeting... "She wouldn't do that and you know it!" He had said louder only to look up and find Akira and Sojiro looking at him funny. "What's wrong with you man?" Asked Sojiro. "Yeah! Where's little Miss Virgin?" That was when he remembered he was going to meet her after her last class to make plans for Saturday. "I gotta go." He said as he started off for her class. He had five minutes.

He made it in three. He stood beside the door waiting for the bell to ring and for her to come out. It was a long two minutes of trying to keep his mind blank. He was staringat the ceiling when he felt someone hugging him. He looked down to see her smiling face. He was about to push her away when he noticed no one else was around. How long had he been staring into space? He looked back down at her she was still smiling with a cute little blush around her cheeks as she let go. "Sorry...I just miss you...I guess..." He perked an eyebrow at her words. "You guess?" He teased as he brought her back into a hug making her blush brighter. All the while thinking. There is no way she would do something like that. Look at how easily she blushes by just hugging. There's just no way! He was knocked out of his thoughts when she spoke again with a concerned look on her face. "Are you okay? You seem a little spaced." She reached up a hand to touch his forehead. He quickly grabbed the hand and held it. "You have work today?" She nodded. "Be careful going home so late." With a final hug, he left.

He drove past the dango shop a couple of times to make sure she was there. He knew he was just being paranoid, and told himself to stop. He should trust Tsukushi. He felt like he was going insane. "Fuck Asai and her damn book! Tsukushi is not like that! In fact she would be pissed if she thought I even thought that!" With that said he finally drove home.

FRIDAY

Tsukushi woke up with a bad feeling. She always had this feeling when her uncle came to visit her, so she just shrugged it off. She did her normal routine and made her way to school. Kazuya was waiting for her there. He was still being picked on, but only when Tsukushi was not around. It was why he was waiting for her all bright smiles and anxiousness. It eased some of the bad feelings a bit just to see him. They greeted each other, but had to run due to the time.

Tsukushi was still feeling better until she got to her third class. She was walking with Tsukasa when she saw an office aide waiting by the door. "Tsukushi Makino?" She had said, in which Tsukushi nodded. "Your uncle stopped by and said you forgot your lunch money. Here you go." She handed Tsukushi the envelope. It felt to thick to be lunch money. "He's back at this again?! I had already told him so many times already..." She was angry and mumbling to herself about this new bribe to even notice how suspicious it was. She didn't even notice the look on Tsukasa's face, she just went into her next class. She was still angry after that class. She couldn't even concentrate. She didn't even realize that Tsukasa hadn't been there to walk her to her classes.

Tsukasa on the other hand was in bad shape. He had managed to not go on a rampage, but he was close. She had acted like this had happened before. He's back at this again?! Tsukushi was a whore! He found it hard to believe, but he saw the envelope in her hand. It was damning proof. How could he have been fooled so easily by that "I'm a virgin" bullshit? He remembered in the park. She didn't seem like a virgin then. She let him. She would have done it in the middle of a public place! It all fit together now. I can't love a whore. Only he did love Tsukushi. The way she stood up to him. The way she refused to give in. The way she laughed. The way she painted. He did love her. His thoughts were so jumbled. Maybe he was wrong? What if he wasn't? He was once again waiting for her at her last class.

Tsukushi had finally cooled down. She was walking out of her last class when she saw Tsukasa waiting for her. She smiled at him. He just nodded. "Follow me." It was all he had said. She followed him into an empty lab room. He closed and locked the door behind him, which made Tsukushi a little curious, but not alarmed. "I want to go with you to meet your uncle." That was when dread filled her. "Tsukasa, you wouldn't like meeting my uncle. He is not a nice person. I would rather you not go, it's bad enough meeting with him alone. He would try anything to make things go his way. He might even use you against me. Please Tsukasa, please don't ask this of me."

Meanwhile, Tsukasa was taking her words completely the wrong way. Every wrong thought that could enter his head did. It only angered him more. I don't love her. I can't love a whore like her. It's just lust. It has to be. I'll prove it. With that thought in mind he advanced on her. He kissed her hard and long stealing her breath. His hands were undoing her shirt and soon her bra. He felt her tense up and a brief glimmer of hope that he was wrong about her came into his mind. Only to be wiped away as she relaxed against him.

Tsukushi's mind was reeling. What brought this on all of a sudden? Why was he doing this here? Did she want him to? It felt so good, but they weren't even married?! You only made love when you were in love right? Did he love her? Did she love him? Would he reject her? Would he hurt her? She remembered the promise she had made to her parents, about waiting until she was out of high school. She remembered the last time she trusted someone as much as she trusted Tsukasa. She remembered how everyone she had trusted, betrayed her in some form or another. This would be different though, she told herself. This had to be different! She loved Tsukasa. She trusted him with all her heart. She wiped away all of her other thoughts, but these last two. She decided to take the chance, as vulnerable as she was at that moment. She let herself go. She felt her tense body relax as she gave into the man that she loved.

He couldn't believe how easy she was being! She was kissing him back. She was letting him undress her in a classroom. She was going to let him fuck her in a classroom! How many other guys had she done like this? What number was he? How many others did she lure in with her cute and innocent act?! She was definitely good at pretending to be poor and innocent. I bet her older clients eat this stuff up. Like the client she was going to see after me. He grew more and more disgusted with each thought. The hand that was going up her thigh stopped. He couldn't do this. He didn't want to do this with someone who was playing pretend. He didn't want to do this with a whore. She didn't love him. He was just another rich fuck for her. He felt her trying to undo his shirt, and that was when he snapped. "Get away from me you whore!" He hadn't meant for her to fall on the floor when he pushed her away. She landed with her skirt up showing her panties. Her shirt and bra pushed back so that her breasts were revealed to him. He just turned away.

"Get away from me you whore!" His words echoed through her head. She didn't even feel herself fall. She must have heard him wrong. "Tsu-Tsukasa..." He was walking away from her, but stopped when she called his name. Hope filled her until he spoke. "Don't call me that! You have no right to address me by my first name you bitch! You have no right to address me at all you piece of trash. You are beneath me. Don't ever come near me again!" She could only stare in shock as he left slamming the door. When he slammed the door she felt something inside her break, something so fragile it might as well have been glass. Was it her heart or her mind? Both probably. Noticing her vulnerable position naked and open, she curled into a ball. She was too shocked to even cry. His words echoed through her head as her body went on auto pilot. She didn't even remember buttoning up her shirt or tucking it in. She didn't even remember standing. He was just like all the others she told herself. He just used her for his own amusement. Her body made it's way out of the classroom and towards the schools entrance, while her mind was still in the classroom wondering what she did wrong.

Kazuya had been waiting for Tsukushi at the entrance. He had borrowed some of her notes and was waiting to give them back. He cared for Tsukushi very much. He was glad that she was going back to her old self. He wasn't happy that it was Tsukasa that was helping her do that, it should have been him, but as along as she was happy that was all that mattered. After all she had been through the past two and a half years, it was good that she was healing. At least that was what he was thinking, until he saw her. He saw her look like this before. She was walking right past him as if she didn't see him. "Tsukushi?" Her head turned his way, but her eyes were glazed over and she was so pale. "Hello Kazuya." It was said without emotion. As if she said it because her mind knew she should, but it was really as if she wasn't there at all. "Um...I have your notes... here..." He watched as she took the papers and kept walking. She didn't even bother putting them in her bag. He knew he wouldn't be able to snap her out of it so he just watched her go. He had a pretty good idea who had done this to her and his anger grew as he went to hunt down Doumyouiji. He was going to get to the bottom of this if it killed him. He had to help Tsukushi.

He didn't have to go far to find the F4. He heard them joking and laughing like normal. Everything was a joke to these guys. His anger made him throw all thoughts of self-preservation out the window. He got right in front of Doumyouiji. "What the hell did you do to Tsukushi?!" Doumyouiji just looked at him eyes gone cool. "I don't know who you are talking about. I don't associate with whores." That was it! No one talked about Tsukushi like that. He balled up his fist and punched Doumyouiji in the face. The force wasn't as powerful as Tsukushi's punches were, but it did back him up a few feet. "Don't you dare call her that! She is not a whore. She is the most sweetest, nicest, purest person someone like you would ever meet. Her heart is so big that she could even love someone like you! You didn't even deserve her!" Tears were rolling down Kazuya's face. "After all the tragedies she has been through, you made her happy again. I couldn't make her happy again. I don't know what you did, but you better fix it! You better make her happy again! She deserves to be happy. When I saw her walking out of school she looked the way she did when her parents died. Broken. Her body on auto-pilot, a...."

"Wait a minute. Did you just say her parents were dead?" This came from a shocked Akira. They were all shocked. None of them could believe that Tsukasa had just called Tsukushi a whore, or that Kazuya just hit Tsukasa. Now this? Tsukasa laughed. It was too much for him. "You fool. Do you honestly think I believe this shit you are trying to sell? Tsukushi's parents are alive and well. I have met them. I wonder if they know their daughter is seducing older men and taking their money. She tried to get me to, but I didn't fall for her cute and innocent act. Let her go see her client tonight. Oh, I mean "uncle." I know the code words. You must be really stupid if you believe anything that bitch says. "

Kazuya hadn't meant to spill so much information. He was just so angry at Tsukasa. He might as well explain, at least he will get to look at the jackasses face when he finally sees how wrong he was. He managed a laugh of his own as he saw the F4 still frozen with shock and trying to make sense of it all. "You really are a fucking idiot. You don't know shit! Those are not Tsukushi's real parents. Her parents died two and a half years ago, in a car accident. Tsukushi was devastated. She wouldn't eat, sleep, or even talk. Meanwhile, they were having trouble finding a relative to take her in. After a few weeks of therapy, she was finally able to piece back a bit of herself. They had also found her last living relative. Her uncle. He was a rich businessman who was constantly out of town. That is why it had taken so long. He saw her as a major inconvenience, but he had enough family honor in him, not to send her to an orphanage. Tsukushi didn't want to live with him either. They had made a deal that he would get her, her own house and an allowance. He hadn't offered her a lot of money, but she started looking anyway." He took a deep breath making sure he had their attention.

"She saw a house with a for sale sign in the yard. It was very small, but she went in anyway. You see the family had to sell the house, because they had doctor bills they could not pay. Their daughter had just lost the fight to cancer. It was a broken and poor family she had met that day. She must have looked very similar to their daughter, because the mother of that family came up and held her. Called her by her dead daughter's name, which she made her own. They cried in each other's arms. Once the mother had finally let her go, the father took her aside and told her of the situation and that the mother was having a nervous breakdown and feared she would soon take her life. He begged her to pretend to be their daughter. She needed a family and this family needed her. She agreed and told her uncle where she moved. He wasn't happy she was living with poor people, but at least she wasn't bothering him. He paid for the house and gave her an allowance as promised. She uses the allowance to help pay off the doctor bills. They still barely make ends meet and that is why she works." He felt tears stinging his eyes, remembering all the things Tsukushi had told him while they were catching up.

"Now that she had a new family and a sense of purpose, she started to get even better. Then her uncle came back into her life. He found a purpose for her as well. He wanted her married. Why? Probably to further his career or to get more money in his pocket. Greedy bastard. Anyway, he started bribing her, then he started threatening her. She still refuses to give in and because of her parents will he can't make an arranged marriage. She dreads these meetings with him more than anything. Then you came along." He was staring at Doumyouiji. "I still don't know how you did it. You brought her back to her old self. She was smiling again. She was happy. She loved you. Then you had to go and do something stupid. Well I am here to tell you, you better fix or I'll kill you."

Now I'm far away from you (You're always far away)
I'll never bring back yesterday (bring back yesterday)
You're such a fake it's true
I can't believe the words you say
I'm far away from you
I'll never bring back yesterday

Suffocate, you suffocate
That you lie (I don't lie)
That your fake (I'm not Fake)
Suffocate, you suffocate
You always take (I don't take)
What you can (what I can)

I always take
What I can

AN: I know this is a sorry place to end this chapter, but it was getting to be too long. The rest of it will be up as soon as possible. I love the song 'Suffocate' by Cold and it just sounded like what Tsukasa would be thinking about Tsukushi, through all of that mess. Will he believe Kazuya? If he does what will he do about it? How will the meeting with her uncle go now that she is in such a state of shock? Is it possible to forgive Tsukasa? Find out in the next chapter! Bye for now! (And don't forget to review!)