The car ride to Pandemonium was quiet, the sound of pen scraping against paper and breathing were loudest sounds. They're only a street away from Pandemonium where Simon parked the van. When everyone climbed out of the van, ready to search Emma was the only one who didn't move at all from her place in the front passenger seat, in fact only speeding up in her writing, tilting her head with a blank look on her face. She wasn't responding to anything until it was Alec who ripped the book from the girl's hand leaving her with a shell shocked expression, he was half sure she was going to scream but Clary's quick to bring her sister completely back. She's back to reality but Clary can tell it won't last long. The redhead gives Simon a look, motioning subtly to Emma and he understands perfectly.

Emma's eyes were watering and she dropped the pen on the seat as she jumped out of the van, pushing past everyone to head to Pandemonium. Comments are made but they follow her with Clary by her side and Simon by the other, she to out of it to be running, barely keeping her thoughts straight. Her heart hurts, her eyes watering as the words and images won't leave her 's walking, her breaths are heavy and her mind is feeling like it's going to explode. She's slowing so much in her steps, like each is getting heavier and harder. Clary doesn't take note as she continues walking but Simon looks worried and suddenly Emma just all together stops. It's Dot and the words all suddenly catch up to her and they're meaning.

She feels as if her heart has shattered into a million little piece like broken glass on the ground. She starts to drop to the ground but Simon quick to catch her, supporting her weight they three behind them quickly catching up to see what has happened. Clary goes to turn at the commotion but her fingers grasp her necklace as she freezes. Jace looks over Emma before following after Clary. Alec is by Isabelle who is asks what's happening but Simon has no idea he just looks down at the girl in his arm.

She pulls back and looks up at him, sadness and grief etched onto her pale face. Her eyes lashes are wet, tears stain her face, her eyes, wide, are glazed over and her light pink lips parted like she doesn't know anything, just the string of never ending words forced into her mind. She looks to the others standing by her, she can hear Jace calling out her sister name and Emma realizes she must know as well.

"They have her, he has her and we never getting her back." Her voice is one pained and hurt but it is accepting as she knows she can not change Dot's fate, it's already been written. It really doesn't mater if she accepts it because it hurts so bad either way. She feel like she can hardly breathe like her heart is being stabbed.

"We're going in!" Jace calls as Clary starts running. Alec is quick to run after the other two while Isabelle stays back to make sure the mundane and Emberlee are okay.

"No one's in there, no one's here." She tells them and they they can't understand how she knows that. Her voice is as soft as a feather but it's broken and full of grief. They wait awhile, only a moment really, as she tries to calm down and until Isabelle speaks up.

"How can you be sure?" Isabelle asks her and she doesn't want to argue right now so she just pulls away from Simon more.

"Come on then." She sounds almost defeated as she turns to walk over into the club, the other two closely follow her with tears still falling from her eyes. There's no urgency in her stride because there's nothing waiting for them in there expect heartbreak. She needs to find her mother now and get her memories back, that's what she needs to do.

The air is cold in the club, an empty feeling around them as she walks into the club seeing her sister looking distraught with Alec and Jace. "No, she was just trying to help us!" Clary she tells Jace loudly, sounding heart broken and guilty, feeling like all this is her fault. Emma although accepting and grieving can not handle seeing her sister like this, she's quick to speak up as she stops by her sister.

"Clary-" The white blonde starts, her own voice breaking a little but Clary is to heartbroken, needs to vent and yell so isn't having any of it. She looks around the group before her eyes settle between Emma and Jace.

"And now she's gone! She was like our older sister and now gone because of us!" She rushes out, feeling guilt consume her and those words hit her harshly, taking a step back, flash of pure hurt on her soft face. Emma doesn't know what to say, too many words in her mind to think that clearly. Simon heart clenches seeing Emma like this. The hurt look on the younger girl's face softens a little but the hurt look in her eyes stay even when she tells herself that Clary doesn't mean it, that it's the heat of the moment and the emotion.

"I'm so sorry." Simon speaks up looking between the two sisters as he stands closely next to Emma. Emma looks paler than usually which hard, her lashes are wet and Clary looks so heart broken but she can see Emma also looks really hurt. The sister's need each other now and Clary looks at her for just a moment before stepping forward, shaking her head and wrapping her arms around her little sister. Both sister's start to calm and the drops of tears that fall they'll turn into sparks of fire.

She feels scattered, guilty and hurt as she holds onto her older sister as if her life depends on it. After a moment she reluctantly pulls back, her arms still loose around her sister. "It's not safe here." Alec suddenly speaks up, drawing attention to him. "We have to go back to the Institute right now." He tells them and Clary shots a look at him.

"So what now?" She spits out. "Valentine has my mom and Dot, we can't just give up." Clary argues, fire in her eyes as she looks to the tall raven haired male.

"But what about our memories? They can't just be gone." Emma speaks up, shaking her head, her voice urgent and desperate look in her eyes. Memories may be able calm out her mind, bring peace of the tragedies and clarity to the confusion. She needs this. Jace tilts his head, crossing his arms over his chest.

"There is another option-" Jace starts.

"Don't even!" Alec quickly barks, cutting off his adopted brother, knowing exactly where he was going to go with that.

"Absolutely not!" Isabelle speaks sharply at the same time Alec spoke. It's a bad idea.

"I am not afraid of the silent brothers." Jace argues, straightening up, puffing out his chest as if he looks stronger it'll make it seem less dangerous and they'll let them go see them. The name 'Silent brothers' rings a bell in the blue eyed girl's head. The name is foreign but familiar, she knows it, heard and have written it but she's unsure if what she can manage to remember is correct. Emma face pales slightly more but again she needs it, she needs her memories.

Clary looks between the group seeing all the reactions. "Who are the silent brothers?" The red head demands wanting to know how they can help them and what the catch would be, since it's obvious from the look of everyone there is a catch.

Thanks for reading! I feel this chapter may seem a little out of place as i came across a little weird in my eyes, sorry. Please let me know what you think! I'm so excited to write the silent brother because Emma's story is a little different because of her extra memories.

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