Chapter Ten

Spencer held the little girl on her hip as she reached into the car for her diaper bag. Spencer was just getting back from her shopping trip with Madison when she received a call from Chelsea asking her if she wanted to join them for family night at the house. Spencer easily accepted the invitation.

After the shopping trip, Spencer went home to get ready. The young mother only had an hour before she had to get to the house. She had jumped into the shower with Maddelena and got dress quickly. The mother had subconsciously wanted to look good. She knew that Ashley would be there. She hadn't talked to the girl since their talk four days before. She was too afraid to call the girl, and she guessed that was the same reason the girl hadn't called her. Aiden picked up Ashden from Art class, so Spencer didn't get to see the brunette.

Spencer had put on a simple pair of low cut, tight jeans, with a tight blue shit that showed her mid drift. She let her wet hair flow freely down her back. Spencer had put an adorable cotton kimono she had bought on her shopping trip on the youngest Carlin.

Spencer shut the door to her mini cooper and began walking up the driveway. She knew she was the last one there. The four cars parked in the driveway and along the street told her that information. It felt like a burst of deja vu hit the girl. The whole walk was so familiar, like she had already lived this day. The knot in her stomach began to tighten and nervousness came upon the emotional girl. She was suddenly walking into a room full of people who was completely different from what she known. Of course, she had gotten to know each person a little better. It still didn't make it any easier.

She politely knocked on the door. She didn't really know why, it was her parents' house after all. She kissed her daughter on her head and smiled at the little girl. A toothless grin appeared on the little girl's lips as her mother pulled back. If anything was set in stone, it was her love for her daughter. The amazement that she could love someone this much had boggled Spencer's mind. She never thought that she was capable of loving her as much as she did. It was to the point Spencer almost cried seeing the little girl who was constantly with the woman.

The door opened and pulled Spencer back.

The little four year old girl stood inside the house with the door opened. Spencer smiled at her niece as she walked in.

"Hey, Siena," Spencer greeted the little girl as she helped her shut the door. The little shy girl had warmed up to Spencer. She had also taking a quick liking to Maddelena.

"Hello, Mad looks really pretty today," the little girl said smiling up at Spencer.

Spencer smiled and followed the little girl through the living room to the dinning room, where everyone was situated at.

"Hey," Spencer said standing in the door way. She was now self-conscious in front of her family members and friends.

Arthur stood up, offering his daughter his seat. Spencer smiled at her father as she took the seat in-between Paula and Kyla. She was quiet, not knowing what to say due to the fact the brunette was situated diagonally across from her. Also, the fact that Aiden was sitting right across from her with Teigue resting on his lap. Spencer set the diaper bag on the floor and rested Maddelena in her lap. Clay continued his talk on what the guys was going to wear at the wedding and that they needed to get fit for their tuxes since the wedding was only nine days away.

Spencer couldn't help but look at Ashley under her eyelashes. She examines the easy going look in he girl's eyes as she watches Clay talk. The brunette had her son in her lap, the little boy drawling contently. She had her hair in a light curl, some stray strands was curling into her face. Her eyes held something different from the last time both girls were in the same room at the Carlin home. Instead of anger and hurt, they were a simple contentment imbedded in her eyes. Spencer's eye's noticed a bracelet on Ashley's wrist that was sitting on the table. It was the same bracelet that Ashley had given to the younger girl five years ago.

Ashley turned her head toward the blond. Spencer quickly advert her eyes to look at Clay. She didn't want to get caught staying over the older girl. When she glanced over at the older girl, a smile was evident on her face.

Spencer's heart skipped a beat noticing the smile. All she wanted to do was to fix this where she could be back with the brunette but it was so hard to find a plan to fix it. She knew that it would be much easier if Aiden wasn't in their way, if Ashley wasn't married. She knew that people get together all the time when they were married, but it was just to damn hard. iWhy can't we just get together?/i

"Spencer," Chelsea said breaking the girl from her thoughts. "How does it feel being back in Los Angeles?"

Spencer focused her attention to the dark skinned artist. Spencer smiled at the girl, "It has been wonderful. I have a great job and it is very child friendly, so I can keep Mad with me all the time."

Kyla jumped into the conversation, "So, what have you been up to since I saw you the other day?"

Spencer looked at the younger Davies sister. They had had lunch a couple days ago. Since they worked right across the street of each other, it made it easy for them to meet up at the other's work. "Oh, nothing really, I went shopping with Madison earlier today."

Kyla smiled at the name, "Really? How is she? I haven't spoken to her in a long time."

"She's doing great; you two should get together and have lunch sometime." Spencer mentally kicked herself at how forward she sounded.

"Yeah, give her my number later. I would love to get together." Kyla said combing a piece of her brown hair behind her ear.

Ashley was cleaning the dishes as Spencer walked into the kitchen. She had let her mother hold her daughter so she could take a break from everyone. She was starting to feel more comfortable around everyone. During dinner, everyone got on the topic of Hilary Clinton being the president and how the Cults had own the Super bowl again. Spencer had joined in on all the talking while Ashley was quiet and played with her son while they ate. Everyone had left to go into the living room to play Halo when Spencer decided she needed a break.

Here she was.

Standing behind the brunette, the only thing she wanted to do was walk behind her and wrap her arms around her lithe waste. It took her so much self-control to just stand in her spot and cleared her throat. She wanted the brunette to know that she was there, but she didn't want to scare her.

Ashley turned around from the sink and smiled, "Hey."

Spencer stepped forward, "Hey yourself, haven't spoken to you for a minute."

Ashley continued to smile at the blond, her smile was infectious for the blond. Ashley spoke, "Yeah, sorry, I was just…"

"Scared," the blond finished for her. She walked over to the counter and took a seat.

Ashley nodded, "Yeah."

Spencer nodded her head a little, "Me too."

Ashley cocked an eyebrow, "Really?"

"Yeah, I was scared. I mean, I'm not scared of you…but more of us."

iThere isn't no 'us',/i Spencer thought sadly.

"We're in a confusing thing aren't we?" Ashley asked as she wiped off her hands on a dish towel and looked the blond in the eyes.

Spencer nodded.

There was a strong silence in the room. Spencer didn't know what to say to make this situation anymore comfortable. She could easily play it off, that would be the easiest way in doing it. She could masquerade as the older girl's friend and pull all her feelings away and lock them up. But in the end who would that help? End the end they both will get fed up with hiding their feelings and will still want to do something about it. She knew it wasn't possible to just jump in back where they used to be, but she also knew that it wasn't going to help them to ignore this situation.

Denying themselves of their feelings was ignorance.

Spencer played with her hands as she looked into Ashley's brown orbs. There was n understanding between them, like they could easily read each other's thoughts. Spencer would gladly run back to the older girl, but the cards where in Ashley's hands at this moment. She had to choose what she wanted to do. Did she want to live the masquerade as 'Happy Family' with Aiden, or did she want to live her life with Spencer. This was something that the brunette needed time to think out. She already knew what she wanted, but she needed to figure out how to achieve it. Spencer was going to give her that time to figure it out. She couldn't do anything else.

"Do you want to have a play date for the kids at my place?" Spencer asked, trying to break the silence.

It was the first thought that she had in her mind that could include the children into both their lives. iStart out small,/i Spencer thought to herself.

Ashley smiled, "Yeah that sounds great. How about Monday?"

Spencer nodded her head, "Yeah, that sounds great."

They smiled at each other before breaking out in laughter at the whole tenseness being broken. Their laughter rang through out the house. It was real and genuine.

Aiden watched this whole scene from the doorway.

I thought I would love and update for you. It's an okay chapter, just something I wrote last night at 3am. Lol, I got the next chapter already planned out and halfway written. I also got a song for the very last chapter I am every going to write but you will have to wait a while before I give out that info. The song will tell the ending haha. I love you guys and thanks for the feedback. I am a little disappointed to see all these lurkers and them not feeding me. I mean, don't get me wrong, I am happy you read. But I also write for byou/b guys and not getting no love in return. Like all the authors around here, I would appreciate my love returned. But thanks for reading still.