(A/N I am soooo sorry it took so long to update but I have no internet....:( and my school blocked fan fiction so I can't update there either.......I am soooooooooooo sorry!!

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Chapter 10

EPOV

Alice has just came back from Bella's and is talking with mum about how excited Bella was to be going back to pheonix, not once did my name come up, maybe Bella never cared for me at all. Maybe Bella was playing me, giving me a taste of my own medicine, now I know what it feels like.....How many girls have I hurt this way?

Mabe I could prove to Bella that I have changed, what if I apologize to every girl I have ever hurt or embarressed? What if I make it public that I am sorry? If I admit that i'm in love with Bella.

I practically ran to Alices room, she was sitting on her bed legs crossed talking to some one, she had big smile on her face...until she saw me then she said

"Rose I have to go my prick of a brother just ran in"

She hung up her phone and opened her mouth to shout at me but I didn't give her the chance, I quickly hopped onto the bed beside her

"Alice I need your help"

"Fuck off Edward...."

"Alice I want to prove something to Bella"
That caught her attention, she closed her mouth and listened

"Alice I want Bella to know that she means every thing to me, I want her to understand that i'm not using her, I love her and I have to prove that to her, Alice please help me"

Alice looked shocked and she placed her hand over her mouth, and I could see tears form in her eyes Alice only done this when she was truly surprised

"Edward you do actually love her, don't you?"

"Yes Alice I really do, will you help me?"

"Edward do you swear to never hurt her again as long as you live?"

"I do"

"And that you will never cheat on or betray her?"

"I do"

"Then yes I will help you win Bellas forgivness"

That was music to my ears. Alice and I sat up most of the night deciding on which would be the best way to prove to Bella that I have changed. When we had finaly agreed on a plan it was dawn, the sun had started to rise, we had talked all night through right intil saturday morning. Alice finaly pushed me out of her room so she could get some sleep, but I was too excited about the fact that I may possibly get a chance to prove to Bella how much I love her. I lay in my bed and simply relived those short hours I spent being her boyfriend, my heart aching to have her beside me, to be able to place my hand on her cheek and feel the heat of her blush radiate from her.

I will not rest until I make Bella mine again, she is my life now.

BPOV

Jake was really scaring me now saying that he is still the same person and that he will always protect me, telling me he has changed, for some reason I believe that his new appearance has something to do with this. So I released my hands from his grip, and took his hands into my grip, I looked at him until he had relaxed and spoke

"Jacob please tell me, I will always be here for you, nothing you can do or say will ever change that, trust me with your secret"

That seemed to have done it because his eyes brightened and once again became full of life

"Bella, I know you will always be here for me, as will I for you but, there is something important I have to tell you and without a doubt it is going to change your life...even though I am putting you in danger by simply just being alone with you I am also saving you. Bella do you remember the old stories I told you about our tribe?"

Why is he bringing up his tribe again, the old stories were just ledgends about men turning into werewolves to fight against vampires....I must be thinking of the wrong stories.

"I think I do, which ones"

"The ones about our tribe being able to transform into wolves"

O My God what is he saying...................?

I couldn't speak so I just nodded my head to let him kow that he should continue speaking

"Bella....those stories are true.....they are not ledgends it actually happened"

No no no no this could not be happening

"But Jake how do you know"
That's when it clicked with me, Jake was so much taller, and stronger and different, no my jake couldn't be......a.......! But it was obivious it was the only reasonable soloution.

"Because Bella I am one, my father and I never believed the old stories, we were told that the wolf gene died out with my great granfather, but when one of my old friends Sam Uley from the reservation called up and spent sometime with us he knew what was happening to me, I had constant mood swings and I wasn't normal...."

He stopped talking when I took my hands off his, he thought I was going to leave because I could see that worried look in his eyes, but instead I pulled him in for a hug, I held him tight and whispered

"Jake you thought I would run away from you because of something that you couldn't have possibly avoided, Jake I will never run away from you I love you"

He froze and I knew why, I had said that with much more intensity that I had inteneded.....Ok so maybe I did love Jake a little more than I should, he was a safer option. How could I possibly love two people, two people that are so different?

I pulled back from Jake and said

"Jake I want you to tell me everything"

And he did Jake told me absouloutly every thing, he told me about how he bacame this way, he said that the only reason the wolf gene kicked in was because there was vampires around, and that vampires where mortal enemies to the wolves and that they are so much more dangerous.

The came the heart breaking part Jake had told me that the stress of his secret was the cause of Billy's heart attack.

Jake didn't know what to do he felt so bad, he was balming himself for his fathers heart attack, Sam and a few other boys from the reservation called by and took Jake saying that they patroll the perimeters of the city making sure that there are no vampires close. So I was left alone sitting there trying to digest Jake's secret. He was so different but at the same time he was still the same Jake that I had grown up with.

I went upstairs and went to bed I was going to call Alice but I knew she would want a lt of detail and I was afraid to talkto her incase I let Jakes secret escape, s I decided it would be safer to ring her in the morning. So I went to bed.....and the nightmares began.

Bella's Nightmare

Jake and I are walking in the woods hand in hand, talking about something important and out of know where the most beautiful woman I have ever seen jumped out of the trees and headed straight for me, she was so magnificante, even thought she was leaping towards me she looked so graceful, something was wrong with her eyes they did not look natural they were crimson red, her perfect lips pulled ack over a brilluant mouth of teeth that were gleaming and as white as snow, I ican feel Jakes arms around me protecting me and she lifts his as if he was a sheet of paper and throws him into the trees, she turns and faces me she say's something but I can't hear her over the wind that I had just noticed, She comes and grabs my hair pulling my head backwards so she has a perfect view of my neck.....I can see a beautiful russet coloured wolf running towards me, it gentll knocks me out of the way causing me to land on the ground and I'm watching the fight in fornt of me, then the wind dies down and I can hear screaming...............

Bella feels warm hands hugging her

"Bella, Bella it's ok I'm here"

I woke up in Jake's arms, he was holding me tight against his bare chest, he was so warm he nuzzled his face into my hair and whispered into my ear

"Bella what did you see?"

"A wolf....and some beautiful woman were fighting, you i think the wolf was you, I don't know who the woman was but you were fighting over me and you were getting hurt, I could see the blood and then......"

I had started to cry and I couldn't talk any more, Jake just rocked us back ad forth, whispering soothing words into my ear, I started to tire and I went limp in his arms I could feel him lying me down on the bed and get off my bed to leave the room, but I felt safer with hyim around

"Jake stay with me please, I feel safer with you around"

He did as I asked and climbed into the single bed beside me, I didn't need a blanket because he was that hot, he out his arms around me and I felt at home, I felt as if this is where I belonged. I knew I was meant to thinking about some one else. I knew it should have beent their arms around me but for now this is all I wanted, Jake is all I wanted. I woke up the next mornung in Jakes arms and I looked up towards his face only ti be met by his dazzling smile.

"Good morning sun shine"

"Morning Jake"

We got up for breakfast, and I found a note from my parents

Bella

we are away to vist some old friends and then we are going to visit Billy.

-Mum

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So that Jake and I more time to talk but first I must ring Alice.

EPOV

Alice screamed down the phone to who ever had called, a gut instict told me it was Bella, so I went and stood outside Alice's door, the converstaion went llike this

"Hey, Bells I'm missing uou so much, this house is so empty without you"

"So how is Billy"

I knew by the way Alice was talking she was grining

"And hows Jake"

Jake, him the friemd that had feelings for my Bella, no Edward she's not your Bella........but still he would surly try something with her after all she is totally irristable.

"OMG Bella, he totally mad for you...."

"What do you mean you can't?"

"Who else is there?"

Alice didn't sound the same she sounded as if she already knew what she being told and was using a fake tone to answer Bella.

"O Bella, you stil care for him?"

"Yes I understand that he had played you"

"Yea...Ok.......luv you.....bye"

There was defiantly no way in hell Bella is ever goimg to give me a scond chance. I wonder what she is doing this exact second, is she with him? What is he thinking? It's time like this when I wish I could read minds.

BPOV

I wonder what he's doing now, who he's with? Has he moved on? This was drving me crazy not knowing what he was doing or how he is thinking. I want to be able to see him a for a few short seconds just to put my mind at ease and I have no idea why I am so obsessed because he is no longer my Edward. Not that he was my Edward for long but still he was mine at a time.

Jake is out doing some shopping and I am left walking around this house in danger of my own mind. Just as I walk by a mirror and see my refletion I nearly screamed in horror, my hair is all over the place and my eyes are red from all the crying I have done in the past 15 hours and I just simply look a mess. How could Jake bare to even look at me never mind hold me in his arms when I was crying. So I ran up the stairs and sorted out a nice clean set of fresh clothes. After I had a really hot shower and had my hair dried, I set to work on my make up, I wasn;t the best at doing my own make-up but I was getting better at it. After I had it all completed I got dressed and headed down stairs only to be met by some one who I was defiantely not expecting to see here..........

EPOV

I had to get out of this house I wanted to get away, every one here just felt sorry for me, they fel sory that I had screwed it up with the most amaing woman on this planet, they felt sorry that I had lost the one person who ever had any chance of making me an honest man.

I got out and jumped into my Volvo, when I got in I could smell her scent, it was very very faint but I have been craving that scent all week, no-one else would be able to smell it apart from me. So I just let the road lead me, I went faster and faster, no idea where I was going just depending on the road to led me somewhere good. When I got there I felt instantly relaxed.

(A/N Sorry if there was any spelling mistakes....

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