Chapter 10:iHAve Fallen

Sam's Thoughts:

I looked around..Freddie is still standing beside me.

I can't explain this feeling inside of me. My heart beats so fast.I feel hot. I feel suffocated. It's as if the air around me isn't enough to satisfy me. I don't like it. It feels so bad, but somewhere inside of me enjoys it. I have no idea what's happening.

Freddie's Thoughts:

Sam had been silent for a while now. I stayed still and watched her. I watched as she blinks her blue, charming eyes. It was really majestic. Almost like mirage. If you would ask me this moment, I'll tell you that she is the most beautiful girl I've ever seen. Until now, I'm not sure how do I feel about her, or what is it. Do I just admire her? Or do I love her? Or am I just infatuated? I have really no idea..I just can feel it, but I can't say it. I just can express it, but I can't admit it. I'm just happy that she's here beside me, close to me..

I heard the bell rang. Lunchtime. I usually eat with Sam these days, because of our tutorial sessions, but now that we got our cards, not sure if it would be the same. So I approached Sam. I mean walk closer to her and attract her attention.

"Hey, so, do you want to eat lunch with me?" It feels good to be able to say something you really want to say. This is one of the few times I have done that.
"Sure..Benson" She agreed, YES!

"What do you have for lunch?" She asked.

"Sandwich..tuna sandwich." I almost forgot what I have.

"Sounds good." She said and then smiled.

"Any food sounds good to you, anyway." I teased and smiled back.

"Yeah right." I was surprised she didn't hit me. Maybe she really got over that attitude of violence. I supposed she learned how to accept teases. She flashed that bright smile again.

"So what's yours?" I asked curiously, hoping to grab the chance to treat her.

"uhm, nothing, I'll buy in the cafeteria. I didn't bring anything." Sounds perfect.

"What will you have then?"

"Not sure, not in the mood anyway." HUH? A big huh? WHAT? Am I really talking to Sam?

"WHAT? WHY? Are you serious?"

"Yep. Do you think I'm kidding."

"But why?"
"I wonder too. This is the first time it ever happened."

I touched her forehead. "Are you sick?"

"Am I?" She asked as she felt my hands in her forehead..

"I don't think so." I said

"Good."

"I'm worried about you Sam..what's the matter with you?" I asked concerned. I really wonder why and HOW.

Sam's Thoughts:

"Nothing. Or perhaps, I just don't know." I answered. His concern appeared in his face, his eyebrows scrunched.

I really don't know. It's the first time I felt this. It's not that I ain't hungry.

I feel sick. Well at least I am not.

"Well you should eat. I'll get you something." I heard Freddie say. And then he walked away, not giving me the chance to speak.

Moments later, Freddie came back with a tray of burger, fries, bacon and soda.

I was now sitting at the table. He put down the tray on the table, in front of me.

"What is that?" I asked, though I know it's for me.

"Your food. Didn't you hear me say that I'm gonna get you some?"

"I told you, I'm not hungry."

"As long as I can remember, you told me you're not in the mood. You didn't tell me you're not hungry."

"Same thing."

"Of course not. When you're not in the mood, it's just your mind, it doesn't mean that your stomach won't get hungry." He's in it again. Long statements regarding science.

"Fine."

Freddie's Thoughts:

I'm surprised she didn't argue anymore.

Well at least not.

And I'm surprised she just let me boss her. She didn't say "don't tell me what to do".

"How is it?" I asked her, as she started eating the burger and fries.

"Good." I now believe that she's not really in the mood. I can't see the sparkle in her eyes that's in there everytime she eats.

Sam's Thoughts:

I was really fluttered of Freddie's concern and effort. I even followed him like he was my boss. Who is he anyway? He is Freddie Benson, the boy who changed me..

I am now lying in my bed, recollecting everything that happened today. It's been a long day.

At least for me. I put together all that I did, say,think and feel today..like puzzle pieces. I connected every bit of them, considering all the factors. I am making up a conclusion.

After an hour of thinking all about those. I have come up with a definite conclusion..

I say LOVE, I did LOVE, I think LOVE and I felt LOVE.

I am indeed in love.

Before this day come to an end, I'll admit I'm in love with Freddie.

I have fallen in love with Benson.