Hello everyone!
Well, to compensate all of you for the long waiting, here's another "fresh" chapter. The idea came to my mind 2 nights ago and I simply couldn't stop writting then.
There is a WARNING, though, that I need to make: this chapter is a little bit HOT, so if you don't appreciate, too bad! There are going to be more of this kind as long as this story goes so sorry if you don't like it. As I've said before, you are not obliged to read it till the end, so... it's your choice.
But I still would love to read your comments and critics. It helps me think how I can make the story better!
Enjoy!
P.S - About this story, Minny and Joo were the nicknames that came to me while writting. Also, I use the name Min a lot, to say the name of Min Seo Hyun, because it's more easy for me this way and because I like the sound of it=
IMPORTANT: Once again, Boys Over Flowers do not belong to me. I just borrowed the character for this story.=)
Chapter 10 - Agressions and Botled Up Feelings
Ji Hoo handed the cup to the beautifull girl sitted next to him.
- Thank you.
- No problem. – he said, sitting beside her.
She looked as a model, still looking as beautiful as Ji Hoo remembered her. Since the last time they had seen and talked to each other, only the years seemed to have passed, but still without leaving any traces on her angelical face.
- It's good to be home… - she said, after sipping the tea.
- It's good to have you back, Min…
- The tea is really good… what is it…?
- Lemon.
- It's simply delicious… - she said while drinking it. Min Seo Hyun had arrived just a few hours ago in Korea and was now sitting in his living room, sharing a tea with him, while he hoped anxiously for the "bomb" that he sensed was about to fall. Ji Hoo cleared his throat, as if to start speaking but she cut him:
- Grandfather, where is he?
- He had to stay at the clinic, he still had work to do…
- I heard that you have been starting to work there, even though you are only in the beginning of you career… - Min said, with a smile.
- It looks you are rather well informed about myself… who is the traitor…?
- I have my resources… - she said, enigmatically, but laughing after.
- You were never good at lying to me, did you know? – he said with a smile, the first carefree one in many weeks.
- That's because you know me too well…
There was an uncomfortable silence between them, and then Min said, in a calm and sweet voice:
- I suppose you want to know why I am here, after all this time and after sending you that e-mail, demanding that you picked me up at the airport…
- You know that's not true! – Ji Hoo said, surprised by her tone and her words. – You have always been and always will be welcomed in my house. And grandpa loves you as if you were his own daughter! And as for demanding, you haven't demanded me anything! You asked me to pick you up, that's all. I decided on my own to pick you up…
She looked at him with faithfulness in her eyes.
- But it looks, - Ji Hoo continued, with a sad smirk. – that you would have preferred that I hadn't done it…
- NO! NO, it's nothing like that… - she said, blushing furiously as she said. – I was really happy you had come to pick me up…
- If you want to I could always take you to the airport and left you there…
Min Seo Hyun laughed, laughter as clear as the fountain in Ji Hoo's garden. He smiled to, at the sound. When she stopped, she looked at him long and hard. Ji Hoo said:
- Are you trying to became an X-Ray machine? Because you're really close to turn into one, by the way you are looking at me…
- No, nothing like that. – she said smiling. – You're different…
- You think so?
- I'm sure of it. After all, I've known you all my life, haven't I?
- That's true.
- But the funniest thing is, - she said, with a sad smile and placing her cup on the table in front of her.- right now I feel that, these last years I have lost you… that I don't know you anymore…
- Don't say that…
- Please… let me talk…?
Ji Hoo just made a move with his head to say that he was listening.
- When you left for France, 2 years ago… well, we hadn't parted in very good terms, so I wasn't surprised that you didn't called me back. After all, if I recall correctly you left Paris with the feeling that you were nothing more than a burden for me. You were feeling weak, helpless… and I can't condemn you for that. I, myself, was so immersed in work that I hadn't noticed you "falling behind". Perhaps in my heart I believed that everything was alright. But then you came back to Korea… and you left me there…
Ji Hoo was speechless. He hadn't talked to anyone else of his worries, while in Paris, than with Jan Di. Was it that noticeable?
- I was a burden to you… there was nothing I could do except…
- Love me? I know. In my heart, I dared to dream that would be enough. I can't hide that I'm jealous of Jan Di. She found out a part of you that I didn't believe that existed. All she had to do was to keep looking, hard and deep. She made you make up with your grandfather; she made you open your heart to the worries and the problems, the good and the sweet things in life, the disillusions… something that I had been keeping you away from.
- What do you mean?
- You probably don't remember, but you were a completely open child when we met. You laughed and you made the others laugh. Well, not as good as Jun Pyo; he was the king of the jokes, always saying what he wasn't meant to in the worst of times…
JI Hoo laughed and Min Seo Hyun smiled.
- You couldn't laugh this freely after your parent's death. You closed yourself to the world and I convinced myself that you had already suffered enough in this life. You were so small at the time… so I started to protect you. I was older than you, so I could easily do it. And slowly I started doing that…
- What nonsense! You're only older by a pair of years…
- I'm 25, Ji Hoo… I'm 5 years older than you so don't start!
- Okay, okay… I'm sorry… - he said, with a small smirk.
- After your parent's death, - she said – I always came by to watch out on you, and on the rest of the F4, of course. We were in the same school, at the time, so it was easy to keep an eye on you at school. But after the end of the classes I started making up excuses just to come by…
- I remember one day you had a huge fight with your mother… - Ji Hoo said, lost in thoughts. – I believe you were 16 at the time… and you fought because you weren't going to the agency as frequently as you should…
- You remember that? – she said, with a sad smile. – Yes, yes that's true. At the time, mom had already enrolled me in a model's agency and I was starting to have my first works. I was supposed to go straight there after classes, but my driver would simply bring me here, saying that I was doing much better in here than in any other place…
Ji Hoo smiled openly and she made an equally retribution.
- So you started to grow up and we had to part. And you had become a fine young man when I returned to Korea, after some years at modeling through Europe. I still couldn't believe in my eyes when I saw you… you were a full grown up, and I hadn't even noticed it happen! Then, on my 23th birthday, you confessed… at that time I panicked. I didn't want you to be hurt anymore so I accepted you. But the more I convinced myself that it was only to protect you, the more I became aware of your importance in my life… I had fallen for you, Ji Hoo. But I was older and wanting to pursue a career out of here… I couldn't ask you to follow me… but you did…
- You're talking as if you're an old woman…
- Shortly after you left Paris, Jean Paul came into my life. He was never meant to replace your place. I told you once that the only thing that I couldn't drop off me was you… but I believed that Jan Di could make you happy…
- Why didn't you told me, then…?
- I had made my part, Ji Hoo. Our Ji Hoo had grown up and was experiencing a broader world… one that I could never give you, because I'd always want to keep you safe…
Min Seo Hyun took a deep breath:
- And then Jean asked me to marry him. At the time, he was my biggest ally and the greatest friend… the perfect escape, from the loneliness I felt… When he asked, I didn't even flinch, and accepted it. We became engaged with each other. He had recently been appointed as the possible New French Prime-Minister… we seemed well… until that happened…
Suddenly, something in Min's tone made a chill down to Ji Hoo's spine and he asked, as afraid as he was to know the answer:
- What happened?
- He… - she took another deep breath-… he became aggressive…
Ji Hoo froze immediately in his seat.
- It wasn't immediate so I didn't give it much credit. At first he was just a little nervous and yelled a lot at me. The smallest thing was enough to create a discussion that could last until the next morning. He simply was beyond himself every time I mentioned your name. He said that you were a complete coward because you had left me alone there, and that I never cared for our relationship, that he was the man beside me now, that I shouldn't think about you… anymore…
- Of course, it's needless to say that that only led to major arguments, because I simply couldn't stand it quiet, you know? – she said with a sad smile. There were tears, silent tears simply pouring down her eyes. – And then, things just became worse. As I told you, he was appointed as having a brilliant future in front of him. So, as you may imagine, there were a lot of parties to attend to. You know perfectly well that that isn't exactly one of my hobbies. I just wanted to work in peace, and when I told him that I didn't want to go to all those parties he just went mad. He started yelling that every time he wanted to go with me, I just would deny him and that it was because I had you in my mind…
- Did you? – he asked, suddenly. He didn't like where this conversation was leading to, and the only thing he knew was that that animal had to paid, at least for making Min cry.
However Min Seo Hyun didn't answered directly at to what he was implying. She already knew what he had meant to say but she wanted him to know the whole story. Only after that she could honestly ask him and answer his questions.
- Every time we went out, all the pictures and photos were fake. I had to pretend to be perfectly in love with him, or rumors would start spreading, and that was the last thing I needed. And then, at one of those parties things just run out of control. I couldn't talk to anyone, or at least to any man in the room, in peace. He would always show up, end my conversation and started about politics with the man I was talking to. His jealousy got the best of him and the aggressions started.
- AGRESSIONS? – roared Ji Hoo, completely livid.
- Yes. – she said, still smiling sadly. The tears looked like a river on her face, constantly flooding. – That night, when we came home, it was the first time he beat me. Sad, isn't it? The woman you knew, who wanted to defend every one couldn't even defend herself against one man… At first, it was only when we had discussions but then it became a habit: when we came home, after a party, he wanted to know what I had talked with all the man I had talked to. And he knew the names of them all… he started getting suspicious, started tracking me down: to every store I went, at work, at home… there was never a moment of peace… And because he always passed for a perfect boyfriend, that always cared about me, people would freely let himgo into my office, into the cabinets where I was trying the clothes…
- What did you do? – Ji Hoo had placed his cup next to hers, and was clutching her hands tightly. He simply didn't know what more to do.
- Me? – she answered, bitterness in her voice. – I smiled and kept on pretending, as if nothing happened. You can't imagine what those days were: physical and mental abuse and aggressions… the fear of going back home after work or after a party… I think that the worst days were the ones when he had to attend those parties. After each question had been made, he would simply… force him… himself… on me… - her voice split and she took her hands to her face, finally sobbing.
Ji Hoo stared at her, his face white as the wall and his mind blank. His first love, his eternal protector… tainted by an animal… by that animal…
- He remembered that, while he was in Paris he had came across him a few times. He still remembered that look on his face, always constant: cold and hungry, like a predator waiting for his prey…
- I'm going to kill him! – he said.
- NO! Don't you even think about it, - she said with tears in her eyes – you won't do anything …
- MIN!
- Joo! Listen to me!
He calmed a little, after hearing his nickname. She was the only person allowed to say that, the only one who knew it…
- Minny, - he said, also speaking her nickname – why haven't you told me about it? Why haven't you called!? If I had known…
- You what? Would you run off to Paris?
- Of course I would!!
- See? – she said, smiling a little. – That's why I couldn't say anything! I knew you would come and I couldn't make you run straightly into danger yourself!
- THAT DIDN'T MATTER!
- OF COURSE IT DID! JEAN WOULD HAVE KILLED YOU!
- AS HE ALMOST DID TO YOU? – shouted Ji Hoo without even thinking. Just when he saw her flinch he realized that something was wrong. She was trembling and couldn't look him in the eyes.
- Minny… did he…
- It was an accident… - she started, but he cut her short.
- THE HELL IT WAS! What really happened, Min? No lies, please…
- … We had just arrived home when he started with the questions. I answered him I was too tired. I had been working until late, every nights of the past week and I was exhausted. He… he freaked out… started shouting in the hall, and all of the maids came to see what happened… they already knew what he was doing to me, because the marks weren't that easily to be overlooked… they were all afraid … I tried to look calm and to ignore him so, I started to climb up the stairs and turned my back on him… that was my mistake. I shouldn't have turned around. He went mad… he pushed me from the stairs and I fell… I don't really remember much of that day, only that he beat me up really badly, after my fall… when I woke up, my face looked like a melon, because it was so swollen… One of the maids finally gathered enough courage to help me escape… that's when I finally called up your grandfather…
Ji Hoo could almost see, horrified, the scene unfolding in front of his eyes as she spoke. Min falling, Min being beaten up…
- The maid took me to the hospital as soon as he went out… I was immediately put under protection and the" bomb" exploded! His popularity went down in a strike, because after being heard that I had been seen entering the hospital, and after hearing what the cause was… well, people started to understand… all the maids in the house confirmed that I was long being abused and beaten up. I don't recall much of those days, because I was almost always asleep… I was under your grandfather's protection, though, so I was never alone… and when I was released from the hospital, it had been 2 months… so I called grandpa again to ask him to bring me home…
- And Jean?
- … I haven't seen him since that day… but he is going into trial. Your granpa took care of everything and the maids are ready to testify...
Ji Hoo roared and get up too fast. As if instinct, Min curled up over herself on the couch and screamed. Ji Hoo looked at her, shocked. He could barely recognize the girl that had protected him over the years in that woman, curled up on his couch.
In Min Seo Hyun's head, the past she had lived until now passed in her mind over and over, and she waited, shaking and trembling all over… time seemed to had sprinted back on the past…
But the hands that closed on her wrist weren't as strong as the ones she remembers to have experienced; they were gentle and soft and warm. And the arms around her weren't feeling like fire ropes. They weren't constricting her, they were holding her…
- Min… - Ji Hoo said in a small voice.
That voice… where had she heard it again? Oh, that's right! Her dream! So mant nights it had come to her mind, to her sleep… That dream of hers, in which she was embraced and cared by…
- Ji Hoo? – she asked almost afraid, still not looking on his eyes.
- Yes, it's me… I'm here…
- It's not a dream, - she said, looking at him. She was crying but her tears were now of relief and happiness. She touched him, caressing his cheeks and he leaned into her touch, closing her eyes. – You're really here… when I open my eyes again you'll be there, won't you?
- Always, if you want me… - he said, looking her straight in the eyes. Her hand came to rest on his chest.
- Ji Hoo… sorry… I thought it was happening again…
- Min, now's my turn. Now you have to listen, ok?
She nodded.
- These times we were apart, well… I guess I never completely let go of you and of what I felt… and after Jan Di and Jun Pyo got together, I found myself thinking more and more of you… but as always I was too afraid to make the first step, afraid of getting hurt… just like with my grandfather, my pride was bigger than my eyes and I couldn't see beyond it… if only I hadn't left you… if only I had known…
- It's okay…
- NO, IT'S NOT OKAY! – he said, exasperated. Min flinched.
- Sorry, - he said after. – I didn't mean to shout…
- I know…
- Min, I've let you go once… I don't intend to leave you anymore…
Min could see that he was serious.
- Ji Hoo, please…
- Stay with me. – he simply said. And she started to cry again.
- You can't ask me that!
- Why not?
- Ji Hoo, I'm older than you, I've been forced upon and I'm like a shadow of myself! What is there for you to like?
Ji Hoo seemed to think about.
- I guess I still love you, that's all. I'm not saying that what happened doesn't matter; for me it matters much more than what you could ever imagine… he has hurt you far more than an animal could and I want to punish him deadly for that… but you're still my Min, you've never ended up being her… as for your gloominess, well that means we have to get more lamps in the house, so that they make you as bright as before…
- You do know you can't erase the past…?
- I'm fully aware of it, since I was 5 years old. You can't erase it but you can put it aside… and that's what I wanted you to do… I've already told you I'm not giving up, so…
And without anymore to say, his lips came crashing down on hers. Min flinched a little, at the beginning but Ji Hoo just pulled her close and, slowly she answered the kiss. Timidly in the beginning, and then passionately. When they separated themselves it wasn't because they wanted to, but merely to breathe.
Ji Hoo was panting slightly, and she was blushing completely and touching her lips, still amazed.
- That was…
- Wow… - was all Ji Hoo answered, panting but smiling.
- Where did you learn to kiss like that?
- If you're asking about girls, this is the first time that I've ever kissed someone like this. It isn't that hard, you just have to follow your instincts…
She smiled, embarrassed. He looked her straight in the eyes and said, calmly:
- I love you… I've never stopped loving you…
She smiled and tears were up again in her eyes.
- I love you too…
Slowly, as if in slow motion, Ji Hoo kissed her all over her face, her cheeks, her nose, her eyes, while saying:
- I'm in love with this… and this… and this… - she giglled.
- I like your haircut… - she said, when his lips left hers.
- Thanks… by my part, I'm grateful that you're still this beautiful.
Ji Hoo pulled her onto his lap and, carrying her bridal style, he lifted her up.
- Where are we going? – she asked, while leaning her head against his chest. How she had missed that voice, that smell, that comfort, that warmth and those kissed…
- To my room. I'm not doing anything, - he quickly said as she lifted her eyes to look at him. – you don't want me to. Eventually we are going to do it, so… I'm totally fine with having to wait…
- Why are you so sure? – she asked, a little smile in her lips after his declaration. Ji Hoo opened and closed the door with his foot, thanking himself inside to have left the door unlocked.
- Why? Because I'm the only man who will ever do it to you again… you're my precious Min, and I'm never letting go of you again… ever… - he said, placing her over his bed and placing himself beside her. – I love you… and you know that I would never hurt you…
- I know… - she said with a smile.
They shared a small kiss, full of promises and longings that soon turned into a desperate and more needed one. And another. And another one
Soon Ji Hoo's hands were trailing Min's body up and down, under her shirt and her skirt, mesmerized by her beauty and burning up inside for her, while she had already lost her mind and all the thoughts of wrong or right. She never knew that Ji Hoo's hands had that effect on certain parts of her body, bringing her higher and higher, and making her completely lose her mind.
She had never known that it could taste so good. Every time she had made it before never seemed to exist, rather than compare to those sensations.
- Ji Hoo…
It was insane. It was madness. But why did it felt so right, despite all her mind's advertencies?
Ji Hoo's left hand successfully completed the task of unbuttoning her shirt and she gasped as he started to kiss her collarbone and went down from there. She was burning, murmuring and mumbling incoherent phrases and sounds.
And Ji Hoo was mad, really mad. When he had started to unbutton her shirt he had seen the first bruise. Now, taking a better look, he could see how white her skin looked when compared to those big purple marks, some of them already fading, other starting to turn into a yellowish color. The urge to kiss her, to mark her as his was running through his mind when he started nibbling on her collarbone. He wanted to make those marks disappear with his kisses, but his answer was much more than he could expect: Min moaned out loud, pressing herself against him and he lost it.
Sending all the cautions to hell, he undressed her while she did the same to him, while an urge to make her his shouted on his mind. There was too much pressure on certain parts of his body and he needed to take care of that as soon as he could.
When he placed himself over her, ready to take her, he noticed that she was trembling a little.
- Min?
- Y… yeah?
- Do you… you want to… to stop…
- No.
- Are you sure…
- Ji Hoo, if you back off now, I swear I'm going to kill you… - she said, panting but smiling into his eyes.
- I won't hurt you… ever…
- I know…
- I love you… I love you, Minny… - he said, as he filled her.
She gasped, because nothing could have prepared her for that. The emotions overflowed her and she wept as she pushed him closer to her.
- Min? You ok?
- Yeah… and you? – she said, while slightly moving to face him better.
He inhaled sharply.
- I'm more than fine…
She smiled and kissed him.
When, a few minutes later, both of them reached the peak, Ji Hoo cuddled around her, pressing her against him.
- I love you… - she said, sweetly, while kissing his cheeks and his hands.
- I love you too…
- … Stay…
- What? – Ji Hoo said, without fully understanding what she meant.
- Stay with me…
He smiled:
- As long as you want me to…
After that, both of them fell asleep.
Well, that's it!
I've already got another chapter almost finished, and it's about Yi Jung&Ga Eul! I'm trying to finish it until today, so I can still post it today!
See you next chapter!
P.S- As always, your reviews and critics are most welcome!